hide bio
PM . Follow . Favorite
Joined 04-13-09, id: 1900275, Profile Updated: 07-28-16
Author has written 11 stories for Scott & Bailey, Caroline In The City, and Switched at Birth.

I am a 27-year-old Norwegian girl who lives in London, studying music.

Life is hard. It has always been hard. I've struggled with mood swings and impulse control my whole life, but it was never voiced, never seen. There was no real name for it. There were words, like "impossible", "brat" and "bad-tempered", but it never went much deeper than that. Most people didn't look beyond the surface, and those who did had no idea what they were looking at. And how could they? I was a confusing person.

Going into my teenage years, my mood swings became violent, with frequent anger outbursts and several days of darkness and indifference. For every year that passed, it seemed to get even harder to cope with life. But I soldiered on, at war with MYSELF most of the time, until I fell completely apart about four years ago. I could no longer hide it. The depression became so overwhelming that one very important person finally noticed: my singing teacher at university sat me down one day and talked me into seeing a doctor. Over the next few months I tried a few different antidepressants before finding one that worked for me, and my mood started to improve. For a couple of months I felt pretty great. Life seemed brighter, somehow. And then the antidepressants stopped working, and the next stop was the psychiatrist's office. Almost a year after first asking for help, I received a proper diagnosis: bipolar disorder.

My story isn't completely out of the ordinary. While most people develop bipolar disorder in their late teens or early twenties, and not during childhood like I did, about two percent of the population will be diagnosed with bipolar affective disorder. It's a complex matter, because the bipolar spectrum is quite vast, but the main thing to keep in mind is that it happens, and it's something we, as a society, need to become more aware of. We need to open our eyes. We need to stop judging based on what we see on surface level. Life is intricate and full of grey areas that people tend to avoid. We don't know how to deal with the things we are uncomfortable with, so we look the other way. I wish we could stop doing that.

The world of fiction has always been my escape from reality during times that were hard; it felt good to escape my depressed reality in exchange for a fictional alternative. At times I'm convinced it actually kept me alive, because it took me out of my own thoughts, at least for a little while. My own life became completely uninteresting to me.

Today I am on medication, which has stabilised me, and I am seeing a therapist, but being bipolar means that I will forever be in "recovery" - there is no cure. I have realised that life is what it is, and even if it seems too heavy and impossible to carry on at times, I still do, and I think it's because I have realised that if I don't, how can I expect change? The change I want to see has to start somewhere, and I'm going to do my part. I want to make a difference, by writing something that grabs people's attention. I want to put the spotlight on people's emotions and the complexities of the human mind. It's what I seek to do with my fanfic writing, and it's what I ultimately want to do by writing a novel. I want to illustrate the psychological impact of bullying, which I experienced as a teenager, and the despair of mental illness. I want to demonstrate cause and effect, and how life evolves with each and every turn we take. I want to tell stories that show the world that life cannot be simplified. I want to reach into people's souls and leave my prints on them.

I often find myself drawn to characters that are unusual; characters that struggle with inner demons, or perhaps have a dark side. It doesn't necessarily have to be obvious, because in life, it usually isn't. It's about looking for subtle hints; about knowing what to look for. With fiction, I find myself analysing and over-analysing certain aspects, because I believe that fiction is a great way for a creative mind to reach an audience; there is so much human spirit in it. Some people say it's not real, and that it's pointless to look that far into it, but to those who have said to me, "It's just fiction, you know," or something similar, I say, "No, it isn't. It's life. It's not YOUR life, but it's life, and it is trying to communicate with you. If you can't see that, fair enough, but don't patronise me for seeing the importance of it and the beauty in it." Art, in any shape or form, is important. It has so much to say.

My list of favourite TV shows and movies is very long, but lately I have mainly been obsessed with Caroline in the City and Scott & Bailey. Complex characters like Gill Murray and Richard Karinsky draw me in and captivate me, and their relations with the people around them are significant in so many ways. And then you begin to peel away the layers of those other characters as well. Caroline Duffy is adorable, perky and always optimistic, but she's also that little girl who never felt quite good enough, and the daughter who feels like she continues to disappoint her parents. She's a hopeless romantic, but she is conflicted by the idea of being independent and successful on her own. She's very easy to fall in love with.

