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Joined 05-29-09, id: 1951393, Profile Updated: 09-18-14
Author has written 47 stories for Supernatural, Lord of the Rings, and Doctor Who.

UPDATE : July something, 2014 - I'm writing again. Slow, not steady but I'm writing again and I fear I have only gotten worse. Apparently writing is not like a bicycle, one can forget how to do it.

* Disclaimer: I write. I never, ever once stated I was good at it.*

HOUSEKEEPING TIME

FF Business

deansjournal_verse is based upon the fact he was physically and sexually abused by John. If that ain't your cup of Matricaria Chamomilla, then don't read it.

Work To Come

#1.

The Watcher of Redstone Wood

Contains extreme angst, horrific acts of violence, hurt and comfort-heavy on the hurt, HurtDean, HurtSam, John and Bobby are in it too.

#2. And They All Fall Down

The latter is my favorite, however, it is also concurrently the story I despise the most with a stomach turning passion. It's beyond dark, cruel, pushes many boundaries and I really do some major damage to all three Winchesters. Two of which... guess who?.. are just wee ones. This story is so disturbing that even though there's not a lot of words ( currently around only 10,000) it has taken two years just to get this far with it because I find it extremely arduous to write without pulling a Health Ledger.

Crossovers


SPN/Sons of Anarchy -slash- Jax and Sam. Dean is a psycho and pretty much pissed at everything, everyone and now Sam for falling for quote unquote "..that lowlife biker scumbag! are you serious Sam? you want me to save him? Why! Cuz blondilocks over there is playing you for a chump but you're fallin head over heels. ..." No plot really.

SPN and the Sons- slash. Jax and Dean.

SPN/Boondock Saints contains no slash, gen. First Film Version Only 1991

The Winchesters have just met their match and Dean just pissed them off...



Real
Person Slash

Christian Bale, Colin Farrell and a younger Jared Leto. Christian is rich and on the rise to stardom, and Colin Farrell ?.. lol..Colin is Colin.. Brash, cusses in every other sentence and heaven forbid you bring out the true Irishman in him. Jared is with Christian, Coin and Leto are best friends and in the wee early hours of dawn Jared calls his friend scared to death for his life. What does Colin do to make sure the young musician is safe from his abusive partner/sugar daddy?

Will be posted at AO3 -Archive of our Own. Will provide penname soon.

