Silent Memento
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Joined 11-03-07, id: 1412825, Profile Updated: 10-07-13

To the people I hurt with my lies,

You all have probably forgotten about me by now. That's good. I truly hope that you don't give a damn about anything I have to say. I hope that you all have moved on with your lives. That would be for the best.

But for what it's worth, I'm sorrier than any of you could possibly imagine. Over the past four to five years, I have paid and paid and paid for what I did, and I know that it will never be enough to make it up to any of you. Even if any of you found it in your heart to forgive me, there's no way in hell that I will ever forgive myself. I will go to my grave blaming myself for everything, as I should. I have had many epiphanies about who I am as a person, and I know that I will go to the darkest pits of the afterlife for all of the hurt I put everyone through - again, as I should.

I will make no excuses for what I did; it was a series of evil actions. I was too cowardly to tell people the truth. I honest to fate thought that none of you would care one bit about the actual me instead of the facade I presented to you. That was my motivation. I wanted you to be my friends, but I was too much of a narcissist to think of you as friends at the time. I was a callous and cruel teenager who thought only about himself. I'm a much different person now, and I absolutely fucking hate the person I was and am. Four years of nearly constantly thinking about how much you hate yourself and how much you want to kill yourself, two suicide attempts (one of which was unfortunately interrupted by someone - you know who you are - and one this year where I lost my nerve at the very last second), and two separate trips to a psychiatric ward will do that to a person. Again, this is all my fault. I brought this on myself. I don't want or expect any pity or sympathies from any of you.

If you choose not to believe me, that's fine. You have every reason to not believe a word I say. You have every right to doubt my motivations for this message. Likewise, I have absolutely no reason to lie at this point in my life; the only good thing that ever came out of it was that I finally figured out how screwed up of a person I really am - and even that is a Pyrrhic victory, as I can't go back in time and prevent myself from doing the things I did.

Honestly, I don't give a shit if anyone reads this or not. I only typed this up in case people do - inexplicably, I might add - care about anything I have to say. If you think I'm lying or decide to laugh at this or say that I'm doing this for attention, that's fine. I just wanted you all to know that I feel a great deal of remorse for my actions, that said actions were completely inexcusable, and that I am, in fact, paying the consequences and will pay for the rest of my life. It's your prerogative whether or not you want to believe me.


