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Joined 08-08-06, id: 1110455, Profile Updated: 12-30-13
Author has written 15 stories for Criminal Minds, Drake & Josh, and How to Train Your Dragon.

I'm a splash of nothing and everything. I will never be what this 'society' wants, shall never be beautiful in someone else's standards, can never be an object of desire without a conscious. I am tainted, I am flawed. I am a StarDusted Moth Girl, a Faerie spirited Plague ratling. I may inhabit this ugly shell but I am so very much more on the inside of these white walls. I bleed crimson tear streaks and tingle with sparking emotion. I am, and even when this shell expires, to all who have embraced me I shall exist in a moon blessed Vally of falling flower petals, dancing with flames and seeping forlorn innocence. My lunar rainbow twinkles on the sunset waters, and even when it hurts, I adore what I have become. A tangle of colors, a mess at times, but still a breathing essence who will never wear a mask The Opheliac within me fights, and my tree still blooms a unique aura while the seasons evolve and decay. Smoke dancing as it snakes from painted lips, bubbles bursting into liquefied rainbow shards and sprinkling the Earth with stories to be told. So, to any with eyes that hear and tasting ears: Take this soul for what it seeps, and not just the physical features of its flawed shell. Because it is all that I am, and everything that I care to be. These words are my portrait, They are a part of who I am. Take it or leave it.

Quotes To live by: There are alot, and I dont have time to type them all...

“You," he said, "are a terribly real thing in a terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why you are in so much pain.” ― Emilie Autumn, The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls

"For this freedom I have given all I had For this darkness I gave my light For this wisdom I have lost my innocence Take my petals And cover me with the night . Emilie Autumn"

“All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing.” -Edmund Burke

“Cherish this moment, for happiness is illusive.” -Final Fantasy IX Warning on the Bell

“Peace is but a shadow of death, desperate to forget its painful past…though we hope for promising years after shedding a thousand tears, yesterdays sorrow constantly nears. And while the moon still shines blue, by dawn, it will turn to scarlet hue.” -Kuja; Final fantasy IX

"But I'm always dreaming, even when I'm awake; it is never finished." -The last unicorn

"And I asked myself about the present: How wide it was, how deep it was, how much was mine to keep." - Kurt Vonngut

"No matter what you've suffered, that which is still within you is inestimably greater than anything you've lost" Emilie Autumn

"This is just a moment in time, step aside and let it happen." Firefly

"Success is failure recycled. Life is death reborn." -Jonathan Lockwood Huie

I love writing Fanfiction, I've been doing it for a long time. I've tried to stop, and failed, but in that failure I've gotten better at writing, and written some stories that I am very proud of. A lot of time and effort go into making each story. As I aspire to become a professional weaver of words, Reviews are deeply looked forward to. Not just for gratification, but to try and help to improve the skills I've been working at for so long; however: I do have some pet peeves reagrding them...

"Good Job" and "Hurry up" are not reviews, they are empty words. If its good, then what was good about it? What did you like and what didnt you? Saying even a small sentence more could give incouragemsnt, or help to improve or elaberate something you didn't like. I am very upon to criticism. And Hurry up always just comes off as impatient or rude.

Please don't ask to use my characters. I don't say it to be rude by any means. It's just a matter of the careful work and time I put into them. Each is written a certain way, with traits and mannerisms that I work hard to create. In taking them and changing them, it just shows lack of respect for that work.

I am open to suggestions for new stories, just please understand that I write a certain way, and some ideas are out of my style and prefernce. If I don't use your idea, please don't be rude about it. There are always other authors who can do it better.

If a character or a self created past bother you, its fine to say so, but do not send me angry hate mail about it. criticism is one thing, out right hate is another. As the author of any story will tell you, writing is an artform. The writer chooses their words and ideas carefully before sharing them, so please be respectful of the choices made.

