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Author has written 16 stories for Powerpuff Girls, Legend of Zelda, Vocaloid, Harvest Moon, Diabolik Lovers/ディアボリックラヴァーズ, and Diabolik Lovers : Haunted Dark Bridal.
status: getting my ass kicked at work. playing undertale for the fourth time in a row. (megalovania intensifies throughout the night)
also I'm sorry to those of you who are waiting on me to finish my Dialovers fanfictions. I still adore shuyui, but I'm also extremely wrapped up for this year. I intend to make it up to you. But first, I must hurry up and become a nurse. Pray for me. And also, I still need to upload that one arc on p:v so. I need more time. I may or may not start writing about Undertale because that game is just *swoon*. I'm in love with this country again. :D Thank you, Toby Fox.
latest otp: charisk (uh oh I feel another passion coming on. blame DaMIIZ for getting me into it. i wanna write stories of these two I don't particularly care what gender they're depicted in. sans/frisk is also good. I love that Flowerfell fic.)
7/28/16: okay so I somehow managed to fuck up and erase my gaming file on pokemon y. BUT. I did manage to find lapras on pokemon go when I tried kayaking for the first time in years, and I scored that nursing scholarship I've been on my knees for this entire summer, and I've never been more proud to work at my hospital than ever. The staffing has been nothing short of supportive and innovative, and the nurses I look up to are simply angels. Respiratory therapy? Amazing. Physical therapists? Incredible. The surgeons and doctors? Completely badass and cool and what I wouldn't kill for their paychecks.
I love working with these people and the patients. It's been such an honor being able to help and support their recoveries. It won't be long until I get into the program.
Um... I also have a really dark premonition that Trump is going to win the 2016 election this year. *nervous* If it does happen, ackk...! Obama, please make your democratic appraisal speech deliver a hard impact to the audience!
and guess what. I got google fiber. -squealing- Can you believe the deal I got for 1000GB/minute?! That's like a futuristic dream come true!
hell yes. I'm pretty sure this is the best week of my life right now. And whoo, wouldn't you believe it, but I was just on the dark side of tumblr, and I gotta say, tumblr people are fucked up in the best way possible. They're so strange and morbid and full of it. I love it.
I am so excited for the upcoming epilogue I'll be presenting to you guys this fall. Your support has been fantastic over the years. It took me over a year to even figure out where the arc would be heading. I might consider continuing "I, Vocaloid" since I love that story so, so much even though I haven't mentioned it or updated that thing in years.
You guys, I know I haven't been a perfect kid over the years while being here. God knows how much of a spoiled bitch I was. Still, being here and pursuing my dream like this - it's more than anything I could've ever hoped for.
All I needed was a little time and space. Thank you, guys, to the ones who never gave up on me. Thank you for being patient with me when it would've been easier to just leave me alone.
Thank you, especially.
Out of all people here, you were the only one who told me stop feeling sorry for myself and actually do something if I wanted to so badly change. You did what you always did best: you always pushed the wrong buttons, but in this case... it was the right buttons. Even after years of knowing my ugly side, you never did once push me away, no, you pushed back even when I deliberately tried to make you hate me. The entire time, however, I was happy that someone like you recognized me as an equal in that strange, vitriolic relationship of ours.
But when I hit my lowest point of despair, when I finally hit rock bottom... you were the only one who took me seriously. It would've been so easy to just deliver the final blow or abandon me to my devices. You could've mocked me, laughed at me or made fun of me for being in such a sorry state, but you didn't.
Instead you showed me kindness. Compassion. Understanding.
And that was when I decided that I continue our rivalry, but this time, I wanted to do it right. I wanted to be your friend even though I thought I could never trust anyone again. I guess you could say that all along, all I really wanted was to be like you. Even back then, you were amazing as a writer, and as a person.
It took a while to get it together, but if you hadn't been there to tell me to actually try harder and push back against my fears, and that I needed time and space... well, let's just say that the hole I dug myself in would've been more difficult to climb out of all by myself.
And look at me now. Here I am, Naty, a full-fledged member of society who can actually do something for the sake of others. I'm on my way of becoming a nurse, maybe even a doctor. All thanks to the fact that you showed me compassion when I needed it most, so now, I want to be able to do the same for my patients and anyone else out there. I'm following your example, Naty.
For the first time in my life, I actually want to be able to help others.
because I know exactly how it feels like to feel bitter, helpless, and weak.
It's tough being a nurse... but what better reward is there than becoming the tough-as-nails medical professional on par with your dragon lady mother who's finally recognizing you as a formidable equal?
Haha, yes, my own mother has been my rival for many years even before you, Naty. Now I know exactly who I get my fiercely competitive streak from.
but seriously, i will be way better than her when it comes to following the patient care plan. I will defeat you, mother.
Thank you. You are my number one rival, and my friend. I know how often we used to fight back then, and even after you left, I tried to hide the fact that I missed having you around by saying mean things. For that, I know I already apologized to you about that, but... I really regret it. You could've just left me alone, but you directly reached out to me when no one else did. Thank you. You really have no idea how much it means to me. You are the reason I was able to change this much. As cliche as it sounds, I couldn't have made these positive changes without you.
