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Joined 03-07-08, id: 1518834, Profile Updated: 11-27-09
Author has written 11 stories for Phantom of the Opera.

Please help, if you are able!
For those of you who knew me back when I was working on Therapeutic, my friend Larysa, the one I mentioned was admitted to the hospital during the time I was writing, has LAM, a terminal illness that claims the lives of women in their childbearing years. Please visit her at www.fightlam.com (and hopefully, look for a posting or two by her at fictionpress.com soon).

The Erik Plush Project is nearly complete AT LAST!
That's right! Plush toys based on the real, true, original Leroux Erik. Scroll to the end of my profile for details.


A little about me:

I'm an adult, but I won't give my exact age unless you ask specifically and for a reason. I'm a naturalized citizen of the the Republic of Texas, but I was born in Pennsylvania. I'm married and have from time to time as many as six children living in my home, though I'm not yet a mom. I work in public schools, so my stories get updated far more during summers and school holidays, and my penname is the ultimate description of my personality, as you'll come to notice if you PM me or email me occasionally.

Why I'm here at FFN:
I've been writing for years and years (yes--since I was in the 7th grade, actually) but have always had a powerful irrational fear of publication of any sort even as informal as "Hey, would you read over this and give me an opinion?" so I gave it up.

Actually, now that I think about it, it's not nearly as irrational as one might think considering that in the 7th grade other students used to steal the notebooks in which I kept my stories and read them aloud in mocking sing-song tones... For a while I endured that, but I never managed to finish the 7th grade novel, the plot of which involved a young girl who had been adopted by a tyrannous uncle and a timorous aunt and ran away from home in search of information about the past of her parents. I can't remember what I wrote during the 9th grade year (so maybe it wasn't very good) but I do recall that by 10th grade I was telling the story of two wealthy sisters, one in high school and one in elementary who encounter a homeless boy in the park a few blocks from their house and begin to learn about people different from themselves. I never finished that either, and during college I wrote only poetry. Following graduation, I accepted a job and then wrote nothing for nearly ten years until a strange series of events brought me here.

Following severing ties with a family member who was well-meaning but unintentionally discouraging, I happened across the song Music of the Night and remembered how much I had liked Phantom of the Opera in high school. Not long after that I got a new job that gave me far more free time than the one I'd held for ten years had. Then Phantom of the Opera came through our town and my husband bought us tickets. But I had to run out and buy the novel on the way home because something was missing that I knew I remembered, so I read through it that same night, and, realizing that I was not going to be able to sleep without doing something about the tragic ending, I started writing just for me. Then one day I noticed my stepdaughter surfing around at fanfictiondotnet and I thought "If no one knows it's me, no one can make fun... or if they do I can delete my account and retire back into obscurity without ever admitting it was me." The couple of paragraphs I wrote to console myself suddenly became an all-consuming project and a hundred other Phantom fanfics jumped into my head simultaneously. That was March of 2008. Miraculously, a few of you actually liked what I wrote and made encouraging comments, and then someone wonderful told other people to check out my story, and now... well... suffice to say that because of you I now write again--EVERY day, just like when I was in the 7th grade. I'm excited about it again; I have at least three new things I'm going to start on here when I finish this one--but more importantly, I have ideas for how to revise and finish those OLD novels and ideas for NEW novels, especially one that is going to be incredibly fun because it will include references to POTO without being fanfiction in the least.

My point, in telling you this, is to let you know that I am forever in your debt for all your helpful and encouraging reviews. I thought I'd start here because, though descriptions and plots could get flamed, working with someone else's characters provided a safety net of sorts. This is only partially true. Phantom of the Opera readers are some of the most wonderful readers and reviewers there are out there, and I only wish that the people who like to write cruel reviews would grow up (or crawl off and die) because while they think they are just having fun (or worse yet, they may actually think they are constructive) what they may in fact be doing is causing other writers to give up their dreams the way I almost did.

Some thoughts on writing:
I once heard Keith Richard and Mick Jagger of the Rolling Stones in an interview talking about how to write a song. They said talked about someone (an agent or a manager or someone like that) locking them in a room and not letting them out until they'd written a song. They described songs as living entities that exist and who choose individuals to share themselves with. (Once, when someone told them that two of their songs sounded really similar, they responded that it's because the songs were sisters!)

