So Much for My Happy Ending


A/N I know it's been a while but if you're still there please R&R. This will contain song quotes from Let Her Go by Passenger! Let me know what you think!

Cammie POV:

"Well, You only need the light when it's burning low,
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow,
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home.
Only know you love her when you let her go,
And you let her go

I look down at my dress and resist the urge to cry.

"Cam what's wrong?" Bex asked and I look up at her with a smile.

"Don't worry Bex, happy tears." It's finally my wedding. FINALLY! It's been two years since that fateful night Riley and I told each other our secrets and I'll admit it, it's not always easy to have a spy boyfriend.

I swear I can't get away with anything!

But we love each other and we are getting through this together. Plus Bex and I have been working on our relationship too.

**Flash Back**

Knock. Knock.

"Coming!" I shout from my office, and I'm curious to see who's at the door. Everyone usually just lets them self in. The number of times Macey and Preston… or worse Liz and Jonas have walked in on Riley and me making out are uncountable. But we love them.

I open up the door and am completely shocked at the sight before me. Then I sigh heavily.

"What do you want?" I snap and resist the urge to add bitch at the end. And guess what? She bursts into tears.

Yes Bex Baxter burst into tears on my front porch. I almost start banging my head against the wall wondering why she and Zach can't leave me alone. 'Manners Cammie.' I remind myself and I turn back to her.

"Would you like to come in?" She nods and starts to sob harder. She stumbles into my room and falls onto my couch. "What's wrong Bit- I mean Bex?"

"I-I he… and- then… EMILY!" I stood there looking at her shocked and just shook my head.

"I'll get you a blanket. Riley is taking some newbies on a training mission so it will just be us tonight. We can work on some much needed relationship problems." Ha 'relationship problems' understatement of the century.

All Bex does is sniffle and nod. It's kinda starting to freak me out. I head over to the linen closet and grab a warm blanket before going over to the kitchen and making us both some coffee. With the coffee and blanket in hand I head back over to Bex.

After we are all settled I turn to question her. "So Bex what happened?" my calm façade breaks a little. "I found out Zach cheated on me a year ago. That was hard to take. But it wasn't some blond bimbo he cheated on me with… no it was you. How could you do that to me? How? Why didn't you come clean… or apologize? You just left. Never said anything about it and just like that YOU, not me, chose to tear our friendship apart." Bex's eyes fill with tears again but I could care less. She hurt me a lot and she needs to know how much.

"I-I was in love. He told me he would tell you. That he wanted to do it in his own time an-and I believed him!" She started to sob again "But one-one month turned to two and two to three and three to four!" You've gotta be kidding me. They cheated on me for four months. "I was so-so star struck that I couldn't stop it!" She stops her story and gasps for air. "Then you found out and I couldn't face you. I was ashamed but happy. We could finally be together. I just didn't realize how much I was losing in the process." She wipes her face hurriedly but plows on with the story. "We were in love! I was a teenager and I thought he loved me! I-I thought he would propose! But he needed to meet my family first! So we headed to England," she laughs darkly "bloody good decision that was. We met all my family Mum, Dad, Aunt Trish, Uncle Ron, and cousin Emily. He hit it off with them all. Me and Em are so close I found us spending every minute with her until it was time to leave." She pauses again "You know Zachary had a private conversation with not just my dad but with Uncle Ron too? Both of them. So we came back and I expected him to propose. But we we're both so busy with missions, our schedules just weren't matching up. So today I decided to surprise him. We were both supposed to be working and I decided to make him a nice dinner so we could just sit back and talk. You wouldn't believe who I ran into at the store." Bex laughs humorlessly again. "Emily and Zach laughing and having a good time. Then he leaned down and kissed her. Straight on the mouth." Bex stops and looks up at me in the eyes. "My cousin, who I didn't even know was in the US, my boyfriend, who I thought was working, were kissing each other in public? Why?"

I just shake my head. "I don't know Bex. I expect for the same reason when I walked into my house I found my boyfriend and my best friend-no sister, making out on the couch."

"Love?" Bex whispers weakly and I shake my head again.

"No Bex, games."

**Present time**

"I'm glad you're here." I tell Bex with a smile.

"Like I would miss my best friend's wedding!" Bex says back "Now come on we got to get to that isle. Riley's waiting.

Zach's POV

"…Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies…"

Why? I ask myself again. I was in love. Cammie was… she was the one. "Another whisky." I tell the bar tender. Now she's getting married with that… Riley. God his name sucks. And his hair. And his face. I don't know what Cammie sees in him.

