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Joined 06-17-00, id: 11801, Profile Updated: 02-27-12
Author has written 11 stories for Digimon, Yu-Gi-Oh, Final Fantasy IX, and Ouran High School Host Club.

The writer formerly known as artes - on a whim, I decided to change my penname to Estheim here.


February 27, 2012. I am sorry to admit that my previous promise of working on my fanfiction as quickly as possible did not pan out - problems in life turned into an onslaught shortly after I made that promise. However, I am at a point now where I think I can work on writing slowly but surely.

I have a lot of new ideas for stories now on top of my older ideas, and I intend to get at least some of them written up. These include stories for Ouran High School Host Club as well as stories for Final Fantasy XIII and Final Fantasy XIII-2. There are a lot of "what if" ideas floating around for all of these.

As before, if you have a Dreamwidth account, feel free to subscribe to my writing community - zips[dot]dreamwidth[dot]org - on there. I post snippets of my works in progress there from time to time as well as my completed stories, so it not just another venue to find my work but also somewhere to get some previews of what strange, messed up ideas are floating around in my head.

Best wishes, everyone, and thank you again for your patience!


Works in Progress
Or Everything That Matters Breaks in Two . A sequel to In Place of Modesty; confidence in their own ability to keep themselves under wraps can lead the Hitachiin brothers to disaster. What can they do when it seems that everything that matters to them might break apart? (Ouran High School Host Club . HikaKao, mentions of HikaHaru and TamaHaru . In Progress/rewriting)
A Scattered Dream
. He'd never once followed through with any threat he'd made to Kaoru, but there were first times for everything. It was just too bad that no one ever told him that not every first was a good thing. (Ouran High School Host Club . Hikaru/Kaoru, Hikaru/Haruhi, Tamaki/Haruhi . In Progress/rewriting)
Every Breath We Drew . Every breath he drew felt hollow because it was not accompanied by an exhalation and his hand was cold from remaining empty for too long. A piece of him was missing, and he needed to get it back. (Ouran High School Host Club . Hikaru/Kaoru, Hikaru/Haruhi, Tamaki/Haruhi . In Progress)
Just Keep Holding On . Sometimes, hoping and dreaming just isn't enough; in moments of weakness, she needed someone there, so he was. Even when everything told him this was a bad idea, he couldn't bring himself to deny her request. (Final Fantasy XIII-2 . Hope/Serah, Snow/Serah . In Progress)
And Ever So Tightly In His Grasp . Everyone he cared about disappeared, one-by-one. He couldn't take it anymore; he couldn't take losing anyone else. So he held on as tightly as he could even as he pushed away without ever realizing it. (Final Fantasy XIII-2 . Maqui/Hope . In Progress)

