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I'm a 40yo stay-at-home mom of three, happily married to the most remarkably amazing man for the past 14 years. I'm *Bipolar (literally, not ha-ha figuratively) and *ADHD which seems to work both for & against me...yay. I also have a B.S. in Social Psychology — go figure.


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Illicitus Amare by IllicitWriter
The love that lasts the longest is the love that can never be. An unexpected attraction leads to a forbidden relationship. If discovered, both could face dire consequences, ones that society proscribes. Fiction M — Romance/Angst — Edward, Bella AH OOC Lemons — Chapters: 15 — Words: 68k — Published: Nov 10, 2010 — Status: Incomplete. Banner by IllicitWriter — Download PDF


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Bipolar disorder is a psychiatric condition that affects an estimated 2.6 percent of the country’s adult population, and often extremely difficult to diagnose. Like major depression, bipolar disorder is characterized by sadness, fatigue, a loss of enjoyment in everyday activities and disruptions in appetite and sleep patterns. But individuals with bipolar disorder differ from patients with major depressive disorder in that they experience what’s called mania or hypomania — emotional highs, bursts of extreme energy and severe irritability that ranges in intensity and duration.

Studies suggest it can take patients an average of 3.3 physician visits to get an accurate assessment of their condition, and 73 percent initially receive an incorrect diagnosis. Due to the illness' broad nature, the latest iteration of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, DSM-V, divides bipolar disorder into several subtypes, but its symptoms often run on a spectrum, meaning there’s no one-size-fits-all diagnosis or treatment. And often, people who are initially diagnosed with depression develop bipolar symptoms later in life. —Retrieved from U.S. News Health (2015, January 15)


*Bipolar II disorder — characterized by high episodes of euphoria and low episodes of depression, together known as hypomania. Hypomania differs from mania in two important respects. While hypomania can affect functioning and quality of life in all facets for an individual with bipolar II disorder, it is not as severe as manic episodes, which may require hospitalization. Second, hypomania does not involve psychosis.

*ADHD Predominantly Inattentive Type — individuals with serious inattention problems, but not much problem with hyperactivity/impulsive symptoms.