I like to describe emotions, and fanfiction allows me to do that, and in addition to that I can express the love I have for these characters whose feelings I have spent so much time with.

Favourite TV shows:
- Scott & Bailey
- Switched at Birth
- The Good Wife
- Caroline in the City
- Friends
- Sex and the City
- 30 Rock
- Life Unexpected
- Grey's Anatomy
- Desperate Housewives
- The West Wing
- Silk
- Afterlife
- Cougar Town
- Orange Is the New Black
- Rizzoli & Isles
- Mom
- Last Tango In Halifax
- Absolutely Fabulous
- Orphan Black
- Private Practice
- Community
- Gilmore Girls
- Ally McBeal

Guilty pleasure: Faking It

Favourite movies:
- The Mirror Has Two Faces
- Dirty Dancing
- The Cutting Edge
- On a Clear Day You Can See Forever
- Pitch Perfect
- Frozen
- Friends With Kids
- Love and Other Disasters
- Back to the Future
- You've Got Mail
- His Girl Friday
- The Women
- Yentl
- Music of the Heart
- Silver Linings Playbook

I also love theatre, and musicals in particular. Favourites include:
- Next to Normal
- Wicked
- Les Miserables
- 9 to 5
- Hair
- Title of Show
- Rent

I love books as well, but because I've struggled with depression for so many years, my cognitive abilities aren't what they used to be anymore. I can't read very fast, and I get tired very easily. It's frustrating, but I do have periods where I can get into a book. I love the Bridget Jones books, I've read the first two multiple times, and I also love The Bell Jar, Tipping the Velvet, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, The Hours, and When God Was a Rabbit.

Sort: Category . Published . Updated . Title . Words . Chapters . Reviews . Status .

