Author has written 163 stories for NCIS, Grey's Anatomy, House, M.D., Criminal Minds, CSI: New York, Ironman, Law and Order: SVU, In Plain Sight, StarTrek: Deep Space Nine, Private Practice, Numb3rs, CSI, Bones, Burn Notice, Star Trek: 2009, Mentalist, Heroes, Hey Arnold, Misc. Tv Shows, Law and Order, Covert Affairs, Ugly Betty, Royal Pains, StarTrek: Voyager, Cold Case, Daria, Janet Evanovich, 90210, Big Bang Theory, Avengers, Fairly Legal, Pitch Perfect, Zenon, Scandal, Walking Dead, and Gotham.
A MESSAGE FROM THE AUTHOR: So, remember what I said last time about things being mentally on point? Yeah, no. NO.
Apparently, my brain was a Pressure Cooker without a steam valve and things finally went South on 6 August 2020 (Thursday). Don't worry, I didn't hurt myself or anyone else but from now on? The main mission is the Caregive the Caregiver. I can't help others if I don't help myself first. I have to remember that. I'm learning how to delegate the responsibilites I have, to set firm boundaries for myself so I don't get overwhelmed again by other people's, and most of all? I'm learning how to face my various traumas head on and how to not only cope with them but hopefully, heal. Again, I thought I was doing okay but as time passes, I realize that I had avoided all the awful feelings inside of me out of a sense of survival and duty. Duty to whom, exactly? Unclear but as I mentioned, I'm really trying to get myself together. I want to feel and live better and there's a lot of hard work involved. Fortunately, I'm no stranger hard work.
I'm on the correct dose of my antidepressant now (and it helps with nerve pain so double win!) and back in contact with mental health resources in my area. I found some amazing doctors and my family and friends? God, they've been invaluable. They've always been precious to me but their unconditional love? Their understanding and willingness to learn to understand? Wow. It's still an uphill battle and there will be setbacks (i.e. me typing this at 5am my time because I can't sleep due to muscle spasms/nausea) but it's doable. It's more than doable.
Fibromyalgia is both a physical and mental battle and I forgot that. Never again. But as I said last message: my stories have NOT been abandoned, the spirit is willing (now more than ever), the flesh is catching up, and hopefully, hopefully, I can get back into the swing of things soon. It's not like I have much else to do given where I am in the world and how current events have been unfolding. Staying Home really does mean Staying Safe. Anyway, I love you all, I'm working on coming back, and please continue to enjoy my work (or being respectful if you don't...) in the meantime. Thanks for understanding. Peace and Chicken Grease, ~*CMW2/Trumpetnista*~
••) .•) .•.•) .•) Pass the ribbon around if you know someone that has survived, DIED, or is living with cancer
From now on, every fic that I write solo or in collaboration with someone is dedicated to my Bunny, my Sara Elizabeth. The thing that she wanted the most for me, for our whole family, was joy, even in the wake of the cancer stealing her away from us. Writing brings me the most joy and that is why I will continue to do so. For my Bunny, my Sara Elizabeth. 2/9/2005 - 12/15/2016.
10 YEARS OF FFN (22 August 2018): So, apparently, yesterday was my 10 year anniversary of joining this site and I completely forgot! LOL! Wow. It's been a helluva lot of fun and I'm still here. Thank you for reading and enjoying my work (or being respectful if you don't...) and yeah. Wow...
TWO MILLION WORDS AND COUNTING!: As of today, 23 August 2018 (Thursday), I have submitted 2,031,401 words to FFN! That is amazing! Thank you for reading and enjoying my work (or being respectful if you don't...) and here's to at least 1,000,000 more!
*Welcome to my little corner of FFN.*
I've been reading on here for quite a little while now (since early 2005) and I am eager to post some of my own stuff.
I write constantly. I go through 5 subject notebooks like some people go through socks. My hands are always stained with ink and I'm known as " The girl that is always writing some damn thing" at school...and at home.
I focus on work from shows and movies I watch, mostly shows because I haven't seen many movies. I'm getting better, though.
Expect to see a lot of different chapter fics and maybe a couple of one shots.
My ideas are usually way too big to be expressed in one chapter and my dad always says I'm writing the next great American novel.
