Author has written 11 stories for Final Fantasy VII, Persona Series, Buffy: The Vampire Slayer, Good Omens, Megami Tensei, Avengers, Smallville, and Haruhi Suzumiya series.
I'd give info about myself but, that's at least 31 different flavors of dangerous on the internet.
Sometimes I write, mainly Buffy/Smallville crossovers, but occasionally other things. I have a special place in my heart for Clark Kent, I think people aren't always fair to him in their writing (including the writers of Smallville), so he tends to be the focus of my stories.
Though I will say that if I've learned anything, it's that I'm not interested in writing Superman stories. I'm more interested in Clark Kent, the alien trying to live on earth. That's who my stories are usually about.
People say writing is an addiction. Ha. Creation is an addiction. Creation is easy and fun. Writing is hard, agonizing, time consuming.
The Black Hole of Despair!
That's what I call it anyway. Other people probably have other words for it. It's this thing that happens, to everyone I'm sure, though creative types seem especially susceptible to it. And I, sensitive little snowflake that I am, doubly so.
It's like this dread, or shame, or self-directed rage that just comes suddenly. I feel it in my chest like a physical cavity, a gaping void collapsing in on itself.
It makes a sound like rushing wind that says "This is all terrible. Everything you do is awful. Your ideas are unoriginal, your writing is atrocious, and you should just stop before you embarrass yourself and subject anyone else to your hideous failure. Someone else has done it better, or they will, so don't bother."
It has a force to it, ya know, the way black holes do? A force that pulls inward, makes it hard to progress forward with my writing. It's what causes me to sometimes take long breaks, and I think something like it might also be why so many people never finish their stories.
Nothing for it but fighting. I once let the BHD keep me from writing any fics for a span of five years. I've gotten better at resisting it's pull now I think.
But it's still there, still grows strong from time to time, still slows me to a halt. It'll probably be that way forever. But I don't think it will ever be able to stop me for so long again.
So if you see that I've taken a really long break, chances are I'm down in the engine room, trying to divert power to the thrusters so I can move forward and avoid getting sucked in.
Don't worry, I always make it out eventually.
Right now I'm trying to get better at balancing and integrating Plot and Characterization. Ideally, you should be able to do both at once, I personally feel like my scenes take turns. We develop the plot, then we stop and develop the character, then we develop the plot, etc.
I hope to make them flow together more elegantly.