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Author has written 5 stories for Twilight.

I’ve been kind of re-skimming WA recently, which is a big deal for me. I hadn’t been able to so much as glance at the thing since posting the epi ten years ago. I’ve always had a lot of anxiety and negative feelings surrounding it, but upon re-reading it, I can totally see it for what it is: A love letter to my fave angst tropes. I mean, the whole thing is 410k words. It’s like basically 5 stories in 1. And even though I could have chosen one and given it the justice it deserved, I didn’t want it to end because yeah, there were a lot of negative experiences surrounding it, but also a lot of positive. I sort of grew up while writing WA, not just as a writer, but also as a person. And I know it probably sounds over-dramatic, but I’m honestly not exaggerating when I say that I think it saved my life. When I started posting it, I was in a very dark place. I kind of funneled that dark place into fictional people and ended up building a new life and family along the way. How cool is that?

This is all to say, I’m finally in a place where I can start loving this stuff again. My BFF Angel and I (who met through WA!) are co-writing a dark YA series of standalone romances, with so many of my fave themes. Trauma, bullying, addiction, social issues, violence, pretty rich high school boys being douchebags, hurt/comfort, frantic dry humping, you feel me you feel me. And the best part is that Angel—she of BEST plotting and structure—is doing something I could never achieve and giving these things actual direction and purpose without me having to drag it out for a meandering 410k words (how does she do that? Idek). It’s just been super fun! The first book is 120k and the second is shaping up to be much the same. We already have a third and fourth in the works. Each book is a different couple with different issues, all existing in the same prep school setting.

But I couldn’t do this project without telling the WA world (however few may remain) about it. Because as cheesy as it sounds, while WA was my love letter to my fave angst tropes, my work on this series is a love letter to what that other love letter built.

If you’re interested, you can find more info at SamRue(dot)com, or follow me on Facebook @SamanthaRueAuthor, or on Amazon as Samantha Rue. I’d adore the idea of writing for you all again!

Book 1: Devil May Care (mybook . to/DevilMayCare)

Book 2: A Deal with the Devil (mybook . to/ADealWithTheDevil)

Thanks for reading and going on all those old wild rides with me!