I'm not afraid to write about sex. I may be a little vanilla (I've gained a rocky road stripe over the years but still, vanilla overall...) but I'll write it if it'll fit and since I have a dirty mind, I'll find a way to make it fit.
Any constructive criticism is welcomed. I'd prefer not to be flamed but if my work sucks, I need to know.
If I'm going to be on here, I might as well do it right. But, I'm not afraid to block people if they get too harsh. (See General Disclaimer Below)
I'm very private so the most you'll get about me personally is that I'm black(and proud!), I wanted to be an English Teacher (shocker! LOL!) but now, I'm a home healthcare aide and I'm the 2nd oldest child in a big family in Southeastern Michigan.
Writing is my emotional Novocaine, my god given solace.
I need it like I need air and my faith in a better future.
I literally go into withdrawal if I don't write something every day, even if it's just in my head and not on paper.
GENERAL DISCLAIMER (particularly for the Anon-Trolls who like to invade my SCANDAL stories...): My writing style is a unique, beautiful and somewhat battered snowflake. I'm not changing it. If you fundamentally disagree with the way I write, then please just move on to someone else. There's a fine line between constructive criticism and just being hateful and disrespectful.
(Fanfiction) Writer’s Questionnaire
Date of Joining FFN: 08/22/2008
ID Number: 1674911
Do you have a Beta Reader profile and are you accepting requests at this time?: Yes and Not right now.
Estimated number of stories written: A lot. I had a drawer full of drafted stories at one point but I now have 163 up in 36 fandoms on FFN, 6 are in progress.
Longest story was (how long): My longest story at the moment is my SCANDAL Olitz fic titled Shattering Expectations It was an impulse fic after watching an episode that explained how the President and the First Lady really met and just how sad the scene was made me wish that he could've found Olivia Pope earlier and it just snowballed into a beautiful, epic length beloved BEAST in the Gladiator Arena. It's finally complete and so far, it has 327,030 words, 3,092 reviews, 1,125,297 views, 3 C2s, 617 faves, and 765 alerts.
Shortest story was (how long): My shortest story at the moment is my ST:DS9 Julian/Ezri fic titled His Hands. It's a part of my SSS Project (see below) and it has 658 words, 2 reviews, 1,996 views, no C2s, 10 faves, and 1 alert. I think this and its companion piece Her Spots opened the floodgates for more Julian/Ezri stuff to be written so it's one of my favorites.
Preferred genre: Tie between Romance and Humor
Weird habits when you’re writing: I put the key board on my lap and cross one legs over the other, resulting in having scars from the cuts on my leg from my crappy computer stand. I have a laptop now, thankfully.
Word processor or notebook?: Both. Notebook for drafting mainly but sometimes I just go on Word and let loose.
Open/Private about writing?: Semi open. My family and friends know I do it and I take my drafting notebook everywhere but I refuse to let them read the finished product.
Published?: Only on fanfiction.net, AO3, and my Tumblr; nothing original yet.
Favorite fandom: My god, there's a lot. Any fandom that I have a ship in is fair game but if I had to choose my top 5, they would be: THE WALKING DEAD, GOTHAM, OUTLANDER, TITANS, and SHERLOCK
Favorite story: Oh, crap. I have over 35000 and you want me to choose like one? Uh, okay. My favorite one that I've written is my HOUSE fic because it's like my oldest baby. I can actually see an evolution in my writing style, which I like. As for my favorites elsewhere, I'd have to say that my current favs are Outtabreath's STAR TREK 2009 fics, mishy-mo's Primal, TalesFromTheSpockSide's Holding Pattern, McAddicted's Dark Passions, sadhappygirl's Trouble Sleeping and just about anything from MariposaAngel18,Starquilter57 jaed621, jfine, razztastic, Dispatch22705, chalantness, PokeyDotes, Harme, She'sGotHighHopes,BuyJo, LizzySong, R3wind101, Writingmylifeaway, EllisHendricks, Sophiasown, comewithnattah, RickRhymes, cakebythepound, can08writer, Chellepo1977, lalababy19, We'reTheOnesWhoWrite, hobbitsdoitbetter, darthsydious, Nyese3529, charrrmed, Siancore, LemonStar, Izanaomi, LilyGhost, blackgirlfairy, jonesywrites, Lola Fairweather and blc. I'd list more but then I'd run out of room. Just look at my favorite authors and stories and you'll find them all.
