A quick up date (4/11/18) I have not forgotten my story "13 Days" My health has been so up and down, but I am still working on it. Please check out my blog at http:///

I was asked by a reader if I minded sharing a little information about my self. She said she likes to know a bit about the authors she likes. So hears a bit of information about myself.

I'm 45 soon to be one year older in January 2019. Up until (2007)I had never even heard of Twilight. I've been married for 18 years, and one day my husband came home with a rented movie. I wasn't interested in watching it until he said it was about vampires.

You’re probably wondering if I live in a cave, because how could I not have heard of Twilight. The fact is I don’t watch TV. If it wasn't for my husband and my daughter I wouldn’t even own a TV. Now you’re wondering why my 15 year old daughter never told me about Twilight. The horrible truth is she doesn’t care for Twilight. I know right. It’s so sad. I did my best to try to turn her over to the Twilight side, but she is who she is.

The only writing I’ve ever done was in my journals, and I did attend college and had to take a writing class. I’ve been reading stories since I saw the movie and decided in October to try my hand at writing my own story.

If you follow the link to my blog site you’ll learn about the health problems I have. It’s the reason I am no longer working and why I can spend up to 12 hours a day reading stories. LOL. Let’s see a little bit more about me is I love science fiction movies and coffee. My favorite color is green and my favorite food is sesames chicken.

Coffee is made from beans, Beans are good for you, beans are also food, food is good for you, food that is good for you is better, therefore, coffee is food and good for you.

FYI: from what I've been told Credit for the name God of War goes entirely to IdreamofEddy, the fabulous author of Colliding Meteors.

Quote from chapter 7 of Colliding Meteors: He reminded me of some backwoods' country boy with a beer in one hand and a shotgun in the other - the kind you don't want to *uck around with.

"The Fibromyalgia Letter"

Hello Family, Friends, and Anyone Wishing to Know Me!

How do I explain this to you my family and friends? This is very difficult to do as my illness is "unseen." So allow me to begin by thanking you for taking the time out of your day to spend some time with me and get to know me better. A person's time is their most valuable asset and yours is appreciated

{{{Fibromyalgia is a chronic condition characterized by widespread pain in your muscles, ligaments and tendons, as well as fatigue and multiple tender points - places on your body where slight pressure causes pain. Myofascial pain syndrome is a chronic form of muscle pain. The pain of Myofascial pain syndrome centers around sensitive points in your muscles called trigger points. The trigger points in your muscles can be painful when touched. And the pain can spread throughout the affected muscle.}}}

I want to talk to you about fibromyalgia (FM) and Chronic Myofascial Pain Syndrome (MPS). Many have never heard of these conditions and for those who have, many are misinformed. And because of this, judgments are made that may not be correct. So I ask you to keep an open mind as I try to explain who I am and how FM/MPS has assaulted not only my life but those whom I love as well.

I cannot show you a physically open wound to show how much pain I'm in. If I could you would take one look at that, tell me to sit right down, get me a pillow, offer me something to eat or drink and have that concerned and understanding look on your faces. However with Fibromyalgia, you will hear from many people that they would rather have a broken leg any day than suffer the kind of pain these disorders inflict. To me, a broken leg is even a poor example to compare suffering to these disorders and an insult to those of us with those disorders.

You see, I suffer from a disease that you cannot see; a disease that there is no cure for and that keeps the medical community baffled at how to treat and battle this demon, who's attacks are relentless. My pain works silently, stealing my joy and replacing it with tears. On the outside we look alike you and I; you wont see my scars as you would a person who, say, had suffered a car accident. You won't see my pain in the way you would a person undergoing chemo for cancer; however, my pain is just as real and just as debilitating. And in many ways my pain may be more destructive because people can't see it and do not understand...

You must see with your ears and your heart what your eyes cannot see. You must listen carefully to what I am telling you. What I describe to you may not make much sense to you and may be difficult for you to understand. Sometimes it may seem to you to be a different universe that I discuss. Know that it probably is. You don't have to fully understand my universe and you cannot possibly. However hear my pain, listen for red flags always of any danger signals where you may need to help with added assistance. I like to call it "sending in the troops." Anytime I do not seem in touch with reality.

