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Author has written 8 stories for Evangelion, Battle Angel, Gunnm/Battle Angel, and Wheel of Time.
Currently, I'm a fifth year Physics graduate student, so my time to write has been very limited. (Hee hee, I'm a published author; I will be second author on a paper coming out in 'Nature Communications.' Okay, yeah, this is like my fourth or fifth paper... but, 'Nature!')
Whoever you are, thank you very much for reading my work!
(6-28-12)- Work on fanfic has been regrettably slow; I've actually been focusing on an entirely original piece. My own world, my own characters. I want badly someday to publish a story of my own, but that will never ever happen if all my effort is directed at works owned by others. I'm decent, I see no reason to do anything but try. I do intend to continue my efforts on "Youngest Channeler" if only when there's spare time.
If you're a fic writer, keep it forever in mind that the goodwill you earn from 'your' readership is actually the fruit of someone else's labor. It isn't really your work people love, it's the work your work is based on.
I'm confused about my interests here a little bit; I like making people happy with what I've written and I know people will read my fanfic if I continue to write it, but I'll never be recognized for my own talent if I waste my time living in the shadows of someone like Robert Jordan. But, I may never be able to sell a work of my own, so it's appealing to write fic. It's gratifying that YC routinely floats in the top ten of the lists in the WOT category even though it is an original character fic --fanfic doesn't win audience for being truly original, hence the word fanfic.
(1-8-13)- "A Memory of Light" is out today. Guess what I'll be reading tonight.
(10-22-13)- I've seen a few comments over the years about my depiction of the character Ghedlyn that have had me thinking. People love to use the words "non-neurotypical" and "non-standard character" in their compliments/criticisms. I am not fond of these words. If you are thinking in terms of "neurotypical" versus "non-neurotypical," you automatically lose what makes a character unique as an individual as opposed to a stereotype. Every character you write should be "non-standard" if you're writing character correctly. While I know that Ghedlyn is autistic-like, remember always that the reasons for her illness are entirely fantastical --I don't know that this can be more clearly spelled out in the story than the number of sections devoted to spelling it out, but there you have it. Somebody somewhere is bound to not get that. There is exactly no reason for this illness to parallel the DSMV and I made no effort trying to be completely real-to-life with it. While the character was inspired by autism and savants, her illness isn't autism.
(7-30-15)- Thoughtful conceit
Worked another quantum problem that has me thinking. I'm still trying to decide exactly what it means. One thing about working problems like this is that there are always two layers. You can understand the structure of the math and figure that part out relatively quickly, but you might not understand what the physical implications are as quickly. So, that's the difference between deep understanding and plug'n'chug.
This problem was structured around two independent harmonic oscillators and asked for proof of a couple commutation relations. Simple, mathematical stuff that usually just demands a quick bit of algebraic sleight of hand. The commutations were interesting because they used a set of compound operators that worked on this pair of harmonic oscillators in tandem. I thought briefly about the structure of these operators while I churned through the appropriate proofs, but it didn't hit me what they represented until after I had finished with the problem and started into something else. These operators were named using an angular momentum convention and composed of sets of embedded simple harmonic oscillator creation and annihilation operators. It asked me to find what appeared to be angular momentum quantities using two linear harmonic oscillators.
A simple harmonic oscillator doesn't have angular momentum with respect to the origin: it goes through the origin, not around it. It wasn't until after I finished working the problem that I realized that you could create a solution that goes 'around,' by creating two perpendicular harmonic oscillators and setting a complex phase between their time dependences, allowing them to be out of synch with one another. This situation is actually homologous to circularly polarized plane-wave light and the harmonic oscillator could be used to describe the electric field of the light. I haven't really proved it to myself yet, but I think that it's true; in this configuration, a linear harmonic oscillator can be used to describe rotation instead of just oscillation.
