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Author has written 11 stories for Grey's Anatomy.

July 8, 2013 – Thanks for selecting to read this updated (2009) profile.

It’s hard to believe I’ve been writing Meredith and Derek stories over five years!

Deep disappointment at the end of season three led me to find fanfiction, and again after 4.11 I was so disappointed in Derek, and could not understand why Shonda Rhimes would kill McDream; Rose remains a thorn! I decided to write my first fic, and attempt to make McDreamy redeemable, and looking back over one million words and 235 chapters of Shattered Dreams, I hope it was accomplished. I hope you have enjoyed it as much as I have enjoyed sharing it with you. There's a bit more of the story to tell, since as a reader I don't like loose ends or abrupt changes, and Meredith's dream was "prophetic" and after so many of you have continued to read and be so enthusiastic, I want you give you a glimpse of their dreams being fulfilled.

There are now a total of 11 Meredith and Derek stories, nine of them completed. Each of them the result of disappointment in what became Grey’s Absurdity to me; especially the twenty second miscarriage confession – each story became an attempt to fill in the gaps.

Shattered Dreams and Obliterated Hopes will be completed during 2013.

Those of you that have read more than one of my stories, know that family is incredibly important to me, and although we do not see much Shepherd family involvement on Grey’s, I have chosen to write them into my versions of Meredith & Derek; mainly for two reasons. First, that the support of family, blood and extended, has been an interwoven fabric of my life. However, even in writing fan fiction, have made attempts to keep to the original characterization that we’ve seen develop on screen, and that brings me to the second reason – I cannot imagine how it’s been possible for nine seasons to have seen Derek’s mother only once; Amelia twice, conveniently, as a result of crossovers with dwindling Private Practice ratings, and most important of all – how plagued by forgetfulness Grey’s Writers become – we were introduced to a Derek in season one, that clearly implied his family was incredibly important when he told Meredith that all four of his "very girly" sisters would be at his bedside if he were ever hurt or sick.

Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoy my versions of the legend of Meredith and Derek, and the various glimpses into their future, and if you do – a comment would be ever so appreciated. Warmest regards and very best wishes for an enjoyable, friends/family/loved-ones filled summer! Jasmin

p.s. if any of you are twitter fans - merderfan05 is the screen name I use.