Please don't get angry at my seemingly lack of interest in doing things; I punish myself enough I assure you. My tears are shed many times when no one is around. My embarrassment is covered by a joke or laughter, but inside I want to die. You will hear many things from me that to you seem as easily resolvable. You may wonder why I make the same "wrong" decisions over and over again. Why haven't I learned by this time? Why can't I see the senselessness of my behavior? I may seem to be getting my life together and them bottom out all over again.

Please understand the difference between "happy" and "healthy". When you've got the flu you probably feel miserable with it, but I've been sick for years. I can't be miserable all the time, in fact I work hard at not being miserable. So if you're talking to me and I sound happy, it means I'm happy. That's all. I may be tired. I may be in pain. I may be sicker than ever. Please, don't say, "Oh, you're sounding
better!" I am not sounding better, I am sounding happy.

What is happening here? Am I lazy, stupid, etc? Nope. My physical brain and body is very different than yours. I experience life different than the way you do. I feel different than you do. Most of my "friends" are gone; even members of my own family have abandoned me. I have been accused of "playing games" for another's sympathy. I have been called unreliable because I am forced to cancel plans I made at the last minute because of the burning and pain in my legs or arms and shoulders. The pain can be so intense that I cannot put my clothes on and I am left in my tears as I miss out on yet another activity I used to love and once participated in with enthusiasm. Do I experience mood swings? If I am hurting I may be angry, sad, depressed, or any of the hundred moods in the world. I'll never know what mood I will wake up with? I may treat you cruelly and say horrible things to you; I may ignore you completely, or cry on your shoulder unstopping when I'm in Fibro Flair. You may wonder what you said or did that made me this way. Well you did nothing it's the Fibromyalgia and all its underlining factors causing this.

{{{While the most predominant symptoms of fibromyalgia include widespread pain and persistent fatigue, the resulting cognitive impairment of this condition may be its most maddening. Commonly referred to as fibro fog, this symptom is a conglomeration of cognitive challenges. Fibro fog is understood to be a physical symptom of fibromyalgia, not a psychological one. Just as no two individuals experience fibromyalgia in the same way, fibro fog also has a varying range of indications, including: Mental confusion, Fuzzy thinking, Short-term memory loss, Inability to concentrate or pay attention, and Language lapses}}}

This is why I feel like a child at times. Just the other day I put the egg's I bought at the store in the pantry, on the shelf, instead of in the refrigerator. When I talk to people, many times I lose my train of thought in mid sentence or forget the simplest word needed to explain or describe something. Please try to understand how it feels to have another go behind me in my home to make sure the stove is off after I cook an occasional meal. Please try to understand how it feels to "lose" the keys, only to find them in the freezer. As I try to maintain my dignity the Demon assaults me at every turn.

I have a physical illness and it isn't my fault and I didn't ask for it I don't want it and I don't deserve it.

{{{Occurring at the deepest level of the sleep cycle, individuals with fibromyalgia typically lack sufficient restorative sleep. We know that at the deeper levels of sleep, called delta wave sleep, a person's mind conducts internal housekeeping. During delta wave sleep, newly acquired information is assimilated and integrated into the brain. The inability to get sufficient delta wave sleep impairs the ability to recall information and operate at a normal level of mental efficiency.}}}

Sleep, when I do get some, it is restless and I wake often because of the pain the sheets have on my legs or because I twitch uncontrollably. I walk through many of my days in a daze with the Fibro-fog laughing at me as I stumble and grasp for clarity.

Just because I can do a thing one day, that doesn't mean I will be able to do the same thing the next day or next week. I may be able to take that walk after dinner on a warm July evening; the next day or even the in the next hour I may not be able to walk to the fridge to get a cold drink because my muscles have begun to cramp and lock up or spasm uncontrollably. There are those who say "but you did that yesterday!" "What is your problem today?" The hurt I experience at those words scars me so deeply that I have let my family and friends down again; and still they don't understand.

On a brighter side I want you to know that I still have my sense of humor. If you take the time to spend with me you will see that. I love to tell that joke to make another's face light up and smile at my wit. I am fun to be with if you will spend the time with me on my own playing field; is this too much to ask? I want nothing more than to be a part of your life. I have found that I can be a strong friend in many ways. I am your friend, your supporter and many times I will be the one to do the research for your latest project; many times I will be your biggest fan and the world will know how proud I am at your accomplishments and how honored I am to have you in my life.