Favorite line: You're killing me here! I'm been reading on here since late 2005 so I've read some epic lines! Okay, I'll put up 3 of my gems and 5 from other fics I've read.
1. Mary knew that he didn't but he was retreating for now in the face of Naked Mann and his Frying Pan of Doom. (from Solace- Chapter 18 In Plain Sight)
2.“Oh...okay. I didn’t kill him but you guys can have my piss if you want. It’s good to know that it’ll be used for good, not evil!”, Phil called cheerfully before running smack dab into the hall wall, a smirking Flack on his heels. (from Passion CSI: NY)
3. It was supposed to be a murder mystery but the plot seemed to be a little too weak for the genre. With a shrug, Addison took another pull from her bottle…and promptly spat it back out as the scene cut to two people in bed, complete with tongues and bad 80s smooth jazz. Great! The one night she’s suffering from lust induced insomnia, the TV gods decide to put on Pistol Pussies 5. What was worse was that she could feel herself getting turned on as Bambi and Roy rutted like beasts.
Looking back at the oven, she checked the time and called it as she slid a tentative hand inside her panties.
Time of Hitting the Bottom of Rock Bottom: 3:32AM. (From Irresistible Private Practice)
1.“Bones? What’s that bodies in motion thing?” you murmured into the darkness.
2. As soon as we get there, I’m heading straight for a vet clinic that euthanizes animals…
3. “I’m thinking...stampede.” Said Flack.
4. “You’re far too beautiful to be my mother.”
Angela was clearly thrown off guard by Zack’s comment.
“Was that a line I just heard you use, or were you just being…you.”
Angela smiled, although Zack hadn’t explained himself at all and had merely shown confusion over what Angela was referring to. Evidently, it meant something to her that he didn’t quite understand.
“Wow, Zack. That was actually really sweet of you to say.”
“I wasn’t trying to be sweet. It’s just a fact. You’re beautiful.” (from comedienne-quinn's Defying Logic- Chapter 12)
5. “Nahp nash-veh dom mahr-tor na't'ko-veh uzh Gaila. Mahr-tor na'nash-veh,” I said, thinking out loud. If had to buy a new dress for Gaila, I might as well buy one for myself.
He regarded me for a long moment, as if weighing out his response. When he spoke, it was in Vulcan. “Yon-kur.”
In red. (from outtabreath's What Would Doctor Flenderson Do?- Chapter 5)
Writing music?: I listen to heavy metal, movie/TV show soundtracks or a scrambled egg grab bag playlist on YouTube because I don't have an iPod or Zune (yet).
Hardest to write: One of those fics when everyone gets hurt all the time. I don't like putting the characters through hell.
Easiest to write: Romantic relationships/dialogue and dark/witty/perverted humor
Pet peeves in others’ writing: Bad spelling and/or grammar, weak endings, bad smut. If you're going to write smut, do it right or don't bother.
Prefer 1st, 2nd, or 3rd person?: It depends. Usually I stick with 3rd. I do dabble in 1st person now for my JE stories
Ever created a Mary Sue?: NO. God, no. EW. I stick with OCs.
Which is hardest to write—beginning, middle or end?: End. I don't want to leave it too open ended but at the same time I don't want to pull a JK Rowling and do a weak epilogue that pisses people off.
Best thing about writing/being a writer: Other people telling you that reading your work made them happy and just the writing in general. It's freeing.
Worst thing about writing/being a writer: Time restraints when attempting to complete fics and I have a tendency to do that to myself. I'm masochistic like that.
Writing—hobby or addiction?: You know that Simple Plan song line? Well, I'm a dick- I'm addicted to writing.
Longest case of writer’s block: Maybe about a month...month and a half. Any longer than that and I force myself to write something, usually smut. LOL!
