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Joined 11-29-06, id: 1172503, Profile Updated: 02-15-12
Author has written 15 stories for D.Gray-Man, Kingdom Hearts, and Supernatural.

Name: Silly Blue, but feel free to call me Steffi :D (or any other nick name that I go by, like Effi or Smu.)

Gender: female

Age: 25

Occupation: MA Student at the University of Basel

Nationality: Swiss (German speaking part)



If you want to chat to me, just send me a PM or get in touch with me via LJ or dA!

I mainly write for the D.Gray-Man fandom. But from time to time you might find me writing for different fandoms, most likely Kingdom Hearts, Supernatural or maybe Kuroshitsuji (one day).

Pairings I support and you might find me writing or hinting at in my stories:


- Kanda/Allen
- Tyki/Allen
- Rabi/Linali


- Dean/Castiel
- Dean/Sam
- Sam/Castiel

and a lot more ;3

Things that I am interested in and like to explore in fanfiction is similar to what interests me in my studies: Victorian England and its social class system, relationship, gender issues, family, the effects of war, dark and broody stuff, strange plots. Ah, and genderbending. There haven't been many fandoms where I've resisted the temptation of genderbending.

As far as ratings go I like to stick to what feels most comfortable. I do like suggestive themes therefore I prefer to rate most stories a bit higher than might be necessary. An M-rating will most likely have sexuality as a topic somewhere in the course of the story. I'm never that graphic when it comes to sexuality or violence, and you probably won't find vulgar/ crude language in my stories - it's not something I need in an academic context and I haven't put much effort into learning elaborate ways to swear ;3

I don't currently work with a beta-reader because my updates don't follow a schedule at all. However, I am open for (constructive) criticism or discussions.

I went through many, many fandoms since 1998 (when I started liking Manga and Anime) but I've never been active in anything until I've dared posting DGM fanfiction. Though, I still would not call my involvement in fandom active, as I am mainly a shy person that posts fanfiction or fanart from time to time.

I'm the process of broadening my horizon, so maybe you can expect a wider variety of interests, but maybe I'll stick to my few fandoms and only temporarily flirt with others. ;3

What I currently engage in: Supernatural, D.Gray-Man and Kuroshitsuji. Thought right now my focus seems to be entirely on Supernatural.

hearts for everyone


Ivory Tales is currently my major project. It has Allen Walker as a female character that was not abandoned and taken in by Mana as a child. Even though the story starts with her joining the Black Order and follows the events in the manga up to the beginning of Vol. 19, the change of background has a great impact on how Allen (Ellen) behaves! While family seems to be a big topic in DGM, I do work with it in a different way! Despite my expectations for the first story published online, it turned into quite an epic...! :3 (What was totally expected though is that it's a Kanda/Allen story!)

In Noah of Destiny I wanted to write a story about Allen Walker being Kanda's "that person". As usual the story has girl!Allen in it, Kanda/ Allen is the pairing the story works to establish, but it has to compete against other things. Other than Ivory Tales its plot is mostly original and it rarely has light-hearted moments. This story is not my priority right now.

I’ve also written a couple of one-shots, mostly Kanda/Allen, that you will find below. Not everything I write goes up on the internet, while other one-shots are published anonymously. There are also some projects that might be posted when they’re at a decent length and I know that I won’t abandon them halfway through!

While it might take me long to update, I don’t actually abandon stories. If there is no pressure then I tend to work slowly or just let some projects rest for a couple of weeks, months...


From time to time I draw. I've also done some pieces for my fanfictions Ivory Tales and Noah of Destiny. To spare you the trouble of looking through my gallery for illustrations (you still can do that, I'd be happy) I include the links to the various pics here:

Noah of Destiny: Ellen Walker in her Noah Outfit

Noah of Destiny: How the Noah of Destiny might look like (opposed to Ellen)

Noah of Destiny: Chara Sheet of Kanda

Noah of Destiny: Chara Sheet of Ellen

Noah of Destiny: Chapter 24 Illustration

Noah of Destiny Illustration "Path of Fate"

Of course, there are more random DGM pictures in there, as well as some KH things and original work.

UPDATE (15/02/2012)

Uploaded a short SPN one-shot~ University starts soon, so I probably need to get some writing done before Monday!