We were perfect. We had it all… and then we didn't. It happened so fast. As I look down at the empty whisky glasses surrounding me I got to wonder why I ever let her go. I just don't understand because I thought for sure one say Cammie would be Mrs. Zachary Goode. But no instead she is going to be Mrs. Riley Demont. Who would want that name? Not Cammie. She wants my name. Or she did.

Then Bex came along. She was it. Nothing else mattered. It was like we were teenagers again and I thought I was finally ready to settle down. So was she. I had bought the ring. The one I carry in my pocket everywhere I go now. I just needed to meet the family. So we ran off to see them. I cornered her dad the minute I could and I asked for his blessing. He said yes.

But it wasn't the right time. I needed to wait. To charm my way into the family before actually becoming a part of it. And charm I did. Too well.

Emily was perfect. She was a mellower version of Bex and like a little sister to Bex. That made her a little sister to me. Until we kissed.

She was the perfect blend between Cammie and Bex. I had found my soul mate. So I begged her to come back to the states with us. She said yes. I told her that me and Bex weren't in a real relationship. Bex's parents had been pressuring her to get married for a while now so it wasn't hard to convince Emily I was just there to get Bex's parents off her back.

To Emily it made perfect sense. It had been a while since Bex visited and Bex and her parents never did get along real well. So she said yes and Bex didn't even notice. I told Bex I was working more hours when I was actually spending time to get to know Emily. I was ready to propose to Emily. I had it all planned out and then- Bex saw us. She asked Emily "why" with tears streaming down her face and I was mortified.

Emily didn't know what to say and Bex ran away. At the time I didn't know where. Then I found out it was to Cammie's. My other Ex. Wow. Emily questioned me until she found out the truth and when she did she left me. She tried contacting Bex to no avail and then she finally gave up and moved back to England. I begged her not to go. I showed her the ring and told her my plans but it didn't matter.

Later I found out Emily wasn't so innocent. She was cheating on me with a guy named Alex.

"…But, You only need the light when it's burning low,
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow,
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home.
Only know you love her when you let her go

Now I ask myself why I even liked Emily. And now I know it was because she was like Cammie. My first love. My only love.

I-I have to stop the wedding! Drunkenly I tumble out of my chair and pull out my keys. "Sir… Sir I must recommend getting a cab. I can call them if you'd like?" The bar tender tells me. I stare at his name tag for a second. C-A-D… uh what's that letter. You know what screw it.

"But she needs me." I mumble.

"She needs you safe so let me call a cab."

"Okay" I mumble sitting back down on my stool and nodding off all while being tortured by my memories.

However many minutes later a cab pulls up and I get in shoving bills into the drivers hands as I go. "Take meee to her." I slur and the driver shakes his head.

"I take care of Cade's drunkies a lot but you're a new one so I don't know where you live. Come on buddy where's your home?"

"Where she is." I slur again.

"Right buddy, now I need an address."

"Here." I spit out as I take a copy of Cammie's wedding invitation out of my pocket. Right next to my ring. At one time meant for Bex, another time meant for Emily, and now I realize it was Cammie's all along. Right next to my heart.

Why did I even stray in the first place?

We arrive at a hotel and beach. I stare out onto the sand and see a big white tent full of people. And flowers! People and flowers equals a wedding! I fell out of the car and ran across the parking lot.

"Wait! WAAAIT!" I shout as I run to the tent. She has to wait. She has to wait. I trip once and hear murmurs coming from the tent. I pick myself off the ground and start running towards them again. "Don't. Don't. Don't. Don't." I chant as I run. As soon as I enter the tent I hear gasps and whispers.

"Zach?" I hear Bex clearly say and I wince. Why did they have to become friends again? I look over the tent trying to find Cammie. Joe. Mrs. Morga- I mean Mrs. Solomon. Abby. Tina Walters.

"Oh no he did not just crash the wedding I have been planning for the past three years! I see no invitation! Why the hell is he here?!" I here Macey shout. Where's Cammie? I don't see Cammie. There's the director…

"Uh oh." I hear Liz mutter and I follow her stare to see an absolutely radiant Cammie Morgan. She is wearing a one shoulder sleeved white gown that winds down her body like flowing water, I see a blue chocker on her neck, a silver braclet on her wrist that Mrs. Solomon has worn many times before that and an old ring on her finger. Probably from Riley, he wouldn't have the decency to get her something new.