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The sound of your voice by marie0912 reviews
(This fanfic is unlikely to ever be finished. Sorry) A boy with a passion lost moves away with his parents in a desperate attempt to cope with his deafness and meets a girl who speaks before she thinks. Forks is a place with dark secrets that slowly unveils, the kids hiding both past, present and future.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 24 - Words: 53,225 - Reviews: 1663 - Favs: 899 - Follows: 1,058 - Updated: 5/10/2021 - Published: 12/1/2009 - Edward, Bella
Hit By Destiny by ocdmess reviews
Bella wants to die, and almost gets her wish fulfilled when she gets hit by a shiny Volvo. She is left with serious injuries, and the only thing keeping her from dying is the person who hit her. All Human, Rated M for language, dark themes & violence.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 60 - Words: 464,354 - Reviews: 20596 - Favs: 13,558 - Follows: 7,465 - Updated: 6/28/2020 - Published: 10/24/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Uncomfortable by Savannah-Vee reviews
Got 'Best Angst' mention in 'Slash Backslash' contest! 'The way he looks at me makes me feel...uncomfortable.' Jasper's girlfriend's brother, Edward, keeps staring at him. Why? Who knows. Seems like even Edward is confused...SLASH, AH, very OOC.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 18 - Words: 90,377 - Reviews: 2994 - Favs: 1,576 - Follows: 1,853 - Updated: 10/21/2016 - Published: 11/22/2009 - Jasper, Edward
Creature of Habit by EZRocksAngel reviews
Bella begins working for the elusive and distant Edward Cullen who she discovers is hiding behind an elaborate charade to maintain his secret lifestyle. Bella is determined to find out the mysteries of Edward Cullen but with what results? AU, OOC.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 33 - Words: 189,624 - Reviews: 15001 - Favs: 13,702 - Follows: 6,083 - Updated: 3/23/2016 - Published: 1/4/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Expectations and Other Moving Pieces by chrometurtle reviews
Everything I had done in my life seemed to lead up to this moment. The moment when I found myself bound inextricably to a man I didn’t love, trapped in a life I didn’t want. And if I left him, I would be entirely alone.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 46 - Words: 227,237 - Reviews: 15274 - Favs: 9,186 - Follows: 9,352 - Updated: 11/11/2013 - Published: 10/13/2009 - Bella, Edward
The Fallout by OCDindeed reviews
March 16/06 the world the Cullens knew ended. Faith, hope & love are powerful things. Edward finds out how powerful they are when he loses the one person who made his life worth living. Not just an E/B story. Entire Cullen clan is here, each with their own hardships. Set during a post-apocalyptic nuclear war. NM/AU
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 39 - Words: 325,290 - Reviews: 6847 - Favs: 5,032 - Follows: 3,413 - Updated: 3/24/2012 - Published: 3/24/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Resident Geek by cdunbar reviews
Geeky Edward thinks he has absolutely no shot with the popular, beautiful Bella. Is he right, or will she be one of the many girls who thinks geeks make for better lovers? M for language, sexuality, and some underage drinking. A little OOC...ok, a lot OOC
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Humor - Chapters: 22 - Words: 95,911 - Reviews: 5570 - Favs: 7,477 - Follows: 5,414 - Updated: 12/13/2011 - Published: 8/30/2008 - Edward, Bella - Complete
The Vampire in the Basement by michellephants reviews
While hunting one afternoon, the boys stumble upon what appears to be a corpse. When they learn it's a severely broken vampire, they take him home to do what they can to help. But of course, fate has plans for this man. Canon Couples. AU.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 32 - Words: 164,189 - Reviews: 11850 - Favs: 10,563 - Follows: 6,909 - Updated: 10/30/2011 - Published: 2/26/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
A Rough Start by ItzMegan73 reviews
Overnight irresponsible Edward goes from bachelor to father of a 5 yr old. Meanwhile responsible, prepared Bella begins her first job as Kindergarten teacher at Forks Elementary. When irresponsible meets the epitome of responsible, sparks will fly!
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 41 - Words: 253,554 - Reviews: 23342 - Favs: 16,445 - Follows: 11,111 - Updated: 8/31/2011 - Published: 8/20/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
A Roll of the Dice by theladyingrey42 reviews
Every time I roll to try to get up the conviction to kiss him, I always roll a one. A botch. Because kissing my dungeon master - my best friend - my Jasper - would be the definition of a botch." M for citrusy, geeky boy-love. For SorceressCirce's bday
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Friendship/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 13,881 - Reviews: 216 - Favs: 403 - Follows: 129 - Updated: 2/21/2011 - Published: 2/21/2010 - Edward, Jasper - Complete
How My Life was Ruined in 14 Days by moon.witche reviews
Bella has a plan. It's a detailed plan for her whole life. But in her quest for perfection, she has skipped certain high school experiences. With graduation fast approaching, Bella concocts a new plan – a plan to lose her virginity. BxE
