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July 20th, 2015.
I was out for a bike ride on Sunday. I was sweating and it was hot, so a couple miles in I put up my kickstand and left my bike on the sidewalk. I took my helmet off and sprawled out in the grass. I got my phone out to turn down the music and I checked my email.
I get messages from FanFiction.net sometimes. Usually it's just questions about whether I'm alright and whether or not I'll post my fics back up... but Sunday was different. The email was a private message from one of my most dear readers, a reader who's been with me since the very beginning of Nine Millimeter many years ago. She and I talk very occasionally and I thought this would be more of the same ("How are you?" "What have you been up to?" "I hope you're doing well!").
She told me about a dream she had the night before—a dream where she found her misplaced iPod (which had been lost for quite some time) and it had a copy of Nine Millimeter on it. When she woke up, she found her iPod right where she had dreamed of it. And on it, of course, was an entire copy of Nine Millimeter sitting in the repository of her Pocket Fiction app.
So this one's for you, Katie.
May 14th, 2015.
Here's a little bit of food for thought for you: digital painters put their fanart in their portfolios. They get hired because of their fanart. Their fanart gets them jobs. So why is it that fanfiction can’t be put into portfolios? Why is fanfiction a negative when fanart is a positive?
There seems to be some sort of stigma surrounding fanfiction. People who write fanfiction are accused of not being “real writers”. Many seem to think that writing fanfiction equates to being unable to create your own characters and setting and story. And, even though we know that none of this is true, we buy into it. For some reason, we’re ashamed to admit that we’ve written (and maybe even continue to write) fanfiction.
I've slaved over stories featuring characters and places that the original works have buried deep into my heart. I’ve finished entire novels worth of fanfiction, and, at some point in the past couple of years, I deleted all of them. They’re completely gone now, removed when I allowed someone to convince me that writing fanfiction is a bad thing and that I should be ashamed of it. Unfortunately, they're unrecoverable. Most of it was Bleach fanfiction that I felt very little for at this point (though I do mourn it, in the same way anyone would mourn a project they've poured 120,000 words into).
But for those of you waiting for a resolution to Nine Millimeter, I only have this to say: I'm sorry, but there's nothing left. I wish there was. I wish I could go back and edit it into the story I wanted it to be, with the ending you all deserved. It's all gone now, though. There might be some chapter outlines and plot notes buried away in one of my notebooks, hidden in one of the boxes in my closet, but that's the extent of it.