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Author has written 18 stories for Detective Conan/Case Closed.

Let Me Tell You A Story

It’s a beautiful tale, Gosho Aoyama. The anime itself started when I was born. The characters you created, sir, have touched me deeply.

But as I stand here, I might as well be face-to-face with me five years ago. I cried for so many hours for strangers who more often than not just used me.

I spent my emotion on a good story, sir. A good story that many other people loved. It’s still going, and I feel like maybe I want to see the end.

What will it cost, though?

The child that fell in love with your story was ‘weird’. She was lost, hoping for a way out. Her dad was suddenly taken, her mother emotionally gone from her. Friends? They existed a world away, where they didn’t know the weight of their words and actions. It was the only place she felt accepted.

But even there she wasn’t. Did you know, Gosho-san, that your story gave her some sort of credit online? Knowing the story, being able to write the characters, it gave her some sort of reason. People smiled because of that.

Deep down, though, she knew it wasn’t because of her. She was rejected on all sides and didn’t know who to trust anymore. She fought for recognition from everyone, but no one would give it.

Nothing was good enough. She wasn’t good enough. If only she could be someone else. Her story is meaningless to everyone else.

Thanks to you, she made it through. But what was the cost?

Knowing a world detached from the one she lived in only isolated her further. She wasted hours. Probably days’ worth, weeks’ worth, months’ worth. Maybe an entire years’ worth.

When I see her, my heart sinks. She tries to come back sometimes, when people reject me. She tries to come back with the tears, with the pages filled with self-loathing and depression.

She felt the emotions you wanted her to feel. Maybe more so than the average person.

But I don’t want to be her, anymore. The one with the over-exaggerated responses and the fake smiles and the nervous ticks and the anxiety around people. The one afraid to mess up because the people around her are precious and can be stolen away just like everyone before. I don’t want to have to hide behind a pretty story you made – where there are really bad guys and some heart-wrenching things but some little kid makes a way out and everything ends up okay eventually.

Life doesn’t progress that way for me. I don’t want to write your stories, anymore, Gosho-san.

I want to be able to create like a man by the name of John. I want to be able to feel things, but not be overtaken by those feelings. I want to be able to make you feel. I want to be able to aspire to great things through the empowerment of God. I want to be able to share these feelings and thoughts with the people around me and not be rejected because I’ve forgotten how to function in this world I live in.

So I think, for me, this is really the end. Because as beautiful as your story has been, I can’t bear to try to continue. I don’t want to slip back. I want to walk forward.

I have my own role to play, my own ‘character’ in this life. I’m just the back up support, the background person who means nothing to anyone – except a select few. But those select few need me today, and they need me tomorrow.

And really, for the first time, someone looked me in the eye and told me that. They need me. It wasn’t so I wouldn’t break up with them or stop being the person they dump their problems on. It was because they meant it.

For a long while I’ve noticed I’m not needed here. But I am needed elsewhere, and I believe it’s about time I take my place.

Thank you all for the years we had fun and enjoyed and made it through. Thank you, Gosho-san, for showing me a place and a people I desire to reach.


