Author has written 4 stories for Twilight.
I love music; I can't go an hour without music.
"I worry about you. You're the type of person, one thing goes wrong...you're flighty, impulsive and overly dramatic."
All American Rejects, Blink 182, Boys Like Girls, Cute Is What We Aim For, Funeral For a Friend, GO AUDIO, Good Charlotte, LostProphets, My Chemical Romance, The Offspring, Paramore, Plain White T's, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Simple Plan, Sum 41, Taylor Swift, Three Days Grace, The Used,The Veronicas, Vertical Horizon.
Twilight, NEW MOON; Stephanie Meyer. Guitar Girl,Let's Get Lost; Sarra Manning. Lock & Key, This Lullaby, The Truth About Forever, Just Listen; Sarra Dessan. Jodi Picoult; The Pact, Nighteen Minutes. Courtney Summers; Cracked Up To Be.
"A glass half empty is better than no glass at all."
"There are two means of refuge from the miseries of life: music and cats." Albert Schweitzer
“Eventually everything just stops hurting as much. As first you don’t even notice it creep up on you and then, before you know it, you’re happy.”
“Being happy doesn’t mean everything’s perfect. It means you’ve decided to see beyond imperfections.”
“Hold on, if you feel like letting go. Hold on, it gets better than you know.” ‘Hold on’ by Good Charlotte.
“The best of us can find happiness in misery.” ‘I Don’t Care’ by Fallout Boy.
“I don't know if I lost the courage to kill myself, or gained the strength not to, but I didn't do it. I kept living and...Eventually I ended up here.” James Frey ‘A Million little Pieces’
“Sometimes skulls are thick. Sometimes hearts are vacant. Sometimes words don't work.” James Frey ‘A Million little Pieces’
“Don't know, don't know if I can do this on my own, why do you have to leave me? It seems I'm losing something deep inside of me, hold on, onto me. Everybody hurts some days, its okay to be afraid, everybody hurts, everybody screams, everybody feels this way and it’s okay. It feels like nothing really matters anymore, when you're gone, I can't breathe, and I know you never meant to make me feel this way, this can't be happening.” Avril Lavigne ‘Everybody Hurts’.
“A little too young to feel this old, A little too shy to act this bold, A little too sad to be so mad, I'm a little too smart to be so bad. I don't wanna be alone with myself, I'm afraid what I'll see when I look at me. Don't wanna bother you for help, but you're so darn good at understanding, talk me make me feel proud, but not too proud. Turn the music up too loud, make it too loud.” A Little Too Young by Sunday Lane.
"After all the pain you put me through, I can’t stand to see the sight of you, And you won’t drown me in your misery, You’ll have to find someone else, To be your company…You made our life together so desolate, Well I’ll just call this my resurrection, My saviour from self-destruction." Saving Abel 'After All'.
“And even though nobody's looking, she’s falling apart.” ‘She’s Falling Apart’ by Lisa Loeb.
“And here we go again, with all the things we said, and not a minute spent, to think that we'd regret. So we just take it back, these words, and hold our breath. Forget, the things we sworn we meant.” Paramore; Here We Go Again.
“And it frightens me, because you’re barely alive.” Jenny you’re Barely Alive: Rilo Kiley.
“Are we alright? Are we still strong? This is our last chance, let's not get it wrong. ‘Cause I will hold my breath, I will count to ten, when I open my eyes, I will ask again. So don't make me beg, don't make me plead, leave me with some dignity, I will stay cool and calm tonight, I just need to know if we are still alright.” ‘Are We Alright’ by Show Of Hands.
“Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I'm going through? Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me, You're right there but it's like you never knew me, Do you even know how much it hurt, That you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were.” ‘Revenge is Sweeter Than You Ever Were’ by The Veronicas.
“Been torn apart, got so many scratches and scars, maybe they won’t all go away, but they'll fade, maybe time can mend us together. It’s not what we've done but, how far we've come. We will recover, the worst is over, now. All those fires we've been walking through, and still we survive, somehow. We will recover, the worst is behind, and it hurts, but in time, I know that we will recover.” Recover by Natasha Bedingfield.
“Call all your friends, tell them I'm never coming back. Cause this is the end, pretend that you want it, don't react…Wake up, it's time, little girl, wake up, all the best of what we've done is yet to come.” Losing Your Memory by Ryan Star.
“Cover up with makeup in the mirror, tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again, you cry alone and then he swears he loves you. Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end, as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found...Face down in the dirt, she said ‘This doesn't hurt’, she said, ‘I finally had enough.’ ” ‘Face Down’ by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
“Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort, suffocation, no breathing, don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding, Do you even care if I die bleeding? Would it be wrong? Would it be right? If I took my life tonight, chances are that I might, mutilation out of sight, and I'm contemplating suicide, 'cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind, wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.” Last Resort by Papa Roach.
“Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong, and no one understands you. Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud, that no one hears you screaming. No you don't know what it's like, when nothing feels alright, you don't know what it's like to be like me. To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark, to be kicked, when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around, to be on the edge of breaking down, and no one's there to save you, No you don't know what it's like, welcome to my life.” ‘Welcome To My Life’ by Simple Plan.
“Do you feel the weight of the world, sing in sorrow." Do You Feel by The Rocket Summer.
"Do you know what's worth fighting for, When it's not worth dying for? Does the pain weigh out the pride, and you look for a place to hide? Did someone break your heart inside? You're in ruins.” 21 Guns by Green Day.
“Every day, every day, you save my life. I come around all broken down and crowded out, and you're comfort. Sometimes the place I go, is so deep and dark and desperate. sometimes I swear, I don't know if I’m coming or going but you always say something, without even knowing; that I’m hanging on to your words, with all of my might and it's alright, yeah, I’m alright for one more night.” Every Day by Rascal Flatts.