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Dragon Wars by X-Deyoxis-X reviews
[newsummary] Forced to teach the outcasts to ride dragons in order to save his friends, Hiccup's actions will bring upon Berk a war unlike any before. As humans and dragons fight on both sides, only one side can come out on top. Along the way, Hiccup will discover the truth of Alvin's betrayal and find that Alvin may not be the only revenge-seeking outcast. Warning: Dark.
How to Train Your Dragon - Rated: T - English - Suspense/Friendship - Chapters: 17 - Words: 104,755 - Reviews: 145 - Favs: 76 - Follows: 74 - Updated: 4/10 - Published: 10/2/2012 - Hiccup, Alvin the Treacherous, Snotlout, Ruffnut
Slashera:Part 1 The Early Years by Trikkster reviews
AU Slade wants a perfect apprentice. So what happens when he comes across a girl that seems just perfect for him to train? Will he be able to form her into the apprentice he's always wanted? Will she stay with him long enough to become this perfect apprentice? And will she change Slade in ways he never thought possible? This is Part 1 in the tale of Slashera. No pairings.
Teen Titans - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 19 - Words: 122,321 - Reviews: 45 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 7 - Updated: 1/30 - Published: 8/1/2012 - Slade
Digging Deep by Trikkster reviews
At some point, every man must face his inner darkness. Some men's minds embrace and grow in the darkness, other men's minds are shattered from it. But what will Ryan Hardy do, when he is forced to face his own darkness? In a tale of twists and manipulation, the reader may now find out. Warning: OOC. Spoilers! (please read author's note) Also, multiple character deaths occur.
Following - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 7 - Words: 68,808 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 7/15/2013 - Published: 5/6/2013 - R. Hardy, J. Carroll, M. Weston
Kidnapped by JBS-Forever reviews
It started out one day with an exaggerated point, but then...Ponyboy never came home...and no one can find him. How will things change once Ponyboy is found? Will anyone be the same?
Outsiders - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 30 - Words: 64,873 - Reviews: 819 - Favs: 210 - Follows: 199 - Updated: 7/1/2013 - Published: 1/25/2012 - Complete
In the End, Are You Stronger? by iamthejabberwocky reviews
Josh decided that it wasn't his concern, and that he shouldn't care, and that the glimpse he'd gotten of Drake's desolate, empty eyes and passive expression, of Drake still wearing the clothes he'd come home in, shouldn't bother him at all. Discusses rape
Drake & Josh - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 11 - Words: 21,999 - Reviews: 68 - Favs: 89 - Follows: 100 - Updated: 1/27/2011 - Published: 12/20/2010 - Drake P., Josh N.
Broken Bones by Mystic25 reviews
A piece, set in Season 5. Of what would happen if Sam Winchester were raped, and had to tell his brother, and what would result. RATING: M for RAPE AND VIOLENCE.Not Wincest though.
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 17,190 - Reviews: 43 - Favs: 124 - Follows: 18 - Published: 1/21/2011 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Grim Reaper by criminalxxxmindsxxxfreak reviews
Hotch and Reid are kidnapped by a mysterious man with a grudge. He's angry at Hotch and has decided the best way to get his revenge is to make him watch as he tortures Reid... No slash. Rated M for torture, violence, language and gore.
Criminal Minds - Rated: M - English - Horror/Mystery - Chapters: 20 - Words: 47,479 - Reviews: 417 - Favs: 375 - Follows: 139 - Updated: 10/17/2010 - Published: 9/21/2010 - A. Hotchner/Hotch, S. Reid - Complete
Angel of the Bronx by Sci F.I. Warper reviews
When the Saints decide to continue mission in New York City, they find themselves in an ambush. Now, with Il Duce dead and Murphy missing, Conner is left to rely on the help of a young woman in the neighborhood. One who doesn't believe in their mission.
Boondock Saints - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Drama - Chapters: 24 - Words: 39,201 - Reviews: 63 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 24 - Updated: 7/16/2010 - Published: 7/4/2008 - Complete
Means to an End by tearbos reviews
A desperate criminal needs information. He'll do whatever it takes to get it. The BAU team faces a difficult decision.
Criminal Minds - Rated: K+ - English - Adventure/Crime - Chapters: 14 - Words: 23,805 - Reviews: 205 - Favs: 73 - Follows: 50 - Updated: 5/8/2008 - Published: 8/2/2007 - Complete