Caroline and Richard: Season Five by charming2492 reviews
Caroline remembers getting over Richard and falling for Randy, while Richard thinks about his transition into a father. But is it really the end for them?
Caroline In The City - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 16 - Words: 49,518 - Reviews: 31 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 8 - Updated: 12/25/2017 - Published: 10/29/2011 - Complete
How I Found And Lost A Friend by Dagenspear reviews
A journey with Robin through the years during and after Ted and Tracey's wedding, a journey filled with unexpected friendships, tragedy, responsibility, and the love that stems from it all. Robin/Ted romance, with Robin/Tracey friendship, and some Ted/Tracey thrown in.
How I Met Your Mother - Rated: T - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 2,824 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 19 - Follows: 28 - Updated: 4/26/2015 - Published: 6/2/2014 - Ted M., Robin S., Mother
Let The Chips Fall Where They May AU by DoctorPiper reviews
Regina has fallen off the wagon, and instead of going to Angelo drunk one night, in this AU, she goes to Kathryn instead.
Switched at Birth - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,066 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 6 - Published: 3/12/2015 - [Kathryn K., Regina V.]
The Secret Behind The Good Wife by purplepagoda reviews
It was never really a secret that Kathryn had always wanted another child. When she finds out that she's pregnant it should be the happiest day of her life, right? Instead it turns into a secret that she hides from her husband, but why? Will he ever be able to understand her decision?
Switched at Birth - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 57 - Words: 57,793 - Reviews: 113 - Favs: 27 - Follows: 39 - Updated: 2/14/2015 - Published: 7/25/2013
Bay and Daphne - Switched Bodies by Poeki123 reviews
Bay and Daphne have experienced much since they found out that they were switched at birth. The latest thing that holds it's shadows over the two teenage girl's lives is the death of Angelo - Bay's real father. As if this misery wasn't enough, something impossible happened to the girls: they somehow switched bodies. (Point of view is changing between Bay and Daphne)
Switched at Birth - Rated: T - English - Drama/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,546 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 16 - Published: 8/10/2014 - Daphne V., Emmett B., Bay K.
Stupid Cupid by Julie Ann Pope reviews
Julie has a strange encounter at Sammy's engagement party. Set post S3, Ep8.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: K+ - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 4,347 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 3 - Updated: 5/31/2014 - Published: 5/23/2014 - Gill M., Julie D.
Superintendent Slap by featherxquill reviews
On her fourth day on the job, WPC Gill Prescott is having a cry in the loo. A Gill meets Julie fic.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,902 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 3 - Published: 5/14/2014 - Gill M., Julie D. - Complete
Last Chance by kw160 reviews
I needed an alternative ending so I wrote one myself.
Silk - Rated: K - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 6 - Words: 8,770 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 7 - Updated: 4/28/2014 - Published: 4/11/2014 - Martha C., Clive R.
The Truth Comes Out by musicsnob357 reviews
Takes place mid season 5. What SHOULD happen with Will and Alicia... rated M for a reason!
Good Wife - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 14 - Words: 26,680 - Reviews: 117 - Favs: 138 - Follows: 60 - Updated: 1/22/2014 - Published: 1/8/2014 - Alicia F., Will G. - Complete
Old Scores by Julie Ann Pope reviews
Another version of events after the end of series three, episode eight. Dave and Julie have a not-so-friendly chat which makes Gill reconsider the nature of her friendship with Julie.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 12 - Words: 32,846 - Reviews: 49 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 12/16/2013 - Published: 6/12/2013 - Gill M., Julie D. - Complete
These Close and Closest Things by GirlonaBridge reviews
Gillian and Robbie finally get to go out for a meal, some time after series 1 finishes. Fluff with bits of family stuff thrown in.
Last Tango in Halifax - Rated: T - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 4 - Words: 6,124 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 11/13/2013 - Published: 4/29/2013 - Gillian, Robbie - Complete
Heat & Light by GirlonaBridge reviews
Gill's first case for MIT would have to be a big one. She is trying to adjust to her new job and new team, look out for Sammy, deal with Dave making her life difficult, handle pressure from the brass, and solve a murder or two... but at least she is thrown together with an old friend who she hasn't seen in a while.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: T - English - Crime/Friendship - Chapters: 2 - Words: 4,534 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 11/9/2013 - Published: 9/7/2012 - Gill M., Julie D.
Nine Nights Of Christmas by Seldarius reviews
Jack is feeling drawn to the fiancée of his brother. That just has to cause some sleepless nights.
While You Were Sleeping - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,499 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 42 - Follows: 5 - Published: 10/29/2013 - Lucy M., Jack C. - Complete
After Helen by Cinnamon68 reviews
After Gill's ordeal at the hands of Helen Bartlett, Julie fails to put in an appearance at Sammy and Orla's engagement party. What is going on between the two friends? Rated M for mature themes, mainly for later chapters.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 5 - Words: 11,434 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 11 - Updated: 10/8/2013 - Published: 7/18/2013 - Gill M., Julie D.
Meet The Dodsons by Julie Ann Pope reviews
Let me introduce you to Julie's family, only she's not overly happy at the prospect of spending a few days with them so Gill offers to help keep her sane and go along with her, much to Julie's mother's delight. Be prepared for the usual Gill/Julie banter, assumptions, revelations and family dynamics.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: M - English - Humor/Family - Chapters: 8 - Words: 19,316 - Reviews: 48 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 17 - Updated: 9/30/2013 - Published: 8/13/2013 - Gill M., Julie D.