FANFICTION DEFINITION (found and adored on Tumblr):
“Fan fiction is what literature might look like if it were reinvented from scratch after a nuclear apocalypse by a band of brilliant pop-culture junkies trapped in a sealed bunker. They don’t do it for money. That’s not what it’s about. The writers write it and put it up online just for the satisfaction. They’re fans, but they’re not silent, couchbound consumers of media. The culture talks to them, and they talk back to the culture in its own language.”
SERIES, SHOTS, AND SEQUELS- MY ONGOING FFN PROJECT/TRADEMARK: Greetings, y'all! Well, 2019 is done and over and that means that it's time to get SSS 2020 in play! Circumstances have changed in my life, leaving me unable (but not unwilling) to write as I wish to. But, I am a woman of principle. I said I'd do this and I will, even if it takes a while to really get things started. I am taking requests. Even if they're "When are you going to update/finish *insert 2010-2019 WIP* here, CMW2? I'm dying to know what happens next!" requests. This shall be most kick ass and I look forward to getting it going. With love, CMW2.
The majority of SSS fics are going to be rated M (because it's me) and any ideas you guys have for plots will be much appreciated. I'll put a tag on each of them so you can read them in order if you wish.
WORDS TO LIVE BY: "If you're holding a feather, you're erotic. If you're holding the whole chicken, you're perverted...or just really hungry.
FANDOM IS... (found and adored on Tumblr...)
Fandom is focus. Fandom is obsession. Fandom is insatiable consumption. Fandom is sitting for hours in front of a TV screen a movie screen a computer screen with a comic book a novel on your lap. Fandom is eyestrain and carpal tunnel syndrome and not enough exercise and staying up way, way past your bedtime.
Fandom is people you don’t tell your mother you’re meeting. Fandom is people in the closet, people out and proud, people in costumes, people in T-shirts with slogans only fifty others would understand. Fandom is a loud dinner conversation scaring the waiter and every table nearby.
Fandom is you in Germany and me in the US and him in Australia and her in Japan. Fandom is a sofabed in New York, a roadtrip to Oxnard, a friend behind a face in London. Fandom talks past timezones and accents and backgrounds. Fandom is conversation. Communication. Contact.
Fandom is drama. Fandom is melodrama. Fandom is high school. Fandom is Snacky’s law and Godwin’s law and Murphy’s law. Fandom is smarter than you. Fandom is stupider than you. Fandom is five arguments over and over and over again. Fandom is the first time you’ve ever had them.
Fandom is female. Fandom is male. Fandom lets female play at being male. Fandom bends gender, straight, gay, prude, promiscuous. Fandom is fantasy. Fandom doesn’t care about norms or taboos or boundaries. Fandom cares too much about norms and taboos and boundaries. Fandom is not real life. Fandom is closer than real life. Fandom knows what you’re really like in the bedroom. Fandom is how you would never, could never be in the bedroom.
Fandom is shipping, never shipping, het, slash, gen, none of the above, more than the above. Fandom is love for characters you didn’t create. Fandom is recreating the characters you didn’t create. Fandom is appropriation, subversion, dissention. Fandom is adoration, extrapolation, imitation. Fandom is dissection, criticism, interpretation. Fandom is changing, experimenting, attempting.
Fandom is creating. Fandom is drawing, painting, vidding: nine seasons in four minutes of love. Fandom is words, language, authoring. Fandom is essays, stories, betas, parodies, filks, zines, usenet posts, blog posts, message board posts, emails, chats, petitions, wank, concrit, feedback, recs. Fandom is writing for the first time since you were twelve. Fandom is finally calling yourself a writer.
Fandom is signal and response. Fandom is a stranger moving you to tears, anger, laughter. Fandom is you moving a stranger to speak.
Fandom is distraction. Fandom is endangering your job, your grades, your relationships, your bank account. Fandom gets no work done. Fandom is too much work. Fandom was/is just a phase. Fandom could never be just a phase. Fandom is where you found a friend, a sister, a kindred spirit. Fandom is where you found a talent, a love, a reason.
Fandom is where you found yourself.
This makes me tear up every time. I love all my fandoms.
The following is a list of the numerous ships I'm into and 9 times out of 10, the main pairing of my stories will be from here.