The Quality of Darkness by asteroidbuckle reviews
Drake fights against the demons inside his head. Caution: VERY DARK, so read at your own discretion. Rating is between T and M. COMPLETE!
Drake & Josh - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 22 - Words: 105,411 - Reviews: 392 - Favs: 144 - Follows: 55 - Updated: 4/6/2008 - Published: 11/12/2007 - Complete
DSH by LestatHughLover reviews
Post season 2 'Jones'. Reid struggles to get over his addiction while working a case, but with Gideon on a sudden leave, it's a long hard road. Rated T for drug use and the occational swear.
Criminal Minds - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 28 - Words: 53,090 - Reviews: 248 - Favs: 145 - Follows: 25 - Updated: 12/1/2007 - Published: 10/20/2007 - Complete
The Scarecrow by PanicButton reviews
The team are called in to investigate missing adults and children. A stranger promises Reid as a gift to an odd child. Rated T for later chapters. Please R&R
Criminal Minds - Rated: T - English - Horror/Angst - Chapters: 38 - Words: 56,529 - Reviews: 299 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 10/7/2007 - Published: 9/12/2007
Bare Grace Misery by Jeremy-Keiji reviews
A one:shot about Hisoka's capture by Muraki. Rated high for sexual content. Lemon.
Yami no Matsuei - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 555 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/7/2006 - Complete
Yes, Master by SouthernChickie reviews
NOW COMPLETE! Richie's taken against his will and for once it's not to be used against the Highlander. His new Master has other plans for his boy.
Highlander - Rated: M - English - Drama - Chapters: 19 - Words: 57,395 - Reviews: 103 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 3/7/2004 - Published: 11/16/2003 - Complete
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The Box reviews
Drake Parker opened his eyes, but what he saw wasn't home. He finds himself trapped in a room with no knowledge of how he got there or why he's there. Within the room he finds only a small box. With limited supplies and only the instructions that if he opens the box early he will never be released, can he survive this hellish prison long enough to get answers and be rescued?
Drake & Josh - Rated: T - English - Angst/Horror - Chapters: 4 - Words: 16,874 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 8 - Updated: 1/2 - Published: 12/7/2013 - Complete
The Price of Vengeance reviews
"If you hurt my son, I will kill you." 14 years ago Hayden Parker vanished without explanation. After the man he sent to prison is released he gets the news that he's out for revenge. Meanwhile in San Diego Drake and Josh find themselves kidnapped by the man's henchmen, sent to take Drake to persuade Hayden to come out of hiding. Vengeance has a cost, but price will be paid?
Drake & Josh - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Crime - Chapters: 17 - Words: 77,284 - Reviews: 60 - Favs: 25 - Follows: 26 - Updated: 11/27/2013 - Published: 5/10/2013 - Josh N., Drake P. - Complete
Conquering Dragons reviews
Alvin makes his move to control the dragons, taking Hiccup with the help of an unknown ally. He's determined to break the boy, to know his secrets and make berk his own. Will Hiccup be able to hold out? my first HTTYD fic.
How to Train Your Dragon - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 15 - Words: 43,834 - Reviews: 297 - Favs: 293 - Follows: 246 - Updated: 5/10/2013 - Published: 10/17/2012 - Hiccup, Alvin the Treacherous - Complete
Reverie of Insanity reviews
In glimpses of sanity he found everything that he'd lost, and after years of fighting to remember, he wants it back. He wants to save them from the evil of the past that he fears remains. But do those distant memories want him? In the coming darkness can three survive the twisted will of one? Will kidnapping and abuse save them from his demons, or will it bring them down upon them?
Drake & Josh - Rated: T - English - Drama/Horror - Chapters: 23 - Words: 99,195 - Reviews: 73 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 5/8/2013 - Published: 1/10/2013 - Drake P., Audrey P.N. - Complete
Allusion of Suffering reviews
Drake is coming home with bruises. He's withdrawn, and he's angry. No one knows what to do, because he isn't telling anyone whats happening. Will he fall into darkness, or will the light pull him back from the seclussion hes drifting further into?