Thrills, Chills and Goldfish by HedgieX reviews
The Chief Con's daughter is found brutally murdered and covered in dead goldfish behind a burger van at the fair. News crews are already swarming, and so Gill and an already-exhausted Julie are instructed to liaise and deal with the fallout. Wine-covered bed sheets, yellow and pink duck pyjamas, and the customary Gill/Julie banter with angst thrown in.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: T - English - Crime/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 18 - Words: 21,508 - Reviews: 88 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 25 - Updated: 9/22/2013 - Published: 6/22/2013 - Gill M., Julie D.
Aftershocks by ForFanfic reviews
Neither Gill Murray nor Julie Dodson are in quite their right minds after Gill's harrowing ordeal. Gratuitous smut inevitable.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 5 - Words: 7,944 - Reviews: 39 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 9/12/2013 - Published: 5/26/2013 - Gill M., Julie D.
Red Shoes by ukulelefoot reviews
My first fanfic! Rachel is arrested after Nick Savage is assaulted. It unexpectedly affects Gill and Julie's relationship... Only rated M because I'm not really sure!
Scott & Bailey - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 4 - Words: 4,203 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 9/9/2013 - Published: 9/6/2013 - Gill M., Julie D.
Paradise Found by filledeneige reviews
What if John and Kathryn had realized Bay was not their daughter? What if Bay and Daphne had been switched back? What if they were never told? Based on episode nine Paradise Lost.
Switched at Birth - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 7 - Words: 8,978 - Reviews: 87 - Favs: 106 - Follows: 140 - Updated: 8/21/2013 - Published: 2/1/2012 - Bay K., Daphne V.
Lunch by Julie Ann Pope reviews
"It's hot, I'm bored yet overworked and I just wanted to see you." Written for International Day of Femslash 2013. Gill/Julie
Scott & Bailey - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,328 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/22/2013 - Gill M., Julie D. - Complete
Breaking Ties by G.D.Pastrie reviews
Breaking ties with Will Gardner isn't as easy as Alicia had imagined. Even Florrick, Agos, and Associates can't mark the end of Will and Alicia's mutual attraction. Not by a long shot. Set after s4 finale.
Good Wife - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 8 - Words: 12,615 - Reviews: 63 - Favs: 16 - Follows: 37 - Updated: 7/3/2013 - Published: 5/3/2013 - Alicia F., Will G.
I Can't Do This by MegannLoouise reviews
It's been three and a half weeks since Gill's kidnap and the death of Helen Bartlett, but Gill can't seem to get over it. She finds comfort in her friend, Julie, and things escalate from there, but Julie doesn't know if people would see her as taking advantage of Gill when she's vulnerable.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,925 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 7 - Published: 5/29/2013 - Gill M., Julie D.
Sweet Kisses (That's What Moves Me) by Tibette1307 reviews
Very short Tibette love scene. No spoilers. Set later in the series, maybe early season-6-ish, but with no exact time.
L Word - Rated: M - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 978 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 3 - Published: 4/7/2013 - Bette P., Tina K. - Complete
Shagaholics Anonymous by MagicaeArtiumLaudator reviews
Wracked with guilt and the love he lost because of his addiction, Dave finally gets the psychological help he needs. But will it be enough for his family to take him back into their lives? Rated T for sexual references. Semi canon-friendly. Please R&R!
Scott & Bailey - Rated: T - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 4,400 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 7 - Updated: 3/26/2013 - Published: 8/2/2012
Satin Sheets by crammit reviews
An early morning interlude between Bette and Tina - Rated M for smut and fluff
L Word - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,259 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 27 - Follows: 11 - Published: 3/24/2013 - [Bette P., Tina K.] - Complete
The Charm of Flannel Pajamas by SpyKid18 reviews
There would always be a part of him that liked her in flannel pajamas best. What happens after Nick and Jess storm off to their respective rooms. Nick/Jess
New Girl - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,183 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 51 - Follows: 24 - Published: 3/20/2013 - Jess D., Nick M., Schmidt, Winston B. - Complete
Then Prove It by AMiserableLove reviews
As promised via tumblr my "what if" fic. Basically what if the damned fish tank hadn't shattered. Sexy times for Jess and Nick. Rated M for a reason folks.
New Girl - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,925 - Reviews: 33 - Favs: 103 - Follows: 19 - Published: 3/19/2013 - Jess D., Nick M. - Complete
I'm Going To Get That Girl by TheCatsAlive reviews
How I think 2x17 should have gone after Nick chased Jess.
New Girl - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 747 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 7 - Published: 3/18/2013 - Jess D., Nick M. - Complete
Gamble by MegannLoouise reviews
Dave turns up at Gill's house drunk in series 2, episode 6. Gill has to face Dave and the feelings she has towards him. I still don't know if I'm keeping this as a one shot or if I'm going to write more chapters.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 2 - Words: 2,574 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 2/9/2013 - Published: 1/5/2013 - Gill M.
Out of my League by Sazzy.x.x reviews
Gill/Kevin one-shot that popped into my head whilst listening to McFly's song 'Obviously'.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 737 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 3 - Published: 1/19/2013 - Gill M. - Complete
Caroline and the Sperm Donor by Jana reviews
Alternative Universe! Richard, in fear of losing his job, offers unique assistance to Caroline without considering the consequences. Chapter 13 of 15?
Caroline In The City - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 13 - Words: 61,285 - Reviews: 40 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 9/7/2008 - Published: 10/15/2007
Sort: Category . Published . Updated . Title . Words . Chapters . Reviews . Status .

