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Author has written 17 stories for Powerpuff Girls, Legend of Zelda, Vocaloid, Harvest Moon, Diabolik Lovers/ディアボリックラヴァーズ, and Diabolik Lovers : Haunted Dark Bridal.
oranssi-rin keeps me sane. Her loving support and friendship has been a rapport throughout the craziness of life and death.
hey. to my best of friends and best of comrades, I couldn't be where I was without you. We went through thick and thin, and I can say that everything's alright. Even when I made mistakes, you didn't give up on me. You refused to let me throw myself away. If I sounded ignorant or intolerant or insensitive, you helped me grow past that and reminded me I was better than this.
For the first time in my life, I know who I am and I know what I want.
It's never been more clear. I know what to do.
"Look around, look around, at how lucky we are to be alive right now..." - Alexander Hamilton (Hamilton, the musical)
Hey, Naty. Emma. And to bonnie too.
Thank you for believing that I'm worth the fight.
By the way, I know you DL readers are probably aching for more updates, so I'm sorry for making you wait so long. But life is pretty crazy right now, and I just don't know how to continue withering or RMD as of the moment. I need to ask for your patience because any work worth reading needs time to be developed. And to be honest, I'm not interested in continuing at the moment. I'm going to be very busy this summer, so you could say I'm not going to be very active.
again, I'm sorry. I know you guys love my DL stories, but rushing me right now isn't going to do anything. I'll try to keep you updated, but like I said. Life gets busy, and sometimes we need to make some compromises. Thank you again for following the development of the DL story section.
latest otp: yuishu
why? well there are several reasons which I'd have to explain in-depth, but let me share my insight on how I really see Yui. The comical reason is because it's humorous how she's so caring, hardworking and eager to please, while he's lazy and doesn't give a damn about anything, really.
this is an au theory, and while different personalities vary in different DL storylines, I consider this my default Yui. I explore the psychological issues behind personalities within my stories. Note= this is fanmade theory and purely speculation. These are the musings of a shuyui fangirl.
SPOILERS AHEAD.If you don't want to know about the deep character analysis exploring Yui's character until the story itself reveals more about her, please turn back now. the content below is a character profile for Yui taken directly from withering. Some of it in the story will be adapted as the story is still undergoing development.
Yui's Psyche (withering)
"It's not that I'm afraid of dying... it's just that I'm afraid of dying for nothing. I just don't want to be hated."
The medieval era is a harsh world to live in.
On the surface, Yui appears to be no more than your sweet, ordinary yet bumbling sister who works hard regardless of her fumbles. But underneath that, her self-sacrificing kindness is a front to mask her feelings of crushing inadequacy and loneliness. While she is introduced as a pure and selfless girl, she's really just been using that image her whole life out of desperation for approval and purpose due to her strict, isolated Catholic upbringing that she should be a saintly woman and unaffiliated with earthly desires. Though, this aspect of her personality is largely influenced by reading fairytales introducing all-loving, kind heroines who find true happiness in the end.
The pressures of remaining untouched and wholly devoted to spiritual guidance rests heavily on her shoulders in order to succeed her father's duties as both vampire hunter and priestess (unbeknownst to her), as such, she has lived an isolated childhood. She's harshly judged by her peers for failing to display holy divination as members of the Holy Order should.
She's frequently insecure and crumbles under crushing expectations. While her kindness is genuine, her reckless actions more or less prove she's genuinely suicidal so that when she dies, people will remember her as a good person no one could ever hate. Although you see instances in which she fights to preserve her life, it's mainly because she doesn't want to die in foolish ways to be remembered. Yui wants to be thought of as a noble and kind person, however, she's willing to risk her own life as well as others' in order to accomplish this.
While seen as innocent, gentle, and compassionate to the point that several of her classmates start calling her "angel", this is invoked as she is actively trying to cultivate the reputation of an ingénue to an unhealthy degree.