"Everyone longs to be loved, what can I say to that? But the door to the heart is open and shut, like the warmth of your breath. Everyone longs to be heard, but we tend to get caught in the noise. Oh, what I'd give, how far I'd search, just to hear your voice. If this was our last dance, I'd wait in the rain, Just to see your face. If this was our last chance, I'd ask you to stay, for one last dance. I'm not afraid of dying. There's too much to miss in life, But I can't begin to even imagine, you not by my side. I'm not afraid of tomorrow. Tomorrow, I'm afraid, won't change. And if we're consumed with counting each hour, what’s left of today?" Last Dance by Camera Can't Lie.
“Help, I have done it again...Hurt myself again today, and the worst part is there’s no one else to blame." Breathe Me - Sia.
“Hold on, baby, you're losing it, The water's high, you're jumping into it, And letting go... and no one knows, You cry, but you don't tell anyone, That you might not be the golden one, And you're tied together with a smile, But you're coming undone.” ‘Tied Together With A Smile’ by Taylor Swift.
“Hold on, if you feel like letting go. Hold on, it gets better than you know.” ‘Hold on’ by Good Charlotte.
“I am slowly falling apart. I wish you’d take a walk in my shoes for a start. And you might think its easy being me, you just stand still, look pretty.” ‘Stand Still Look Pretty’ by the Wreckers.
“I close my eyes, thought I was lost but I was stranded. I go outside, to my surprise the sky had landed...so I fall, I don't wanna feel this small, you know I just can't handle this, handle this at all.” Fall by Something Corporate.
“I close my eyes when I get too sad, I think thoughts that I know are bad, Close my eyes and I count to ten, Hope it's over when I open them... I just don't understand how, you can smile with all those tears in your eyes, When you tell me everything is wonderful now. Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.” ‘Wonderful’ by Everclear.
“I find myself, wanting to die." Dear Angel - April Sixth.
“I hide behind these books I read, while scribbling my poetry, like art could save a wretch like me, with some ideal ideology that no one can hope to achieve.” ‘Waste of Paint’ by Bright Eyes.
“I just wanna bring you down so badly, Well I trip over everything you say, Well I just wanna bring you down so badly, In the worst way.” ‘MakeDamnSure’ by Taking Back Sunday.
“I know the right words to say, Like ‘I don't feel well’, ‘I ate before I came’. Then someone tells me how good I look, and for a moment, for a moment I am happy. But when I'm alone, No one hears me cry. I need you to know, I'm not through the night, Some days I'm still fighting to walk, towards the light, I need you to know, That we'll be okay, Together we can make it through another day. I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful, the day I chose not to eat. What I do know is how I changed my life forever, I know I should know better, There are days when I'm okay, And for a moment, For a moment I find hope, But there are days when I'm not okay, And I need your help, So I'm letting go.” Courage: Superchick.
“I open my eyes, I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light, I can’t remember how, I can’t remember why, I’m lying here tonight. And I can’t stand the pain, and I can’t make it go away, No I can’t stand the pain. How could this happen to me, I made my mistakes, I’ve got nowhere to run, The night goes on, As I’m fading away, I’m sick of this life, I just wanna scream, How could this happen to me. Everybody’s screaming, I try to make a sound but no one hears me, I’m slipping off the edge, I’m hanging by a thread, I wanna start this over again. So I try to hold, onto a time when, nothing mattered and I can’t explain what happened, and I can’t erase the things that I’ve done. No I can’t.” ‘How Could This Happen To Me?’ Simple Plan.
“I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong.” ‘In The Sun’ by Joseph Arthur.
“I scraped my knees while I was praying, and found a demon in my safest haven, seems like it’s getting harder to believe in anything ... And the worst part is before it gets any better we’re headed for a cliff, and in the freefall I will realize I’m better off when I hit the bottom. Tragedy it seems unending.” Paramore; Turn It Off.
“I settled down, and twisted apart, Disguised as a smile, well, you would have never known...The truth never set me free
“I sometimes wanna die." Sometimes Wanna Die - Joydrop.
"I walk into the room, you don't have to scream I can hear you, bad trip, the needle sticks, you get your fix from confrontation. I try to make it past, I don't wanna get into it right now, Can't this family have one day, to get away from all the pain...On the grass where everything is greener, it always seems so good on the other side.” Smile Empty Smile, The Other Side.
“I want to feel the car crash; I want to feel it capsize. I want to feel the bomb drop, the earth stop, 'til I'm satisfied. I want to feel the car crash, cause I'm dying on the inside. I want to let go and know that I'll be alright.” ‘Car Crash’ by Matt Nathanson.
“I will not make the same mistakes that you did and I will not let myself, Cause my heart so much misery, I will not break the way you did, You fell so hard, I've learned the hard way, To never let it get that far, Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk, Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt, Because of you, I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me, Because of you, I am afraid. I lose my way, And it's not too long before you point it out, I cannot cry, Because I know that's weakness in your eyes, I'm forced to fake, A smile, a laugh every day of my life, My heart can't possibly break, When it wasn't even whole to start with...I was so young, You should have known better than to lean on me, You never thought of anyone else, You just saw your pain, And now I cry in the middle of the night, For the same damn thing.” ‘Because of You’ Kelly Clarkson.
“I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name like a fool at the top of my lungs. Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright but it's never enough. You could come and save me and try to chase the crazy right out of my head.” Echo by Jason Walker.
