Author has written 3 stories for Naruto.
Well hello there all of you. I have been gone quite awhile and I know that that really doesn't impact your life even one little bit. But I am going to update my profile here anyway so please bear with me.
Well alrighty here it goes. I have been gone for many, many months and want to apologize for that and the lack of updates to my story Kakashi's Love. This story has stretched over many years and I am quite surprised that many have not tired of it yet. I will continue to update this story until I finish it, but please bear with me since I do go through bouts of depression and anxiety and disappear for awhile. But be sure that I always come back and I always finish what I start.
Now as for new stories...I honestly have no idea. I am so out of touch with many things and I am so far behind on anime that I love and books that I have been reading. I'll need time to get back into touch with it all since I spent months in bed being miserable and depressed. So there might be more coming but it will take time and I hope that that is okay with you all. Though like I said...I am not under the impression that my life matters or affects any of you in the slightest. Just know that there may soon be new content coming for entirely new stories and new content.
Now let me introduce myself:
Location: Kentucky (I moved :D)
"Things have been very, very, very rough on my end. Between the medical issues, depression, anxiety and relationship drama...I let go of things I really do love...like music, reading...especially writing in favor of sitting staring into space just being miserable because I didn't know how to deal with anything and I almost returned to old bad habits, but someone very special reminded me that I did have outlets that were far more productive and self satisfying...which is why after I post this I am going to sit down and write the next chapter so please forgive me if I am rusty...I will try my best.
But I guess what I am trying to say is...everyone hits a hard time in their lives...and sometimes when all that happens you forget what really matters and what is really important. You push people away and let the things you loved and cared for just drop away because you felt that it's so much easier to be alone. That being alone means that there will be far less pain...you don't do any of the things you love anymore because it requires too much effort and you feel as if you don't have the energy anymore...so you let yourself go...and you let the people who cared for you go because they just couldn't possibly understand the pain...but they could have if given the chance.
And on the reverse side...sometimes...others give up on you because you aren't how you used to be and they can't handle that. They put so much emphasis on how you used to be and try to pour all their energy into making things how they used to be...but they don't want to try and help you get there...they just try and force you into a role you don't know how to play anymore. And that breaks everything so much more...to the point where instead of standing by you...they let you go and move on because you are just too much work. But maybe if they had just spent a little more time asking HOW they could help you, instead of just sitting there waiting for things to go back to the way they were, than maybe the healing could have happened just a little bit faster...
Now I am not saying one or the other is seperately responsible for what transpired...but it's a two way street and two people are responsible. We both failed and a relationship that had been years strong...fell apart in a matter of weeks...all because of one of the two of us let money get in the way because one of us couldn't work because of medical issues...and resentment built, depression and anxiety grew, and old habits yearned to be reborn from the past into the present...but believe it or not...there is something that can help.
There are people out there who care for you whether you know it or not. They will help you...if you just suck down your pride and ask. Sometimes they do it even if you don't want them to and you resent them for it. And sometimes...they do it without you even knowing...and they are the most sneaky bastards out there because they come in the a completely unexpected way. Be it writing, going to the store, even co-op video games, and you meet someone and before you know it...months you spent laying in bed, crying, and feeling so alone just disappear and you are suddenly laughing and smiling and crying for a totally different reason...because you are happy and you found someone that accepts you for you. They don't want to change you, they don't want you to be anyone else but you. They want to treat you with love and understanding that you didn't know existed and that you thought you didn't deserve.
I guess what I am trying to really say through this whole long rant is...if you just hold on, if you just hold on a bit longer...something good does happen. It might not be right away and it might not be in a form you expect, but it does happen. And when it does...just let it grow and watch it blossom into something beautiful. People out there do care...believe it or not. Just try...if you can...just try."
Now if you made it through all that yay! But that is an update that I posted to my Kakashi's Love and I wanted to post it here. Did I need to? No, but I put a lot of thought into this and I wanted you all to know how important it is. Sorry if it bores you.
Have a story idea or request? Shoot me an email and I'll see what I can do: firstname.lastname@example.org
Kakashi's Love: Hiatus over, updates coming.
More Than Friends: Complete