Author has written 7 stories for Yu-Gi-Oh, Harry Potter, Death Note, Tokyo Mew Mew, Black Cat, Aquarion Evol/アクエリオンEVOL, Ouran High School Host Club, and Inuyasha.
Note to people: Welcome to my profile! Look around, look around! You're certainly welcome to browse through my ramblings. If you wish to PM me about anything other than a couple of questions for any of my stories, I'd appreciate it if you would please scroll through my PERSONAL OPINION CORNER first down below before contacting me. Thank you!
Now then, to those that believe strongly against same sex relationships, I would like to warn you most of my story content has relation to such. I like taking up the pairing challenge. If it goes against your beliefs...I respect you and let's please be rational, sensible human beings who part peacefully. If homosexual romances are not your cup of tea and you don't want to give my stories a cursory look out of curiosity, you could simply click the back button and read other marvelous fiction!
F.Y.I. flamers: this is the most I'll address to you all. I'm certain you're a smart individual with better things to do than trying to get my attention. Instead of wasting your valuable time, you could perhaps close your browser and spend it on something more worthwhile? Due to my education I present to a panel of critics five days a week routinely, so while I feel honored that you've spent your time on me I also feel rather embarrassed that you've wasted your efforts on me. Mm, if you take this as a challenge, you'll have my respect should you post your malicious comment via an account. That means you are a courageous individual who have understood the risks and decided to go through with it instead of cowering behind an anonymous guest smokescreen. It's only briefly amusing to me if you didn't since it'll only occupy a minute of my time before I forget about it and have your content racket up the number of reviews I have, thereby making the story you're flaming even more popular. I apologize sincerely if that isn't your intent. I have short-term memory and with my many projects, I have better things to do than reading content from someone I don't respect or believe.
However, if you intend to target other writers, in the words of the late kydasam, "it takes courage and character to place something so intensely personal as the stories I've read out on public display." I fail to see the point of insulting and demotivating a person. You are not so much as converting them or having a trolling fun time than you are cyberbullying them. You are not giving them humility by trying to shred their egos. Not to mention there are some people of more extreme and/or sensitive souls that I'm frightened to see their self-esteems be torn into pieces, and a lot of the writers I see here are of a young demographic whose psyche and self-confidence are still developing. Is the momentary thrill of taking their confidence down a peg that worth it to you? Is it worth crushing someone or perhaps even preventing another successful author to step forward professionally? I'm very disappointed whenever I see this. It doesn't matter what your reason is–whether it's because of your loyalty to another author or your jealousy or your boredom–I have seen some people who are brilliant writers and were interested in the writing industry, but they are afraid to write professionally because they believe their writing isn't good enough based on unnecessarily cruel feedback. Even "shitty authors" with "shitty stories" can mature as a writer with the proper encouragements and constructive criticisms. Case in point, look at my old works (high school phase) versus my newest story (college). It takes time for skills to mature and be polished.
Ad Infinitum - Chapter 2 is up. Working on chapter 3. 1 percent done. On hiatus until trilogy.
Golden Abyss- (GA) Chapter 3 is up! Working on chapter 4. 17 percent done. On hiatus until trilogy.
Green and Gold- Chapter 10 is up! Working on chapter 11. 7 percent done. (For any explicit scenes mentioned in my A/N's, check out the NSFW at Archive of Our Own. I also have a if you're curious to solely check out the sporadically-updated, illustrated visual narrative.)
It's So Wrong and Yet So Right- (ISWAYSR) Discontinued.
Moonlight Sonata- (MS) Finished. Completed. 100 percent finished.
Trival Affections-(TA) Chapter 8 is up. Working on chapter 9 (read more at ). 93 percent done. On hiatus.
