Author has written 60 stories for Danny Phantom, Sailor Moon, Detective Conan/Case Closed, Magic Kaito/まじっく快斗, Harry Potter, and Sherlock.
Friday, May 30th, 2014. 3:15 AM
I was first diagnosed with depression by my family doctor back in 2007. In hindsight, my first depressive episode actually happened 10 years prior when I was in grade 8. More recently (read: last month) a psychiatrist gave me an official diagnosis of major depressive disorder. Though my history with depression is long and somewhat convoluted it is only in the last two years that I have really even begun to seriously address my problems and make progress.
Why in the world am I talking about this in my ffn profile? Partially it's because I need to talk and am feeling disconnected from the people in my "real" life. Mostly it's because depression and writing are intricately connected for me. Writing, for me, happens in the place where I am somewhat down but not so low as to be completely paralysed. I've often used writing to escape myself. This is tricky, because while it is helpful it is often not healthy. In the past I have used writing, and fandom in general, to avoid life, people, and the reality that is being an adult with adult responsibilities.
Breaks in my writing - which happen often and can last a long time - tend to correlate to times when I am extremely down or those rare times when I am genuinely content with my life. Though, to be fair, sometimes they happen because I get distracted by something shiny (namely, a new fandom). More recently, however, it is because I have been dealing with life and my illness. The odd thing about the last two years is that while I've made a lot of progress, I've also had much lower lows far more frequently. Maybe because I'm actually facing my troubles instead of ducking my head down and hoping they will go away.
So, for those asking when I will start writing again, or when I will finish Fortune Favours the Damned, the answer is I don't know. I have so much happening and changing right now that I am honestly overwhelmed. Have I abandoned my stories? Not as such, but Naming the Truth and Myself are unlikely to be updated any time soon. Or if they are it will be one random chapter without any serious likelihood of a second update. FFTD stands a slightly higher chance given that it only has two chapters and an epilogue left, all of which have chunks written already. Plus, it's been bugging me like crazy to have a story that close to completion left for two years on the absolute most cruel cliffhanger ever.
For those for you who are still reading and reviewing Phantom's Sketchbook... Thank you. You have no idea how much your kind words mean, even if I have no idea what you are doing reading a story so incredibly old and hopelessly faulty.
Cheers, and as a favourite youtuber of mine would say, DFTBA.