"Zachary? Why are you at my wedding?" Cammie's sweet voice washes over me and I resist the urge to close my eyes and sigh.

"Cam I-I made the worst decision of my life! The minute I wronged you my life went down into a destructive spiral. I have cheated and been cheated on. I was wrong and there's only one person who can fix it. You-"

"No Zach," Her sharp words pierce mine. "You are the only one who can fix this destructive path you started yourself in. Not me. Not Bex. Not another girl or marriage. You had your chance and you lost it. You lost it nearly three years ago and now on the day of my wedding you want me back?" I open my mouth but she just shakes her head. "Don't say anything. You'll only embarrass yourself more."

"I'm sorry." I whisper out and she smiles sadly.

"I'm sorry too. But it's too late to apologize." I sigh and turn away. I stuff my hands into my sand and dirt cover jeans and start the walk of shame back to the parking lot. As I shuffle I turn back to the lot I hear whispers and murmurs about Cammie's crazy Ex. Hmm, I wonder who that is… oh right me.

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep

I stare up at the ceiling in my dark musty bedroom with a bottle of Jack in my hands. Good ol' Jack. He'll never leave me. Not like everyone else.

I place a hand against my chest as that familiar whole aches against me. Three girls in so little time. I sigh and curl onto my side ol' Jack pressing into me.

"Zach! Come on! Hurry I wanna play! Zaaaach!" I hear Cammie shout my name joy evident in her voice. Where is she? I wanna see her! I wanna see her face and her hair and her… well everything.

"Cammie? Cammie? Where are you?" No one responds. "Cammie? Come- come back! I missed you! I-I… Cammie!" No one answers my pleas and I start to sob.

What happened? Why am I alone?

Suddenly an angle comes to me. I see a pretty girl in with red hair and freckles in a white knee length dress. Who is she? Will she help me get Cammie back? "Angle?" I say trying to get the Angle's attention. The pretty red head laughs.

"No silly, Angelica!" I like her smile.

"Can I kiss you Angle?"

"Sure." Then as I lean in to kiss my Angle she disappears.

I gasp as I wake up, that whole in my heart pounding worse than ever.

What just happened? What a nightmare! I-I…

I shake my head, trying to clear it and get off of my bed knocking my bottle of Jack over in the process. I just need to get out of here. I quickly change out of my dirty jeans and creased shirt into something more… clean.

"…Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go…"

I walk along and try letting myself go to that little part in my mind where I don't feel anything. I don't see anything. I don't hear anything and I don't know anything.

I didn't know what I was missing in any of the girls I had until they all left.

I didn't know what I was feeling until that feeling was gone.

I didn't know I loved 'em till I let them go. And boy did I let them go.

As I'm walking I pass a brightly lit coffee shop. The look of it brought me back to the sixties. Not that I existed then but still it had that feel to it. For some reason I felt compelled to go in. As I sat down at one of the tables my eyes glided over all the waitresses. They were all in white tops and blue knee length skirts, but the way the aprons fit it just looked like one dress.

I look down at the menu that had been placed on my table and decide to order a black coffee with a bagel. Why didn't I just stay at home? I could have gotten this there!

"Excuse me are you ready to order?" What the heck? It couldn't be.

"Um, sir? Are you ready to order?" That's not possible.

"Sir? I could come back?" What? NO!

"No no! Don't come back! I mean yes come back. No I mean… I'm ready to order." I finally manage to get out as I stare up a beautiful red head, her hair tied back and cascading down her back in loose curls. She has bright green eyes, lighter than mine, and delicate freckles running over her nose.

"Oh okay."

"Umm…" I stare at her blankly. What did she want?

"Your order?" Oh that's right!

"Right, right, sorry!" She smiles with a light girlish giggle. "I'll take a black coffee and a bagel." She jots it down on her pad before looking back up at me.

"Um don't let my boss here me say this but…. Why are you here. I mean it's not that I don't want you to be here, but you could easily get this stuff at home..." She trails off and I smile.

"I don't know." I answer honestly and she smiles once again before walking away.

What the hell?

And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
Will you let her go?

I watch as my angle works and I wonder why I'm still here. But I am.

I finished my coffee hours ago but instead of leaving I ordered another and stalked my angle while she worked. "Sir, I'm sorry but the shops closing now." I glance up to see that my angle has snuck up on me once again.