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You Might Die Trying by Wamzwrites reviews
Meredith is done with Derek, but when someone starts to target her, she lets him back in, unaware that letting him back in... may end up getting her killed. MerDer. FINISHED.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Suspense/Romance - Chapters: 41 - Words: 111,328 - Reviews: 1015 - Favs: 223 - Follows: 246 - Updated: 10/31/2011 - Published: 3/21/2007 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
Bright and Shiny by karensmith reviews
AU MerDer. Different take on season 1 and the relationships. What if MerDer were married before she started her internship?
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 228 - Words: 166,158 - Reviews: 5457 - Favs: 905 - Follows: 753 - Updated: 7/7/2011 - Published: 7/6/2007 - Meredith G., Derek S.
Dare You to Move by double scotch.single malt reviews
Post 2.17 Fic. What would happen if Meredith took control of her destiny after that bomb rocked her world? Read this EPFIC and find out! Story based on a S2/S3 theory - tried and true - literally resulting in a love that transcends above all else!
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 77 - Words: 256,014 - Reviews: 408 - Favs: 117 - Follows: 60 - Updated: 4/22/2011 - Published: 8/5/2009 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
Eyes Wider Than Before by double scotch.single malt reviews
Meredith and Derek centric fic. Early S3. Modified AU. A story of strong love and deep connections and unbeatable passion, each so intrinsic that merely surviving alone is no match for the true power of "them". Start reading and you won't want to stop!
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: M - English - Romance/Spiritual - Chapters: 59 - Words: 367,756 - Reviews: 306 - Favs: 90 - Follows: 49 - Updated: 12/28/2010 - Published: 9/19/2009 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
Do You Ever Get Weary by greymcdreamysgh reviews
MERDER. Future. Home. Love. Marriage. Family. Surgery.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 30 - Words: 212,800 - Reviews: 402 - Favs: 185 - Follows: 152 - Updated: 5/12/2010 - Published: 11/7/2007 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
Today by double scotch.single malt reviews
A rare view inside the mind of Derek Shepherd, centered around the events of early Season 3 and his journey of self-discovery as he reclaims his life with Meredith because his fate, his destiny leave him no other choice.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 21 - Words: 73,948 - Reviews: 50 - Favs: 33 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 1/20/2010 - Published: 8/22/2009 - Derek S., Meredith G. - Complete
Saturdays in the Life by halfbakedsourdough reviews
Random Saturdays in the life of Meredith Shepherd. She experiences all the joys and challenges of being a wife, a mom, and a world class surgeon.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Family/Drama - Chapters: 28 - Words: 118,654 - Reviews: 576 - Favs: 163 - Follows: 111 - Updated: 11/5/2009 - Published: 10/4/2008 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
H is for Hope by ipacacdoll reviews
A prompt fic from LiveJournal.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,575 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 5 - Published: 8/19/2009 - Meredith G., Derek S.
More Reasons to Love You by ipacacdoll reviews
Continuation of 'Midnight'.Meredith and Derek are married and in love,but don't know EVERYTHING about each other.The fun is in finding out.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 10 - Words: 52,964 - Reviews: 41 - Favs: 38 - Follows: 33 - Updated: 7/1/2009 - Published: 2/7/2009 - Meredith G., Derek S.
Midnight by ipacacdoll reviews
Snapshots at midnight. M/D
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 13 - Words: 53,517 - Reviews: 49 - Favs: 38 - Follows: 31 - Updated: 1/11/2009 - Published: 10/4/2008 - Complete
Still Here by starvingstudent reviews
She may have lost faith in the world, but never in him...' Sequel to 'WHAT I'M HERE FOR.' MerDer wedding.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 12 - Words: 113,733 - Reviews: 322 - Favs: 232 - Follows: 100 - Updated: 6/23/2008 - Published: 4/18/2008 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
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Shattered Dreams reviews
Begins with events on episode 4.11 and its immediate aftermath. Definitely Mer/Der as they work through this latest break up and ultimately make their way to a healthy, nurturing, committed relationship.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 241 - Words: 1,139,632 - Reviews: 2230 - Favs: 224 - Follows: 211 - Updated: 1/25 - Published: 1/25/2008 - Meredith G., Derek S.
Suddenly, only you reviews
Meredith and Derek's reunion after the ambulance accident; the conversations we will never see on Grey's;their doubts and fears about the health and future of their marriage, and their decision about family. Second chapter is an epilogue that begins with Bailey's birth...and ends years in the future.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 2 - Words: 10,497 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 33 - Follows: 13 - Updated: 7/8/2013 - Published: 1/5/2012 - Derek S., Meredith G. - Complete
Heartwarming Kitchen Memories reviews
What could have been... for Meredith & Derek...and Grey's Anatomy beloved characters post season 8
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 5 - Words: 19,747 - Reviews: 36 - Favs: 20 - Follows: 24 - Updated: 7/4/2013 - Published: 9/27/2012 - Derek S., Lexie G., Meredith G., Zola S. - Complete
Shepherd Family Secrets reviews
Grey's Absurdity, given its now expected inconsistencies, led to the idea of this therapeutic story; concentrating on the siblings' and Meredith and Derek relationships. What might have unfolded if any type of common sense prevailed, with a glimpse at Derek's and Lizzie's immediate recovery and the relationship that might have developed between Lizzie and Meredith and Zola.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,754 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 22 - Follows: 13 - Published: 2/18/2013 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
Obliterated Hopes reviews
Title reflects thoughts as MD fan post S6F. Vehemently disagree with SR that Mer's miscarriage was necessary for her to know she wanted a baby,and cringe at Rhimes/Vernoff S7P plans. Will attempt to turn obliterated hopes to hope/reborn and restored.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 20 - Words: 78,686 - Reviews: 281 - Favs: 109 - Follows: 144 - Updated: 4/18/2012 - Published: 6/1/2010 - Meredith G., Derek S.
Broken Vows, Unfulfilled Promises reviews
Post 8.2 One-shot. Meredith & Derek confront each other and face the fears fueling their estrangement, and address the true meaning and commitment of their vows and promises to each other.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 2 - Words: 2,930 - Reviews: 37 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 9/25/2011 - Published: 9/24/2011 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
The Deepest Injury reviews
Shock to the System, Grey's second episode of the season gave us a shocking 32 seconds scene when Meredith reveals her miscarriage to Derek; this attempts to fill in what was left unsaid and off our screens between two people deeply affected by the loss.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 4,334 - Reviews: 34 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 5/19/2011 - Published: 10/2/2010 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
Heartbreaking Reverberations reviews
Beyond the post it wedding. It was sweet, romantic and tender, as a prelude to a wedding. But we've been told "it was the wedding", and big reverberations forthcoming, implying the shoe is about to drop. This explores S. Rhimes cryptic message.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 29 - Words: 202,819 - Reviews: 357 - Favs: 117 - Follows: 105 - Updated: 9/21/2010 - Published: 6/14/2009 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
Painful Doubts reviews
Post5.17-3 chapters became 13.Meredith deals with truth behind some of his words,forcing Derek to own up to consequences of drunken words and actions. Undoubtedly, written in support of the"legend",includes post engagement scene,6.12& hopeful pre SF post.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 13 - Words: 37,011 - Reviews: 142 - Favs: 38 - Follows: 73 - Updated: 5/20/2010 - Published: 3/18/2009 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
Our Non Wedding Night reviews
Meredith & Derek's 25 second scene at the end of 5.22 extended. Closure for a scene and episode that left Mer Der fans wanting more.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,597 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 28 - Follows: 24 - Published: 5/9/2009 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete
Our Wedding Day reviews
It's their wedding day, but as we've been teased and tweeted and "spoiled" a bit of fun writing before tonight's 100th episode. Then, two weeks later in the life of Meredith & Derek, a small unexpected surprise.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Romance/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,926 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 10 - Published: 5/7/2009 - Meredith G., Derek S. - Complete