The next couple days of mine were spent at La Push. When the boys were doing pack stuff, I'd go hang out with Emily and help her make muffins. Then when the boys came to eat, Jacob would take me to the beach where we would talk and just enjoy each others company. I noticed that he was more Jake like when it was just him and I. And the moment we were around the others, his whole demeanor would change. He would become cold and guarded. He would become Jacob.
The time spent with Jacob was nice, but spending time with Emily was even better. Between the two of us, we never ran out of things to talk about.
Today's topic was the pack.
"You know, the boys missed you quite a bit after you left." Emily commented as she took a sip of her tea.
I glanced up from my book to look at her. Her tone was casual, but her eyes told a different story. She tried to keep an impassive look on her marred face, but she just couldn't pull it off.
"I can imagine by all the phone calls I never got." I replied in the same tone.
Emily sighed, "Bella, those boys care a great deal about you and you know it. They thought you hated them since they were the ones to push you to get into a relationship with Jacob. And Bella, it goes both ways. You never called us either." Emily reminded me softly, not looking up from her cross word. Food was all cooked so we had nothing else to do.
"I didn't want Jacob to be around when I called." I lied. The truth was, I wanted them to reach out to me. Just to be reassured that they still cared about me.
"Bella that's the most lamest excuse I've ever heard. Jacob is not around every one of those boys every second of the day." She practically snapped. My eyebrows raised at her sudden burst of anger. Emily was always kind and soft spoken, I had never heard her raise her voice before.
Emily blushed slightly in embarrassment at her outburst. "Sorry Bella, I didn't mean to speak that way to you." She amended sincerely.
"It's okay Em. You're right. I just was waiting for something, anything, that would tell me they still loved me." I admitted softly, not meeting her eyes.
I felt a small hand cover my own and I looked up. "Bella, you should never doubt the love the pack holds for you. They were apprehensive at first when you came into the picture after the-erm- Cullens' left, but they saw that Jacob cared deeply for you, so over time they did too. That's why bringing Chad's pack over has a chance of working. They both can connect to on a personal level, you." Emily explained with a small smile.
She was right. I already knew that though. I had been the packs little sister. The little human sister they would constantly tease because of her pale skin and clumsiness. They would always put me in situations that left me and Jacob alone, just to mess with me. By that time, the idea of letting someone in my heart again, hadn't seemed so bad. The boys would hang out with me even when Jacob wasn't around. Couple times they even showed up at Charlie's, looking for their favorite paleface.
At the time, it was quite clear that Jacob liked having the guys' approval. He liked to see us interacting like family. It brought a rare sparkle in his eyes.
The pounding of several footsteps coming up the porch brought me from my thoughts.
"Bella! Can you come outside?" Seth called, poking his head into the small cabin house.
I glanced at Emily for an explaination, but she only shrugged. I pushed away from the table and followed Seth outside where Jacob and Chad were toe to toe yelling at each other. Their bodies were visibly shaking, signaling they were close to phasing.
I rolled my eyes and sighed. "What happened?"
"Chad wanted to switch packs for couple hours so he could know our skills better and Jacob objected and got all pissy." Quil chimed in with his own roll of the eyes.
I shook my head and stalked over to the angry duo and wedged myself in between them. I put one hand on each of their chest and shoved. But of course got no where.
"Bella move before you get hurt." Jacob commanded with a harsh growl as he glared over at Chad who glared right back.
"Leave her alone Jacob. You know good and damn well neither of us would lose control with her so close." Chad growled.
"You know what-" Jacob started to yell before I cut him off.
"Enough!" I screamed. I shoved Chad away from Jacob and stood in between them. "You two better knock this crap off right now! You guys need to be united! What are you going to do if you're put into a situation where the packs have to work together and neither of them know how the different leadership types work? If you don't let Chad take your boys and you take his boys, none of them are going to know what to do when something comes up. Exposing both packs to both ways of leadership could help all of you all get a better perspective of how this will work. So stop your fighting and discuss this like the adults you are, not like the immature children you both love to act like." I seethed with a stern tone of voice, surprising them both. They both were acting like children over this! Why couldn't Jacob calmly discuss this? I understand they are alphas, which means they don't like taking orders and blah blah blah, but they are still human who can make rational decisions.
Everything was silent for a few beats until the quiet was interrupted with a few cheers and whistles.
"Damn." Someone muttered.
Chad sighed and pulled me into a hug, mumbling a softly sorry into my hair. He was about to say something when I was ripped from his grasp and pulled into a different hard chest.
I looked up and saw Jacob glaring harder than ever at Chad, a possessive gleam in his eyes. I pushed him away from me and looked at him angrily.
"Don't go all possessive on me damnit. If you don't want me being hugged by him then you can say so in a polite manner. Not just jerking me away from him like that like a damn caveman!" I snapped, pointing my finger at him.
Anger flashed in his eyes before that damn coldness washed in and he snorted. "I'll do whatever the hell I want Bella." He grounded out before stalking off.
I sighed heavily and ran a hand through my wavy locks. What am I going to do with him? Better yet, how are we going to fix things in just barely a week? I mean I didn't want to fight with him, but I wasn't going to put up with this. I understand the whole werewolf 'mine' thing, but he wasn't like this before so why should it be now?
Was I making mistake thinking we could fix things? Did I make a mistake by coming back here?
"Go after him." I heard Seth whisper over the silence that had came over everybody.
I nodded and jogged off into the direction Jacob had gone.
Once I had found my way to the beach, I saw Jacob sitting in the sand with his knees bent up and his arms crossed over his kneecaps.
I walked over and sat next to him, laying my head on his bare shoulder. I didn't say anything, just listened to the sound of the waves crashing against the cliffs in the distance. It was pretty peaceful. Your thoughts kinda wander to whatever and you can relax without even thinking about it. Sitting out here made things seem okay.
Without notice, Jacob pulled me into his lap and wrapped his arms tightly around me. "I'm sorry." He mumbled as he kissed my head. "You're leaving in a week and I'm being a shit head." He sighed, cupping my face in his hands and gently kissing my lips.
We locked gazes and his eyes swirled with sorrow and guilt and love. His thumbs stroked my cheeks gently and I closed my eyes under his touch.
What was I going to do with him?