In the space of one month i have lost two family members. Two people whom I have known as far back as my memory reaches.

White chocolate bunnies, hand stitched blankets, and beautifully pieced together dolls are all I have left of my aunt. She died one week ago at 66 years of age. She was a true medical miracle and a warm-hearted person.

An old broken bracelet, two china dolls, a dozen puzzles and books, and one thick woolen sweater are all I have left of my grandmother. She died four weeks ago at 90 years old and my god, right up till she died that lady was the terminator. She smoked and drank on a regular basis, was calm even when pissed, and tended to let us know her displeasure merely by scoffing. She had a hard bite to her for certain, but she never avoided letting us know she loved us or that she was proud of us. I wrote on here a year ago that I was so sad to be leaving Toronto, but now I am glad I did. That one last year living with my grandmother was golden and I am eternally grateful that Toronto broke my bank and forced me to flee to places with easier income.

To these two ladies - my grandma and her eldest daughter, my aunt - I can only raise my glass in memory and say with all my heart, "I miss you, I love you."

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The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together. ~Erma Bombeck

Thank you to Inyx Dawn for being my beta! Or more like editor since neither of us know how this whole beta thing works.

I'd like to share my insanity... taking a moment to slip into my scalp, sliding along the inner skin, seeping through the delicate bones then cracking open the egg shell to spill the mess in my head onto the paper in the desperate hopes that you, the reader, will understand.

I want to evoke reactions and emotions, be they good or bad. Carving the pen into the paper, gouging my marks with painful intensity. Spinning stories around people the way that air spins powdered sugar into soft, sticky webs of cotton candy.

I want to be heard in my voiceless words as they intensely echo trough your mind. You tilt back your head to the sky, mouth slightly open, eyes wide, and tremble with the wonder of it all, or the horror of it all.

I want you to hate me... I want you to love me.

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First Off! Because I keep forgetting top write it in the stories, I'll put it right here: DISCLAIMER! I OWN NOTHING... hell I don't even own the three poems I've had published anymore... the people who published them own them now... I think... I should check that out... The only thing I own is the brain in my head that keeps coming up with this cat dirt. So yeah... wish I was a millionaire who owned all the stuff that I write about... but sadly I am dirt poor and own nothing.

IN PROGRESS!

"All We Ever Have" A series of one shots about reapings in the Firefly-verse. Will be updated sporadically. I have the next idea, it's just a matter of figuring out how to do the reap.

"Broken Moon" A sad tale about Usagi. Actually I'm having trouble with not making it too dark. I don't want it to be angsty but it might end up being a little bit angsty... ah well. New chapter uploaded.

"Stray" A Gundam Wing/Harry Potter crossover that will be a bit angsty but also (I hope) empowering and funny at points. Updates will be sporadic for this story. Third is now posted, but fourth is not even started yet.

"What Makes the Difference" A Naruto/Harry crossover that will most likely be an epic! So it is far from finished. Waiting to be edited. Inyx Dawn is on vacation though, so please be patient, it's coming.

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I do so solemnly swear that I will reply to any review that is made, so that you, the reader, know that I appreciate your thoughts and comments. For those who review anonymously, know that you are valued too. For those that flame, know that I use your flames to toast my marshmallows.

I also do solomly swear that I will never abandon any fic that I start, no matter how long it may take me to update.