A second problem that kind of surprised me is one that I picked up last night for the first time and solved this morning without actually writing down any equations --I knew the answer seeing the math in my head. Kind of funny when that happens since I usually need to do some footwork to be certain I understand anything. In this problem, I was given a particle-in-a-box and asked to find the time dependence of the wave equation. The problem was odd at first because it emphasized really strongly that the initial position of the particle was described to be exactly at the middle of the box, with zero uncertainty. This is not really a quantum mechanical possibility, but the problem went on to tell me that I didn't need to try to normalize the answer, only that I needed to be able to say what the relative probabilities were for what state the wave function would collapse into. On a squint, I realized that the particle was being described to start with as a dirac delta, meaning that it is located with one hundred percent probability at a single point in the well, and then allowed to evolve. The problem is then to find the overlap of that delta function with the eigenstates of the box, which are just sines and cosines. The intriguing feature is that only sines fit the boundaries of this particular box and every other suitable sine function has the same maximum in the middle of the box, meaning that every overlap is either zero or one. I realized then that no normalization was possible because the particle had equal probability of falling into every other sine and that there were an infinite number of sine functions that fit the bill. So, the solution was an unnormalized sum of an infinite number sines, excluding every other. When I worked through the problem by hand, this was exactly the result. Of course there were an infinite number of terms: the delta function is infinitesimal! Felt a little frustrating because I thought the hints built into the problem gave it away too easily.
A Layer of Dust: Written circa 1995 just after I first discovered Gunnm. Not quite my oldest fanfic.
The Hunter Warrior Killer: Written 1996-1997 in several large pushes. Started as a textural experiment, but mutated when I discovered that I really loved the villain. An inverse marysue?
Hidden Virtues: My first uber Marysue, written during the height of my Evangelion obsession in about 1998. Subsequently rewritten about four times and coming to include some of my thoughts about martial arts at that time. The formatting of this story has suffered through the upgrades and alterations to this site: it no longer looks quite like I intended. But, that's okay... I detest this story and keep it around more or less as a reminder of what I won't write again.
Serpent at the Window: My last Eva fic. Not a terrific piece of work, but written in the days preceding and following September 11 2001. This story contains my emotional response to the events of that day. I will not write an Eva fic again and almost decided not to write fanfic anymore after a confrontation with a friend based on criticism of this story. Criticism can be hard and is best not leveled by people you care about.
Self Assembler Saga: High concept science fiction that ended up crossed with an impression of "Calvin and Hobbs." This story died in my brain when the original creator of Gunnm began to write "Last Order" and totally trashed my perspective on the main character: she wasn't supposed to be a Playboy Bunny dammit!
Weaving Luck: Written 2005. This work contains the genesis of my current marysue Ghedlyn. There are actually several characters here that I really liked, including the protagonist Aes Sedai, her Warder and the character/s about which the story was originally named. No, the story was not named for Ghedlyn. This story stalled because I realized that it was going to be prohibitively difficult to write it and keep it perfectly true to RJ's original series, which is a fairly large requirement that I impose upon myself when writing fanfic.
Youngest Channeler: 2006 to present. This is my current focus when I have time to devote to fanfic. It was written as a substitute for a blog when I realized I liked the writing experience that blogging provides, but don't like talking about my own life a la journal-open-to-the-world. This story was for fun. I am still working on this, but my time has been divided lately and work is progressing slowly. The writing strategy here was slightly different than I would prefer if I were writing something like a full novel and I think it diminishes the quality of the work: the chapters are written and presented in an episodic fashion, meaning that there is little editorial interaction between the beginning of the story and the current section. This is disadvantageous because it means I can't correct for drift or strengthen/support new ideas had in the process of writing and it means that far reaching plot points are less structured than I would prefer. The block-at-a-time style does have the advantage that it gives immediate feedback, but I think the whole thing is less than it could be.
Desertion of Reason: Written 2009. I stopped "Youngest Channeler" long enough to write this story. It chases a strange psychological idea that I wanted to explore after reading some Philip K. Dick which I decided was uniquely possible within the WOT universe. This story is pretty dark and uninviting, but it is the first fanfic in recent history that I've written to completion prior to beginning to post it. There is an old theme of familial tragedy in here that I've explored in some of my other work and somehow it matched with the feelings of loss and loneliness existent in my life while I was writing it. I have a proclivity for insane characters and this story followed with that. I have no idea whether people will like reading it or not, but I guess that didn't matter while I was working on it.