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Aeonis Infinitus by In Paradisum reviews
It begins in innocuous conversations and subtle glances. It isn't long before those turn to separate realizations and kept secrets. A series of glances into Noel and Hope's quickly deepening friendship, and their struggles to come to terms with their changing feelings, whether understood or not. Noel/Hope, set in the Yaschas Massif, Augusta Tower, and Academia. 80% canon.
Final Fantasy XIII-2 - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 6 - Words: 60,225 - Reviews: 36 - Favs: 60 - Follows: 65 - Updated: 3/14/2014 - Published: 2/26/2012 - Noel K., Hope E. - Complete
Apokalupsis Eschaton by Shamera reviews
Ten million people decided to remain on Cocoon, until one day they all disappeared without a trace, leaving residents on Gran Pulse bewildered and terrified. Kinematics-verse.
Final Fantasy XIII - Rated: T - English - Suspense/Drama - Chapters: 5 - Words: 45,293 - Reviews: 28 - Favs: 32 - Follows: 39 - Updated: 7/27/2012 - Published: 1/5/2011 - Hope, Maqui
Fragments of a Distant Future by Genis Aurion reviews
Oneshot. Noel wanted to make himself useful. Hope just didn't want to be left behind. Hope/Noel.
Final Fantasy XIII-2 - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,912 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 52 - Follows: 3 - Published: 2/23/2012 - Hope E., Noel K. - Complete
Derivation by Shamera reviews
Post-game. Politics is a powerful thing on Pulse, and a lot more irritating than what Maqui wanted to think about. But as Bartholomew Estheim lobbies for l'Cie rights, Maqui has to learn that people don't always like to see reason.
Final Fantasy XIII - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 23,862 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 34 - Follows: 7 - Updated: 12/31/2010 - Published: 12/23/2010 - Maqui, Hope - Complete
Definitons of a Forbidden Fruit by 30thCenturyBreakdown reviews
'After all, it's tricky when you fall in love with the Forbidden Fruit, knowing that the problem is not whether they actually love you back, but knowing that it would be forbidden for them to do so...' HikaxKao One-Shot, contains Twincest..
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,000 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 31 - Follows: 1 - Published: 9/12/2010 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H. - Complete
Little Things by yaoikoibito reviews
It’s the small moments; the little things that add meaning to our lives. It’s the small quirk of lips from a small smile, it’s the soft laugh that resonate from someone’s heart. It’s the softest of kisses that are engraved in our memories. Slash, Incest
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 14 - Words: 12,996 - Reviews: 92 - Favs: 34 - Follows: 25 - Updated: 8/9/2010 - Published: 12/11/2009 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H.
Happy Ending by Thatzly reviews
Sometimes it's easier to leave massages to the professionals, especially if you have a horny younger brother. Twincest. One-Shot.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,120 - Reviews: 32 - Favs: 119 - Follows: 9 - Published: 6/30/2010 - Kaoru H., Hikaru H. - Complete
Scribbles and Parentheses by somerdaye reviews
Unsent emails. All addressed to someone who won't reply. Ever. Rated for language and mature content.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,153 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 5 - Published: 6/14/2010 - Kaoru H., Hikaru H.
Kinematics by Shamera reviews
Maqui may be older, but Hope was the more mature one... even if they were both stupid enough to take a joyride in the wilderness of Gran Pulse without telling anyone. Post-game. FFXIIIkink challenge response, a take on the Maqui/Hope pairing.
Final Fantasy XIII - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship/Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 15,317 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 52 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 6/1/2010 - Published: 5/26/2010 - Maqui, Hope - Complete
Outside by silencingthelambs reviews
A snapshot of life with Hikaru and Kaoru.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 454 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 10 - Published: 5/19/2010 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H. - Complete
Through a Looking Glass by TheGreatOtaku reviews
A story of the Cheshire cat, and his punishment for his crimes against the Black Queen. Written for a prompt on SHINE
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: K+ - English - Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,253 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 16 - Published: 1/23/2010 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H. - Complete
Distance by Voidance reviews
One forgets, another remembers. HikaKao. Minor KyoTama.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 3,955 - Reviews: 56 - Favs: 33 - Follows: 41 - Updated: 1/9/2010 - Published: 12/30/2009 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H.
By The Light of Dead Stars by Tangerine-Doll reviews
There is a point where a thing eludes a person, spiraling downward of its own volition, force dragging everything along the way. One no longer asks if he will or will not, because the choice is no longer his right to make.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 8 - Words: 16,085 - Reviews: 37 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 11 - Updated: 12/10/2009 - Published: 7/21/2009 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H.
Apex by Laimielle reviews
Hikaru's promise was destined to be broken the moment it left his lips.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 13,565 - Reviews: 35 - Favs: 71 - Follows: 5 - Published: 11/24/2009 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H. - Complete
It Bled Into Both Colors by Laimielle reviews
I've decided that if this is all I have, if this is all I end up with, I could live for its memory. HikaruxKaoru