I think that this is true of stories as well. I don't really believe that we make them up. After all, you can think and think and try to come up with a story but it'll drive you crazy and perhaps never get written at all. but sometimes, they just creep up on you and whisper themselves in your ear and you feel the urge to write them down. If you don't write them down quickly, you might lose your chance because the story isn't going to follow you around all day and beg (except in some cases when they really need to be told). When you come across an excellent writer, it's just that you've encountered a person who can listen to stories. This explains why my stories sometimes get away from me, why my characters don't always do what I had planned, and why my stories sometimes come out sounding far smarter than I think I am. This is why I can sometimes reread my own stories and wonder "Wow. How did I ever think THAT up?" It's a good thing, too, because when you write something really good, you can read it over again and again and again without being vain because you didn't really create it all on your own--it's just a story you encountered. Most importantly, it's the story that is in control, the story that chooses its writer, so you must practice and train yourself to be very skilled with words so that when the right story comes along, you are ready. Stories are like employers. The really good ones get to choose from all of the best writers, while the ones that are not as exciting, not as entertaining, not as riveting perhaps, have to choose from those who are left over. That doesn't mean you shouldn't take on a story that is not so interesting, though, because as the two of you work together, you both get better and sometimes it turns into something truly great. Other times, you simply share the story and move on, but it gives you experience which helps you to be ready for the next story that comes along, just like with jobs. Bottom line--be ready to begin a story on a moment's notice, and never quit until the story is entirely told. More stories will continue to come your way. Just always be ready and willing.

Final thoughts on writing:
I just want to say to all the young writers out there: No matter what anyone says to you, keep writing. Teachers will tell you that in order to get good at anything you have to practice every day, and no one, sometimes not even the teachers themselves, really believe it--but if you do it, you will find that it is true. And never EVER let anyone criticize you enough to give up writing for good because ten years from now--I PROMISE you, ten years from now those people will mean nothing to you, but writing still will. Trust me. I know.

Posting Status:
My long piece, here titled /Therapeutic/ (and currently undergoing a new title search and several revisions and cuts for possible publication) is complete, as are the shorter pieces "My Dead Wife," "And Then There Were Two," "Angel of Music" (which is not at ALL as cliche as the title makes it sound) and "I Burned His Mask." "My Dead Wife" will SOMEDAY be a complete prequel that does not incorporate anything that deviates from Leroux. There's a chance that a revised version of "The Fortune Teller" will be a part of that prequel as well. I may also someday create a retelling, which would give me a complete Phantom trilogy here on FFN. The Phantom, the Witch, and the Wardrobe is not complete, but as it was created MOSTLY by two of my FFN friends, I really can't make progress without them. At present, I'm obsessed with my latest long fic, The Real Don Juan Triumphant which tells what REALLY happened, because, like most modern journalists, Leroux didn't really get all the facts.

I'm also working on several original works of my own: 1) The Second American Revolution, 2) How I became a Sea Vigilante and 3) War on our Private Island and two young-adult novels that don't have titles yet. Excerpts of these might go up on my FictionPress.com account at some point. (My name is the same there as it is here). I've recently posted something over there called "Escape from New Square" but that's not the official title, nor do I know where that piece is going, so it will be a LONG time before there is an update.

When I post a long work, I generally commit to no less frequently than once a week and in the summers if I'm feeling inspired, I'll post daily.

Beta issues:
Right at the moment, I simply haven't the time. I'm still writing and posting because I cannot seem to force myself NOT to write. I've scarcely got the time to read the things my friend's post, so one more thing is just out of the question. I hope to be able to beta again soon.