Dinner with Friends
This story takes place some time after the conclusion of a previous story of mine, "Caroline and the Impossible Decision", but if you haven't read it, that's okay. All you really need to know is that (after much drama) Caroline and Richard are back together after 17 years apart, and Caroline has left Randy. They are about to have dinner with Annie and Del, who are now married.
Caroline In The City - Rated: T - English - Humor/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,367 - Published: 7/9/2019 - Complete
First Time Thing reviews
It was supposed to be a night of drinks and conversation between friends, but as the night goes on it turns into something else… Femslash. Naturally, there's a whole lot of smut!
Switched at Birth - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,379 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 8 - Published: 5/8/2015 - Regina V., Kathryn K.
Caroline and the Affair reviews
AU continuation of "Caroline and the Used Car Salesman". Richard shows up at Caroline's apartment later that night, carrying a snow globe and some problematic feelings.
Caroline In The City - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 16,811 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Published: 4/26/2015 - Complete
Caroline and the Reality Check reviews
AU version of "Caroline and the Wayward Husband". Richard is caught between two women, and tries to deal with his conflicting emotions. But are they really that conflicting, in the end?
Caroline In The City - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,439 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 3 - Published: 3/2/2015 - Complete
Caroline and the Impossible Decision reviews
Another AU story where Richard never found out about Caroline's wedding, and only comes back from Europe seventeen years later.
Caroline In The City - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 21,328 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2/15/2015 - Complete
Caroline and Big Love reviews
Au story where Charlie never ran into Richard in Italy, and he only moves back to New York eleven years later. What happens when they see each other at a gallery opening? Extremely angsty, but that is where this pairing always takes me because of all their unresolved feelings.
Caroline In The City - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 11,686 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Published: 2/4/2015 - Complete
Caroline and the Catharsis reviews
AU version of the start of "Caroline and the Wayward Husband". Caroline has a reaction to Richard and his apparent eagerness to dance with Julia at the restaurant.
Caroline In The City - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,631 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 3 - Published: 2/4/2015 - Complete
After Paris reviews
Part 3 of my Christmas trilogy.
Caroline In The City - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,039 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12/24/2014 - Complete
Caroline and Paris in New York reviews
Part 2 of my Christmas trilogy.
Caroline In The City - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,486 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/24/2014 - Complete
Richard and the Painting of Paris reviews
Part 1 of my Christmas trilogy.
Caroline In The City - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,623 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/24/2014 - Complete
Loving Gill Murray reviews
Another post-3x08 story. This is my first story, so I don't really know how to do this summary thing, but I'd say that although it's pretty angsty at times, it's also quite fluffy. Dedicated to ForFanfic and ukulelefoot.
Scott & Bailey - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 8,841 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 2/7/2014 - Published: 2/6/2014 - Gill M., Julie D.