Occupation: Full-time student at a private design institution
Major: Environmental Design (designing spatial experiences around the psychology of user interaction and personal narratives...in short, everything from architecture to interior design)
Writing Style: Overwhelmingly detailed and hopefully a lot of thought put into a project! I realize most of it can fly over people's heads but when I'm passionate about something, my enthusiasm cannot be contained! I'd like to try anything at least once so long as it fits the context. Suggestions are generally welcomed so long as they're reasonable. Mm, I update slowly, because if I haven't run out of inspiration or time, I prefer a sufficient sample size of reviews to understand what has been well-received/understood, what has flown over people's heads, or where people think I'm taking the plot. I'm fond of taking branching scenarios and, based on reader feedback, then deciding where to go with them. I also like to touch on cultural aspects in my stories and having characters interpret a scenario/dialogue from various perspectives. So, multiple POV shifts are to be expected.
Preferred Reading Content: Long, well-thought out plots and character development. I also like a bit of originality in my reading. I adore detective fiction and crime novellas. Literature with historical content, action, suspense, believable romances, relateable characters and/or extraordinary villains are also great pluses for me. Sci-fi on the other hand...there's only been one or two pieces that I'd been intrigued enough to purchase for my private library. Futuristic, technological terminology can overwhelm me. The same applies for the fantasy genre. Guilty pleasures include silliness such as PWP, fanfiction, nonfiction classics, humor, purple prose, satirical pieces, supernatural and/or trashy romances.
Personality: I am generally a mild-mannered, open-minded designer who likes listening to feedback and other people's thoughts, and trying to understand where they're coming from before voicing my penultimate reply. Personally I consider myself an introvert, but with my career choice I've managed to become an overly friendly social butterfly whose mind crashes in privacy after a long day of interaction. Caffeine and sleep are the nectars of life. I like surrounding myself with people of great attitudes and great drives; people who are focused but can crack a joke. Solemn or critical personalities are a-ok with me, but when they start chewing out the colleagues and decisions I care for deeply, I have to take a step back and breathe. There are admittedly moments where I can't hold in the judgmental side of my personality. Courtesy and education are exceptionally significant to me, so my patience can be tested when those lines are crossed. I've been so fixated on pursuing my childhood ambitions I hardly have the time to lose focus or let anyone stop me from fulfilling them. I work odd hours just to complete a deadline, knowing I've got people invested or counting on me, so it baffles me when I see some people wasting their money and precious time. See, serious and judgmental. (Nah, I'm only an introspective snob. Most of the time I'm like that annoying woman who smiles a lot or laughs in awkward and/or stressful situations and blathers on a lot. Yep.)
Advice: Oh! For anyone about to fill out applications, you need to be certain that college or work environment is the right fit for you. Then it should be a brilliant, rewarding experience where you'll learn a lot and interact with many different people across vast professions. After my initial anxiety and fears, now I don't regret it one bit. Even with the stress. It toughens you! :)
PERSONAL OPINION CORNER:
POSITIVES: These are mostly the ones that have taken me by surprise, and in a good way.
Constructive Criticisms: Design them for suggestions of improvement, and not demotivating insults for tearing down a person. Sure, it may initially put a dart in our pride but good authors who care about their craft and reading fan-base are happy to own up to their mistakes by editing their content. But personally while I may give my opinion, the author is not obligated to agree. It makes me happy when authors inform me that they'll be willing to consider it, should they happen to concur. If not, it's their story so I am at peace with their disagreement. However I lose respect for the person if they respond hostilely and/or act immaturely instead of reacting sensibly. Similarly I lose respect for people who criticize my style of writing/content without having made the attempt to read the A/N's and through the whole story first. When I get these crits, I am disappointed that they dove into the first chapter/prologue already in the mood to nitpick and didn't give the story a chance to redeem itself or to watch the characters and the plot develop. For example, you could focus on one little detail that the author has already addressed in a later chapter. It renders your constructive criticism, however well-written and eloquent, silly and not credible to the author.
Genderbending: There are many reasons why a character is genderbent. One, the author may have issues writing about same sex relationships. Two, he or she has a plot that requires the character to experience events in the perspective of the opposite sex. Three, they're fulfilling a fantasy of theirs or it is fanservice. Or four, it is a shameless self-insert or Mary-sue/Gary-Sue or OC that is under the pretense of being a fandom character in order to get people interested and racket up story popularity. There are cons with each underlying reason, but sometimes something good can come from them.
