3rd chapter! Thank you so much for the positive feedback on this story, with every single review I have gotten, it has made me want to post this chapter faster for ya'll. I don't own anything besides the story line. Happy reading!

"Bella don't do it!" I screamed running to my best friend as she was about to swallow a hand full of pills. I ran as fast as I could, but I wasn't going anywhere. I looked up at the brunette to see that her face and whole body had changed. It was still Bella, but this girl standing in front of me had bags under her eyes, scars running along her arms and legs. The girl looked worn and tired. It wasn't the Bella that I saw everyday. The beautiful little bubbly girl I looked forward to seeing every day. This girl was how Bella portrayed herself.

I kept running, willing my legs to go as fast as they could. Bella lifts up her hand, swallowing the pills and slowly closes her eyes.

"No Bella!" it was too late, she had passed out on the floor.

I sat up quickly and looked at the clock 7:30 A.M. I got out of bed, took a quick shower and put on the first thing I saw. I didn't care about how I looked, I was just trying to forget the recurring nightmare that has happened for the 2nd day in a row.

Today was Bella's funeral. It would be the last time anyone would see her. I haven't found the courage to go to school since her death. I know if I did, I would end up hurting someone. That someone would probably be my idiotic pathetic excuse of a cousin. When I get my hands on that bastard he'll never see the sunlight again.

"Son, it's time to go." My father called from downstairs. I walk slowly into the living room. My dad's eyes were red and puffy. He has cried every night since her death too. It hurt both of us to think of her. She was such a huge part of both of our lives. I pat my dads back and walk to the car getting in the passenger's seat. He starts the car and begins driving to the only church in forks.

We finally arrive and it feels like the whole town is here. That asshole better not be here, I thought as I search the crowd. I find Charlie standing by a tree and walk over to him.

"Charlie?" I stand next to him and he looks up , pulling me into a hug. He starts crying.

"She was my everything Emmett. How didn't I know what was going on? I was her father. I was supposed to protect her and I failed." He sobbed.

"Charlie, you didn't know, it's not your fault old man. Bella's in a better place now, she's doesn't have to deal with the pain anymore." I said lightly. He smiled a little, thanked me and we headed towards the church.

They brought in Bella's casket and the priest said a few kind words about Bella. I was speaking today. I got up and made my way up to the front of Bella's casket.

"Good morning everyone. Most of you know me as Emmett McCarthy, captain of the football team, Emmy bear, but to the swans I'm known as Emmett Swan, and to the McCarthy's she's known as Bella McCarthy. What I'm trying to say is Bella and I are family. Not blood related, but chosen family. Our Fathers went to high school together and have been best friends ever since. September 11th 1992, I was born, and then 2 days later Bella was. We have been siblings since that day. December 18th 2000 both our mothers died in a car crash. Bella was my rock during this time, and I was hers, we depended on each other for everything. She had everything going for her, she was smart, beautiful kind and always put everyone before herself. my little sister was taken from me two days ago. She was my everything, and I will never forget her. I don't think this town will ever forget her either." I finished up and saw some people crying again. I put my hand to my face and realized I was crying also. I ran out of the church, I couldn't do this. I can't live without her.

I ran and ran until I got to a place where nobody has been in years, besides me of course. My mother's grave. I collapsed on the ground and cried. I cried for the loss of Bella, I cried for the loss of my mother. I just cried. I finally ran out of tears and sat up. I come to my moms grave almost everyday. The only other person that knew that was Bells because she would come with me.

"mom, you probably already know that Bella is gone. I just wish I walked through that door a little earlier, I wish that I didn't blow her off, because she would still be there. it's all my fault mom. I miss you too mom. I still have your necklace, you know the one you told me to give Bella when I was 7. I was going to give it to her for her 18th birthday in 2 days, but now? I just don't know mom. To be honest this has been the worst birthday ever." I sat there talking to my mom for hours. When the sky was dark I headed home.

I walk in my house to see Charlie and my father with a cake. their eyes are still red and I guarantee mine are as well.

"happy birthday Emmett." they say softly and hand me the cake along with a gift.

"you know you guys didn't have to get me anything." I look down embarrassed.

"We didn't. We found it in Bella's room, with a note saying it was for your birthday." Charlie said brokenly. I open it to find a bracelet that said BM ES. I smiled to myself. She always did our initials. One time I asked her about it and she said it was to signify that we will always be family no matter what. I smiled to myself.

"thanks guys." I hug both of them and run up to my room. I lay in my bed and slowly fall asleep.

okay so not my best chapter but...I hope you enjoyed it, more chapters to come, please review and tell me what y'all think, hopefully if y'all review the next chapter will be up by Friday! Thank you for all the support for this story!