"To stand outside your virtue, no one can ever hurt you, or so they say. Her name is Alice, She crawls into the window, shaped in shadows, Alice, and even though she is dreaming, she knows. Sometimes the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain, and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain, And through the looking glass we see she’s painfully returned, But now off with her head I fear is everyone's concern. You see there's no real ending, It's only the beginning, Come out and play." Her Name Is Alice by Shinedown.
“If you only once would let me, Only just one time, then be happy with the consequence, with whatever's gonna happen tonight. Don't think we're not serious, When it’s ever not...Can we take a ride? Get out of this place, While we still have time...The things we think might be the same, But I won't fight for more, It's just not me to wear it on my sleeve, Count on that for sure...Can't say I was never wrong, But some blame rests on you, Work and play they're never okay, To mix the way we do.” Jimmy Eat World ‘Work’.
“I'm a desperate cry for help. Run don't walk the sky is falling." ‘Run, Don't Walk’ by Hey Monday.
“I'm in too deep and trying to keep up above in my head instead of going under." ‘In Too Deep’ by Sum 41.
“I'm not alright, I'm broken inside." ‘I'm Not Alright’ by Sanctus Real.
“It’s not too late. It’s never too late. Even if say, it’ll be alright, still I here you say, you want to end your life.” ‘Never Too Late’ by Three Days Grace.
“It's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all.” ‘The Walk’ by Imogen Heap.
“I've seen you cry way too many times, when you deserved to be alive. So give up every chance you get, Just to feel new again...Well I can't pretend that I don't see this, It's really not your fault...The scars they will not fade away.”Paramore; Emergency.
“Just don't let me fall asleep, Feeling empty again. Because I fear I might break, and I fear I can't take it, tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty. I can feel the pressure, it’s getting closer now.” ‘Pressure’ Paramore.
“Little girl terrified, she’d leave her room if only bruises would heal, a home is no place to hide, her heart is breaking from the pain that she feels. Every day's the same, She fights to find her way, She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray, She wonders why, Does anyone ever hear her when she cries?... How could they act like everything is alright? She's pulling down her long sleeves, to cover all the memories that scars leave.” ‘When She Cries’ by Britt Nicole.
"Made a wrong turn, once or twice. Dug my way out, blood and fire. Bad decisions, that's alright. Welcome to my silly life. Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood. Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down. Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated. Look, I'm still around. Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel, like you're less than fuckin' perfect. Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing, you’re fuckin' perfect to me.” Perfect by Pink.
“Maybe if me heart stops beating, it won’t hurt this much.” Paramore; Let this Go.
“My heart's just about to break open...There's something you should know." Now You Know - Hilary Duff.
“Next time you point a finger, I might have to bend it back, or break it break it off. Next time you point a finger, I hope it's at the mirror. If God's the game you're playing, then we must get more acquainted, It must be so lonely... to be the only one who's holy, It's just my humble opinion, but one I firmly believe in, You don't deserve a point of view, if the only thing you see is you.” Playing God by Paramore.
“No one talks to her, she feels so alone, She’s in too much pain to survive on her own, The hurt she can’t handle overflows to a knife, She writes on her arm, wants to give up her life, Each day she goes on is a day that she is brave, Fighting the lie that giving up is the way, Each moment of courage her own life she saves, When she throws the pills out, a hero is made... Little Mikey-Dee was the one in class, Who everyday got brutally harassed, This went on for years, Till he decided that never again would he shed another tear, So he walked through the door, And grabbed the .44 out of his father's dresser drawer, He said 'I can't take life no more', And like that a life can be lost, But this ain't even about that, All of us just sat back and watched it happen, Thinking it’s not our responsibility, To solve a problem that isn't even about me, This is our problem. This is just one of the daily scenarios, In which we choose to close our eyes, Instead of doing the right thing, If we make a choice and be the voice, For those who won't speak up for themselves, How many lives would be saved, changed, rearranged? Now it's our time to pick a side. So don't keep walking by not wanting to intervene, Cause you just want to exist and never be seen.” Superchick ‘Hero’.
“Nothing I say will wash it away, I'm standing in the pouring rain, You say it won't happen again, You're manic, manic, There's a chemical in your brain, It's pouring sunshine in the rain, You can never know what to expect, You're manic, manic.” ‘Manic’ by Plumb.
“Now I will tell you what I've done for you, fifty thousand tears I've cried. Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you, and you still won't hear me.” Going Under by Evanescence.
“Out on your corner in the pouring rain, Look for the girl with the broken smile, Ask her if she wants to stay awhile. And she will be loved, she will be loved.” Maroon 5 ‘She Will Be Loved.’
“Remember when we'd, Stay up late and we'd talk all night, In a dark room lit by the TV light, Through all the hard times in my life, Those nights kept me alive, We'd listen to the radio play all night, Didn't want to go home to another fight, Through all the hard times in my life, Those nights kept me alive. ‘Those Nights’ by Skillet.
“She doesn't look, she doesn't see, Opens up for nobody, Figures out, she figures out, Narrow line, she can't decide, everything short of suicide, never hurts, nearly works.” ‘Little House’ by the Fray.
“She hides the bruises with the linen and lace, The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask, It's hard to see the pain behind the mask, Bearing' the burden of a secret storm, Sometimes she wishes she was never born. Somebody cries in the middle of the night, The neighbours hear but they turn out the lights, A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate, When morning' comes it'll be too late.” ‘Concrete Angel’ by Martina McBride.
“She laid her heart and soul right in your hands, and you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans, She never even knew she had a choice, And that's what happens when the only voice she hears is telling her she can't, Stupid boy.” ‘Stupid Boy’ by Keith Urban.