Male Pregnancies (Mpreg): ...I admit I've read quite a lot. I can't help it when the stories with the most reviews have it. Personally I don't go out of my way to read Mpreg stories, but there are some well-written ones who celebrate the phenomenon and pay it the respect it deserves. When it's just used for mindless angst-fuel, coupled with unneeded male feminization, I get annoyed. When authors realistically portray it and give it sound reasoning, I am impressed.
Original Characters (OCs): With prolonged exposure, I've grown to accept original characters who are not the main focus (or if they are, at least they are overshadowed by the canonical characters, thank goodness). Some authors have also made these OCs important plot devices, but fortunately they are well-written enough that I do not get the impression they are disgustingly perfect or are self-inserts. I'm of the opinion when an author includes OCs, it's difficult for them to maintain focus. So when a story does not veer towards ruin, I can admire the author's skill at making an original character have a decent personality or making us readers root for their demise by our protagonist's hands.
Purple-Prose: I snicker and roll my eyes whenever writers utilize this. Yet, over the years, I have come to tolerate flowery descriptions and poetic rhetoric should the characters and plot hold my interest. It's because of my bemused tolerance and several authors' influence that I have grown fond of purple-prose, should the content be well-written and developed. I mean, I could always skip the hammy bits and instead focus on what's really driving the story. Physical descriptions are the least important to me as a reader personally.
Well-Written Stories/ Summaries: Badly-written ones make me cringe and the ones with the most potential, I cannot help but feel sorry for the authors when it is so shoddily written. First impressions are everything. Typically readers like stories that are coherent and don't make us labor through it just to understand a sentence. At first I can tolerate it in the rare occasions that I am interested but when there is no sign of improvement the further I go into the story, I grow frustrated and have to drop it for sake of my sanity. It's just, however an author's plot may be clichéd, when their story or summary is well-written and grammatically-correct and has the correct punctuation and has correct spelling most of the time, I'm more inclined to give that story a chance. I'm also more forgiving of their mistakes. I identify with authors having typos obviously not intended to show up, based on the syntax of their content. The worst offenders are foreign authors that candidly state English is not their first language. However I admire their willingness to improve and to take the chance to reedit their stories based on reader feedback. This can also be applied to English-fluent authors. It's something about a well-written story that gives me the illusion that I'm reading a professionally-published book.
NEGATIVES: I'm not discouraging writers, as there are markets for everything I have issues with listed below, but these are the top reasons that I personally can be taken out of a story or get irritated by. Yes, I may generalize to prove a point.
Certain Cliches/ Tropes: Nothing is original anymore. Therefore we can only take our spin on what is contrived and hopefully make it our own. But sometimes I see lazy or unimaginative recycled writing both in the real world and fanfiction, that I cannot suspend my disbelief any longer. Almost every writer falls into these cliched traps. It personally annoys me when, in modern timelines, the more "submissive" romantic lead acts in any way inferior to the more "dominant" romantic lead for no other reason than the fact that it is cute or is a successful Hollywood formula or are tropes they do not even bother to make slightly original. It personally annoys me when it's sex-on-first-sight in non-PWP labeled fics and the leads somehow magically fall in love. It personally annoys me to see any infinitives/verbs related to this person who "sighed" or "blushed" or "fainted" or "smirked" for the umpteenth time in what is considered a serious, non-satirical piece. It annoys me when strong characters advertised to be so become two-dimensional cardboard cutouts who do nothing but whine and depend on others without given the ability to act on their own free will irrelevantly to the plot. It annoys me when the protagonists' common sense is lacking or unfortunately have the IQ of a rock when he/she/it doesn't need to be that way. I have a lot of other pet peeves listed below the Exercising Etiquette section. But, to wrap up, when I read stories that have one or more of what is listed, most of the time the back arrow cannot be clicked fast enough. These stories are the ones I typically do not like to read personally and therefore I typically will not review.
