Sometimes It's Easier To Lie

Disclaimer:
As always, I own nothing!

Rating:
T (just 'cause I'm paranoid and nobody ever knows where I'm going once I start a story...not even I know...lol)

Genre:
Romance/Angst

Pairing:
Coulsye

Lyrics Used:
Cassadee Pope "I Wish I Could Break Your Heart"

Author's Note:
This story is for a friend of mine that wanted a musical-style Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. fic. I hope it's not too OOC...Please don't hate me...Read and Review?...Pretty please?


I Wish I Could Break Your Heart


Well, the truth is that I never ever wanna hurt you, baby | But, it'd be nice to know that I could | Be strong enough to pull you under | Throw you back a little thunder | Even though, I never would | Oh, I wish I could break | I wish I could break your heart


The bus was unusually quiet. It had been one hell of a roller-coaster of a day; between learning of Skye's relationship with their suspect, Miles Lydon, and Chan...The whole mess had taken a hell of a lot out of every member of their little rebel alliance. Which was quite possibly why not all was calm on the bus, that night. Skye tossed and turned in her bunk-sleep eluding her. Her actions and the subsequent consequences weighed heavily on her mind. She couldn't get the look on AC's face and in his eyes when he confronted her about her actions and secrecy. She knew he was trying to put up a cold, impassive front. But, she saw right through it when she saw the pain shining in his eyes. There had been numerous times in her life when she hadn't been happy with herself or something she'd done. But, this was the first time she had ever truly hated herself. She despised herself for causing the man who had unknowingly stolen her heart, so much pain.

Aw, hell...She thought to herself, resigning herself to the fact that there would be no sleeping, tonight. Throwing the blankets off herself, she made her way to the bar in search of something highly alcoholic. Arriving at the bar, she had her hand on a bottle of tequila just as the sound of music caught her attention. Curiosity won out, in the end, as she followed the sound all the way to Coulson's door. What the hell? She wondered as she silently stepped closer to the door to get a better listen. Peering through the crack in the door, Skye saw that Coulson had his back to the door, allowing her to watch him strumming away on an acoustic guitar. Since when does Coulson play guitar? Skye silently wondered. Though, those thoughts soon went out the window once Coulson began singing.

"I wish I could break your heart | I wish I could bring you down | Just for a second | Teach you a lesson | About bein' alone in the dark | I wish I could make you cry | So hard you can barely breathe | Maybe, you just might know what it feels like | Mmm to be me"

Skye couldn't believe what she was hearing. She didn't want to think that those lyrics could be about her. There was no way in hell AC even felt the same way about her as she did about him. So, that meant he couldn't possibly feel the things described in the lyrics about her. But, the timing did line up. But, then again...How long has AC been hiding his musical prowess from us? I mean, for all I know, he wrote this song years ago...It could be about anyone...She reasoned with herself.

"Well, the truth is that I never ever wanna hurt you, baby | But, it'd be nice to know that I could | Be strong enough to pull you under | Throw you back a little thunder | Even though I never would | Oh, I wish I could break | I wish I could break your heart"

That chorus stabbed right through Skye like a knife. She hated seeing Coulson feeling that way. She hated even more knowing that she had at least contributed to those feelings. But, she froze in her tracks when she heard the next verse.

"I wish I could crush your dreams | I wish I could turn back time | Girl, I'd lead you on | Light the fuse | Drop the bomb | Just so I'd be the first to leave"

It became painfully obvious that she couldn't deny that the song wasn't about her once Skye heard those lyrics. She couldn't believe she had made AC feel like he'd been lead on. God knows she would never intentionally hurt him. Hearing those words from him, Skye had to fight with everything she had to silence the sobs trying to break free from her lips. But, she still couldn't stop the tears stealing away from her eyes, rolling silently down her cheeks.

"Well, the truth is that I never ever wanna hurt you, baby | But, it'd be nice to know that I could | Be strong enough to pull you under | Throw you back a little thunder | Even though I never would | Oh, I wish I could break | I wish I could break your heart"

Skye was so torn. Part of her wanted to run into the office, throw her arms around Phil and beg his forgiveness. But, the more rational part of her told that part that she had already apologized a thousand times over. Words, alone, wouldn't be enough to repair the damage she'd done. It would take time. She would just have to do whatever it took-as long as it took-to regain Phil's trust; along with the trust of the rest of the team. Plus, interrupting him now would reveal the fact that she'd been eavesdropping: an act which could only harm her efforts to regain the man's trust. Realizing that, Skye considered turning back and going back to her bunk and doing whatever it took to block out the surprisingly talented melodies flowing from Coulson's office. But, she was already through the looking glass, anyway. And, she just had to see where Phil was going with this. Although, deep down, she already knew.

"I wish I could break your heart | I wish I could make you cry | I wish I could turn back time"

Hearing those words, all Skye could think about was the irony. How Phil had actually broken her heart. How he had made her cry. Though, not in the way that he meant in the words of the song. Still, he had managed the desired results.

"Well, the truth is that I never ever wanna hurt you, baby | But, it'd be nice to know that I could | Be strong enough to pull you under | Throw you back a little thunder | Even though I never would | Oh, I wish I could break | I wish I could break your heart

I wish I could break your heart | I wish I could break your heart"

As the song came to an end and Phil had stopped singing and the music stopped, Skye was left with a moral dilemma. She knew that eavesdropping wouldn't do her any favors with the stoic agent. But, perhaps being honest about the act might earn her at least a few redemption points. That bold honesty had to count for something, right? Drawing a deep breath, Skye told herself she would do it. She would make her presence known and come clean. But, just as she set that decision in her mind, her subconscious decided to screw her over by reminding her of the look in Phil's eyes when he had interrogated her in his office. Damn it! Skye cursed herself before returning to her bunk like a coward. You're so pathetic, Skye! She chastised herself. Watching AC from the doorway, had given her and idea, though.

Maybe all she needed to do was to vent all of her pent-up emotions. Maybe letting it all out would finally allow her to put this whole mess behind her and move forward with her plans to regain her team's trust. Hell, it couldn't hurt, could it? Besides, what do I have to lose? She reasoned with herself as she pulled out her own hidden guitar and stole away to her favorite hiding place. The only place on the entire bus she knew she could get any semblance of privacy.