I've been meaning to do this for a while.
I've grown up a lot since I left the LU in the hands of other people. It's taken some time, but I finally hit adulthood, mentally as well as physically. I think my depression had a hand in it, and it really set my damn priorities straight, as well as giving me a much needed kick up the ass. I look back on what I was like during my time on FFnet and...well, frankly, I'm embarrassed.
No. More like mortified.
I was a nasty piece of shit and I didn't care. I put things on my profile that I look back on and feel appalled and ashamed about, regardless of my reasons. It's taken some time to do this, mostly because I didn't know what to say. But it's not like I'm 'relevant' on FFnet anymore (and I'd argue that I never really was, to be honest), so here we go.
This is my apology to all of you I upset and offended over the years. I was wrong. I really was. I hope you carry on writing and enjoying yourselves. I hope you receive many reviews that give you the praise and constructive criticism you deserve.
I hope you keep on writing.
I finally decided to delete my stories. They were old and of poor quality, and honestly, I want nothing more to do with them. The Literate Union forum will be following over the next few months, once its users have sorted out what they're doing with themselves.
I took a look at my old stories before I deleted them, and to my greatest surprise, I found that they were still receiving spam reviews. I read a few. Some - particularly the ones who had actual names made up for the accounts - were quite funny.
My dearest reviewer,
You have been giving me love for six years now, I think? That's a longer period of time than when I was active on this site. Quite a feat, really. Sadly, though, once the LU is gone, this account will be locked down for good, and our time together will come to a close. I'm moving on with my life.
It's not you, it's me.
But I think it's for the best. I think it will be good for you. You need to move on, my sweet. You need to get over me. I'm leaving this site and going on to better things.
You will still be here.