Exercising Etiquette: Be polite and well-mannered, please, if you desire an intelligent, mature reply back. Also, please consider reading my full response before replying back just in case I'd already answered your question. Common sense and decency still exist in the world, so it escapes me why some individuals do not comprehend or choose to turn them off when intending to interact civilly with someone. It's already bad enough that I see this happening in some reviews for well-to-do fics. As much as I'm aware of the festering pits of the Internet and the psychology of why people act this way, I am forced to put this out as a public service: if you PM or review authors with a request or questions, please be courteous. I cannot believe I have to write this out for some people. Honestly I try to keep my irritation in check and patiently, politely reply back to any incessantly rude PMs in hopes that they either change their tune or that the conversation could be done with soon. But it comes to the point when they bypass my attempts to end our conversations with an air of finality enough that I'd have to ignore the PMs that get sent to my inbox because if I don't...I. WILL. SNAP. As a fair warning, some authors aren't as indulgent as I am. Note that we are voluntarily helping you despite the workloads we have in our own personal busy lifestyle which I'm sure reflects your own. Out of the kindness of our hearts, we put effort into our responses. You have to understand we are not under contractual obligation to provide someone we do not know with more help or to listen to your demand when we feel personally offended by the individual behind it. No one would feel inclined to do more for you when they feel like their previous efforts were rebuffed, ignored, and/or unappreciated. Furthermore, if you want story recs, it is common sense that a stranger would not know your personal tastes. No matter how much we've read we are not omnipresent beings nor are we library databases. The friendly, generous PM-ed recipients can only make tentative suggestions from your listed criteria(s) based on what they've personally enjoyed and still remember!
Melodramatic Angst: Have there been the rare good stories that, despite having pointless melodrama angst, that I've enjoyed? Yes, grudgingly so. But I find little appeal reading about a hurt protagonist (female or male) who has been beaten, raped, insulted, kicked when they are down, manipulated, betrayed by loved ones, bullied, targeted by everyone, lusted after, stalked, AND so forth. Please note the conjunction. It is of my opinion that having the protagonist go through all the nine circles of hell like a checklist for the sake of evoking reader sympathy is such a needlessly cruel and clichéd tool for authors to constantly rely on, especially if the victim does not come out stronger from it. It also irks me when I read a part of the story where the protagonist is being diagnosed and all of a sudden they are announced to have broken bones, cracked ribs, signs of malnutrition, a history of abuse, a concussion, blood clots, bruises and so forth. Yes, I agree with your healer/doctor/nurse/mediwitch that it is miraculous they are even alive. And how disbelieving they are no one has noticed it. The obvious has been stated.
OCs: It's a double-edged sword. We are reading your story for sake of a certain cast of characters in a certain fandom or fandoms, so when the protagonist shares equal screen-time with an OC I don't care about, I am immediately taken out of the story. I can trudge through it if your story is worth being exposed to the horror that is your Mary-Sue or Gary-Sue character, but I can only swallow so much.
Out of Character (OOC) and Bashings: I tolerate many creative liberties with a canonical personality, but it is a strike against the author when the character's written in an extreme way that reminds me that they don't act like that in the original material. I like reading a smarter, more powerful character. I like their leap in maturity. I understand the deaging. I agree with your attempt to humanize the character or make them somehow relateable. I could grow to like a unique spin on a character. But when they become as irritatingly weak as a kitten (becoming dramatically dependent) or stereotypically nasty (to the point that I conjure up an image of a villain twirling his handlebar mustache and cackling), I literally have to face-palm.
Shortening Someone's Name/Cutesy Petnames/Nicknames: This is my personal preference, but I prefer reading someone's first name or surname in a written piece of work instead of a petname unless it is justified by the author's plot. I also have a bone to pick with female endearments that essentially replace the character's names. The original author slaved away picking the perfect names for their creations, so I find it offensive if I don't somehow honor that in my stories unless it is canonically fitting that nicknames spring up due to a situation or a certain character. For example, Nymphadora Tonks is just referred to as "Tonks" due to her canonical distaste for her mother's naming ability, and this is a perfectly good reason that I can live with. Butchering "Draco," a perfectly beautiful name, into the cutesy "Drake" or "Dray" isn't. I simply have a hard time swallowing that characters such as Severus Snape will accept being called "Sev," Sesshomaru being called "Sess" or "Sessho" or "Sho" or "Sesshy," Sirius Black as "Siri," or Inuyasha being called "Yash." I understand they're supposed to be affectionate endearments to show the depth of a relationship, yet it is incredibly off-putting and demeaning to the character. I make an effort to bypass it in my reading material if an "icky" petname is used sparingly, but a red flag goes off in my head when it essentially becomes the character's go-to address.