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Galatea by SN1987A - Ritzen reviews
Ai gives Conan something to think about.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 16 - Words: 64,106 - Reviews: 74 - Favs: 89 - Follows: 106 - Updated: 8/4 - Published: 2/15/2014 - [Ai Haibara/Shiho M., Shinichi K./Conan E.]
When Pandora's Box Is Opened by mangaluva reviews
After two long years as Conan, the time has finally come for the ancient battle to come to an end, and fate will determine whether the Silver Bullet will survive the shot, unless Shinichi can put his faith in the enemy that was destined to be his ally...
Crossover - Detective Conan/Case Closed & Magic Kaito/まじっく快斗 - Rated: T - English - Mystery/Romance - Chapters: 92 - Words: 299,231 - Reviews: 1198 - Favs: 644 - Follows: 169 - Updated: 1/14/2012 - Published: 4/6/2009 - Shinichi K./Conan E., Kaito K. - Complete
Into the World of Detective Conan by Akakata7 reviews
I've been transported to the world of Detective Conan. I don't know how or why. Conan finds me outside of Agasa's. I know so much, I shock them. We'll work together to stop the Black Organization. Will we be successful? Plz R&R! COMPLETE
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Friendship - Chapters: 50 - Words: 60,614 - Reviews: 466 - Favs: 84 - Follows: 46 - Updated: 2/16/2011 - Published: 11/22/2010 - Complete
HDF Secret Spies by Rubber Bonsai reviews
A totally random and entirely made up story about what people actually are at the HDF chatroom...
Parodies and Spoofs - Rated: K - English - Suspense - Chapters: 6 - Words: 3,628 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Updated: 6/8/2010 - Published: 3/4/2010
The Weasel and the Crow by Kuroba's Pet Fish reviews
16-year-old detective Kudo Karasu never realized how much like her father she was until she made that fatal mistake. Now, with the help of Haibara, she must hide her identity while trying to end what remains of the BO. 2nd generation. OCxOC
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: K+ - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 6 - Words: 16,282 - Reviews: 37 - Favs: 28 - Follows: 28 - Updated: 3/17/2010 - Published: 6/13/2009
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An Adventure Best Left in Dreams reviews
Is it possible for an into-DC story to have a realistic OC and IC characters? Well, I hope so, 'cause that's the aim with this story. Join me, an awkward 20 year old with a mediocre amount of intelligence and absolutely no physical abilities as I try to make some sort of reasonable sense of a dream world where my favorite person disdains me. Self-awareness, humor, & drama.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: K+ - English - Humor/Drama - Chapters: 7 - Words: 26,113 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 19 - Updated: 8/12 - Published: 9/29/2014 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M., OC, Shinichi K./Conan E.
Random Choice Stories reviews
Random one-shot stories created by picking the two main characters with a random choice selector. Chapter 7 - Running. Sherry and Ai.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Crime - Chapters: 7 - Words: 6,179 - Reviews: 17 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 10/17/2014 - Published: 2/15/2011 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M. - Complete
High School Scientist reviews
A new case has arrived at school for first-year Kudo Shinichi. AU.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Mystery/Drama - Chapters: 2 - Words: 3,653 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 10/3/2014 - Published: 8/15/2014 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M., Shinichi K./Conan E., Ran M.
The Unwritten Account of the Child at the Gate reviews
A one-shot based on the scene left only to our imaginations where Agasa Hiroshi finds Haibara Ai outside Kudo Shinichi's house.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,718 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 5 - Published: 9/19/2014 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M., H. Agasa - Complete
Promised End reviews
She gave him a promised end...
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 312 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 3 - Published: 7/14/2014 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M., Shinichi K./Conan E. - Complete
Hearing Silence reviews
Kudo Shinichi deals with the loss of a person he was never supposed to know.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 8 - Words: 23,577 - Reviews: 63 - Favs: 19 - Follows: 27 - Updated: 7/8/2014 - Published: 5/8/2014 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M., Shinichi K./Conan E., Ran M.
Who I Am reviews
Haibara and Conan are now entering third grade, following the same patterns fighting against the Black Organization all these years. But now things are getting more serious and the Organization is hitting closer to home. Situations drive our favorite protagonists apart, and it will take nothing short of a miracle to save all those involved. Audiobook version available on profile.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 10 - Words: 29,553 - Reviews: 50 - Favs: 39 - Follows: 39 - Updated: 6/19/2014 - Published: 10/29/2011 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M., Shinichi K./Conan E., Ran M., Black Organization
Sometimes I Play the Fool reviews
Sometimes we choose normalcy over reality... but sometimes we gather the courage to be sincere. Kind of CoAi, oneshot.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: K - English - Friendship/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,044 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 3 - Published: 4/20/2014 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M., Shinichi K./Conan E. - Complete
Forgotten Identity reviews
In the twisted and crazy world of Detective Conan, people have many secrets and often, multiple identities. It would be a terrible thing to forget how to guard these secrets, but even worse to forget who you are. Haibara Ai? Miyano Shiho? Sherry? Who?
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 15 - Words: 38,116 - Reviews: 54 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 7/31/2012 - Published: 7/6/2012 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M. - Complete
The Chance Not Taken reviews
Haibara had separated herself from Edogawa-kun and the Detective Boys for awhile now. She couldn't be with them any longer and the separation was good. But a chance run-in with Ayumi sets her on a trip that takes her back to the times of elementary and criminal-chasing. Can she take the chance she once refused to? Re-Upload, birthday fic, the only one I ever finished..
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 5 - Words: 10,033 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/6/2012 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M. - Complete
Searching White Horse reviews
While chasing after KID, Hakuba runs into a woman acting rather suspicious. Moments after he leaves his sight, she's shot. ... Shiho, trying desperately to get as far away as she can, runs into a KID-obsessed fool. SaguruXShiho, please read and review
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Mystery/Romance - Chapters: 7 - Words: 12,932 - Reviews: 64 - Favs: 41 - Follows: 26 - Updated: 12/2/2011 - Published: 1/28/2011 - Shukichi Haneda, Saguru H. - Complete
You and I reviews
Shiho just wants to get the company back into the safe zone so she can continue her life - a life that guarantees a monetary upper hand. A meeting that wasn't meant to be introduces her to someone that has the potential to change her life. AU
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 2 - Words: 2,705 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 3 - Updated: 7/26/2011 - Published: 6/1/2011 - Shukichi Haneda, Shinichi K./Conan E.
Life of Death reviews
Shiho has just officially entered into the depths of the Black Organization. She meets one of the darkest people she's ever met before - a man named Gin. SherryxGin. Experiment.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Crime - Chapters: 3 - Words: 3,451 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 5/21/2011 - Published: 3/5/2011 - Gin, Shukichi Haneda
The Real Traitor reviews
A young strawberry blond girl walks an icy street, her mind haunted by the real traitor. Sort of CoAi, sort of ShinRan... Oneshot.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: K - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,145 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 4 - Published: 3/25/2011 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M. - Complete
Illusion reviews
Haibara reveals to Conan the truth to his illusions. AU, probably classified as a crackfic. Oneshot.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: K+ - English - Supernatural/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,245 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 2 - Published: 3/16/2011 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M., Shinichi K./Conan E. - Complete
Dark Truth reviews
They're now teenagers bound by the chains of APTX4869. Today, she knows what he's going to say. But the truth is dark... pitch black. The truth of her intentions come to light this very day. Crackfic
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,275 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 2 - Published: 2/27/2011 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M., M. Sera - Complete
Nothing Wrong reviews
Kudo Shinichi is back. Haibara insists there's nothing wrong with her, why should there be? Oneshot.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: K - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 710 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 5 - Published: 1/25/2011 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M., Shinichi K./Conan E. - Complete
The Final Sayonara reviews
Haibara's Final Sayonara. It's a oneshot.
Detective Conan/Case Closed - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,190 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 1 - Published: 12/23/2010 - Ai Haibara/Shiho M., Shukichi Haneda - Complete