My Brother's Keeper by Wolf Maid reviews
M for lang. and nongraph rape. VERY dark, much darker than what I usually write. Alt ending for Devils Trap. John doesn’t get free from the demon...
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Angst/Adventure - Chapters: 3 - Words: 5,012 - Reviews: 47 - Favs: 120 - Follows: 33 - Updated: 7/21/2006 - Published: 7/17/2006 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
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Collecting Favors reviews
S.6x7 There are no real characters per se. The piece more encompassess the emotions, thoughts and actions of all the beings when the Doctor arrives to collect upon his debts and favors owed. I don't usually write in this wonderful fandom but was overcome by the following words after watching the ep. last night. I hope you enjoy and that I haven't mulitilated anything..
Doctor Who - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 201 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Published: 9/17/2012 - 11th Doctor, TARDIS - Complete
Yesterdays Son reviews
Based off 5.22 Swan Song. Not cannon. Written in more of a poetic fashion. There are three sections: One about Dean, One about Sam's thoughts regarding his brother and father and the third is an ending analogy of it all. The evening after Sam jumps into Lucifer's cage, Dean returns to their room to discover a hand-written note in the trash from Sam.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 498 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8/9/2012 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Battle Scars A Contest The Winchester Way reviews
A bored Dean and Sam discuss their different, multiple bodily injuries. Written for a pic prompt at LJ. Prompt was an X-ray of an injured knee. Warnings for mild language, mild sexual content-nothing too explicit, just the usual boy banter.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 747 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 7 - Published: 5/23/2012 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Im Sorry But They Have To Go reviews
Gen, Timeframe: s.7 Written for a picture prompt at LJ. The pic was the Get Out Of Jail Free Card from the popular board game, Monopoly. With the drugs in full effect, Dean was certain his brother wouldn't wake any time soon. With knife in hand Dean..
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Humor/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 661 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 2 - Published: 5/22/2012 - Dean W., Sam W.
The Unexpected Birthday Surprise reviews
Gen, w/ mild, non-explicit slash references stated jokingly. Sam, Dean time frame-season 2. Ice cold beer, balloons and a cabin in the woods. Sam may have enjoyed his surprise if it wasn't for his brother's insistence on pulling a scam on management.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Humor/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,653 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 3 - Published: 5/22/2012 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
WeeDean Cried reviews
Just a few words to describe a night Dean experienced only one week after the death of his mother. Sometimes life can really be just too cruel.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1/21/2012 - Dean W. - Complete
The Worst Gift Ever reviews
DeanCentric, Dean POV mostly, Alastair, Castiel, Sam. Trigger warning for self-harm/cutting. Dean finds out he is immortal after a frightening encounter with Alastair, and he doesn't handle it very well. Story covers the first year of his immortality.
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,221 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 3 - Published: 11/26/2011 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Bitchface and Baby reviews
Gen, Angst. Dean finds a small kitten and insist with a passion he be allowed to keep it. But why is Dean being so uncharacteristic of himself as asking Sam if he can do something? Dwells into Dean's fears about his being alone.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,622 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/24/2011 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
The Day Dean Said And Now I've Seen Everything reviews
My first C/O. Written for a friend. Gen, just good fun. Dean, Sam, Amy and the Eleventh doctor all meet in the same place in time, unbeknowst to the boys, so the doctor can obtain the Angel Killing Sword in order to help the Winchester's with their quest.
Crossover - Doctor Who & Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,791 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/24/2011 - Amelia P./Amy, Dean W. - Complete
We Played Hell's Escalators and Elevators reviews
Gen, angst, dark, multiple character death, warnings for suicide/murder. Sam is turning fully Demon and his thirst for blood is unquenchable. Azazel placed a spell on baby Sam changing the boys' future in ways they never could of imagined..
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,369 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/22/2011 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Excerpts from John Winchester's Journal reviews
November 16 1983 PT II. This excerpt from Alex Irvine's book "John Winchester's Journal" contains heartbreaking info about young Dean and Sam. Includes a list of the first weapons arsenal John purchased.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 527 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/31/2011 - John W.
Excerpts From John's Journal November 16th, 1983 reviews
I've decided to post some brief excerpts taken directly from the book by Alex Irvine, "John Winchester's Journal." Each one provides a wonderful insight into John the father & the man, and the boys as small children all the way through the early adult yrs
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 548 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 3 - Published: 7/28/2011 - John W.
It Was Done In The Name Of Mercy reviews
Multiple character pairings. John/Dean, John/Bobby Singer. Takes place right after S.2 All Hell Breaks Loose. evildean, hurtjohn, Multiple warnings all listed in header. AU, Angst, Alcholol abuse, Dark, UA, Violence..I could go on forever.
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,445 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/16/2011 - Dean W., John W. - Complete
The Day I Prayed Would Never Come reviews
My interpretation, as short as it is, of the emotions Dean experienced when Sam and John argued about Standford. As always, angsty and hurtdean.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 349 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/14/2011 - Dean W. - Complete
The Great Toaster Fiasco of '92 reviews
Wee!Chesters, Bobby Singer, John Winchester, a shotgun and a very unfortunate toaster. Some people have called this piece a comedy, it wasn't really meant to be though nor do I really see it that way. See a/n: at start of fic for full working title. Enjoy