~~PLUSHIES!!~~

The Erik Plush Project official website: http://www.sixpoint.us/erikindex.html

It's not too late! If you order now, you will have your Erik plush before Christmas 2009! Even if you're not yet ready to order, please visit the site to read about the project, see what the Leroux Erik plush looks like, see Erik in production at his factory in Shenzhen China, see the artwork from which the plush was designed and all the bloopers that occurred along the way. You can also participate in market research, learn about the origins of the idea, and watch Erik's transformation from novel character to artistically rendered plush to ACTUAL plush product that you can order and have for your very own. To answer market research questions immediately, go here: http://www.sixpoint.us/mailform.htm

Latest details: Erik has been in production for a little over a month. The actual plush toys are complete now and are (as of Thanksgiving 2009) waiting to have their glossy hang tags attached. The glossy hang tag has a picture of the outside of the Opera house on the front and identifies Erik as limited edition for the 100th anniversary of the first installment of Leroux's work in the French newspaper Le Gaulois. The back of the tag has a picture of the interior of the Opera house and more intimate information about Erik including a description of him based on the words of Joseph Buquet and Christine Daae, and how to properly care for your plush Erik. Erik will be 19 inches tall instead of 12 inches to make him more cuddle-able. He'll be most comfortable in a sitting position. He'll come to you wearing a black mask (to hide his accursed ugliness) but if he learns that he is truly loved for himself at last, perhaps he will show you his face without fear. (Mask is removable by untying the laces. Can be attached to Erik's left hand with Velcro. SixPointDesign, Biskuits, BleedingHeartConservative and all others involved are not responsible for what happens if you choose to remove Erik's mask. Possibilities include your being his forever and never permitted to part with him.) Erik meets federal toy safety standards and is licensed to be sold in Pennsylvania (all other states either have no requirement or are willing to honor a Pennsylvania license.)

Please visit my DA account http://bldnghrtcnsrvtv.deviantart.com/ and the DA account of our wonderfully talented Leroux Erik Plush designer, Biskuits: http://biskuits.deviantart.com/art/The-Erik-Plush-Final-Design-108229074