“She lives in a fairy tale, Somewhere too far for us to find, Forgotten the taste and smell, Of the world that she's left behind, It's all about the exposure the lens I told her, The angles were all wrong now, She's ripping wings off of butterflies. With her feet on the ground, and her head in the clouds. Well go get your shovel, and we'll dig a deep hole, to bury the castle, bury the castle. So one day he found her crying, Coiled up on the dirty ground, Her prince finally came to save her, And the rest you can figure out, But it was a trick, And the clock struck 12, Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick, or the wolves gonna blow it down...Well you built up a world of magic, Because your real life is tragic.” Brick by Boring Brick by Paramore.
“She sits in her corner, Singing herself to sleep, Wrapped in all of the promises, That no one seems to keep, She no longer cries to herself, No tears left to wash away, Just diaries of empty pages, Feelings gone astray.” ‘Everything Burns’ by Anastacia.
“She walked away. Couldn't say why she was leaving." She Walked Away - BarlowGirl.
“She's all alone, feels like it’s all coming down, She won't turn around, The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down. So stand in the rain, Stand your ground, Stand up when it's all crashing down, You stand through the pain, You won't drown, And one day, what’s lost can be found, You stand in the rain.” Stand In the Rain – Superchick
“She's fine, most of the time…But sometimes she falls down. Breathe, just breathe, Take the world off your shoulders, and put it on me. Let go of the fear, let go of the doubt, Let go of the ones who try to bring you down, You're gonna be fine, don't hold it inside, and if you hurt right now. Then let it all come out.” Breathe by Ryan Star.
“She's only known heartache and pain, But she's never known pain like this, She stands alone defending her name, When all that she's done is be who she is, Well is it so wrong to be who we are?, When all she's done is fail.” Nice, Naive and Beautiful by Plumb.
“So I'll start to pretend that I'm okay, but you should know by now that my life is smoke and mirrors. One thing is crystal clear that I'm the one wishing I was someone else, anyone but me tonight.” ‘Here I stand’ Madina Lake.
“So lonely inside, so busy out there, And all you wanted, Was somebody who cares. ‘All You Wanted’ by Michelle Branch.
“So much for my happy ending...” Happy Ending – Avril Lavigne
“Sometimes the hurt is so deep deep deep, you think that you’re gonna drown, sometimes all I can do is weep weep weep, with all this rain falling down. Strange how hard it rains now, rows and rows of big dark clouds.” ‘Rain’ by Patty Griffin.
“The best of us can find happiness in misery.” ‘I Don’t Care’ by Fallout Boy.
“These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there’s just too much that time cannot erase. When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears, when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears, and I held your hand through all of these years.” My Immortal by Evanescence.
“There’s a moment in time, And it’s stuck in my mind, way back when we were kids, Cause your eyes told the tale, Of an act of betrayal, I knew that somebody did, Oh waves of time, Seem to wash away, The scenes of out crimes, But for you this never end. Can you stay strong? Can you go on? Kristy are you doing okay?...I knew something was wrong, And I should have spoke out. And I’m sorry now, I didn’t know, Cause we were so young, oh clouds of time, Seem to rain on, Innocence left behind, And it never goes away.” ‘Kristy, are you doing okay?’ by The Offspring.
“This place is so empty, my thoughts are so tempting, I don’t know how it got so bad, sometimes it’s so crazy, that nothing can save me, but it’s the only thing that I have. I tried to be perfect, it just wasn’t worth it, nothing could ever be so wrong.” Pieces by Sum 41.
“Trying hard to reach out, But when I tried to speak out, Felt like no one could hear me, Wanted to belong here, But something felt so wrong here, So I'd pray, I could break away. I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly. I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky. Make a wish, take a chance, Make a change, and break away.” ‘Breakaway’ Kelly Clarkson.
"We're all wonderful, wonderful people, so when did we all get so fearful? And now we're finally finding our voices, so take a chance come help me sing this." Emili Sande.
“We've tried so hard to understand, but we can't... Is this what you had waited for? Just to be alone? ...You never, you never said, this wasn't what you wanted, was it? Was it? This isn't what you wanted. This isn't what you wanted. Cause all we know is falling, it falls. Remember, cause I know that we won't forget at all.” Paramore; All We Know.
"Weep for yourself, my man, you'll never be what is in your heart. Weep little lion man, you're not as brave as you were at the start. Rate yourself and rake yourself, take all the courage you have left wasted on fixing all the problems that you made in your own head. But it was not your fault but mine, and it was your heart on the line, I really fucked it up this time, didn't I, my dear?" Little Lion Man by Mumford & Sons.
“When our time is up, when our lives are done, Will we say we've had our fun? Will we make a mark this time? Will we always say we tried? Standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your heart out. Standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your heart out...Standing on the rooftops, (Wait until the bombs drop) this is all we got now, (Scream until your heart stops) Never gonna regret, (Watching every sunset) we’ll listen to your heartbeat, (All the love that we found).” ‘Rooftops’ Lostprophets.
“Wiping the tears from her eyes, some days she feels like dying, and some days it’s not worth trying. She gets so sick of crying.” Green Day.
“Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, Somewhere along in the bitterness, And I would have stayed up with you all night, Had I known how to save a life, Let him know that you know best, Cause after all, you do know best, Try to slip past his defence, Without granting innocence. Lay down a list of what is wrong, the things you've told him all along, and pray to God he hears you.” ‘How To Save A Life’ The Fray.
“Why should I care, ‘cause you weren't there, when I was scared, I was all alone.” ‘Losing Grip’ by Avril Lavigne.