Unnecessary Feminization of a Male Character: This is slightly more controversial, in my opinion. Note, I'm not talking about genderbending. I identify with female authors who cannot help making one or more of their characters like that because inherently it's hard to disassociate themselves from it, because it's all we know. I also understand the characters we are writing are ultimately wish-fulfillment characters. But when I read a story where the character in question has become "emasculated" and in fact could very well be a blushing original female character but with a dick, I start losing interest. It's like I'm reading a shameless self-insert fanfiction but with the character's name (and/or looks) replacing the author's. It's rarely well-done. The main gripe I have with it is that it's rarely established for reasons of plot and characterization. It's just...you're writing about a guy. Whom canonically acts in the opposite of what you're portraying and in real life would retain an ounce of masculinity due to cultural upbringings and the gender expectations we as a society foist on our people. I mean, you can make him as effeminate and girly as you want, but unless they're transsexual, discovering themselves, rebelling against the system, or whatever is relevant to character development, I think you're missing the point of a slash story when your homosexual romance starts leaning towards heterosexual love.
WHEN I REVIEW NOWADAYS:
Typically it's for stories whose number of reviews aren't as high as I expect them to be or because there are constructive criticisms that the current readers avoid expressing aloud to be kind or, rarely, are not mature enough to detect. For the former, the reason why I do so is because I personally only read stories based on the number of reviews. Generally it's just easier for me to detect unique and well-written stories using this method. I assume many readers use the same sorting service as I do on FF.net. Therefore I am stunned when an amazing story or one with a lot of potential isn't as popular as I'd expect it to be. I try to remedy that, or at least give the author my deepest sympathies and assure them that it is marvelous. And that hopefully it'll get the attention or following it deserves.
For the latter reason, note that I do not mean stories I personally don't like to read. I skip those and the badly-written ones instead. I also try not to comment on works belonging to those of more sensitive personalities or are just writing for personal fun that they could care less about improving reader enjoyment. For stories that interest me but are in deep need of a constructive crit, I feel responsible to voice them only to authors who express their willingness for honest feedback and/or willingness to improve. It is disbelieving to me when, despite this earnest request, readers ignore the frequent-enough-that-they-no-longer-can-be-ignored shortcomings and instead praise the author nonstop, giving them the wrong impression. It bothers me when I see elementary mistakes no one or very few bring to the author's attention. I'd love for the author to grow and mature as a writer, because it makes the reading material that much more enjoyable. So if I have to play the bad guy, I will but, to be fair, I try to soften the blow with my sincere appreciation of what I've enjoyed thus far. I am patient enough to be willing to give a story a try first, just in case the writing does improve or I am able to bear it, before tearing it down constructively. I understand criticisms are harsh, but the crits in my design school have taught me they are necessary if they are worded appropriately and they are balanced with what we love about their project. For me I was appropriately brought back to reality by a couple of reviewers in my earlier attempts at writing, and my writing has developed to what it is now because of both the encouragements and appropriate constructive crits. When I get them now and I agree, I implement them to make the reading more enjoyable to my readers. This makes me have more pride in my work when it is well-written enough to appeal to a lot of people. Therefore I feel obligated to do the same for others because it's made such a huge impact on me.
However more often than not, out of habit I just favorite the ones that I've enjoyed and still stick with me, despite my short-term memory, to this day. Rarely there are some impactful enough that I find it within myself to express my sincere appreciation.
FANART FOR MY STORIES! :)
Moonlight Sonata- by SoushiKaito:
(It's really quite beautiful, and I'm honored that she was inspired by an oneshot from my earlier writings. The linework is crisp, and I like the blending of colors and the contrasting BG!)
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