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,966 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/28/2011 - Dean W., John W. - Complete
The Day The Angels Killed Dean Winchester reviews
Unplanned continuation piece from "A Conversation With Alastair". Warnings: Soft reference to Drug/Alcohol abuse, Cutting, Torture. When it was over, there was nothing left. Nothing of Alastair and nothing remotely resembling Dean.
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 486 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 2 - Published: 5/22/2011 - Dean W., Alastair
Entry 290 Deansjournalverse Was My Love So Wrong? reviews
Dean reflects back upon the morning of July 4th 1996 and how a simple question about a holiday can go so terribly, terribly wrong when you're dealing with a drunk father. Warnings for light child abuse nonsexual .
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,000 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 2 - Published: 5/19/2011 - Dean W., John W. - Complete
Of Winter Skies and Injured Eyes reviews
WeeChesters, Dean 11, Sam 7. Confusion, anger, fear and a propensity for destruction coursed through his body fueling his rage. Dean was breaking and only Sam can stop it.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,021 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/18/2011 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Entry 96 A Beginners Guide To Suicide reviews
deansjournal verse. teen!dean. Warnings for mild: angst, language, mention of implied UA sex. Dean creates a numerical list of danger signs for putting a child at risk of committing suicide. Reflects cannon and my Dean-AU timeline.
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 442 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 2 - Published: 6/9/2010 - Dean W. - Complete
Entry 248 A Letter To Sam reviews
deansjournal verse. Warnings for: Angst, mild swearing, excessive drinking, physical abuse. Dean has been drunk and locked in a motel room for months confused and sad over Sam leaving for college. Broken!Dean, Indifferent!Sam, Drunk/Abusive!John
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Family/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 808 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 22 - Follows: 5 - Published: 6/3/2010 - Dean W., Sam W.
Entry 250 deansjournal verse reviews
'We Can Never Be Ordinary Men', Gen, Slight Angst. Dean's POV. Sam and Dean have been hiding in a motel for over two weeks and Dean recalls the events of the previous night of getting drunk and hustling pool with Sam. Takes place after S2x12
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,965 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/31/2010 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
If The Booze Don't Get You The Blade Will reviews
Angst, Gen, Dean & John. Rated M solely for Character Death. Prompt word was darkness. Style- Poetic prose, Dean's POV. John tries running from Dean who approaches him with bottle of bourbon in one hand and a gun in the other..
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/10/2010 - Dean W., John W. - Complete
entry 83 The Spider and the Fly reviews
deansjournal verse, Warnings: angst, mental instability, Gen, Teen!Dean, Mentions Sam. Dean wonders just how far into his father's web of insanity he has truly fallen.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 201 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 2 - Published: 4/17/2010 - Dean W., John W.
entry 79, Sadistic Bastard reviews
deansjournal verse. Warnings for Angst, Language. Teen!Dean. Dean is injured and needs pain relief..what he gets instead is a hard lesson in the life of a 'true hunter' from John. The title sums it all up fairly well.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/15/2010 - Dean W., John W. - Complete
Of Nightmares and Loving Arms reviews
Wee!Chesters. Dean 10, Sam 6. Sam has horrific nightmares and tonight only Daddy can calm him down. Aka: Hey Jude. Warnings: Parental Fluff. Let this serve as my last attempt to write a caring, loving John Winchester. I simply cannot do it.
Supernatural - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 600 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 31 - Follows: 3 - Published: 4/15/2010 - John W., Sam W. - Complete
Asphalt Lullabye reviews
I'd rate this 'G' if I could simply because it's so timid for me. John's pov. Mentions of Mary, Dean and Sam. John drives the roads hard while his memories go wild. nothing spectacular 'bout this one.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 154 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/15/2010 - John W., Mary W. - Complete
Entry 193 With Deafening Clarity reviews
deansjournal verse. Full Working Title "With Deafening Clarity I Realized I Don't Know You" Adult Dean. John returns from a hunt but never lets go of his shotgun and never says a word to Dean.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 290 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/13/2010 - Dean W., John W.
Mute Admiration reviews
Aragorn/Boromir-Slash. Rated T for: Death, Male/Male love implied only-nothing sexually graphic. Aragorn finally confesses to Boromir his true feelings..it's too bad he only had the courage to do so after Boromir's death.
Lord of the Rings - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 670 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 5 - Published: 3/21/2010 - Aragorn, Boromir - Complete
Entry 52 deansjournal verse reviews
Of Blind Obedience and Tile Prisons" Entry #52 deansjournal verse. Warnings: Angst, Language. Genre: Gen. Characters: Dean John Sam. Dean is locked in a bathroom, furiously writing his journal and wishes everybody would just stop screaming.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 127 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 2 - Published: 3/21/2010 - Dean W., John W.
Entry 41 deansjournal verse reviews
There's A Gun In My Hand When All I Wanted Was A Cigarette. Entry #41 deansjournal verse. Rated M for: Implied UA sex. Daddy!Cest not graphic. Angst, Dark, Language, Murder. All Dean wanted to do was bum a cigarette but gets way more than he expected.
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Angst/Crime - Chapters: 1 - Words: 225 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 3/20/2010 - Dean W., John W.
winter's demon entry 247 deansjournalverse reviews
created a new verse, deansjournal verse. contains small entries as if they were hand written by Dean into a journal-warning for daddycest genre-all verses will have different ratings-not posted in any cohesive order
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 77 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 2 - Published: 3/17/2010 - Dean W., John W.
The Suicide ReasonSam's Final Epiphany reviews