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,462 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 50 - Follows: 4 - Published: 10/5/2009 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H. - Complete
108 by norowareta reviews
One hundred and eight ways to get through a scary situation… Kaoru couldn’t call to mind one. That was why he was trying to laugh at it, but there was a reason why the laughter was tinged with hysteria. He was petrified. Complete
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 11 - Words: 28,826 - Reviews: 205 - Favs: 182 - Follows: 85 - Updated: 8/3/2009 - Published: 8/3/2008 - Kaoru H., Hikaru H. - Complete
Infinite Amber by Moonchild10 reviews
Weariness colors your voice, but nevertheless your golden eyes, hazed with nearby dreams, lock with mine. "Forever? What are you going on about, Kaoru?" :Oneshot Hitachiincest:.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: T - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,281 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 32 - Follows: 5 - Published: 5/20/2009 - Kaoru H., Hikaru H.
Unfocused by SilverScarecrow reviews
Doubt thou the stars are fire. Doubt that the sun doth move. Doubt truth to be a liar. But never doubt my love. Hika/Karu angsty twincest two-shot. full summary inside UPDATED! Chapter is up with a lemon twist!
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 5,829 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 37 - Follows: 13 - Updated: 3/28/2009 - Published: 1/28/2009 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H. - Complete
Distance by norowareta reviews
Looking at him now… made feelings squirm in his stomach that he couldn’t put a name to. Looking at him now… it felt bizarre.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 861 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 4 - Published: 1/18/2009 - Kaoru H., Hikaru H. - Complete
The Subject by Ocean reviews
Jou stumbles upon Yuugi in the park one cold winter's afternoon, only to bear witness to a typical day in the lives of Yami and Yuugi. Poor Jou. Mention of YY {continuous}
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: T - English - Humor - Chapters: 2 - Words: 4,846 - Reviews: 37 - Favs: 53 - Follows: 19 - Updated: 10/8/2007 - Published: 1/23/2005
Accounts of Abduction by Gemini Star01 reviews
Kouichi is stalked, assulted and kidnapped by a myserious stranger. But why is this man so facinated with him? And how is everyone else taking it? An experement in veiwpoints.
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 10 - Words: 24,077 - Reviews: 140 - Favs: 89 - Follows: 55 - Updated: 12/13/2006 - Published: 9/26/2005 - Kouichi K./Koichi, Kouji M./Koji
A Ship Sailing Over the Edge of the World by Scribbler reviews
Overtones of YxYY. Several years after going to America, Anzu returns to Domino acting very strangely. She calls Yuugi, saying she has something important to tell him, and no, she isn't declaring her undying love for him. Weepy fic.
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: T - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 13,846 - Reviews: 84 - Favs: 102 - Follows: 2 - Published: 5/5/2005 - Yūgi M., Anzu M./Tea G. - Complete
Flute Player by Higuchimon reviews
Yuugi's been taking music lessons at school, and the Puzzle Spirit likes what he hears quite a bit.
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,698 - Reviews: 49 - Favs: 163 - Follows: 16 - Published: 2/28/2005 - Yūgi M., Yami Yūgi - Complete
In The Library by Higuchimon reviews
In Ophanimon's library, Kouichi has much on his mind, and Kouji wants to get to the bottom of it all.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,090 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 44 - Follows: 5 - Published: 2/23/2005 - [Kouji M./Koji, Kouichi K./Koichi] - Complete
White Winged Dove by Ocean reviews
Yuugi is called to the hospital in the middle of his date to the bedside of his best friend, only to be faced with the possibility of loosing him. A friendship fic between Yuugi and Ryou, with mentions of YY {complete}
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,668 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 4 - Published: 2/16/2005 - Complete
The Day We Lost by Ocean reviews
Some YY - How does it feel when you realize that you have lost your best friend? How do you react at that moment? When the situation is out of your hands? Anzu has to come to terms with the fact that she has lost her chance with Yuugi. {Complete}
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,095 - Reviews: 48 - Favs: 100 - Follows: 8 - Published: 4/7/2004 - Complete
Neutral Territory by E-sama the Llama reviews
Omi's trip to the library results in an unexpected meeting. Can two lonely teens find friendship and possibly love in the midst of "neutral territory"? (Omi/Nagi) (Yohji/Ken) (Brad/Schu) Shonen ai/Yaoi, Angst, Friendship, Romance, etc.
Weiss Kreuz - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 34 - Words: 134,302 - Reviews: 383 - Favs: 106 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 9/6/2003 - Published: 10/22/2002 - Omi T., Nagi N.
When it Rains it Pours by Ishida Takeru reviews
Chapter seven is now up!! Sheesh, its getting long. Anywho, Takeru thinks about what has happened to him previously, and makes up his mind to do something about it.
Digimon - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 10 - Words: 21,677 - Reviews: 87 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 4/26/2003 - Published: 12/30/2000 - Takeru T./TK, Ken I.
Knight of Swords by Ajora reviews
Oikawa's financial supporters decide that it's time to resume the Dark Seed Project. Since they still have one last Dark Seed, it's time to find a new child as a host. (work in progress, Takeru/Ken. Chpt 8 up)
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Drama/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 8 - Words: 46,973 - Reviews: 38 - Favs: 20 - Follows: 12 - Updated: 3/27/2003 - Published: 9/4/2001 - Takeru T./TK, Ryo A.