“You come to me with scars on your wrist, You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this, ‘I just came to say goodbye, Didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine’, But I know it's a lie...Your parents say everything is your fault, But they don't know you like I know you, They don't know you at all, I'm so sick of when they say, It's just a phase, you'll be o.k., you're fine, But I know it's a lie.” ‘Our Last Night’ by Skillet.
“You don't know me, and you don't even care." Boston - Augustana.
“You feel like a candle in a hurricane, just like a picture with a broken frame, alone and helpless, like you've lost your fight, but you'll be alright, you'll be alright. cause when push comes to shove, you taste what you're made of, you might bend, till you break, cause it’s all you can take, on your knees you look up, decide you've had enough, you get mad, you get strong, wipe your hands shake it off, then you stand.” Stand by Rascal Flatts.
“You found me, when no one else was looking.” You Found Me – Kelly Clarkson.
“Where were you, when everything was falling apart? ...Lost and Insecure, You found me, you found me, lying on the floor.” You Found Me - The Fray.
“Your subtleties, they strangle me...maybe its best you leave me alone...it ends tonight." It Ends Tonight - The All-American Rejects.
“You’re desperate in finding something else to please you, You’ve been searching your whole life, Something to mute, change, or just distract you, Something to put inside you to give the illusion of life, Cause you’ve always been barely alive
“You're not sure you can take this anymore. So just give it one more try to a lullaby, and turn this up on the radio if you can hear me now I'm reaching out to let you know that you're not alone. And if you can't tell, I'm scared as hell cause I can't get you on the telephone, so just close your eyes, honey here comes a lullaby…you're gonna make it through another night, stop thinking about the easy way out, there's no need to go and blow the candle out, because you're not done, you're far too young, and the best is yet to come. Well everybody’s hit the bottom, everybody's been forgotten, everybody's tired of being alone, everybody's been abandoned, and left a little empty handed.” Lullaby by Nickelback.
“You've crossed the finish line, won the race, but lost your mind, was it worth it after all?"’ I'm No Superman’ by Lazlo Bane.
“[Brooke] George Bernard Shaw once wrote; ‘There are two tragedies in life. One is to lose your heart's desire. The other is to gain it.’ Clearly, Shaw had his heart broken once or twice. [Nathan] As far as I'm concerned, Shaw was a punk. Cause you know what? Tragedies happen. What are you gonna do, give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive. Because you are. And that pain you feel? That's life. The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you, that somewhere out there is something better, and that something is worth fighting for. [Haley] This year, I got everything I wanted and everything I wished for. But in a way, I lost even more. [Lucas] Shaw was right. As we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things we think will make our lives better: money, popularity, fame... we ignore what truly matters, the simple things, like friendship, family, love. The things we probably already had. [Peyton] Yes, losing your heart's desire is tragic. But gaining your heart's desire? That's all you can hope for. This year I wished for love... to immerse myself in someone else and to wake a heart long afraid to feel. My wish was granted. And if having that is tragic, then give me tragedy. Because I wouldn't give it back for the world.” One Tree Hill.
“[Lucas] And Hansel said to Gretel: ‘Let us drop these bread crumbs, so that together we find our way home, because losing our way would be the most cruel of things’. This year I lost my way. [Nathan] And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But losing your reason for the journey... is a fate more cruel. [Peyton] The journey lasted eight months. Sometimes I travelled alone. Sometimes there were others who took the wheel, and took my heart. But when the destination was reached, it wasn't me who'd arrived. It wasn't me at all. [Brooke] And once you lose yourself, you have two choices. Find the person you used to be, or lose that person completely. [Mouth] Because sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been, and remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are.” One Tree Hill.
"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. And, of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But, once in a while, people push onto something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone. And just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because, it's only when you’re tested that you truly discover who you are. And, it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist; somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief. And, beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead." OTH [Lucas.]
“Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred. How did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children out into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return but knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?” OTH [Lucas.]
“Robert Louis Stevenson once said; ‘you cannot run away from a weakness; you must sometimes fight it out or perish.’ And if that be so, why not now, and where you stand?" OTH, Lucas.
“At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes -- all you need is one.” OTH, [Peyton.]
“Someone once said that death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside of us while we live. And we tell ourselves that it’s all going to be okay, but it’s not okay. There’s no magic in the world; at least not today there isn’t.” Haley, One Tree Hill.
"It all just feels so fake, you know? This idea that good things happen to good people. That there’s magic in the world, and that the meek and the righteous will inherit it. Too many good people suffer for that to be true. Too many prayers go unanswered. And every day it just gets worse. Every day we ignore how truly broken this world is, and we tell ourselves it’s all going to be okay. But it’s not going to be okay. And once you know that, there’s no going back. There’s no magic in the world…at least today there isn’t." Haley, One Tree Hill.
‘So you're always honest,’ I said. ‘Aren't you?’ ‘No,’ I told him. ‘I'm not.’ ‘Well, that's good to know, I guess.’ ‘I'm not saying I'm a liar,’ I told him. He raised his eyebrows. ‘That's not how I meant it, anyways.’ ‘How'd you mean it, then?’ ‘I just...I don't always say what I feel.’ ‘Why not?’ ‘Because the truth sometimes hurts,’ I said. ‘Yeah,’ he said. ‘So do lies, though.’ “Sarah Dessen (Just Listen).
"Music is the greater unit. An incredible force. Something that people who differ on everything and anything else can have in common." Sarah Dessen (Just Listen).
"I'd been convinced I was on the outside, but really, I'd always been within arm's reach. All I had to do was ask, and I, too, would be easily brought back, surrounded and immersed, finding myself safe, somewhere in between." Sarah Dessen (Just Listen).
