Ever since we left our houses, Marley has been silently sitting on the passenger seat, looking at the window with sad eyes. I'm worried because she looks worried. Marley never looks worried. She usually happy and I'm afraid that it might be something about her grandparents.
I'm not good in situations like this. I've never stuck around long enough with a girl to go through to something like this. I look at her from time to time and I want to do something, I just don't know what the right move is. So I go with my instincts and hope it's good enough to make her forget about whatever has her so worried and distracted.
I placed my hand on top of hers, tangling my fingers with hers. This takes her attention. She looks at me and smiled. It's that sad smile again. The one that makes my stomach turn because I know there is something really wrong.
"You know you can tell me anything" I said after what seemed like a lifetime of silence. "I'm here for you" I say.
"I know Jake" she says and sigh. "I don't think I'm ready to tell you" she said. I stop at a stoplight and look at her.
"Is it about your grandparents?" he asked and she shakes her head.
"It's about me" she said and looks down at her lap. "I know I have to tell you soon but I just don't know how to" she said and her voice starts to brake.
My heart skips a beat. I don't want to see her cry. I don't want to hear her cry. I want her to be happy. I want to make her happy.
"You don't have to tell me" I said as quickly as I can. "Just forget about it and have a good time" I said and squeeze her hand. To my relief this makes her smile.
"Thank you Jake" she said and leans against my arm. "How did I get so lucky to be with someone like you" she said and I laugh. She doesn't know that I'm the one who is lucky. I never get girls like her. I'm not supposed to be this… happy.
Finally we arrive at the beach. I took her to the side where no one else goes. It's my special place. I get out of the car and start to unpack out stuff as she looks at the scenery. "Amazing, isn't it?" I said with a small smirk as I put down a giant umbrella that owned by my mother.
"Amazing doesn't begin to cover it" she giggles as she takes off her sandals and buries her feet in the hot sand. "I can't believe I've been missing this" she says and turns around to look at me and I laughed.
"I know you were going to like it" I say and shut the trunk and we start to walk closer to the water, finding a spot for us to sit.
I set everything up and plop on the towel I set up for us. Marley stands before me, looking down at me. "Where is my spot?" she asked, crossing her arms. For a moment I thought that maybe I was a little to open with us but then I saw her smirk and realize she was just playing around.
"Right here" I said and pat the space between my legs. Marley giggles and plops in front of me, leaning against my chest. She sighs contently and snuggles close to me.
"I love being with you" she said and closes her eyes.
"I love being with you too" he said and placed a kiss on the side of her neck making her giggle.
"That tickles" she giggled and this makes me smile. I love to hear her laugh. It makes me feel whole inside, like I don't need hide behind a mask. I don't know how she had this effect on me.
"Well…" I start to say and she looked back to me, her eyes looking into mine. She's waiting for me to continue but I can't. Every time I look into her eyes I get lost of them.
"Jake?" she asked, tilting her head and then she smiled again. She knows what she is doing to me.
"Just… wanted to know what do you think?" I asked. "I mean is it everything you imagine?"
Marley looked around, her eyes gazing through the sand and the deep blue water, it matches her eyes. "It's wonderful and peaceful" she sigh contently again and lays back into my arms. If I had to be honest I could spend the rest of my life here. I know it can't happen. She had to leave by the end of the summer and all of this will be just a memory but I try not think about that today. I try not to think that it's July already and that soon she will have to go back home to her mother. I can tell myself that we will keep in touch but I'd only be lying to myself. She might know about my life here but I have no idea what is her life over there. If I think about it too much, I barely know the girl who is sitting on my lap, making my heart leap out of my chest.
I know the girl who came here for the summer but I don't know the girl that she is back home and that scares me. "You know. You've never talk about home" I start to say. "or your parents…" I added.
Marley sigh. Her breath is steady, as if she was holding in a breath to calm herself. "what do you want to know?" she asked.
"Well… everything. You know everything about me but I don't know anything about you" I say and she turns. She gives me a small sad smile and placed her hand on my cheek.
"Jake, you know me more than anyone else ever knows me" she says. "I am more of myself when I am with you than I am back home" she says and a match her smile.
"I still want to know about you" I say. I still can't believe I'm the kind of guy who is saying this kind of things. I feel like a cliché of a guy from those teen romantic movies Marley likes so much. I mean I was never like this. If a girl didn't want to talk and tell me about herself before, it would have been a complete plus but not her. Not Marley. I want to know everything about Marley. Maybe it's the fact that she doesn't want to tell me that makes me anxious.
"Okay" she says and lets her hand fall to the side. "Well you know where I am from. I live with my mom. My dad left when I was very young and I have not heard about him" she starts and it makes me understand a little more about her. About us. Marley has gone through the same thing I have. Our father's left and even if everyone says they understand, they never really do but she does. She always does. "Me and my mom get along well. I call her every night to tell her I'm okay and that I miss her" she says with a small smile. I can tell that she loves her mother very much. I can see in her eyes that this is the longest she's been without her and although I don't want her to go, I don't want to see her sad either.
"Why didn't she come with you?" I asked. I know my mom would never let me go alone for a whole summer to my grandparents' house. Mostly because she doesn't trust me but also because I'm her entertainment even if she doesn't want to admit it.
"Believe me. She wanted to but I didn't let her. She has a job and she can't drop everything" she says and I have the feeling that it's not the end of it but I don't push it. I can see that she is getting sad and this is not what I wanted for today.
"oh" I say. I wait a couple of minutes, trying to decide what to do before I press a kiss on her cheek. This makes her smile. "Come on. Let's go into the water" I say as I jump to my feet and pulled her up with me.
I start stripping away my shirt and my jeans, to leave me with my swim trunks. A smirk crosses my lips as I catch her staring at my chest. "Like what you see?" I asked and she blushes and looks away. I laugh out loud and wrap my arms around you. "Don't worry. All of this is all yours" I whisper into her ear and makes her squeak. I laugh again and step back, letting her take off her own clothes. When she does, it's my turn to stair. I knew she had a great body but I guess I never really thought about it.
"Like what you see?" she asked with a smirk and I smile.
"Very much" I say wiggling my eyebrow. I take her hand and guide her to the shore.
"I should warn you. I don't swim" she said, panic showing in her voice.
"Kind of figure. Don't worry. We won't go that far" I promise her.
We spend the day on the shallow part of the beach. We laughed, jumped, swam and splashed all day. By the time we came out again the sun was setting and it was time to go home. I walk her to her porch, my hand never leaving hers as we stop in front of the door. "Today was an amazing day. Thank you Jake" she said and throws herself in my arms. I let out a small chuckle and hug her tightly. "Today will be my happy place. When things are bad and I don't see a light I will think of this day and be happy again. You've made me so happy Jake that I don't know how I'm ever going to thank you" she says. I hear her voice breaking a bit and my stomach start to turn. Once again I feel like something is wrong and she isn't telling me.
"Marley…" I start to say but she squeezes me tighter.
"Thank you Jake" she whispers and leans back. "You're an amazing boy and I'm lucky to have you" she says and kisses my lips. I'm in another world right now. This feels more intense than I've ever felt before. I might love this girl. I never want to let her go because I'm afraid that I will never feel this way again. Finally she ends the kiss and looks into my eyes. She gives me one last smile before she goes inside. I stand there for a couple of minutes, thinking about her words. It scares me that she isn't telling me whatever she is hiding. I'm afraid it's something bad and that there is nothing I can do to help. I feel powerless.
With a sigh, I let my thoughts go to rest and go into my own house. For now I will just have to wait.