All I ask is that you become educated about fibromyalgia. I am someone in your life that suffers from fibromyalgia. You may think you know everything there is to know about it, but there is more information out there than you think. It is more complicated then you think, and it is more life changing then you think.

{{{Lend a helping hand. If you want to be helpful to someone with fibromyalgia, just ask what you can do. Be flexible with invitations and plans that you have made. Understand that sometimes the pain of fibromyalgia is overwhelming. Be active. Accompany them to a doctor's appointment and take an active interest in their treatment. You can take notes at the doctor's office and then review your notes together at home. Don't take things personally. Some people with fibromyalgia suffer from sudden mood changes. Try not to take these mood swings personally as they are part of the syndrome.}}}

So you see, you and I are not that much different. I too have hopes, dreams, goals and this demon Do you have an unseen demon that assaults you and no one else can see? Have you had to fight a fight that crushes you and brings you to your knees? I will be by your side, win or lose, I promise you that; I will be there in ways that I can. I will give all I can as I can, I promise you that. But I have to do this thing my way. Please understand that I am in such a fight myself and I know that I have little hope of a cure or effective treatments, at least right now.

Thank you for spending your time with me today. I hope we can work through this thing, you and me. Please understand that I am just like you.

So I Need You To Please Understand Me.

Stupidity killed the cat... Curiosity was framed!

AU = Alternate Universe. Story does not follow the plot of the Twilight saga.

AH = All Human. There will be no vampires in the story.

AN = Author's Note. A notice, question, or other comment that the author of the story needs their readers to see.

POV = Point Of View. The eyes that we read through as we follow a fic. (EX: The Twilight saga is Bella's POV.) If written in the third person, no specific POV must be declared.

Ship = It means that you support a specific pairing.

OOC = Out Of Character. The actions or personality of a specific character will be different from what we deem normal for that specific character. (IE: Rosalie might be super nice to Bella right away in an AU fic, which would mean Rosalie was written OOC.)

OC = Original Character. A person not from the books will be featured in the story.

HEA = Happily Ever After. Rather self-explanatory.

Non-canon = This is used mainly for pairings. If, for example, you read a Jasper/Bella story you are reading a non-canon story; because it does not feature in the books.

Canon = It DOES feature in the books. This is often used both for pairings, and for plot. (Ex. for plot: Stories that take place pre-Twilight or post-Breaking Dawn are nearly always acclaimed canon stories.)

Lemon/Smut = Any non-kid-friendly material, always in a sexual reference. A lemon is most always R rated, while smut can be hidden in between the lines in something K rated.

Slash = Male and Male smut.

Femmeslash = Female and Female smut.

PWP = Porn Without Plot. Graphic lemons written for the sake of being a lemon.

Outtake = It's technical definition is a chapter which has been taken out. However, it's universally used as a term for a chapter written in another character's POV. Usually posted at the end of the fic.

WIP = Work In Progress. The fic is not yet finished.

Darkfic = This is a fic where dark themes and events are strongly present. It deals with situations like slavery and misuse of sex. Very often includes some sort of physical abuse towards another person. Drug use or graphic death can also constitute a darkfic. (IE: The majority that I have seen are in the HP fandom. In particular, Draco Malfoy buying Hermoine Granger to be used as a pleasure tool.)

RR / R&R = Read and Review. It means, basically, that if you read you should be nice enough to review. Us authors love feedback, it is half the reason we write. We like to try and grow as writers.

OTP = One True Pairing. This is the ship that an author has declared their favorite. It can be crack or canon. An OTP is usually very natural-feeling and easy for an author to write. Though unusual, an author can have two OTP's per fandom. (EX: I, myself, cannot decide between Jasper/Bella and Alec/Alice for the Twilight fandom.)

Fluff = A type of fic which has a generally happy atmosphere, rather than loads of smut or angst. Of course, one could always write a specific type of fluff and change that. (IE: Tragic Fluff will be all angst and someone dies.)

WAFF = Warm and Fluffy Feeling. It's super fluff! lol. Usually-K-Rated things that just make you gush with happiness induce WAFF.

Songfic = A fan fiction based around or inspired by a song. The contents should have something to do with the lyrics. Usually a one-shot.