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When The Candle Flickered Out by Restless And Tempted reviews
The stars surely wept tonight! For Erik was behind us…Erik had heard everything. He would come for me tonight…to remind me that the Angel of Music was very strict." Mainly Christine's POV. A journey into a dark love that could possess so much light...R&R
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 18 - Words: 54,218 - Reviews: 156 - Favs: 83 - Follows: 74 - Updated: 9/14/2010 - Published: 6/22/2008 - Christine, Erik
Retribution by True.th reviews
The continuation of Leroux's novel, Retribution recounts the story of Comtesse Rosalie de Chagny and her obsession in unraveling the untangible mysteries surrounding her husband's death. What the Lady uncovers is more than she possibly imagined.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 44 - Words: 83,977 - Reviews: 101 - Favs: 20 - Follows: 19 - Updated: 5/23/2010 - Published: 2/3/2008 - Erik - Complete
Erik Who? by Kelsismom reviews
Epilogue up. Come see! MODERN DAY Retelling ALW&Kay. Takes place inside the movie. Inspired by the premise of the tv show Samantha Who? How will a head injury change the course of Erik and Christine's future? EC eventually
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Drama/Humor - Chapters: 69 - Words: 178,370 - Reviews: 407 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 27 - Updated: 4/7/2009 - Published: 1/8/2008 - Erik, Christine
The Dead Soprano by Evil Clinky reviews
The dead do tell tales. And they do come back to tell them.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Horror/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,646 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 9 - Published: 2/25/2009 - Complete
Otto's Perspective by Kryss LaBryn reviews
ALW's kitty, Otto, the Saviour of the Phandom, tries his best to save us from the horror of Phantom of Manhattan. Poor Otto. A short phiclet honouring the memory of a kitten who did his best, and is remembered as a hero. Tongue-in-cheek.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K - English - Humor/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,430 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 2 - Published: 7/26/2008 - Erik - Complete
Dreams by AngelOfMusic387 reviews
Christine and Erik fluff. Two part one shot. Rating for second chapter content.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 4,626 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 37 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 7/12/2008 - Published: 6/29/2005 - Erik, Christine - Complete
Too Many Questions by my-echo reviews
Song parodies...'nuff said. Christine wonders about her stockings. Erik curses dolls. The Opera Garnier might go boom, and Spongebob gets taken over by O.G. Updated! Chapter 14: Long-Legged Fiddle-Playing Man
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Parody - Chapters: 14 - Words: 4,660 - Reviews: 49 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 5/16/2008 - Published: 10/17/2005
A Noble Beast by jennyfair reviews
“And I listened ... and stayed!...That night, we did not exchange another word. He sang me to sleep." A fill in for Leroux, during Christine's first night in the house on the lake.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 577 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 4 - Published: 4/20/2008 - Erik, Christine - Complete
Variations Vignettes by HDKingsbury reviews
Light and fluffy "slices of life" with Erik and Christine duBois, first introduced in "Variations on a Theme of Leroux."
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 3,659 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 16 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 4/14/2008 - Published: 4/9/2008 - Christine, Erik
Memoirs of an Invisible Man by CopperTodd reviews
Finding no one else to talk to, Erik decides to write down everything in his small journal. His retelling takes us from his past into the present where he explains his grief over Christine's betrayal.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 5 - Words: 4,471 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 4/11/2008 - Published: 3/25/2008 - Erik, Christine
Erik's Ghost by drgn grl reviews
Erik may be the Opera Ghost, but what happens when he meets a real one?---one shot.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K+ - English - Supernatural - Chapters: 1 - Words: 936 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 3 - Published: 4/4/2008 - Erik, Christine - Complete
Woe and Other Words of Shame and Distress by Death and Destruction Co reviews
My God, he's horribly scarred and disfigured! The Phantom moans, groans and generally whines about his terrible life beneath the Opera Populaire with much exaggeration and too many similes. Enjoy!
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K+ - English - Parody/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,418 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/11/2007 - Erik - Complete
Opera House Emails by WassailWotters reviews
If our beloved Phantom of the Opera characters had email access, it might look something like this..
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 23 - Words: 34,491 - Reviews: 417 - Favs: 81 - Follows: 59 - Updated: 8/28/2006 - Published: 3/21/2006
The Ghost of Prospero by Belleshazar reviews
Erik offers to read Christine a bedtime story. But what is her strange request? EC Oneshot.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,665 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 6 - Published: 7/2/2006 - Erik, Christine - Complete
Denouement by Clever Lass reviews
Based on the Kopit and Yeston Phantom film, that stars Charles Dance and Teri Polo. Picks up when Christine faints after seeing Erik's face. It's mostly fluff, but a tiny bit of plot has crept in. The fluff, though, remains its raison d'etre. COMPLETE.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 30 - Words: 45,577 - Reviews: 353 - Favs: 206 - Follows: 58 - Updated: 6/16/2006 - Published: 4/20/2005 - Erik, Christine - Complete
The Viscount by friendorphantom reviews
A poem based on The Raven. Some time after Christine's departure, Erik is still mourning for her. His grief begins to take its toll on his mental health.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,197 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Published: 3/27/2006 - Complete
Shallow Means, Deep Ends by Elliott Lawrence reviews
