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Author has written 53 stories for Kingdom Hearts, Bleach, Tokyo Mew Mew, Final Fantasy X, Anime X-overs, Final Fantasy VII, inFAMOUS, and No More Heroes.
Chiharu / 19 / ESFP (Extraverted Sensing with Introverted Feeling) / 6'4” / Capricorn / Chicago IL. / Type 3w2 SO
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—Yes, I still abhor writing and reading poetry and yes, I still hate spiders.
I'm very lackadaisical and most things don't bother me and I've been faced with some really vexing situations, yes. Forthwith, you'll find that I write without an iota of shame; that's because I truly have no shame and I surrendered that to my writing years ago. I used to be hesitant and now I simply just don't care, so beware, for I've scared a lot of people off and I'm always eager to press and break your limits. I am going to school for both English and Music, majoring in English Teacher Concentration and trying to obtain an Instrumental Performance Major in Guitar as well (I've been playing since I was six) and it's all going extremely well for me as of late. I plan to get my masters in Music and eventually my doctor philosophiae in English.
The human psyche intrigues me greatly and that's what most of my writing really deals with, the breakdown of sanity and the pushing of it, human destructiveness both to self and to the others around them, twisted and matted concepts of love that usually get dolled up into poignant fairytales and stories tacked with happily ever afters but love isn't really like that and it's a morbid fascination I have, for the root of all evil lies therein of the abstract concept, when autonomy is surrendered in exchange for the 'love' of those who wield power over us because of the fleeting emotion. To share in that subjugating power, we create a false self, a pleasing-to-others image of ourselves that springs from powerful and deep-seated hopes of being loved and fears of being injured and humiliated. Love and subjugation, love and insanity—these go hand and hand and I love to explore the absolutely horrendous aspects of an otherwise blissful phenomenon. That being said, most of the things I write are very dark. Not a place for all you queasy stomachs out there.
I am that person who is enamored with the mind of serial killers, their goals, the things that they strive to achieve and the methods in which they take to make those means whether the cause is a deep abhorrence of something or a frightening obsession, to reach my hand into the cavities of their minds and pull something out that's amazing—that's what I absolutely love to write. Most of my characters are extremely batshit in some way, shape or form and it's very pleasing to me because I know the boundaries of their psyche and how much tormenting it would take to absolutely snap it. Such a whimsical thing, watching someone juxtapose the person who they were years ago, retaining traits nothing like their past counterpart's because that's what happens when you're gripped by insanity. That porcelain vase has been broken and no matter how carefully put back together it is it will never be the same. Each time it crumbles the pieces get more ridged, more jagged, more arduous to piece together and break as many times as it will, the vase will eventually turn to dust. An irreparable mind. A broken train of thought. Every broken person has a story, no?
Enough about that, but we should talk about is what I like to write, which would be torture and fight scenes without a moment's hesitance. Torture deals greatly with what I've explained above, the fear of it, the idea of it, the concept of the torturer and the torturee, this unspoken chaining of the predator and prey because surely it's overbearing to be receiving such oddities and it has to hold some weight on the one administering the ample punishment. Yes, the methods are part of the fun, the thrill, but with torture there's lots of things going on with the mind that I love to pick and prod at, even more fun when both individuals in question are absolutely batshit. I like the medieval devices that were used to get information out of people, but torture isn't always about getting information out of someone, it's about asserting power over someone, control, dominance—sometimes the answers don't even matter. A steeled mind won't break to such extremities and that's what makes the chase so fun. Writing someone who is freaking out the whole time, while still amusing, is not as fun as the taunting and defiance. Really riles up a person. Fight scenes are just lovely little things, the tension, the fluidity of thoughts and movements, pure bliss! I'll write a fight scene any day of the week. I can finish them in no time flat and they really pump me up and get me excited. I suppose in retrospect fight scenes also tie into what I explained above and a bit into torture, but then fight scenes aren't too shy from torture anyway, hahaha. You can have torture in the fight scene, so I guess they go hand in hand.
Dark things with immensely risqué undertones probably describes my writing in a whole. And now I'm sure I scared off the lot of you but that's really all to this welcoming. I do believe in happy endings, but hahaha, happy endings. We'll see. For the future, I'm probably going to start rewriting CCFA from the ground up and replacing the chapters as I go, and this will—possibly—become my project for NaNoWriMo so look forward to my return!
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Favorite Song Currently: "St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues," La Dispute.
I'll weave your names into my ribcage; lock your hearts inside my chest.
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