4th of July- Here Without You

Summary: Willow thinks back on what she's done in the past year while in training with Giles in England.


It felt like forever since Willow had watched her lover's body fall to the ground with a bullet wound in the chest. It seemed as though it was another life time that Willow had cried for Tara's death and begged Osiris to bring her back to her. But Willow knew the truth. Less than a year had passed since Tara's death. Not even two months, though the two month mark was coming up soon.

Closing her green eyes, Willow thought about the year before when she held Tara as the fireworks filled the sky above them. She remembered kissing the blonde with so much passion as the other members of the Scooby gang stared at the brightly lit sky in awe. Willow could feel the emptiness inside her make it's presence known as she realized that she would never hold Tara again, never kiss those beautiful lips.

A hundred days have made me older

Since the last time that I've saw your pretty face

A thousand lies have made me colder

And I don't think I can look at this the same

So much had changed for Willow since Tara's death. The light and life inside of her had died with Tara and the hero that she once was had disappeared behind the villain that was waiting for a chance to be released. Willow had become the monster Tara had feared she would. She gave herself over to the darkness inside of herself and killed not just one person, but two. She nearly took Giles' life in the process and wanted to change Dawn back into her original form. Willow had become the one villain that Buffy couldn't defeat.

But all the miles that separate

Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

"I miss you, Baby," Willow whispered as she stared up at the sky. "I dream about you some times. I dream that you're here with me, holding me and telling me it was all just a terrible nightmare."

I'm here with out you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you Baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight

It's only you and me

The miles just keep rolling

As the people leave their way to say hello

I've heard this life was overrated

But I hope that it gets better as it goes

Willow frowned into the sky as she remembered how many times she wanted to die. She had secretly hoped that Giles was bringing her here to end her existence, to end the pain that ate away at her.

I'm here with out you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you Baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, Girl

It's only you and me

Every thing I know

And any where I go

It gets hard but it won't take away my love

Sighing softly Willow lifted her head to the sky once more and closed her eyes. "I love you, Baby. I love you more than anything. Because I love you, I'll live for you. I'll live for us. I'll fix my mistakes and make up for the things I've done." Willow whispered.

And when the last one falls

When it's all said and done

It's get hard but it won't take away my love

Willow knew she would have to face her friends again in the future. She knew she'd have to face another battle against the forces of darkness, but she dreaded the thought of seeing the hatred and anger in her friend's eyes.

I'm here with out you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you Baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, Girl

It's only you and me


A/N: Thank you Gimpy72 for helping me with this.