“I remembered Owen telling me how music had saved him in Phoenix; that it drowned everything out, and it was the same for me now. As long as I had something to listen to, I could blur the things I didn't want to think about, if not block them out completely.” Sarah Dessen (Dreamland).
"I was worn out, broken: He had taken almost everything. But he'd been all I'd had, all this time. And when the police led him away, I pulled out of the hands of all these loved one, sobbing, screaming, everything hurting, to try and make him stay." Sarah Dessen (Dreamland).
“Come, there’s no use in crying like that!” Alice, Alice’s Adventures In Wonderland.
“But it’s no use now, to pretend to be two people! Why, There’s hardly enough left of me to make one respectable person.” Alice, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland.
“I wish I hadn’t cried so much! I shall be punished for it now, I suppose, by being drowned in my own tears!” Alice, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland.
“'Would it be of any use, now? Everything is so out-of-the-way down here at any rate, there's no harm in trying.” Alice, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland.
“‘Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?'
“'But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
“...and I’ve got my headphones blaring so loud that it hurts, but I’m beyond caring.”
“And it's killing me, because all this time, I thought you cared. And then you just left, left me behind. Struggling for breathe, and screaming my lungs out. And it's making me wonder if you ever cared at all.”
“All I wanted to do today was collapse into somebody's arms and cry, but nobody was there to catch me.”
“All our dreams can come true – if we have the courage to pursue them.” - Walt Disney.
“Another poem, another line, another girl pretending she's fine, Another hour, another day, she wishes she could get away, Another heartbreak, another tear, another excuse she doesn't wanna hear, Another paper, another pen, she writes she wants to be strong again, Another story, another lie, another night that she will cry, Another band, another song, another day passed, slowly gone, Another scream, another doubt, ''Kick me while I'm down'' to him she'd shout, Another forced smile, another broken heart, Just another girl wishing life would restart...”
“Are you satisfied with yourself now? You've made a mess out of a strong girl. She can hardly smile anymore. Sometimes she forgets to breathe.”
“As long as the music's loud enough we won't hear the world falling apart.”
"Be kind whenever possible. It is always possible." Dalai Lama
“Behind everything beautiful there is some kind of pain.” Bob Dylan
“Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh, I'm falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am... Isn't me.”
“Being happy doesn’t mean everything’s perfect. It means you’ve decided to see beyond imperfections.”
"Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it - even if I have said it - unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense."
“Boundaries don't keep others out, the fence you in. So you can spend your life drawing lines in the sand or live your life crossing them.”
“But to cry in front of you, that's the worst thing I could do.”
“Depression isn’t obvious, suicide is.”
“Drunken words are sober thoughts.”
"Even diamonds have flaws."
“Euthanasia sounds like such a good idea. Why can’t young people sign up for it voluntarily? I’m tired of waking up every morning and crying into my Rice Krispies. It’s just Sob, Splutter and Sob for me, every goddamn day.”
“Eagles may soar, but bunnies don't get sucked into jet engines.”
“Just remember, if the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off.”
“Just when you've had enough, life gives you more. And just when you think it’s rained enough, it starts to pour.”
“Labels are for cans and jam jars, and in case you haven't noticed I'm not a can or a jam jar.”
“Life changes everything/is this seriously my life?”
“Lonely people are always awake in the middle of the night.”
“For weeks you asked me why I was so sad and I kept responding ‘oh nothing’ but you knew me better, oh darling we both knew better.”
“Go right ahead, rip my heart out, stomp on it and throw it around, punch it, smash it into a million pieces then ask me if I'm ‘okay’ ".
“Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?”
“Her tongue has bite marks from all the things she didn’t say.”
“How can you expect to be rescued, if you never let anyone know you're in danger?”
“I don't know if I lost the courage to kill myself, or gained the strength not to, but I didn't do it. I kept living and drinking and doing drugs and fucking up. Eventually I ended up here.”
“I hid every flaw, every feeling, and every insecurity behind makeup and smiles that weren't real.”
“I just sent my spellchecker into melt down.”
“I live in a world full of bunnies and unicorns...but the bunnies are cutting themselves and the unicorns are acting all emo. Again.”
“I love sleep. My life has a tendency to fall apart when I’m awake.” Hemmingway.
“I love walking in the rain because no one can tell I’m crying.”
“I may not be smart enough to know everything, but I'm dumb enough to try anything.”
“I must be a pretty good liar for you to honestly think that everything's alright.”
“I reached rock bottom and then started digging."
“I really hate when people say 'it’s going to be okay' because guess what, just because you say that doesn't mean it will. And
sure, maybe at first it will makes things feel better, but that feeling doesn't last.”
"I want to be remembered as the person who always smiles even when their heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if they couldn't brighten their own."
“I wish my lawn mower was emo so it would cut itself.”
“I'm not going to have a happy ending." Marya Hornbacher, Wasted.
“I'm impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” Marilyn Monroe.
“I'm not going to have a happy ending.” Marya Hornbacher, Wasted.
“If you expect nothing from somebody you are never disappointed.” Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar.
“If drama was vodka we’d all be wasted.”
“If you start out depressed everything else is a pleasant surprise.”
“It used to be the reason I breathed but now it’s choking me.”
“It’ll be just like going to sleep, just a little bit colder.”
“It’s always the quiet ones, sitting in the corner, plotting world domination.”
“It’s strange how during the worst periods of your life the first people you push away are the ones you need the most.”
“It's not how far you fall, but how high you bounce back.”
“Just because I try not to talk about it...does not mean I’m over it, that I feel better or that I’m ever going to be okay. “
“Just because you didn’t mean to hurt me, it doesn’t make any difference, cause it all just hurts the same at the end of the day.”