"Oh okay." I lay some bills down on the table to pay for the tab and a little more before getting up. "Can I walk you home?" I say giving my angle an innocent looks.

She stares at me for a minute uncertain but then finally relents and nods. We exit the shop without a word and walk along the street in silence to all while my thought consume me.

Can I move on? Can I let Cam go? I don't have a choice! She has Riley and though I hate him I know he'll keep her safe. But it's not about her. Or him. It's about me. Can I let her go? Can I move on? I stare down at my angle as we stroll along I am tempted to think yes. Yes I can let her go. We arrive at angle's apartment complex and she turns to me.

"Um thank you but I better head in now. So bye." She says hurriedly, reaching blindly for the door.

"Okay, bye angle." I say softly. She freezes and looks at me from over her shoulder.

"That's not my name. It's Angelica… but my friends call me Angie." She adds. Again, what the hell?

"Oh. What does your boyfriend call you?" I ask. 'Smooth Zach real discreet.' She blushes bright red.

"I don't have a boyfriend." She mumbles and I couldn't help the sh*t eating grin I had on my face.


"So what's your name?" She says and I continue grin.


"And your girlfriend approves of you stalking young girls."

"No girlfriend to discourage me," I pause "And I would hardly call you a girl." Angie blushes red again.

"Well then I guess I'll see you in the coffee shop?"

"Most certainly." And with that she heads inside.

Can I let Cam go? Yes, yes I can.


'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her

And you let her go

I walk hand in hand with my Angle through the park. It's been four years and we've been married for one year. We are just starting to try for a child.

I'm scared out of my mind.

"Honey what's got you all in a fluster?" My Angle asks me.

"What if I'm not a good dad? What if they hate me?"

"They? Sweetie we are only trying for one and I'm not even pregnant yet! Then when I am you will be a brilliant father! We will be in it together dear, we'll be fine." I sigh but nod.

"Oh my gosh! Zach!" What-! I turn to see a Cammie Demont barreling towards me and she is BIG! Not to be offensive or anything but... wow.

"Sweetie stop you're going to scare them!" I hear Riley call faintly from the distance.

"I cannot believe it is YOU!"

"Sweetie the BABY!" Finally Cam slows and turns to Riley who has already caught up.

"Look I may be 8 months pregnant but I am not made of glass." She sticks her tongue out at him for good measure. "I'm sorry for my husband's behavior." She says to both of us before squealing again "But I am just so excited! So you are the Angle that has stolen little Zachy's heart! And you have a ring! Oh Zachy good choice! Hey just out of curiousity why was I not invited to the wedding? You came to ours! That's unfair! But whatever-" suddenly she stops talking and beds over. "Jesus, little one! I get it! I get it! No running while 8 months pregnant! Okay!" She gives us both a smile that turns into a wince "Sorry my little boy isn't too happy I'm tossing him around so close to our due date."

"Boy?" I finally interject.

"I think it's a girl but she's insistent." Riley says wrapping his arms around Cammie's waist.

"I'm the mother and the mother knows." Cammie says with a pout.

"Well, hi!" Angie finally interjects.

"Oh hi! I'm so sorry I'm talking so much! I blame the hormones, it always the hormones you know? Well not really but you will. I think. Anyways Hi!" Then Cammie surprised Angie by giving her a hug. "You know you're really pretty! I can see what Zach sees in you! I-"

"Thank you." Angelica says with a grin cutting Cammie off.

"You're welcome. Now I want ice crème! Come on hubby let's leave the newlyweds in peace!" Cammie says as if Riley was the one talking the whole time before dragging him off to an ice crème stand.

"Well that was…"

"Interesting." Angie finishes for me.

"Yup. You good?"

"Perfect." she says without hesitation linking her hand through mine again. "Though Zachy? Really?" She says with a laugh.

"It was a wild wild time." I answer and she throws her head back and laughs.

And yes I did let Cammie go. I let her go a long time ago.

A/N So I finished a fanfic! Yay me… yeah this is looooong over due. But I think it was a good chapter. What about you? All rights from Let Her Go go to Passenger! I don't own it! Oh and totally check out my other story… IN ANOTHER LIFE

I'm almost finished with it and then I'll edit it. It REALLY needs to be edited. Anywho thank you anyone who reviewed I LOVE you! Especially if you reviewed twice! Then I double love you! And I'll make sure to PM a thank you after you review this time. If you review… anyways ~Luv ya Sunshine