Elliot/Olivia from Law and Order:SVU
Marshall/Mary, Stan/Eleanor and Brandi/Peter from In Plain Sight
Meredith/Derek, Sloan/Lexie, Hunt/Yang, Warren/Bailey, Hunt/Amelia Shepherd, Maggie/Deluca, and George/ Izzie from Grey's Anatomy
Pete/Addison, Violet/Cooper, and Naomi/Dell from Private Practice
Anakin/Padme, Kyp/Jaina and Luke/Mara from Star Wars
Chakotay/Janeway, Torres/Paris, Icheb/Naomi, and Chakotay/Seven from Star Trek:Voyager
Ezri/Julian,Odo/Kira, Sisko/Kasidy, Garak/Ziyal, Jake/Korena, Shar/Prynn, and Asarem/Krim from Star Trek:DS9
Booth/Brennan, Hodgins/Angela, Zach/OC, Sweets/Daisy and Zach/Cam from BONES
House/Cameron and Wilson/Cuddy from HOUSE M.D.
Jack/Kate from LOST
Daniel/Betty from Ugly Betty
Harm/Mac from JAG
Tony/Ziva, McGee/Abby, Kate/Ari, Palmer/Lee, Palmer/Breena, Ducky/Penny, and Gibbs/Jenny from NCIS
Grissom/Sara, Nick/Sofia, Greg/Riley, Catherine/Vartann and Catherine/Warrick from CSI
Mac/Stella, Flack/Angell, Adam/Kendall and Danny/Lindsay from CSI: New York
Calleigh/Horatio and Ryan/Natalia from CSI: Miami
Tenth Doctor/Rose from Doctor Who
Mulder/Scully and Doggett/Reyes from The X-Files
Hotch/JJ,Hotch/OC, Rossi/Strauss, Morgan/Garcia, Reid/OC, Reid/Maeve, and Reid/Emily from Criminal Minds
Charlie/Amita and Don/Nikki from Numb3rs
Teresa/Patrick and Rigsby/Van Pelt from The Mentalist
Spock/Uhura, McCoy/Chapel and Sarek/Amanda from Star Trek 2009
Jack/Nora and Arturo/Chloe from Mental
Tony/Pepper and Happy/Natasha from Iron Man
Claire/Sylar and Peter/Emma from HEROES
Trip/T'Pol and Hoshi/Reed from Star Trek:Enterprise
Lilly/Scotty from Cold Case
Sam/Laura from The Day After Tomorrow
Shang/Mulan from Mulan
Tony/Jennifer from The Sopranos
Lee/Edward from Secretary
Arnold/Helga, Curly/Rhonda, Nadine/PeaPod Kid and Harold/Patty from Hey Arnold!
Jimmy/Cindy and Sheen/Libby from Jimmy Neutron
Chuck/Sarah from Chuck
Carly/Freddie from iCarly
Lizzie/Gordo from Lizzie McGuire
Tori/Andre from VicTORiUS
Michael/Connie from Law and Order
RJ/Jenny from The Hard Times of RJ Berger
Ben/Abigail from National Treasure
Joan/Arthur and Annie/Auggie from Covert Affairs
Hart/Matthews from Miss Congeniality
Dean/Jaime from Dark Blue
Ferb/Isabella from Phineas and Ferb
Divya/Evan from Royal Pains
Will/Maggie and Tanya/Miles from Rubicon
Jake/ED from Surviving the Applewhites
Trent/Daria from Daria
Ranger/Stephanie from Janet Evanovich's Stephanie Plum series
Hercules/Meg from Hercules
Batman/ Wonder Woman from Justice League
Max/Naomi from 90210
Nico/Dani from Necessary Roughness
Charles/Cassie, Lizzie/Andrew, Eddie/Jenn from Lincoln Heights
Perseus/Io from Clash of the Titans 2010
Moose/Camille and Luke/Natalie from Step Up 3
Sheldon/Penny from The Big Bang Theory
Kate/Ben from Fairly Legal
Clint "Hawkeye" Barton/ Natasha "Black Widow" Romanov, Agent Maria Hill/Captain Steve "Captain America" Rogers, Tony "Iron Man" Stark/Pepper Potts, Captain Steve "Captain America" Rogers/OC, Dr. Bruce "The HULK" Banner/OC, Thor/Dr. Jane Foster, and Dr. Bruce "The HULK" Banner/ Darcy Lewis from The Avengers (2012)