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Operation GEAR: The Victory Star of Fate by The Great Butler reviews
When Darkrai and Cresselia begin fighting in Whitegold City, a race against time begins to unfold a mystery that holds the city's fate and ultimately, how it ties back to the ruthless oil tycoon controlling the city and the mysterious Pokemon Victini.
Pokémon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Suspense - Chapters: 8 - Words: 104,269 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 4/27/2012 - Published: 11/2/2011 - Victini, Darkrai - Complete
Operation GEAR: The Firestorm Rebellion by The Great Butler reviews
In the near future, a scientist and his student, both touched by the hand of loss, visit the Indigo Plateau. But when their plans lead them on an expedition to a lost city, things go awry, and to save the future, they must revisit the past.. AU Anime/Game
Pokémon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Mystery - Chapters: 5 - Words: 59,971 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 10/25/2011 - Published: 8/9/2011 - Zoroark, Moltres/Fire - Complete
Win One for the Reaper by Lost-Blue-Phantom reviews
AU fic. What if Mistyfoot had died instead of Stonefur? How would it affect the future? Would the Warriors we know now even exist? Rated T because you'll see why later. DISCONTINUED UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE
Warriors - Rated: T - English - Suspense/Drama - Chapters: 7 - Words: 25,579 - Reviews: 93 - Favs: 34 - Follows: 27 - Updated: 6/12/2011 - Published: 2/10/2008 - Stonefur
Damaged by Lost-Blue-Phantom reviews
Damage,noun,: injury or harm that reduces value or usefulness. See Full Summary AND Author's Note inside. Rated T for corruption and death. DISCONTINUED.
Warriors - Rated: T - English - Drama/Suspense - Chapters: 7 - Words: 23,017 - Reviews: 60 - Favs: 16 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 2/1/2011 - Published: 11/3/2007
Starvation by Thinkwire reviews
Remember Hypno? The curiously sinister Psychic Pokemon that once kidnapped a child? This is more or less an alternate take on that story, and the Pokemon itself.
Pokémon - Rated: T - English - Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,458 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 2 - Published: 11/30/2010 - Hypno/Sleeper - Complete
Project: Terminated by Lei-lassassin reviews
When the Freelancers escaped Command, they all had their own ideas of freedom. Yet when their A.I. whisper of the dark secret stored deep within the enemy, they find they can't ignore the plans the A.I. have set out for them. Prequel to A.I. Red vs. Blue.
Halo - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 14 - Words: 48,524 - Reviews: 40 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 6/12/2010 - Published: 1/10/2009
Secret Keeping by Haysel McKalister reviews
The war is over, but Frank and Alice aren't celebrating, and no news that Sturgis brings them will change that.
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,414 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 3/30/2010 - Sturgis P., Alice L. - Complete
Things Not Seen by How to Train Your Moosie reviews
Duskwing's entire "identity" is a lie; her genuine emotions are shadowed, never to see the day's light. Rushwhisker, now, is her parallel. His world is unstable and angry, but what can he do? Things aren't always what they seem.
Warriors - Rated: T - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 4 - Words: 19,916 - Reviews: 42 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 7/31/2009 - Published: 10/31/2008
Heat of the Sun by painted.inkblot reviews
AU, no PoT. The bad news: Squirrelflight and Brambleclaw had one kit who disappeared just weeks after being born. Many moons later, she resurfaces as leader of BloodClan, triggering a whole different string of events. The good news: Not much. ABANDONED.
Warriors - Rated: K+ - English - Suspense - Chapters: 17 - Words: 64,964 - Reviews: 159 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 11 - Updated: 1/18/2009 - Published: 7/10/2007
Quest of a Million Starlights by CinderDreams reviews
Cherryblossom is a tom apprentice with a mismatching name. He knows that StarClan exists and he's going to prove it not only to himself, but to his Clan members as well. Better summary on the inside, rated for safety.
Warriors - Rated: T - English - Adventure - Chapters: 11 - Words: 11,738 - Reviews: 90 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 12/2/2008 - Published: 1/4/2008
Apathetic Sympathy by ShadowSlasher13 reviews
Isaac Clarke knows of all the things the Necromorphs are capable of, he just never thought that sympathy was one of them. Oneshot.
Dead Space - Rated: M - English - Horror/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,650 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 3 - Published: 11/28/2008 - Complete
Falling Smoke by Kiwikirk reviews
The Clans left Smokepaw for dead. He survives his fall but finds himself wishing he didn't, as a new tribe of cats shoves him to two sides of a bloody, mysterious prophecy. When the lines of trust and loyalty blur, what's a bitter, lost apprentice to do?
Warriors - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Suspense - Chapters: 42 - Words: 139,665 - Reviews: 974 - Favs: 239 - Follows: 90 - Updated: 8/28/2008 - Published: 12/13/2006 - Complete
Loyal, Absolutely Loyal by painted.inkblot reviews
Yes, I'm loyal, absolutely loyal. Except for that one little thing...but I'm still loyal, aren't I? Just being more open minded...Complete.
Warriors - Rated: K+ - English - Suspense - Chapters: 7 - Words: 19,765 - Reviews: 66 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 8/6/2008 - Published: 1/21/2008 - Complete
Shadowed by Breezeh reviews
We were shadowed by our haunted us. We found we could not escape matter how hard we tried. And it would shape our future in ways unimaginable. ABANDONED.
Warriors - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 12,362 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 7/16/2008 - Published: 4/8/2008
Against All Odds by Matt Morwell reviews
Nine years ago, Jason Creight made a terrible decision. Now, restricted to a wheelchair, he must face his dark past to save his future... Please review and tell me how I did!
Pokémon - Rated: T - English - Suspense/Angst - Chapters: 40 - Words: 213,964 - Reviews: 89 - Favs: 46 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 7/29/2002 - Published: 2/24/2002 - Complete