Yume Ja Nai Yo by Ashna reviews
Takeru is a sorcerer born, but his destiny is being decided in his dreams.(Yaoi, lime, magic & adorable Daisuke. Kenkeru.) HEY!! You all read HID, Onni-san and Cheesecake but not this?Read this anyone who likes my other stuff!This is my fave story of mine
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Romance/Fantasy - Chapters: 9 - Words: 16,405 - Reviews: 53 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 1/18/2002 - Published: 11/16/2001 - Ken I., Takeru T./TK
Gotterdammerung by Ajora reviews
The nature of a seed is to survive at all odds, even if it means hibernation. But when the conditions are just right, a seed will bloom. Ryo is on a race against time to find a way to save Ken from both the Dark Seed and Demon before it's too late. compl
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 11 - Words: 46,365 - Reviews: 42 - Favs: 19 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 8/28/2001 - Published: 6/9/2001 - Ken I., Ryo A. - Complete
Phantom Codewalker by Ajora reviews
The Kaiser swore he would never be defeated... and just in the event that he was, he set up a special safeguard. During the quest to protect the Holy Stones from Black Wargreymon, Ken accidently activates it and finds himself suffering the Kaiser's wrath.
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 5 - Words: 20,645 - Reviews: 47 - Favs: 19 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 5/19/2001 - Published: 4/20/2001 - Ken I., Takeru T./TK - Complete
Mexican Hot Chocolate by Kryssa reviews
Yamato and Ken have just finished their job in Mexico and are wandering around. Ken really wants to tell Yamato how he feels, but is still too uncertain of himself and afraid of rejection. However, with a little advice and a nice cafe, anything is possibl
Digimon - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,944 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 3 - Published: 5/16/2001 - Complete
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A Scattered Dream reviews
He'd never once followed through with any threat he'd made to Kaoru, but there were first times for everything. It was just too bad that no one ever told him that not every first was a good thing. HikaKao, HikaHaru, TamaHaru
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: M - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 2 - Words: 11,461 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 27 - Published: 8/14/2009 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H.
Or Everything That Matters Breaks In Two reviews
Confidence in their own ability to keep themselves under wraps can lead the Hitachiin brothers to disaster. What can they do when it seems that everything that matters to them might break apart? HikaKao, future mentions of HikaHaru and TamaHaru.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,660 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 12 - Published: 5/29/2009 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H.
In Place of Modesty reviews
It all started with an innocent suggestion that wasn't so innocent at all. Or perhaps it started with that kiss. HikaKao, twincest with a lemon flavor.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 20,847 - Reviews: 58 - Favs: 281 - Follows: 22 - Published: 4/18/2009 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H. - Complete
But You Never reviews
Foolishness made him turn back. Courage got him to move onward.
Final Fantasy IX - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,378 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 1/8/2007 - Zidane T. - Complete
Final Minute reviews
One night. Every person's life has at least one moment that truly defines them. A single instant that can change everything. Yuugi looks back on past regrets for that one, final minute. YYxY
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,706 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 13 - Published: 12/29/2006 - Yami Yūgi, Yūgi M. - Complete
I'll Cover You reviews
Sometimes, a promise is all that is necessary to keep fear at bay. [Yami no YuugiYuugi]
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,069 - Reviews: 25 - Favs: 38 - Follows: 9 - Published: 5/4/2006 - Yami Yūgi, Yūgi M. - Complete
I Am reviews
A look into the thoughts of the characters. The imbalances, the anger, the insecurities of a person's mind are best told only from his or her own perspective.
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 2 - Words: 4,242 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 3 - Updated: 11/10/2005 - Published: 7/28/2005
If the World Doesn't Want Me reviews
Mutou Yuugi had always wished for a chance at a different life. Someone should have told him, be careful what you wish for ... shounen ai: Yami no Yuugi x Yuugi
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 7 - Words: 0 - Reviews: 123 - Favs: 138 - Follows: 98 - Updated: 9/8/2005 - Published: 1/25/2005 - Yūgi M., Yami Yūgi
Just a Little Love reviews
Valentine's Day is closing in, and Yugi's been wondering if a confession will make all of his worries fade away. And what might White Day bring in response? Yami no Yuugi x Yuugi ... and others
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 0 - Reviews: 37 - Favs: 52 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 3/13/2005 - Published: 2/11/2005 - Yūgi M., Yami Yūgi - Complete
Without You reviews
Yuugi thinks about what his life is like with his other half gone. Light shounen ai, Yami no Yuugi x Yuugi
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,147 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 16 - Follows: 1 - Published: 2/12/2005 - Yūgi M. - Complete
Perfection Like a Shattered Glass reviews
He was perfect, to a point that no one could ever touch.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,632 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/28/2004 - Ken I. - Complete
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