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 15 - Words: 62,366 - Reviews: 3818 - Favs: 4,080 - Follows: 3,310 - Updated: 2/3/2011 - Published: 9/15/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
The Tutor by ItzMegan73 reviews
New student Bella Swan needs to break out of her shy exterior and her guidance counselor has the answer: tutoring. And Bella is too new to know she shouldn’t want to tutor Edward Cullen.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 35 - Words: 162,443 - Reviews: 7040 - Favs: 11,218 - Follows: 3,439 - Updated: 12/25/2010 - Published: 4/18/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Edward the Sugar Queen by Nina Windia reviews
Edward is a sugar addicted seventeen-year old who thinks he is a vampire. He is in love with Charlie Swan, who drives in the town's supply of sugar every week. But when Bella arrives, she decides to destroy their relationship and take Edward for her own.
Twilight - Rated: T - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 22 - Words: 32,462 - Reviews: 356 - Favs: 214 - Follows: 156 - Updated: 12/23/2010 - Published: 4/29/2009 - Edward, Charlie S. - Complete
Oh, Inverted World by DeviKalika reviews
Edward is a tortured soul with a dark past at St. Teresa's Catholic Academy in Port Angeles. What happens when he meets a girl who turns his world upside down? AU-All Human. Rated for language and graphic adult content.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 13 - Words: 1,699 - Reviews: 1131 - Favs: 1,370 - Follows: 1,591 - Updated: 10/20/2010 - Published: 6/11/2009 - Edward, Bella
Bare by stella luna sky reviews
Winner of two Summer 2009 Indies. A beautifully plain girl writes the colors used to unravel a young prodigy of the brushstroke. What color are the eyes that see through the heart? Forest green and their rooted brown. AH/M. COMPLETE.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 28 - Words: 95,675 - Reviews: 5772 - Favs: 6,945 - Follows: 3,853 - Updated: 8/4/2010 - Published: 6/5/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
With or Without You by Rochelle Allison reviews
Edward and Bella were once high school sweethearts. Years later, their lives converge unexpectedly, forcing Bella to deal with and accept things she's long since tried to move past. This story started with "Trampoline", once a WitFit prompt.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 34 - Words: 43,697 - Reviews: 4335 - Favs: 3,235 - Follows: 1,519 - Updated: 7/24/2010 - Published: 3/10/2010 - Bella, Edward - Complete
So Cruel by Demosthenes91 reviews
Fate up against your will. It’s the late 80s and Bella Swan must learn to live with her undying devotion to the popular Edward Cullen, who will never see her as anything more than a friend. AU/AH
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 8 - Words: 79,122 - Reviews: 1156 - Favs: 1,188 - Follows: 1,564 - Updated: 7/3/2010 - Published: 11/9/2009 - Bella, Edward
Extreme Measures by Touchstone67 reviews
What would you do to get the one you love back? What if they had moved on...would you go to extreme measures to bring back into your life? Rated M for dark themes
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 23,420 - Reviews: 135 - Favs: 134 - Follows: 35 - Published: 3/22/2010 - Edward, Jasper - Complete
Fault by ineedyoursway reviews
An awful event in junior high leaves Bella adrift and alone. Years later, she begins to recover with the help of both a repentant Edward and her new friend, James. Things begin to look up, but is everything as it seems? AH/DARK
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 31 - Words: 73,294 - Reviews: 3419 - Favs: 2,360 - Follows: 1,618 - Updated: 3/20/2010 - Published: 10/8/2009 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Daedalus in Exile by EZRocksAngel reviews
After leaving Forks, Edward follows a path of weakness and isolation while eventually seeking redemption from the only person who can absolve him. Alternate Universe, B/E
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Suspense - Chapters: 21 - Words: 86,525 - Reviews: 4828 - Favs: 2,662 - Follows: 1,448 - Updated: 2/15/2010 - Published: 9/15/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Visitation by radiofreeamy reviews
AH-AU What if Edward reacted violently while saving Bella that night at Port Angeles? Can Edward and Bella find themselves and love while Edward is incarcerated?
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 16 - Words: 59,979 - Reviews: 651 - Favs: 500 - Follows: 573 - Updated: 2/3/2010 - Published: 3/17/2009 - Edward, Bella
Burn and Shine by pulsepoint reviews
At first glance felonious Edward seems like nothing but trouble, but as sheltered college student Bella digs deeper she realizes he is so much more. Possibly too much for her to handle. ExB, AH, rated M for dark/adult themes and profanity
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 21 - Words: 115,176 - Reviews: 2166 - Favs: 2,774 - Follows: 2,946 - Updated: 1/25/2010 - Published: 8/31/2009 - Bella, Edward
La Pour Ca by pulsepoint reviews
Edward Cullen has a seemingly ideal existence. A beautiful wife, two wonderful children, and a successful writing career. So why has he always felt like something was missing? AH, rated M for adult themes.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 15,439 - Reviews: 113 - Favs: 110 - Follows: 121 - Published: 1/15/2010 - Edward, Jasper
Lunière by siDEADde reviews
