2017-07-24

It's been a long time.

Where am I:

I've made no secret of my struggles with depression and anxiety. I'm at a point where I've more or less learned the coping skills I need to survive. Certain aspects are more difficult than others, and there are ideas I've had to let go of and others I have to consciously cultivate.

Living is not a simple thing.

But there's joy too, and love, if not in the sense that most mean the word. And I'm still here and I'm still holding on.

And there are stories that can be found there. In the good and the bad.

I never really stopped writing, though the last three years have not contained the sort of writing I could post on ffn. Or anywhere, really. I like to think I've improved, but who knows. That's a judgement I leave to others.

What can you expect:

At the moment? Occasional vignettes in the approximately 600 word range.

A note on honorifics:

I’m not Japanese and I don’t speak Japanese. And the Japanese use of honorifics is complicated. Equally, however, using English naming conventions looks and feels horribly wrong within my anime/manga fandoms. For those stories where this is relevant, I've done my best. (Though admittedly, my best has changed considerably over the course of time).

A note on my older stories:

My oldest stories are littered with embarrassing examples of unnecessary fan-girl Japanese, terrible grammar mistakes, stupidly self-serving author's notes, and badly executed concepts. I've actually deleted most of the really old stuff, as well as a good chunk of the never completed ones (you'll see references to never completed and now removed stories in the author's notes of certain stories). The really, really old stories actually exist on a different profile that I will never admit to being mine. I have, however, largely left the completed stories where they are and as they were. They are embarrassing, yes, but they are also a testament to who I was at the time. Though, that's not to say that any of the more current stuff is good exactly, just better.

Story Status:

Fortune Favours the Damned: Limbo. It's corpse may yet be resurrected in a necromantic ritual, but it's pretty unlikely.

Naming the Truth: Ah, well, this... There is still something in this story that calls to me. But while I'm picking at it, I refuse to make any promises that I can't necessarily keep.