We talked about a lot of things, about our futures, about things I've never even discussed with my friends, and you accepted it all. Every part of me. You mean the world to me.
thank you, naty. thank you.
I love you all. I mean it. We all went through a lot, didn't we? I realize I'm getting older, meaner, and busier, but hopefully, I can always come here if I ever need a smile. I finally found the reason why I loved writing here as a child, and I was finally able to remember those feelings.
I may not be the best writer out there, but there's always room to learn more from books and teachers , and this time, I'll be patient. I hope I can continue writing stories for you all.
this fall semester will never see me coming!
Just for fun, here's my UkeSeme quiz results.
You're a defenseless Uke.
Your perfect match is a Friendly Seme.
spread the tolerance
/i got that nurse scholarship everyone!!! I'm finally on board with the programm! woooo!! money for me! money for me! more money means all the tatas you can touch. slaving away this summer was completely worth it./
- A fandom is not meant to be a place to prove which couple is better, rather, it's how we can all form a community within tolerance, acceptance, and respect-
- What we should do is come closer to a mutual understanding instead of destroying each other and dividing ourselves apart -
- It took me a long time to learn this myself, but I believe that teaching other young fans that it's important to exercise tolerance and openmindedness... that's what truly makes a great fandom: a community -
- we just need to be patient with ourselves and others -
-on a note, I can believe any pairing is a good one when a good author pulls a good story off. Make a good fanfiction, and I can believe anything -
lenku: I'm amazed and a little disgruntled at how much I used to utterly despise this pairing, but now I think it's actually quite cute in its own quirky way. Len and Miku would make any pairing look good, but I can accept that they look surprisingly good together as well. It took me a while to get over my own butthurt of childish intolerance and petty jealousy. I guess I got too emotionally invested back then. haha. It's a little embarrassing. Then I realized I never really hated lenku, what I really hated was my own close-mindedness and inability to tolerate others' preferences. I learned this from someone who I used to know... that in the end, I was really jealous of her because she was able to do what I could not: accept differences and try to appreciate them for what they were. That confusion and jealousy of mine is what clouded my emotional judgement. I inflicted wounds upon myself and those who I cared for. I take responsibility for those actions. I can honestly say that this pairing really is a good one since I've finally gone out of my way to see those talented writers out there who write about these two, and it's quite beautiful when at its best.
kaimiku: They look very good together. I remember stumbling upon their old videos together, and I always thought they made a really good fit. I do feel like it lacks a bit of depth as of late though. Their old romance videos were utterly hilarious though with the notable pics that had kaito stalking miku like a perverted freak.
kaimei: I feel like their relationship is a strong dynamic in many fanworks. Meiko wins hands down on owning kaito's... vanilla lump. They're utterly adorable together when their tender moments strike. I feel like Meiko would be one of those "bros" Kaito would trust the most out of all his friends even though Meiko might want to be seen more than just one of the guys. She is a girl, after all.
lukapo: go google it. Gakupo is usually a perving eggplant loving freak for poor Luka and I love it, especially when Luka beats on him afterwards.
rinku: hmm... doki doki yuri garden anyone?
negitoro: MMHMMMM NOW WE'RE TALKING I run into a bunch of girls who adore this pairing on tumblr. They are crazy. I can also totally picture Miku getting a crush on Luka after the latter treats her coldly yet leaves an everlasting impression on her. for some reason I've just always loved the idea of Miku as a shameless yet hilarious lovable perverted lesbian for Luka, who would probably smack her in the face after several farfetched attempts at gaining her affections.
kailen: :3 I swear to god I love these two in their pairing works. They're usually downright hilarious despite some erotic cringe.
gakulen: teeheeeheee. i am guilty as charged.
lukalen: I wonder why there aren't much works of these two. I find these two quite charming together
mikuorin: To be completely honest, I love these babies to pieces, but I've literally never been able to quite see them in a romantic light. I always somehow manage to make their relationships in my works beautifully platonic yet memorable. They would look good, too, otherwise. I'm not against any pairing anymore.
dellhaku: ...Well, I haven't thought much about this pairing to be honest?
neruhaku: They're an adorable pair.
nerulen: Hmm, it could work.
lenrin: I fell in love with these two before I fell in love with Vocaloid itself. I can't explain why I love these two as a couple. Do I even need a reason? Well, I mean, even if they are not represented as lovers in other works, I always just love seeing them together. Their relationship is one of a kind, and I love the creative freedom out there. There's so many interpretations, and there's so many beautiful yet heartbreaking stories of these two. This pairing is my first and probably my only true love. They are the only ones who've managed to bring me to tears with their songs. And that's saying something, because I've never cried at anything except when these two break my heart. It's pretty obvious how much I enjoy viewing them from a philosophical standpoint. I slaved years away creating stories about them. I truly just love these two. There's no other way for me to describe it right now. They have always managed to be completely endearing to me as a couple. I literally can't explain it in words but... it was like these two were made for each other. Crazy, right? They're just so special to each other.
Additionally, I adore Rin. She has always been my favorite ever since I was a young girl. This love of mine for them wasn't always so sweet. I've had bitter moments, but in the end, these two are my sunshine. They have brought me joy and smiles, and they come in a box. That's proof of their soulmate bond, man.