Drake & Josh - Rated: T - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 26 - Words: 89,806 - Reviews: 119 - Favs: 65 - Follows: 33 - Updated: 12/11/2012 - Published: 8/21/2012 - Josh N., Drake P. - Complete
Living in Chains reviews
Set around Josh is Done, Drake is walking home when he is abducted by Brendon Montgomery From my Criminal Minds fic Sold This fic is about what happens to him there, with a few cameos from the CM's cast to try and save him. This fic is a bit of a song fic, based loosely off of Emilie Autumn's Fight Like A Girl album.
Drake & Josh - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 20 - Words: 57,595 - Reviews: 102 - Favs: 43 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 5/22/2012 - Published: 3/11/2012 - Drake P. - Complete
Final Goodbye reviews
When a boy from school gets mad because Drake stole his girlfriend, he decides to take matters into his own hands. But it goes to far and leaves him fighting to survive. Just a short fic to pass the time, and try something a bit different.
Drake & Josh - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 7,700 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 27 - Follows: 7 - Updated: 2/15/2012 - Published: 2/3/2012 - Josh N., Drake P. - Complete
Unintended consequences reviews
When Drake and Josh finally prank Meghan, she gets mad and gets them back. But things dont go the way she planned, and the boys may never forgive her for what happens.
Drake & Josh - Rated: T - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 15 - Words: 23,195 - Reviews: 72 - Favs: 45 - Follows: 39 - Updated: 2/1/2012 - Published: 7/31/2011 - Drake P., Josh N.
Into the Darkness reviews
Drake's father has broken out of prison, and he wants revenge for the past seven years. He's after blood, and he'll stop at nothing to get it. I know there are alot of Drake's evil father stories, but the idea wont go away...
Drake & Josh - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 25 - Words: 41,023 - Reviews: 157 - Favs: 99 - Follows: 43 - Updated: 12/21/2011 - Published: 1/3/2011 - Drake P. - Complete
White Wall Serenade reviews
Follow up to Fatal Obsession. Drake isnt coping with the events that took place with Shane. His Family's worry lands him in an Institution for Young Adults. He's ready to give up, will time behind these walls help him overcome the tragedy that haunts him?
Drake & Josh - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 10 - Words: 18,189 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 11/5/2010 - Published: 10/5/2010 - Complete
Fatal Obsessions reviews
What started out as an enthusiastic fan, became a silent stalker, and the the obsession grew, and no one caught on until he'd made his move, and Drake was gone. Warning: pretty dark.
Drake & Josh - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 15 - Words: 27,094 - Reviews: 48 - Favs: 46 - Follows: 19 - Updated: 10/5/2010 - Published: 8/11/2010 - Complete
Out of this Reality reviews
A search for ultimate power, innocent blood spilt. The BAU find themselves in a strange world of wizards and murder, a prophacy is to be fulfilled, and one of their own may be at risk. SLASH, rating may go up later.
Criminal Minds - Rated: K+ - English - Supernatural - Chapters: 24 - Words: 29,948 - Reviews: 171 - Favs: 19 - Follows: 19 - Updated: 1/20/2009 - Published: 1/9/2008 - Complete
Disecting a Family reviews
He had lost the family that had been his own, so he sought vengeance on theirs. But was vengeance all that he sought in them, or was there something more?
Criminal Minds - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 25 - Words: 31,423 - Reviews: 262 - Favs: 59 - Follows: 30 - Updated: 1/3/2008 - Published: 11/4/2007 - Complete
Catch A Falling Star reviews
SEQUEL TO SOLD. Stars twinkle, they shine, they fall. People live, they fear, they die. The BAU is called to Maine for a new case, though they are still dealing with the affects of their last.
Criminal Minds - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 10 - Words: 11,185 - Reviews: 87 - Favs: 42 - Follows: 14 - Updated: 11/3/2007 - Published: 10/14/2007 - Complete
Sold reviews
He only wanted a gallon of milk, but he ended up in the wrong place, at the right time
Criminal Minds - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 21 - Words: 25,919 - Reviews: 201 - Favs: 128 - Follows: 37 - Updated: 9/14/2007 - Published: 7/31/2007 - Complete
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