TW/MS Alice's POV. Canon "Where Jasper and I were halves of the same whole, Edward and I were the same half. We understood each other more than the family understood us."
Twilight - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 20 - Words: 66,720 - Reviews: 422 - Favs: 465 - Follows: 412 - Updated: 8/17/2009 - Published: 4/8/2008 - Alice, Edward
Girl Afraid by agoraphobiantic reviews
Edward moves to Forks with his father during his senior year, where he meets Bella Swan. Gorgeous, confident, and non-malicious hater extraordinaire. She hates Edward, and it's anyone's guess why.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 15 - Words: 67,698 - Reviews: 616 - Favs: 1,022 - Follows: 282 - Updated: 8/16/2009 - Published: 7/20/2009 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Innocent, Vigilant, Ordinary by Oxymoronic8 reviews
ON HIATUS. Bella spent the first two years of her life in Forks slowly falling for Jacob. As her senior year begins, a new family moves to town and she begins to question the difference between what she thought she needed & what she never knew she wanted.
Twilight - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 35 - Words: 177,984 - Reviews: 5721 - Favs: 5,436 - Follows: 4,727 - Updated: 7/19/2009 - Published: 7/16/2008 - Bella, Edward
Gravity by Abasketcase reviews
AH BxE Bella has a book. Edward has an unfortunate past, dark present, and all or nothing future. Two strangers meet in an airport and find gravity in one another.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 15 - Words: 74,063 - Reviews: 627 - Favs: 549 - Follows: 678 - Updated: 6/14/2009 - Published: 9/14/2008 - Bella, Edward
Wilting by GuineaPigBarbie reviews
So, this is my life, a childish game. Ruled by God, damned by fate. A game of love and lost." AU/Human
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Humor - Chapters: 13 - Words: 45,530 - Reviews: 919 - Favs: 659 - Follows: 926 - Updated: 5/18/2009 - Published: 7/20/2008
Snap by Ruby-Wednesday reviews
Snap decisions have devastating consequences. Edward makes a different choice on Bella's first day of school and learns the hard way that two wrongs can never make a right. A two-part dark AU.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 2 - Words: 9,499 - Reviews: 225 - Favs: 278 - Follows: 88 - Updated: 4/8/2009 - Published: 4/1/2009 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Cowboys & Indians by Minisinoo reviews
Lessons on the road in a journey through time. Existentialism, a Texas pow-wow, a '67 Mustang, a bar brawl, Pocahontas, and Jack Kerouac. Sometimes, family is chosen, even if they're not who we expect. Jasper, Leah & Seth, Edward
Twilight - Rated: T - English - Drama/Humor - Chapters: 11 - Words: 19,891 - Reviews: 270 - Favs: 561 - Follows: 95 - Updated: 2/19/2009 - Published: 7/29/2008 - Jasper, Leah - Complete
Beauty Shining in Company with the Celestial Forms by Minisinoo reviews
When Edward rebelled against Carlisle's way of life in 1927, what changed his mind and sent him back in 1931? With a side-serving of White Sox-Cubs rivalry, Camels, Plato and mobsters. Written for the 2008 LGBT fic fest. Non-explicit gay themes.
Twilight - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 14,611 - Reviews: 94 - Favs: 212 - Follows: 38 - Published: 5/5/2008 - Complete
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Lovely Ghosts of Fandom Past reviews
Not a story, just a quick and totally FFn-illicit publishing message!
Twilight - Rated: K - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 536 - Reviews: 112 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 37 - Published: 6/8/2020
Company Loves Misery reviews
AH-Edward, current recovering alcoholic, former bully of Bella Swan, must make amends to the one person who refuses to give them. Written for FGB Auction/WA Rehab. Adult Situations. Updated Wed/Sun.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 13 - Words: 76,843 - Reviews: 6271 - Favs: 5,560 - Follows: 5,488 - Updated: 7/12/2010 - Published: 12/12/2009 - Edward, Bella
Withering the Ferns reviews
Isabella, infamous rich girl, meets Edward, the dark, mysterious guy from the wrong side of the tracks after an accident. Lost in the dense forest surrounding Forks together, they must survive complete isolation. Written for Gift Exchange.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 17 - Words: 75,311 - Reviews: 1063 - Favs: 3,632 - Follows: 779 - Published: 8/6/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Wide Awake OUTTAKES reviews
These are chapter outtakes for WA. Scenes and false starts that didn't make the cut, but still have some funny and good moments. Just for fun. Not srs bsns. Don't read if you've become attached to the finer details in the story. M for language and stuff.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 7 - Words: 15,902 - Reviews: 504 - Favs: 623 - Follows: 421 - Updated: 1/30/2009 - Published: 12/11/2008
The Light and The Dark reviews
One-Shot companion piece to Wide Awake exploring a day in the life of Elizabeth Masen, Edward's mother. Takes place in the summer prior to the events in Wide Awake. Rated M for Dark/Adult themes and graphic descriptions. Elizabeth POV.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,375 - Reviews: 312 - Favs: 320 - Follows: 82 - Published: 12/23/2008 - Elizabeth, Edward - Complete
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