# If I die young #
If I Die Young.
Bury me in satin Lay me down on a bed of roses.
Sink me in the river At dawn.
Then send me away with the words of a love song...

I watched as my best friends coffin was lowered into the ground. People all around me were sobbing and wailing. They whispered prayers and clutched each other. I didn't cry.
The sun was shining so beautifully. The clouds were like blobs of white candy floss and were almost transparent against the blue infinite sky. But in my heart everything was grey and stormy. How could anything be beautiful anymore? How could the sun still shine even though my light had been snuffed out?
But...that was so like Tohru. Even though she suffered so much...she was always smiling. She always saw the bright side of everything. Even now...I'm sure she would be so happy so many people turned up to her funeral...

Yuki Sohma was standing on the outskirts of the group. He was crying openly not caring what anyone thought. The look on his face...was tragic. Like he wanted to throw myself into the hole with her...
But I didn't cry.

The wake was the worst part. It was horrible seeing the photos of her. Horrible thinking back to those good times we shared. Because we wouldn't have them again. I saw Kyo Sohma standing at the door, not looking at anything. He just stood there looking into space. Kyo was suffering to. No doubt he wished he could go home to grieve in private. To sit in silence and think. But like me...he owed it to Tohru to turn up. It was the only thing we could do. But I still didn't cry.
Arisa was standing staring at a picture of us three together. She didn't try to stop the tears streaming down her face. It was strange. I rarely saw her cry. Arisa had nothing left. Kyoto was gone. And now Tohru was to. I had a family who loved me. A happy place where I could get a warm meal when I came home from school. But Arisa had only her dad. And he was so useless he might as well be gone. Arisa and I loved Tohru so much. She was the thing that made our lives bright. And now she was gone.
But still I didn't cry.

I somehow made it home. I was drained. I didn't fully understand that Tohru wasn't coming back. It seemed impossible that my friend was gone forever. I went over to my dresser. Inside I found a card Tohru had made for my birthday last year. I read the little note that she'd wrote on the inside.

Dear Hana Happy Birthday! I'm so sorry I couldn't buy you a card but I had no money...
I hope you have a wonderful day! I know I haven't been spending much time with you but I've been so busy! I am so grateful that someone as amazing as you would want to be friends with someone like me! I love you so much! You and Arisa are so kind to me...I really love you both! I have been so lucky to have met so many wonderful people in my life! Mom...Arisa...you...the Sohmas...I am so glad I met you all! Anyway I hope you have a great day! Happy Birthday!

Love Tohru xxxx

I didn't realize I was crying till I saw the drops falling onto the card. I am the one who was blessed. Everyday with Tohru was so special. She was such a fun, happy person you couldn't help but love her. But now shes gone...
But maybe shes happy. With Kyoto and her father. She deserves to be with them. She deserves peace. I don't think I'll ever fully let go of Tohru. I'll never get over the grief. But...I'll try to keep smiling...for Tohru. I'll try to be happy...for Tohru. Its the least I could do.
But for now...I just want to cry.

A penny for my thoughts No I'll sell them for a dollar There worth so much more After I'm a goner.
Maybe then you'll hear the words I've been singing.
Funny how your dead When people start listening...

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Well...that was jolly! I have wanted to write a tragedy for a while...
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