Yui craves love and attention after being ostracized for most of her life. She thus created a loving persona that is impossible not to adore but still hiding an enormous burden of self-depreciation. Her true personality is much more depressed and cynical, even stating perfect, all-loving heroines don't exist in the real world and referring to herself as an empty shell, but she's still caring and sensitive of others despite what she claims.
Meanwhile, Shu is arguably the most perceptive and intelligent out of all his brothers, so he is able to see past her façade and diagnose that Yui mainly stayed with him to look for Eden in order to search for a heroic and tragic way to be remembered: helping and loving the monsters they are even if it kills her. Since calling her out on her martyr complex, Shu says she might have good intentions, but her subconscious need to prove her morality to others is going to get her killed uselessly.
Because he is everything she's not and more, Yui is silently resigned and envious of him seeing as he once had all the traits her father ever wanted out of her. She's very torn between admiring him and feeling enmity for him due to his complex personality.
While initially feeling nothing but antipathy, for her, Shu is later impressed and amused when she admits that while she allowed him to hurt her when, she, too, had been manipulating them for her own gain. He calls her a scary woman.
While she's neither a unsympathetic cold fish, or a remorseless sadist, Yui has trouble understanding or even caring about others' problems, especially the vampire men she's around. Though this is justified seeing how badly they initially treated her.
Despite Shu and Yui initially appearing to be on polar opposites of each other, Yui eventually drops the act after further interactions between them. They're polar opposites because Shu's cold, raw indifference starkly contrasts with Yui's compassion, early benevolence and sociable nature. At the same time, they're more alike than they think.
Shu even compares their similarity with reflections in a mirror. "Though mirrors don't really show the true you. What you see is merely the inversion of you. Rather than similarity it's actually quite different." (THIS IS HOW I ALSO VIEW THE KAGAMINES REGARDING THE CONTROVERSY ON THEIR SHIP. THEY ARE NOT THE SAME. IT'S A RED HERRING TO TRICK PEOPLE WHO CAN'T LOOK PAST THE SURFACE. I AM FOREVER A SHIPPER ON DECK FOR LENRIN.)
Ironically, Yui is a lot like the actual canon game persona than she thinks. Her heart is just as big, and she ultimately is as kind and compassionate as the façade she put, only that she doesn't sugarcoat anything like her game persona did, and she at least is sincere with herself and her own needs and gets past being the doormat for everyone that tries to take advantage of her pacifistic nature.
(Note: I don't consider Yui and Ayato, etc. as opposites because the vampires show active interest/ambitious lifestyles to be acknowledged by some higher power. Not that I'm saying they wouldn't share similarities. shu-bae just doesn't give a shit about what ANYONE thinks and shows the world he does as he pleases without acknowledging the passage of time. He lives free of law, abides by anarchy and probably far more self-serving than the rest of his brothers combined save for Laito. But underneath he still has hidden depths enough to be considered an interesting, conflicting character. The fact that he's unwilling to do anything shows he's even less functional than anyone else in the group. That, my friends, is a failure to thrive.)
Ahem, that said, I believe Yui and Shu would be more compatible for each other due to the fact that they're able to relate to one another far easier compared to the rest of the cast, not that I'm saying YuixOther wouldn't make a great couple, either. I know both of them are very flawed individuals (well, Yui is as well in my light). Shu is far more manipulative than others give him credit for, and he's not initially "nice" or "humane", but largely dismissive. While he never inflicts physical violence on Yui, he is capable of being emotionally abusive, and this attitude stems from how he was treated in the same way during his childhood.
Again, this is just my opinion. You don't have to like it, and you don't have to agree with me. If you ship Yui with Ayato or Kou, or Reiji, that's great! I can see the appeal. It's just that there's always going to be a deep reason why I will always ship characters beyond superficial appearances: the possibilities are endless.
random thought of the day:
when people in the same boat share a common goal, they're more likely to cooperate and work together to achieve their goal. That makes an amazing friendship possible.
welcome to my special hell.
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