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I hated when she wouldn't let me hold her. I understood it, because I couldn't think when she was touching me either. It wasn't that I needed to constantly touch her. I just wanted to. I felt like an outsider when I wasn't allowed to. For me, it was like being isolated. I knew there was no way I would be able to get her to change her mind, so I sat on the floor in front of her and did my best to get her to see things my way.
"I know it probably won't annoy you any less, but I just wanted to say that I'm sorry."
Well, she didn't slap me. That was a plus.
"For starters, do you know why I hate him?"
"Because we used to date and because he thinks he's better than you at soccer?"
I grinned at her then. She never saw herself clearly, and apparently this time was no different.
"Yes that's part of it, but in reality, and I swear if you ever bring this up again I'll deny it, a part of me is jealous."
Yep. That tasted nasty coming out of my mouth. I did my best to digest the fat that I had actually said that out loud and watched as Katniss tried to process that this was something I felt at all. After a couple of minutes of awkward silence, she got out of the bed and sat on the floor across from me.
"Alright Mellark. If this is something I'm actually supposed to believe, tell me why."
"Oh I don't know. Let's start with the testosterone filled reasons. To be completely crude and straightforward, he kissed you first, he's the first dick you sucked. He was the first to fuck you-"
"Alright. That's enough of that. Next."
"He was the first and last person you opened yourself to in every single way."
"I call bullshit."
"Call it if you want, but you can't sit here and tell me that things between you and I wouldn't have gone a little differently, a little better, if he had never broken your heart. Because of him I have to work twice as hard. Because of him, there will always be a part of you that compares the two of us, just to make sure that I'm nothing like him and that you and I aren't headed down the same path."
That shut her up. I pretty much figured it would. It was something she had never thought of before, and while I sometimes took pleasure in winning one over on Katniss, right now was not one of those times. She looked... Something was off about the way she looked. I couldn't place an emotion on it. Suddenly she looked up at me, and I saw her features soften slightly.
"I didn't know you felt that way."
I scooted closer to her, tentatively pulling her into my arms and placing her head on my chest.
"Baby, you never asked."
I could feel the front of my shirt start to grow wet. Her crying? That was something I definitely had not expected. I held her for awhile until I could feel her calm in my arms. I felt her stir in them but that only made me hold her tighter.
"Peeta let me up. I need to say something."
I loosened my grip but didn't let her go move far. I didn't want her running away from this.
"Peeta, I'm so sorry. I never knew... I didn't even realize any of this about me; about us. Forgive me?"
I watched as she turned in my arms. She climb quickly into my lap, kissing my cheek.
"Katniss, it's a little hard to say no to you when you're on me like this."
"So is that a yes?"
I felt my zipper begin to slide down, and her hand tug slightly at the end of my t-shirt. She ran her nails up my stomach, lightly scratching as she went. To make matters worse, she began to lightly kiss and bite my neck.
"That's a yes, but I'm gonna have to stop you before things go any farther than this."
The look on her face was almost comical. She was so pissed.
"Rue saw me in the hall and demands that I bring you back to your place for breakfast. She says that the two of you have something to discuss with Annie."
She stopped at that and blushed slightly.
"She probably wants to discuss why she was in your building at 9am."
"I'm assuming she was coming to get you to tell you to meet her at home."
"If that's the case, why didn't she call? We live across campus. That's an awfully long way to come just to tell me to meet her for breakfast."
I knew Katniss was right, but I couldn't place my finger on it. I didn't understand what the missing piece was, but I'm sure that Katniss would explain it to me whenever it became important for me to know. I gave her a quick kiss on the lips and both of us hurried and stood. I watched as Katniss grabbed one of my snapbacks and hoodies, looking over at me and pouting, almost as if she was asking permission wear them. I went over and kissed her on the cheek.
"You and I both know you have a small collection of my clothes by now. You never have to ask."
At that she beamed at me and put her shoes on, officially ready to go. Before I could usher her out of the door, she suddenly turned to me.
"Just one more question love. When you ran into Rue in the hallway this morning, did she seem to be in a hurry?"
I tilted my head to the side in consideration, taking a minute to remember our interaction in the hallway this morning.
"Now that you mention, yes. I didn't really think anything of it though."
"And was she dressed, or was she a little disheveled?"
"Um.. I'd go with disheveled I guess. I'm not sure. You know that when it comes to other women I'm not too observant. I've only got eyes for you. What are you thinking? What is Detective Everdeen thinking up today?"
She didn't answer me. She just kissed me sweetly as if she knew a secret that I didn't. There was a slight pep in her step, and I wasn't exactly sure what it was about, but I trusted her, and I knew I'd find out something after breakfast.
I know it was a little short, but I hope there was a little resolution. Next time around, we'll see what Rue has to tell Katniss.
Lots of love,