“Let’s play a game of whose life sucks the most. I’ll win. I always win.”
“Life isn't like a pencil, you can't erase the mistakes that you made. Life is more like a pen. You can use white out to cover the mistakes up, but you will always be reminded of where you went wrong.”
”Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination will take you everywhere.” - Albert Einstein.
“Music eases the pain...like ibuprofen when you need morphine.”
“Music is my life. I’ve long stopped saying the things I really feel. So next time I’m blasting my music through the walls, listen to the lyrics and you’ll finally hear what I’ve been trying to say all along.” Libby.
“Music is my religion.” Jimi Hendrix.
“Music was her life and the lyrics were her story.”
“My dreams tell me secrets, my mind tells me lies, my heart screams for help, my eyes only cry.”
“My only relief is to sleep. When I'm sleeping, I'm not sad, I'm not angry, I'm not lonely. I'm nothing.
“Occasionally I wish I could walk through a picture window and have the sharp broken shreds slash me to ribbons, so I could finally look how I feel.” Elizabeth Wurtel
“Oh boo hoo. You have a sob story. We all have a sob story. Don't think you're special or different just cause you're hurting cause here's a secret, we're all hurting.”
“People are always asking ‘are you okay?’ but they're never really expecting the truth... because the reality of the matter is, if I was okay, you wouldn't really have to wonder.”
“‘People don’t change that much...’ Yes they do. They grow up and accept responsibilities and they realize that ‘live fast die young’ isn’t exactly all it’s cracked up to be.” Drue and Jen. Dawson’s Creek.
“People haven't always been there for me but music always has.” Taylor Swift.
“She finally dropped the fake smile, as the tears rolled down her face, and she whispered to herself, ’I can't do this anymore.’”
“She says she’s fine, but she’s going insane, she says she feels well, but she’s in a lot of pain, she says it’s nothing, but it’s really a lot. She says she’s ok but she’s really not.”
“She wants to prove she has no fears, so she stands up tall, wiping her tears. This could be the most beautiful mistake, because now, she's like everyone else, Lonely and Fake.”
“She was so perfect on the outside. No wrinkles in her clothes, not a hair out of place. But underneath her eighty dollar jean jacket lie a patchwork of gashes that seemed to never end. But nobody ever would have guessed.”
“She will smile that smile and she will laugh that laugh. She'll look at you and say, with a perfectly straight face, that everything is fine. But in her heart, in her soul, and in her head, it's not. Nothing is, but that doesn't matter. Because she's going to suck it up and hide it all, because she doesn't want to burden anyone else with her problems and her fears; she's done listening to liars who say they care. No one does.”
“She's beautiful but she'll never admit it. Music is her life, literally. Ask for a good song, she'll give you five. Jeans and wearing her hair down are her trademarks. She's afraid of the dark and obsessed with her friends.”
“She's got stars in her eyes and a bruise on her tongue. Bite marks from the things she never says. She's learned to say things with her eyes, that others waste time trying to put into words.”
“She's the type of girl that can be so hurt but can still look at you and smile, the type of girl who is willing to brighten your day even if she can’t brighten her own.”
“Silence is GOLDEN, Duck Tape is SILVER.”
“So you really want to know why? Why I'm like this ... I'll tell you. It's because I cry myself to sleep every night, because most of the time I feel worthless. Because just when I get something sweet, it goes sour. Because everything I do ... doesn't seem to be good enough. Because I'm tired of waiting for something great to happen. Because I'll never be good enough.”
“Sometimes it's easier to feel like you're the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated or unsatisfied, or barely getting by. But the feeling is alive and if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in our world, to remind us that it won't always be this way, that someone is out there and that someone will find you.”
“Sometimes people are the strongest when they have no one to hold them up.”
“Starving for perfection & hating my reflection.”
“That ‘sticks and stones’ thing is a load of crap. At the end of the day some words will hurt more than any stick ever could. And after time has passed, those bruises will be gone but the memories will still be there, forever.”
“That night even now remains one of the worst in my memory, and how I got through it in the state I was in is anybody’s guess. That night the emotional pain was at such an intensity I genuinely believed I would die with the agony of it. I cried and cried, unrelentingly, unable to respond to anyone who came into my room to check I was still alive and kicking. Finally I fell into an exhausted and troubled sleep early the next morning and awoke, every fibre of my body aching, unable to quite believe that I had survived the night, and at that, relatively unscathed.” Katy.
“The voices in my head may not be real…But they have some damn good ideas!”
“The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.”
“There are two types of secrets, the ones we keep from ourselves and the ones we hide from others.”
“They say that once you hit rock bottom things can only get better but sometimes you never hit rock bottom sometimes life's a black hole and you just keep falling, no slowing down, no turning around, no stopping you just fall faster.”
“To be nobody but yourself in a world that’s doing its best to make you somebody else is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.” E.E.Cummings.
“Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought, useless and disappointing.” Hilary Duff.
“What do you do when all you feel is sadness? When every action is forced, and your only expression is blank? When the only thing you look forward to is sleep and the eight hours you won't get? When you hate that life has no joy and promises are empty? So sad words cannot express. A pain that erases all taste from food, humour from jokes, and joy from daily life.” -JLV
“What more is there to lose if you've lost it all?”
“Who are you to judge me?? I know I’m not perfect, and I sure as hell don't claim to be! But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your own hands are clean.” Bob Dylan.
“We see someone in trouble, we wish we could help. But we don’t. The world I lived in, heroes only existed in comic books, and I guess that would have been okay if the bad guys were make believe, too. But they’re not.” Kickass the Movie.
“We Lie Best When We Lie To Ourselves.”
“We're all just looking for something to take away the pain.”