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Snapshots of Grey: Darker Through Grey Eyes by AshBax reviews
Scenes from Christian's perspective that take place immediately following Fifty Shades of Grey and move into Fifty Shades Darker. I stick close to the story and characters EL James created, but take liberties with situations and dialogue. No cheating ever. I just love getting into the mind of Grey and making him fun.
Fifty Shades Trilogy - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 37 - Words: 190,574 - Reviews: 1166 - Favs: 550 - Follows: 867 - Updated: 8/1 - Published: 3/27/2015 - Christian G., Anastasia S., Elena L./Mrs. Robinson, Andrea
Strangled by the Thought by The Top Drawer reviews
A multiple POV story that reveals the little, special things about hatred, jealousy, possession, longing and revenge. A great adventure that starts with an enchanted knife, a brutal execution and sex.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Drama - Chapters: 25 - Words: 164,709 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 16 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 3/28 - Published: 2/22/2011 - Edward, Bella, Jacob
Inauspicious by annabaker71 reviews
Christian & Ana Grey's happy marriage explodes in Ana's face & she realizes years of feeling inadequate can also be feelings of intuition. Discovering her husband has returned to his predilections, there's only one thing left for Ana to do. This is a story of betrayal, heartbreak, friendship & revenge.
Fifty Shades Trilogy - Rated: M - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 31 - Words: 255,651 - Reviews: 1995 - Favs: 395 - Follows: 645 - Updated: 12/13/2015 - Published: 3/31/2015 - Complete
To Destroy by walkingwithgiants reviews
In the words of Abe Lincoln, "The best way to destroy an enemy is to make him a friend." Bella works for a man that makes her teeth grind. "My boss is an asshole," she cried.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 52 - Words: 106,494 - Reviews: 4868 - Favs: 3,191 - Follows: 4,662 - Updated: 9/29/2015 - Published: 10/25/2011 - Bella, Edward
Break Me Every Time by Solia reviews
Deb reacts to Dexter's news about Argentina and Dexter considers some of the implications. Alternative events unfold from there. Rated M for coarse language typical of the show and some explicit content. Based in the eighth season, with references to events of previous seasons, so please don't read if you're not up to date.
Dexter - Rated: M - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 53 - Words: 616,806 - Reviews: 570 - Favs: 120 - Follows: 111 - Updated: 12/31/2014 - Published: 9/7/2013 - Dexter M., Debra M. - Complete
The Selkie Wife by Lissa Bryan reviews
Set during the reign of "Bloody Mary" Tudor. Bella is captured by Edward to raise his daughter. He promises to release her one day, but will he? Court intrigues and danger around every corner. Can they, and their new-found love, survive? Rated M/OOC/AU
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 43 - Words: 193,424 - Reviews: 3872 - Favs: 3,386 - Follows: 1,759 - Updated: 1/23/2014 - Published: 11/30/2011 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Spy Games by Jenn1987 reviews
Powerful and successful, Isabella Swan held the world in the palm of her hand. Unfortunately for her, so did Edward Cullen. Written for the "Forbidden Affairs" contest and placed third. OOC, AH/AU, E/B, Rated M for Language and Lemons.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 31 - Words: 291,593 - Reviews: 2931 - Favs: 3,658 - Follows: 2,140 - Updated: 1/21/2014 - Published: 4/26/2009 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Dark Paradise by darkNnerdy reviews
He's cruel, unfeeling, and a monster. She wants to know why, and all he wants is her. Written for PandorasFF.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Suspense/Crime - Chapters: 8 - Words: 13,786 - Reviews: 755 - Favs: 622 - Follows: 480 - Updated: 4/22/2013 - Published: 4/16/2013 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Business Casual by WhatsMyNomDePlume reviews
The lines between boss and employee, human and immortal, hero and damsel, coworker and lover, and right and wrong are about to become very blurry for Edward and Bella. Comedy/Romance/Drama
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 10 - Words: 26,839 - Reviews: 2748 - Favs: 2,340 - Follows: 1,717 - Updated: 12/21/2012 - Published: 11/13/2012 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Hardcover Paranormal Romance by badjujube reviews
Edward has an issue with Bella Swan that can't be found in the employee handbook. AU, goofy. Complete.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Humor - Chapters: 19 - Words: 41,720 - Reviews: 2036 - Favs: 1,243 - Follows: 1,205 - Updated: 11/12/2012 - Published: 2/11/2012 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Written in the Stars by Lissa Bryan reviews
Edward is king of a dying race, his planet torn by civil war. Bella is abducted to become his bride. From college student to Queen... Can she learn to love this strange man and help save his people? AU/OOC, Rated M
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 33 - Words: 167,029 - Reviews: 7959 - Favs: 9,332 - Follows: 3,757 - Updated: 7/21/2012 - Published: 10/28/2011 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Terms and Conditions Apply by TheSaintsMistress reviews
There's only one person on this earth that Edward Cullen hates, and that's his boss...Bella Swan. She's cold. She's ruthless and incapable of human emotion, and to Edward's greatest frustration, the hottest woman walking the face of the planet.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 33 - Words: 65,535 - Reviews: 4432 - Favs: 505 - Follows: 150 - Updated: 7/17/2012 - Published: 4/18/2011 - Bella, Edward - Complete
The Fallout by OCDindeed reviews
March 16/06 the world the Cullens knew ended. Faith, hope & love are powerful things. Edward finds out how powerful they are when he loses the one person who made his life worth living. Not just an E/B story. Entire Cullen clan is here, each with their own hardships. Set during a post-apocalyptic nuclear war. Try the Prologue before passing judgment. You might be surprised! NM/AU
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 39 - Words: 325,178 - Reviews: 6683 - Favs: 4,443 - Follows: 3,215 - Updated: 3/24/2012 - Published: 3/24/2009 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Beyond Duty by bmango reviews
Edward, Protector of Aeland, faces his biggest challenge as ruler: dark demons out of legend are stalking and killing his people. He seeks answers in the Oracle's riddle and sets off on a path to save the world. Very AU. Vamp.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Fantasy/Adventure - Chapters: 31 - Words: 84,573 - Reviews: 480 - Favs: 391 - Follows: 238 - Updated: 1/18/2012 - Published: 6/3/2011 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Osa Bella by Myg reviews
Bella is a school counselor, but Edward is a vampire posing as a student. Will Bella defy her head and follow her heart? Or will she conquer her desire and do what she believes is right? Not your daughter's/niece's/little sister's Twilight. Angsty.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Fantasy - Chapters: 37 - Words: 185,919 - Reviews: 3703 - Favs: 3,008 - Follows: 1,861 - Updated: 9/16/2011 - Published: 6/9/2010 - Bella, Edward - Complete
A Matter of Life and Death by WhatsMyNomDePlume reviews
Forget being scared to death, Bella Swan isn't even scared of death, something that both greatly annoys and-even if he won't admit it-entices Edward Cullen. If only she weren't trying to destroy him. Collab w/ Derdriu oFaolain for FGB.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 8 - Words: 27,390 - Reviews: 1249 - Favs: 1,095 - Follows: 574 - Updated: 7/22/2011 - Published: 6/15/2011 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Wicked Angel by DevilishPleasures reviews
I am Edward Cullen and I have a deadly secret: I am a hit man. My new target: Isabella Newton. With the help of my friends, we plan the crime of the century. What the hell am I going to do when she becomes more than my target and becomes my life...?
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Supernatural/Drama - Chapters: 23 - Words: 131,618 - Reviews: 3379 - Favs: 2,264 - Follows: 1,402 - Updated: 12/21/2010 - Published: 1/1/2010 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Set in Stone by psyche001 reviews
From within the night's secret shadows,a beautiful winged creature falls for a human girl.She is forbidden fruit in his world but still,he crosses the line to save her life.What happens when their worlds collide & she discovers his horrible fate? AU/M/BXE
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 22 - Words: 195,648 - Reviews: 1475 - Favs: 1,422 - Follows: 529 - Updated: 8/22/2010 - Published: 12/9/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Bella Swan: Kidnapper by Kambria Rain reviews
Um. Hi. I don’t really know how to say this, but I have your kids with me, and I was thinking maybe you would like them back. So yeah… call me.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 23 - Words: 74,736 - Reviews: 8928 - Favs: 15,019 - Follows: 3,144 - Updated: 6/27/2009 - Published: 5/15/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
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