Author has written 2 stories for Misc. Plays/Musicals, and Twilight.
Here´s the link to my OLD Fanfiction, The ORIGINAL Daddy's Little Cannibal (http://www.fanfiction.net/u/1542023/) ..
i can no longer post there since after the "fake death" so many reports were filed my account was revoked and blocked... but my stories are still up and soon more will come in this profile, my new profile.
You’re right, I’m not dead.
I want to apologize for hurting as many people as I did. You have to understand that I never expected it to blow up so fast and cause so much pain for so many people. I didn’t do it because I wanted attention and I wanted my stories to get more popular. I deleted the e-mail to my account, this is the first time I’ve even logged on fanfiction since it happened, I haven’t even read any of the reviews after it happened. I did it because, for the same reason I have to write this letter, a lot of people crossed a line. and it was fucking fan fiction!
Let me repeat that, it was fan fiction. You know that you can read about those characters in the original story, Twilight, right?
I’m not defending what I did. I realize, now, that it was cowardly and childish. But at that moment I was cowardly and childish, because I was a child! (Hate to break it to you, but you’re still a child when you’re 18, you may be able to go to war and have sex with strange men but you’re still a child) I’m a human being that makes mistakes, who gets selfish some times, and makes stupid decisions on feelings she’s feeling at that time. I was tired of writing for fanfiction, I wanted to work on my own characters (which, I have sold several stories since I’ve left here and currently in the process of working on my novel, yea, I’m a real author now who has work published and gets paid for it), I was tired of people being hateful and jealous, I was tired of the whole scene, but I didn’t want to stop writing. The only reason I faked my death, and didn’t take a break like I originally planned, is because of the continuous, never ending, hate messages I was getting from these group of people that hated me because they didn’t think I deserved the attention I was getting. And I may not have deserved it, but I earned it. I earned it because I have potential, because I have a passion and a talent for writing and people can see that when I write.
It’s been almost two years. I’m an adult now. I’m 20, going to school, going to work, chilling with my friends, dropping acid and eating shrooms, smoking pot, and living my life the way I want it without fan fiction. I don’t even think about it. And the honest to goodness truth, you guys would’ve over reacted even if I just said I was going on a break because it wouldn’t have been a break, we knew I wouldn’t have come back. But I should’ve been honest with everyone and not drag bronzehairedgirl620 and my sister into it. I apologize for hiding behind y’all, it wasn’t fair.
I’m a good person. I’ve grown up so much these past two years and I’ve grown up as a writer. One day you guys will see my book on the shelf or my story in a magazine, and when you do, I hope you read it with little bitterness and know that I am sincerely sorry. I’m sorry for faking my death and I’m sorry for waiting two years to come clean. But I’m not sorry for leaving.
Thank you, everyone, for the success and the dedication y’all have given me. I wish that my words didn’t seem so hollow. I wish you could see how truly appreciative I am of everyone that commented and favorite my stories. You made me one of the most popular fan fiction authors, ever and you let me try so many new things with my writing and you never stopped cheering me on. I wish I knew then what I know now, but we can’t change the past. I will forever be grateful to all my fans and my enemies because y’all have made me a stronger person. I accept criticism better now, my stories are better, my writing is better, heck, I’m an even better person because of this.
With all of this said, I ask that you guys leave me the fuck alone! I’m so tired of getting dirty and mean messages from people on my Facebook, and my friends getting these messages for me. It’s been two years! I understand that you guys are upset, but it’s been plenty of time for this to blow over and I still get messages, sure they’re more scattered, but it’s still frequent enough that I’m writing this.
The more hate messages you send me, the more it makes me not regret leaving fanfiction because I left for that reason. I left because people were guilt tripping me into believing that because I wrote fan fiction, in my free time for no pay, it was my soul duty to squeeze out a chapter every day.
Please, don’t get me wrong, I loved this experience, but I’ve moved on. This is my final goodbye. I hope everyone has a great life and that you guys are able to forgive me, but I’m not looking for a heartfelt reunion where I start writing fan fiction again. I’m ready to be the author I always knew I could be and I hope that you guys can be there to cheer me on.
Keep an ear and eye out for me because I’m out there in the writing world. I really am. You will hear my name again, it may not be Daddy’s Little Cannibal, but you will hear of me again, I promise.
With remorse and sincere appreciate, I bid y’all my final goodbye as
Daddy’s Little Cannibal
"We do not write because we want to, we write because we have to."
"Everyone thinks they can be a writer. Most people don't understand what's involved. The real writers persevere. The ones that don't either don't have enough fortitude and they probably wouldn't succeed anyway, or they fall in love with the glamour of writing as opposed to the writing of writing."
"The worst thing that being an artist (writer/painter/musician) could do to you, would be that it would make you slightly unhappy constantly."
"It took me fifteen years to discover that I had no talent for writing, but I couldn't give it up because by that time I was too famous."
"Writing is the hardest work in the world. I have been a bricklayer and a truck driver, and I tell you – as if you haven't been told a million times already – that writing is harder. Lonelier. And nobler and more enriching."
"Writing is not necessarily something to be ashamed of, but do it in private and wash your hands afterwards."
"The quality which makes man want to write and be read is essentially a desire for self-exposure and masochism. Like one of those guys who has a compulsion to take his thing out and show it on the street."
"A blank piece of paper is God's way of telling us how hard it to be God."
"Writing is so difficult that I feel that writers, having had their hell on earth, will escape all punishment hereafter."
"Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self."
“We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.”
"If somebody says no to you, or if you get cut, Michael Jordan was cut his first year, but he came back and he was the best ever. That is what you have to have. The attitude that I'm going to show everybody, I'm going to work hard to get better and better."
Awards for My Stories
Second Place for Best Author on Twilight Awards
First Place for Twilight Awards' Best One-Shot Short - Sex Education with Emmett - Daddy's Little Cannibal
Links You Should Check Out. :)
This is a link to a site that has an artist on acid. I love this. You have to check it out. Click Me.
This is where I got all my information on Dracula's Castle. Click Me.
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