Don Juan Triumphant is finished and now I want to live like everybody else...I have invented a mask that makes me look like anybody. People will not even turn round in the streets... The Phantom of the Opera, Gaston Leroux
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - Japanese - Drama/Adventure - Chapters: 27 - Words: 32,029 - Reviews: 138 - Favs: 31 - Follows: 33 - Updated: 2/24/2006 - Published: 10/14/2005 - Erik
Hands by Takada Saiko reviews
FLUFF ALERT! Christine descovers just how beautiful Erik's hands are. R&R please
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 536 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 1 - Published: 3/28/2005 - Christine, Erik - Complete
You Are Not Alone by 13 o'clock Erik reviews
Little blurb I wrote a few nights ago while I couldn't sleep. Erik is sick, Nadir wants to help, Christine saves her beloved Angel!
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,251 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 19 - Follows: 1 - Published: 1/31/2005
How Hungry Would a Woman Have to Be? by Mereidia reviews
COMPLETED: How hungry would a woman have to be to accept my money in exchange for her services? Erik has a late-night encounter that will change his views on life forever. Rated for language and for adult topics...
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 4 - Words: 14,001 - Reviews: 100 - Favs: 50 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 1/16/2005 - Published: 10/12/2004 - Complete
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The Phantom of Harrison High reviews
Someone at Harrison HS has been reading POTO and taking it too seriously. About bullying, peer pressure, isolation, cruelty. "T" for bad language, & mild violence. Public Service Announcement:chapter 42. NOW POSTING EPILOGUES, EXTRAS, AND DELETED SCENES.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 48 - Words: 101,274 - Reviews: 352 - Favs: 45 - Follows: 36 - Updated: 11/3/2012 - Published: 2/1/2010 - Christine, Erik
The Real Don Juan Triumphant reviews
**COMPLETE** NOW POSTING DELETED SCENES & BLOOPERS just for fun. Summary: Erik IS a bit of a Don Juan you know... What REALLY happened, as told by the Persian. Pairings: Erik/EVERYONE literally! . Rated "T" for sex. "M" chapters posted separately.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 81 - Words: 150,271 - Reviews: 998 - Favs: 67 - Follows: 35 - Updated: 4/2/2012 - Published: 5/3/2009 - Erik - Complete
An Evaluation of Erik reviews
A series of drabbles in which the original Erik is objectively evaluated by a modern therapist. Each post a drabble EXACTLY 100 words, so the time commitment to read is not huge. Just for fun. Come and comment. Parody, Angst, Psychological
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K - English - Parody/Angst - Chapters: 13 - Words: 3,533 - Reviews: 67 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 14 - Updated: 7/16/2011 - Published: 8/10/2010 - Erik
M Excerpts from The Real Don Juan Triumphant reviews
An excerpt from my longer humor fic for those who want to know all Erik told Daroga about his tryst with Christine. This Erik would kiss and tell. And does! Posted separately to preserve "T" rating of original. Erik is MORE than "a bit" of a Don Juan.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 2 - Words: 5,733 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 8 - Updated: 10/15/2009 - Published: 10/5/2009 - Erik, Christine
Angel of Music reviews
Surreal. What if the greatest of Erik’s lies was actually the truth? Erik. No pairings. Leroux-Erik with Kay references my only story to contain Kay references that aren’t tongue-in-cheek . Warning: Readers of my other work may find this mawkish. Sorry!
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K - English - Spiritual/Supernatural - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,657 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 2 - Published: 6/16/2009 - Erik - Complete
Therapeutic reviews
Leroux Sequel: An existential and psychological journey through the mind of our beloved Opera Ghost as he explores the many types of love, examines his past, and at last attains “what everyone else has” and much more. Cameos by S. Freud and J. Merrick.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 138 - Words: 391,993 - Reviews: 1646 - Favs: 80 - Follows: 43 - Updated: 4/16/2009 - Published: 3/23/2008 - Erik - Complete
I burned his mask reviews
A possible excerpt from my retelling of Leroux. This is the scene about which Christine tells Raoul: “I lied to him. My lie was as hideous as the monster who inspired it... I paid for my liberty. I burned his mask.” One-shot for now. Retelling may follow.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,175 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 5 - Published: 1/31/2009 - Christine, Erik - Complete
The Fortune Teller reviews
A young Leroux-Erik encounters an equally young gypsy fortune-teller one evening on the way to the shows at Nizhni Novgorod and she reveals something of his future. A possible excerpt from my prequel.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,092 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 2 - Published: 11/27/2008 - Erik - Complete
My Dead Wife reviews
At the end, Erik calls Christine his living wife. He tells the Persian that when she let him kiss her she was "as lovely as the dead ones." Who are the dead ones? Who is Erik's dead wife? Here is one theory. A little dark. A little sad. Poor unhappy Erik!
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,244 - Reviews: 52 - Favs: 35 - Follows: 2 - Published: 10/8/2008 - Erik - Complete
The Phantom, the Witch, and the Wardrobe reviews
And now for something completely different! My friends L'Arcange and FortunesFavour have collaborated on this lovely little spinoff from my story. If you want to know what REALLY happened to Erik in that closet between chapters 104 and 105, read this.
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: K - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,847 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/7/2008 - Erik
and then there were Two reviews
What happens when Christine learns of Erik’s death? Characters based on Leroux. Plot entirely from my imagination with one small idea borrowed from another classic which I choose not to reveal here because it would give away the ending . Please review!
Phantom of the Opera - Rated: T - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 5 - Words: 5,901 - Reviews: 59 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 3/27/2008 - Published: 3/25/2008 - Christine, Erik - Complete