Author has written 39 stories for Harry Potter, Warcraft, Star Wars, Mass Effect, Star Wars, Avatar: Last Airbender, Dishonored, Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney, Legend of Korra, and Five Nights at Freddy´s.
"She writes fanfic made of depression, lightsabers, and general bad-ass-ness"
-A glowing review from a friend.
I have really excellent news!! Although I'm not up to writing yet, I am absolutely set to make a comeback!
For a long time I haven't been writing, or haven't been writing well and thus only on 'low-priority stories' instead of my 'baby' Masquerade, because I've been in constant chronic pain. Basically, a nerve along one of my ribs got damaged - somehow, doctors aren't quite sure - and since it's damaged, it's like an obnoxious kid on an airplane - it just YELLS CONSTANTLY. Fortunately, I just got through doing a trial of what's called a spinal cord stimulator. That's when doctors are able to thread a little electrode all the way up my spine, and they put that electrode along where that hurt nerve connects up to. Through a little computer, they run power to that electrode. So instead of feeling pain, all I feel is a sort of gentle, massaging buzzing. Which is awesome, because it's NOT PAIN, and because it's NOT PAIN, I CAN WRITE AGAIN!!!
...Because trying to write while in pain is a really frustrating experience. Trust me, when you're up there at 8 out of 10 on the pain scale and having to remember how to breathe and unable to walk in a straight line and having tunnel vision because you hurt so bad, your brain just goes "lol, wurds r dum" and tosses them right out the window, assuming that you can do any sort of communication you need to do by screaming. Even at lower tiers of the pain scale, well... The metaphor I usually use is that for me, writing is a little like making necklaces. Before this stuff, I had my big tackle-box of neatly organized beads. I could instantly figure out which bead I needed to put next on that string. I could write really well, and really efficiently! But having chronic pain is like that tackle-box getting slapped across the room. Suddenly all these beads I need are everywhere. Sure, I have a vague idea of what bead I need next, but I can't look at all possibilities and easily select one anymore. I have to go crawling underneath the chair, between the sofa cushions, and so on; heck, I even have to yell "hey what are you eating!?" at my dog and grumpily deal with some beads with new toothmarks. Since I have to hunt for every bead like that, it takes a lot more effort to make a necklace - and because some of my beads are lost, and I wasn't able to see all of them at once to choose the best one, that necklace I'm able to make is less pretty than others, too. So that's why pain has been driving me a bit crazy. I really want to write these stories. I love these stories! I love playing around with these ideas! I love gushily talking about my favourite characters and points of characterization! But it's really, really hard to write when in pain like that. It's something I sincerely hope none of you have to deal with, or if you must be in pain, I hope it's very short-term and you get full relief and good recovery. But for me these past few years have been very literally hellish. To find a way out is a Godsend, and I am incredibly excited to have a timeline where I can get back to my normal life and activities, like doing the writing I love to do!
It's going to take a little while - maybe a month or two more - for me to get a permanent one in. (The trial one literally had wires coming out of my back to a box I wore on a belt, so there was a big risk of them getting tugged out of place, and a big risk of infection. You really don't want an infection getting in your spinal fluid. That is Bad Times.) (However, the permanent one is going to be all under my skin. Even the battery.*) But when that time comes, I am so very much looking forward to getting back to writing. It's been kinda hard to sit here for near on 5 years in constant pain, unable to tell any of these stories I want to tell you guys!
I am not exaggerating when I say this is the miracle I have been praying for these long, long years. I don't expect you guys to really care tons, but the takeaway is that I'll be back to writing pretty soon! :D
*How this thing charges up is even neater. The battery, underneath my skin, has attached to it half of a little magnetic motor. So to charge it up, I put a patch on my skin, over where this is under my skin. That patch has the other half of that magnetic motor. It spins up, generates electricity, and then charges the battery back up! I will literally become a cyborg to conquer my pain. Queue maniacal laughter etc.
(ﾉoヮo)ﾉ:･ﾟ HECKITY YAY!!