“When it gets dark enough you can see the stars.” Lee Salk.
“When life gives you lemons add salt and tequila.”
“You asked me if anything was wrong and I said NOTHING, then I turned around and whispered EVERYTHING.”
“You can’t buy happiness, but you can buy ice-cream.”
“You hit me with the truth but honestly I think a bus would have hurt less.”
“You may see me struggle but you will never see me fall.”
“You never knew, Deep down inside, You where the one who made her cry, She never would show, But you where the one who made her die, Just because she comes off strong, Didn't mean she didn’t fall asleep crying, Even though she acts like nothing’s wrong, Maybe just maybe she's good at lying.”
“You never know it was so bad, did you? You always thought I was pretending until you saw the blood stained towel, the razor, the scars. But most of all, that look in my eyes that was screaming for help. I was too scared to ask for it.”
“You'd never guess a girl so happy on the outside, is breaking down on the inside. A girl who laughs her head off every day in school, you’d never guess she’s covering up, the million tears behind her smile.”
“You say I'm heading down the path of destruction, But you don't know the half of it. So please step aside, you’re kind of in my way.”
“If when you wake up in the morning, and the hurting is so great, you don’t want to get out of bed, and face a world of hate. If everything in life goes wrong, and nothing you do seems right, you just try a little harder, and soon you’ll see the light. For every person who has put you down, and filled your life with pain, you must strive to achieve greatness, and show them you can win. For every disappointment, for the times you are let down, there will be a better moment, and your life will turn around. Because everyone feels heartache, and everyone feels pain, but only those who have true courage, Can get up and try again.” Teal Henderson, Again.
“I am the poet writing of my pain. I am the person living a life of shame. I am your daughter hiding my depression. I am your sister making a good impression. I am your friend acting like I’m fine. I am a wisher wishing this life weren’t mine. I am a girl who thinks of suicide. I am a teenage pushing her tears aside. I am a student who doesn’t have a clue. I am the girl sitting next to you. I am the one asking you to care. I am your best friend hoping you’ll be there.” Krysteen Hernandez, I Am.
“As the days pass slowly, and the weeks creep by, I find myself obsessing, about the ways that I could die. I lay awake at night, thinking of my pain. There’s no way it can get better, I have nothing left to gain. Suddenly thoughts of death, Control my every move, And every battle with my mind, I always seem to lose. I no longer want to be around, the people that I love, all that I can think about, is what’s waiting above. I cut my arms with razor blades, to dull the pain inside, but that can only last so long, I don’t want to be alive. I manage to keep my composure, when people are around, they wouldn't understand me, so I don't make a sound. I smile when I have to, I break down when I don't, I know I should be strong, But I also know I won't. So I make a plan to take some pills, It shouldn't take too long, I write notes to all my friends, To read when I’m gone. I ask my mom to understand, that life is just too hard. My mind can't fight it anymore, my heart is just too scarred. I plan it out so perfectly, I even set the date, I'm pretty sure I'm ready, I know this is my Fate. My bed is made up neatly, as I take them one by one, I start to feel a little scared, I know I'm almost done. All that I can’t think about, Is how I'm letting go, And how much I love my family, I really hope they know. My eyes are getting heavy, my body feels so weak, everything inside is numb, that’s the way it has to be. I'm glad my mom’s not here right now, to watch me slowly die, But I still wish I could say: "I love you and Good-bye". I give into the darkness, I slowly slip away, I hope I go to Heaven, Where dark night turns to day. I wake up in confusion, I don't know where I am, Is this heaven or is it hell?...The land of eternally Damned, There are people all around, Although I can barely see, I can hear the soothing voices, Of the people dear to me. My family and friends are here, comforting one another, I can hardly make out any words, until I hear my mother. Each tear she cries feels like a knife, stabbing into my soul, I let my pain and suffering, blind me from my goal. At one point I was determined, to make it through this test, to lead a life of fulfilment, and do my very best. But I somehow lost all sight of that, I hope she can forgive, I promise not to waste, my second chance to live. I sit up in my hospital bed, Tears streaming down my cheeks, my mother rushes over crying, like she hasn't seen me in weeks. I tell her I'm sorry, for causing her so much strife, I tell her that I will succeed, in leading a better life. Together we figured out a way, for me to get some help, I know now I can go to her, Instead of doing it by myself. I know that it’s not over yet; it’s a long road up ahead, but I appreciate the little things, because I could be dead. I've learned to live each passing day, As if it were my last, I look forward to the future, And I'm learning from my past.” Rachael Bennett, Learning From My Past.
“I don't want to be another statistic, some suicidal teen, who makes the choice to kill herself, when the world just seems to mean. She can't go with life, or so to her it seems, Reality has fallen short, and so have many dreams. I don't want to be another statistic, some girl left in the rain, who was walking home from school, then raped and left in pain. She can't tell her parents, and it hurts to tell her friends, she doesn't know what she'll do, to make this nightmare end.” Amanda Parmenter, Another Statistic.
“I lay awake for hours, Trying not to cry, I don't know what to think anymore, I wish that I could die. But then I think again, do I really want to die?”
“We hold on to things the tightest, when we are forced to let them go, we always want things a certain way, when we know they can't be so. Dreams always last the longest, when they are furthest from our reach, And the lessons we can learn the most from, are often the very ones we teach. The grass is always the greenest, when it lies on the other side, And the truths we preach to others, are often those we can't abide.” Kristy Glassen, It’s Just The Way We Are.
“‘This is the worst day of my life,’ she says casually, as she has a million plus times before. She slams the door of her room, blocking the outside world, the chaos, and her parents. Everything is always going wrong, and there's nothing she can do.