Spoiler for season 3 finale. I got to thinking about how would Sam feel after watching his brother's painful death because Dean sold his soul and this is what I came up with. ATTN: Style: Poetic, non-conventional - just a peek into the way my brain works
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 474 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 1 - Published: 2/8/2010 - Sam W. - Complete
Of War Wounds and Whispers reviews
Wincest love. No sex. This is the most 'gentle' piece I've ever written. Dean is stressing out on his physical appearance while examining his body in a mirror. Sam says something to his brother that Dean has never heard before..
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 234 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 33 - Follows: 2 - Published: 2/8/2010 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Sam Should Have Been Suprised But Wasn't reviews
Wincest! No spoilers. Just a wee explicit - The prompt was: Axe To Grind. Summary: Just imagine a shirtless Sam, tanned flesh glistening with sweat..and then there's Dean.
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 111 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 1 - Published: 2/8/2010 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
That's Just Wrong reviews
A drabble. The prompt was: Elephant in the Room. Gen. Could sooo be cannon. No warnings no spoilers. One cuss word. Summary: Sam has a real problem with what he and Dean awoke to on Easter Sunday morning. Fuzzy fluffy bloody creatures this way....
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 107 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 2/8/2010 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Because Sam Loves Him reviews
Damaged!Dean, Broken!Dean, Spoiler for S.4 opener. Warnings for major angst, language, alcohol abuse. Poetic, fragmented prose. Summary: Sam's dedication & love for his brother knows no bounds but it just may be the death of him.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 660 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 1 - Published: 2/8/2010 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Of Bulls Eyes and Attention reviews
Teen!Dean 15yr old and John are alone together for the night at Bobby's house. John's sound asleep on the sofa when the sound of rapid gunfire wakes him up. His first thoughts are of his son as he bolts from the house and out into the yard...
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,116 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 19 - Follows: 2 - Published: 2/7/2010 - Dean W., John W. - Complete
A Star Filled Night Can Break Your Heart reviews
John tries to steal a moment of quite, alone time on the front porch of his Kansas home late one evening. But being a Winchester that wasn't going to happen..Wee!Dean 4yr old and John have a conversation about infant Sam and the star-filled sky.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 848 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 3 - Published: 2/7/2010 - Dean W., John W. - Complete
The Day Dean Got His HipHop On reviews
What needs to be said? lmao read the title. Crack!fic Just think of Dean in a bar drinking Jagermeister while high on marijuana and he was feeling gooood.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 789 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 1/17/2010 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Dead Jack Rabbits Don't Hop reviews
Crack!fic-Gen-Could pass for Cannon-Warnings: Lots of cussing-John and Bobby are arguing whose fault it really is that they're stuck on some godforsaken back road some where. Of course it has nothing to do with the fact they're both falling down drunk.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Humor/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,472 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 11/15/2009 - John W., Bobby S. - Complete
Of Motels, Morphine & Rock n Roll reviews
Comedy- Dean's arm is broken in 3 places and it's in a full L-shaped cast. He's higher than a kite on Morphine and apparently he's stuck in "song" mode. This is what happens when the boys try to rent a room. Slash references stated jokingly.
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,070 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 3 - Published: 10/28/2009 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Some Things You Never Forget reviews
Weechester Dean/Sam- Canon based off pilot ep. Gen, Angst. There are certain things during one's childhood a person just doesn't forget..the smell of burning flesh, the weight of your baby brother in your arms and the beginning of your father's demise..
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 304 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 2 - Published: 10/17/2009 - Dean W., John W. - Complete
I Am Not A Monster reviews
Underage, Incest, Non-Con implied not graphic, Angst, Contrast and Comparison of Dean age 22 to age 15. He wished for forgiveness he didn’t deserve, but then again that’s to be expected when a grown man acts upon a lust for his own flesh and blood..
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 552 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 25 - Follows: 2 - Published: 6/7/2009 - John W., Dean W. - Complete
Conversations With Alastair reviews
Mildly Graphic Descriptions of Violence, Torture, Spoilers for S.4. Dean Winchester selfishly begged and cried and pleaded with his whole heart for Alastair to stop until flesh tore from his raw throat and Dean choked on his own fire-hot blood..
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Angst/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 498 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 3 - Published: 6/7/2009 - Alastair, Dean W. - Complete
Of Smoke And Mirrors
Angst, 1 Graphic Physical Description, Wincest, Dean's POV, Dean's Age Not Mentioned..reader envisions what they like. Summary: As the pale-gray smoke from his cigarette swirled a wicked dance slowly around him he thought ..
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/7/2009 - John W., Dean W. - Complete
Defining Moment Of Manhood reviews
Angst Violence Child Abuse non sexual Psychological and Alcohol Abuse Dean 11, Sammy 7, John..Whiskey soaked and hell bent for leather and flesh as usual
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Suspense/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,285 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 67 - Follows: 9 - Published: 6/6/2009 - John W., Dean W. - Complete
Innocence Has A Face reviews
The word 'Forget' was the inspiration for this piece. John/Teen!Dean. Wincest for sure, although obviously not too explicit. Read with caution. Style: Poetic prose, John's POV of 19yr. old Dean. Consensual relationship.
Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 144 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 3 - Published: 6/6/2009 - John W., Dean W. - Complete