The Price of Failure by Shiin reviews
Two years after the events at the start of Season 7, Dean dreams about a fallen angel. He is finally forced to confront himself about his actions during the rise of the Leviathans, and to face the consequences of those actions.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,596 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 6 - Published: 11/13/2011 - Dean W., Castiel - Complete
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Snow Tracks reviews
Sam and Dean go sledding for the first time in years. Castiel would be happy to watch them from afar, but Dean wants him to be part of the experience. Light Dean/Cas. One-shot.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,935 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 1 - Published: 2/15/2012 - Dean W., Castiel - Complete
Ivory Tales reviews
Kanda was, in certain ways, very traditional: in his opinion women had to be kept away from harm and war. But then he receives the mission to make an exorcist out of the young aristocrat Ellen Walker and things seem to change. Semi-AU, Yullen, Girl!Allen
D.Gray-Man - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 75 - Words: 402,606 - Reviews: 718 - Favs: 333 - Follows: 286 - Updated: 1/22/2012 - Published: 2/8/2008 - Allen Walker, Kanda Yuu
Dream's Afterglow reviews
It takes Dean years to even dream of a perfect life. And in the end, when all the battles have been fought, his reality is not that different from his dream. Dean/Castiel. One-shot.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,709 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 7 - Published: 1/20/2012 - Dean W., Castiel - Complete
In the Shadow of Your Personal God reviews
Of all the weird situations Dean's been into, suddenly being God's Consort probably tops them all. Dean/girl!Castiel, God!Castiel. One-shot.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 11,727 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 34 - Follows: 7 - Published: 1/15/2012 - Castiel, Dean W. - Complete
A Promise in Gold reviews
Between the Apocalypse and resisting having their bodies used against their will, Dean finds it hard to ignore the advent of Christmas. This might be their last Christmas, yet again, and Dean tries to make it special, normal, for Sam. Dean, Girl!Sam.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 12,371 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 4 - Published: 12/25/2011 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Noah of Destiny reviews
Kanda, newly appointed General, is given the prediction that he will find the person he has been looking for; the person responsible for his very own curse. But he wouldn’t have expected her to be what she was – a Noah. Girl!Allen, Semi-AU.
D.Gray-Man - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 30 - Words: 179,845 - Reviews: 212 - Favs: 184 - Follows: 151 - Updated: 8/6/2011 - Published: 3/23/2008 - Kanda Yuu, Allen Walker
Gravity reviews
After the clash with Braig, Terra tries to make amends for having used Darkness. But there's a dark gravity at work, pulling them towards a similar direction. It was a gravity that Terra could not defy and Braig didn't even want to try / Braigxfem!Terra
Kingdom Hearts - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 15,136 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/26/2011 - Terra, Braig - Complete
Glow reviews
"Death was then more like a state of being or not being, a state of feeling or not feeling. Overall, death felt very familiar." - Lea/Axel's thoughts inbetween existing and not existing. One-shot.
Kingdom Hearts - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,458 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Published: 2/19/2011 - Lea, Axel - Complete
Affection and Insanity reviews
My little contribution to Yullen Week; six short unconnected one-shots taking Kanda and Allen through minor cases of insanity and affection, make-believe and silliness on their way to the road's end and maybe even to a new beginning.
D.Gray-Man - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 6 - Words: 20,507 - Reviews: 48 - Favs: 38 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 6/6/2009 - Published: 6/1/2009 - Kanda Yuu, Allen Walker
After the Fall reviews
Even after the war has ended, Tyki and Ellen remain bound to each other. Because no matter whether Light or Dark prevails, there will always be a loser and the world following the Fall will not be kind. Girl!Allen, Tyki Ellen, not quite a two-shot.
D.Gray-Man - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 9,946 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 43 - Follows: 18 - Updated: 3/26/2009 - Published: 3/16/2009 - Tyki Mikk, Allen Walker - Complete
Hunting Season reviews
There was a season for everything. Tyki decided there was also one for Kanda and Allen to be reunited. In a way that Tyki deemed appropriate. Allen was not sure whether to be flattered or appalled. Hinted Tyki x Allen & Kanda x Allen. One-shot.
D.Gray-Man - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,581 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 15 - Published: 2/15/2009 - Allen Walker, Kanda Yuu - Complete
Can't take back that promise reviews
They knew that Rabi pretended. However, when he decides to turn his back on them they send Kanda to retrieve what was rightfully theirs. After all, Rabi had made a fatal promise and its chains were eternally binding. Oneshot. Maybe slight Rabi/Kanda
D.Gray-Man - Rated: T - English - Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,292 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 1/31/2009 - Kanda Yuu, Lavi - Complete
Invocating Memories reviews
Kanda survived the war, others didn’t. He was never one to care, but an unanswered question haunts him and the dead refuse to be forgotten. He needs to get answers even if it means travelling back in time. Kanda-centric. Post-War Setting. Two-shot.
D.Gray-Man - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 2 - Words: 8,285 - Reviews: 36 - Favs: 105 - Follows: 23 - Updated: 5/11/2008 - Published: 5/2/2008 - Kanda Yuu, Allen Walker - Complete
Roses reviews
Kanda gets engaged to the only daughter of an old, noble family. He agrees, but the girl seems to be mentally ill. Seeing as how she longed for a single rose in the past, growing some himself might help her. Girl!Allen. Yullen. AU. One-shot
D.Gray-Man - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 9,165 - Reviews: 41 - Favs: 139 - Follows: 27 - Published: 4/20/2008 - Kanda Yuu, Allen Walker - Complete
Lights in the Dark reviews
Kanda and Allen get trapped in an Innocence-created, artificial reality ruled by eternal night. They need to find a way back out together before their remaining light disappears or they will be swallowed by darkness as well. One-shot. Yullen.
D.Gray-Man - Rated: T - English - Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 11,260 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 64 - Follows: 16 - Published: 4/5/2008 - Allen Walker, Kanda Yuu - Complete
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