Hey, I'm SymbolicMoons and this, everyone, is my profile. I thank you for visiting. I don't usually get around to writing much, but I'll try for you guys.
Let's see... some info, shall we?
- For starters, I am female.
- You can call me Syms or Mia. Whichever suits your fancy.
- I actually created my icon. I used a reference photo-still from the show and digitally painted it.
- I'm on tumblr! Here be the link: http://symbolic-everything.tumblr.com/
- I have the normal, boring hobbies of a introverted shut-in: reading, writing, drawing, et cetera.
- I am currently in college as an undergrad going for my degree in English. I know, shocker.
- My general attitude has often been described to me as being apathetic, solemn, collected, and/or serious. And while I am all of those things on occasion, for the most part I am usually just quiet and somewhat shy. Then again, it all depends on the situation. I can be weird, sarcastic, spazzy, depressed, et cetera.
- I do consider myself to be a fangirl. Perhaps, not as extreme as some others I have seen on the Internet, but I have been known to be rather bad. My one rule, however, is to never, ever get myself emotionally involved with anyone who is real and completely unattainable. I only let myself fall in love (or obsession, whatever) with the character(s) portrayed. For instance, I love Merlin with an undeniable passion from BBC's Merlin, but I simply will not allow myself to involve my feelings or associate them deeply with Colin Morgan. Now, this doesn't mean I will abstain completely from Colin (because, I mean, how could you?), but I cannot bring myself to inspect and dig through every aspect of his life, this man I do not even know. It's kind of frightening to me if I were to do it (not to disrespect others who do, because, hey, it's your life). So, I am in love with Harry Potter, not Daniel Radcliffe, Ron, not Rupert, Abed from Community, not Danni Pudi, et cetera, et cetera. Make sense?
- I'm a complete bookworm. I have a large personal library, which keeps growing and growing almost every time I manage to break away from my sister at the mall and visit the bookstore in the parking lot over. She calls it an obsession, I say it's a way to keep the compulsions and the voices from swallowing me whole into an abyss of endless darkness. :D
- My interests in terms of reading, music, and movies vary tremendously. There are some trends when it comes to movies and books (the general common trait is that they have to spark my interest) but my music tastes, if one were to glance at my iPod, are all over the map. This is because I tend to like songs, rather than albums or artists. So, if I find a song I enjoy, usually on youtube, or that I attach a particular meaning to, like to a favorite fanvideo with that song on youtube, I will obtain said song, but will not look much further into its creator(s). I think it's because I'm also really lazy.
- To end on a more solemn note, I will say one of the most important bits about me (and this may be considered a bit inappropriate, but it is a part of who I am) is that I have known pain; raw emotional pain. I am considered severely depressed, and have been attending therapy for about two years now. My childhood was filled with a good amount of parental neglect and abuse (mental, emotional, and, for my mother from my father, physical). It's something I've struggled with for years, as well as suicidal thoughts. I can't say that I am completely fine, I don't think I ever will be. I can't say I think I will ever have a normal life, but I'm trying for something close to normalcy and perhaps even happiness. I'm saying this, again, because it is a large part of who I am, who I was, and who I will be. It may show through my writing accidentally. I've tried not to let it interfere, and for the most part the stuff I've written for fanfiction isn't particularly serious, so that hasn't happened too much before. I suppose what I really want to get out there is that I want to be someone that other people can talk to if they have ever thought and felt like I have. I want to let you know that I'll listen. We can be friends. Just contact me, and we can talk. I won't claim to know everything you're going through, but at least you can know that you don't have to do it alone.
My Fandoms and the Pairings I Enjoy
Merlin: I have recently become very obsessed with BBC's Merlin. I absolutely love this show, and the only thing I love perhaps just as much is the fandom community it has inspired. I love the actors, the characters, and the fact that I can actually cry from this show, which, I tell you, is not something that happens often. As to the pairings, I like Merlin/Arthur or Merthur, though perhaps not as many others do. I love reading it as either romance or friendship, but I only ship (and/or write about) the latter. I know that for the show, it is not a possibility in the sexual sense, which is why I am hesitant to say I ship it. For me, there has to be something plausible in the characters themselves to allow this. I know that both Arthur and Merlin in the show are quite heterosexual, even if I do reblog some gifs on tumblr which support other theories, and therefore I cannot allow myself to ship them. Perhaps, one day, when the series is over, things will change, but for now I enjoy Merthur as both platonic and romantic, but I only ship it as a close friendship. That being said, I ship Arthur/Gwen, though I will not determinedly look for and read Arwen fanfic (though I am not against it being a background pairing in a fic). The same can be perhaps said for Merlin/Freya. I'm mostly just concerned with the happiness of the characters in the show. When it comes to the Internet, that's an entirely different matter. For instance, on the web, besides Merthur, I also go for some Merlin/Gwaine (Merlaine?). I can't help it. In my writing, I also tend to make Gwaine out to be a lonely weirdo desperate for Merlin's best friendship, that which he shares with Arthur, but that's a story for a different day. Beyond that, I don't ship (or Internet-ship) too much in Merlin. Everyone is kind of just awesome bros. The only person I exclude from that statement is Morgana. I cannot stand her character. I'd rather write an M-rated fic about Uther and Agravaine gettin' freaky than anything centered around her. Which, I know, is petty, but so am I.
Community: Quite possibly one of the funniest shows I have ever had the good fortune to come across. If you're not watching it, DO IT NOW. BUY THE SEASONS, LOOK IT UP ILLEGALLY ONLINE, I DON'T CARE, JUST WATCH IT. It's that amazing. To spark your interest I will say this: two paintball tournaments; a Christmas special in stop-animation; one episode in which a very ripped Joel McHale gets completely naked; a Halloween special with actual zombies; a monkey living in the air vents; an episode entirely devoted to Dungeons and Dragons; an episode with seven different timelines! ARE YOU PEEING YOUR PANTS YET?! It's about a community college, by the way. And even though it is classified as a comedy, the show still manages to produce insightful episodes, complete with words of wisdom and continuous character development. Okay, off track. Pairings: I only really ship two: Jeff/Annie and/or Abed/Annie. I like and ship them both online and in the show. I want both and yet I don't. This conflict hurts my heart every time I think about it. But one of the great things about Community is that I am so satisfied with the characters and all of the little moments the show has already given me, that pairings are not one of my main concerns as I watch the show. I just truly, genuinely like the show for what it is: simultaneously hilarious and heartfelt.
...still under construction
- "Bravery is an honor. Intelligence is a weapon."
- "Humor is merely Tragedy standing on its head with its pants torn." - Irvin S. Cobb
- "I'm all for keeping dangerous weapons out of the hands of fools. Let's start with typewriters." - Frank Lloyd Wright
- "I thoroughly disapprove of duels. If a man schould challenge me, I would take him kindly and forgivingly be the hand and take him to a quiet place and kill him." - Mark Twain
- "Clothes make the man. Naked people have little or no influence on society." - Mark Twain
- "I have been through some terrible things in my life, some of which actually happened." - Mark Twain
- "The show must go on, no matter how many actors die in the process." - A friend
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