Thor/ Dr. Jane Foster and Darcy Lewis/Fandral the Dashing from Thor
Zenon/Proto Zoa from Zenon
Operative #5 Aaron Cross/ Dr. Marta Shearing from The Bourne Legacy
Mickey Lobel/ Johnny Flannigan from Trouble with the Curve
Beca / Jesse, Donald / Lilly, Aubrey/Unicycle and Chloe / Benji from Pitch Perfect
Scott Voss / Bella Flores from Here Comes the Boom
Sherlock Holmes / Joan Watson from Elementary
Stacy/George Dryer from Playing for Keeps
Tiffany Maxwell/Pat Solitano Jr. from Silver Linings Playbook (2012)
Rick Castle/ Kate Beckett from Castle
Olivia Pope/Fitzgerald "Fitz" Grant, Quinn/Charlie, and Huck/Quinn from Scandal
John Reese/Detective Carter from Person of Interest
Rey/Finn and OT3 (Rey/Finn/Poe) from Star Wars: The Force Awakens
Oliver Queen/Felicity Smoak from Arrow
Barry Allen/Iris West from The Flash
Rick Grimes/Michonne, Carl Grimes/Enid, Glenn Rhee/Maggie Greene, Daryl Dixon/Beth Greene, Daryl Dixon/Sasha Williams, Daryl Dixon/Rosita Espinosa, Daryl Dixon/Sherry, Sasha Williams/Abraham Ford, Rosita Espinosa/Abraham Ford, Rosita Espinosa/Siddiq, Eric Raleigh/Aaron, Aaron/Paul 'Jesus' Rovia, Carol Peletier/King Ezekiel, Enid/Alden (defector from The Saviors), Daryl Dixon/Connie, Rosita Espinosa/Father Gabriel Stokes, and Daryl Dixon/Carol Peletier from The Walking Dead
Jamie/Claire from Outlander
Sherlock Holmes/Dr. Molly Hooper, Dr. John Watson/Mary Morstan, Dr. John Watson/Sally Donovan, and Greg Lestrade/Sally Donovan from Sherlock
Dr. Harleen 'Harley Quinn' Quinzel/ Floyd 'Deadshot' Lawton from Suicide Squad (2016)
Bruce Wayne/Selina Kyle, Dr. Lee Thompkins/Jim Gordon, Dr. Lee Thompkins/Edward Nygma, Tabitha Galavan/Butch Gilzean, Jim Gordon/Sofia Falcone, Tabitha Galavan/Alfred Pennyworth, Fish Mooney/Detective Harvey Bullock, Edward Nygma/Oswald Cobblepot, and Tabitha Galavan/Barbara Kean from GOTHAM
Dick Grayson(Robin/Nightwing)/Kory Anders(Starfire) from Titans (2018)
Thor/Valkyrie from Thor: Ragnorak
Peter Parker/Michelle 'MJ' Jones from Spiderman: Homecoming
T'Challa/Nakia and Okoye/M'Baku from Black Panther
Colonel James 'Rhodey' Rhodes (War Machine)/Nebula from Avengers: Endgame
The more shows and movies I watch (and books I read and re-read), the longer the list will become.
I'm much better about checking my email, now so feel free to drop me a line.
I'm up for reasonable challenges and suggestions on writing techniques.
Much love, CMW2
Dumb Labels (I always laugh when I see these)
On a Sears hairdryer:
On a bag of Frito's!
On a bar of Dial soap:
On some Swanson frozen dinners:
On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom):
On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding:
On Sunsbury's peanuts:
On an American Airlines packet of nuts:
On a child's superman costume:
On a Swedish chainsaw:
On T-Rat (Military food):
On packaging for a Rowenta iron: "Do not iron clothes on body." (Aw, come on! That cuts my morning routine in half! 3rd degree burns is a small price to pay for the first rack of donuts at Kripsy Kreme!)
On Boot's Children Cough Medicine: "Do not drive a car or operate machinery after taking this medication." (No, you can't watch Dora! Why? Well, because you're not to operate heavy machinery and the remote's-no, wait, go ahead and don't forget to move the car after nap time. Your little sister's resurfacing the driveway)
On Nytol Sleep Aid: "Warning: May cause drowsiness." (Look, I haven't gotten any sleep in over a week! I want to be drowsy! I want to dream again! I miss playing grab ass with Sonic and Abe Lincoln on Bacon Island!)
On most brands of Christmas lights: "For indoor or outdoor use only." (Okay, but I was planning to put some on the International Space Station so is that okay? I mean, space is outdoors...)
On a Japanese food processor: "Not to be used for the other use." (Hold up, what's the other use? Castration of woodland creatures? Homemade vibrator? Stunt double on Will It Blend? Help me, I'm confused!)
For people that hate stereotypes: If you think people should just shut up and stop, put this on your profile. (BOLD the ones you are.)
I like fire so I MUST be a crazy arsonist
How to Tell if You're a Writer
-If you talk to yourself.
I saw this on Tumblr and adored it. I want to reblog it forever and I want it to be a part of my profile on here, too. I feel this way a lot and I can only hope I can find a guy (skinny or otherwise) that's like the one in this passage. Enjoy and pass along to as many as you can. It's called, "10 Honest Thoughts on Being Loved by a Skinny Boy" by the awesome Rachel Wiley.
Another gem from Tumblr...
Stand naked in front of a mirror for a long time, under unflattering light if possible. Trace the rises and falls of the little ripples on your skin — the scars, the dimples, the cellulite — and think about how much you try to hide these things in your day-to-day. Wonder why you hate them so much, and if this hate stems from somewhere within yourself, or as a result of being told all your life that it’s wrong to have physical flaws. Wonder what you would think of your body if you never looked at a magazine, if you never thought about celebrities and models, if you never had to wonder where someone would rate you on a scale of 10. Look at yourself until the initial recoil softens, and you can consider your features in a more forgiving frame of mind.
Listen to the music which makes you want to both sob and dance with uninhibited joy, and allow yourself to repeat any song you want as many times as your heart desires. Think of the person you are when you have your favorite song in your headphones and are walking down a street you feel you own completely, swaying your hips and smiling for no good reason — remember how many things you love about yourself during those moments, how much you are willing to forgive in yourself, how confident you are for no good reason. Try to think of confidence as a gift you give yourself when you need it, instead of something you have to siphon from every unreliable source in your life. Dance because the music makes you remember how much you love yourself, not because it allows you to forget the fact that you don’t.
Write a list of all the things you like about yourself, even if you think it’s a self-indulgent and narcissistic activity. Start as early as you like in your life — put down that time you won a trophy playing little league soccer when you were eight and then got an extra-large shake at the DQ on the way home, and don’t feel silly for remembering it. Try to understand how many sources in your life happiness can come from, how many things you could be proud of if you chose to. Ask yourself why you so tightly limit the things you take pride in, why you set your own hurdles for happiness and fulfillment so much higher than you do with anyone else in your life. Let your list go on for pages and pages if you want it to.
Touch and care for yourself with the attention and the patience that you would someone you loved more than life itself. Rub lotion in small circles on your elbows and hands when it is cold and your skin is dry and cracked. Make soup for yourself when your nose is running and curl up, with your favorite movie, in a pile of expertly-stacked pillows. Light a few candles and let their glow flicker against your body. Admire how gentle they are, how delicately their warmth touches you — wonder why you don’t let yourself do the same. Soak your feet in warm water at the end of a long day, until they have forgiven you for walking on them for so long without so much as a “thank you.” Listen to your body when it aches to be touched, and don’t be afraid to give it every orgasm that you may have been too ashamed to ask for in someone else’s bed.
Be patient with yourself, and don’t worry if a switch doesn’t flip in you which abruptly takes you from “crippling self-doubt” to “uncompromising self-love.” Allow yourself all the trepidation and clumsy, uneven infatuation that you would with a promising stranger. Try only to be kinder, to be softer, and to remember all of the things within you which are worth loving. Listen to the voice in the back of your head which tells you, as much out of sadness as anger, “You are ugly. You are stupid. You are boring.” Give it the fleeting moment of attention it so craves, and then remind it, “Even if that were true, I’d still be worth loving.”
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