![]() Author has written 16 stories for Harry Potter, and Gemma Doyle Trilogy. Selemi Lez. I came across her a few years back and fell in love. I knew immediately this is the perfect character for me. She is like me in many ways. She could spend hours reading and writing. She loved to argue and made her opinions known. I'll admit, the mask of the internet made her much bolder than me. She was a near perfect reflection of myself. I wonder if I chose her because I was concerned about online safety but now I know. I chose her because no one could connect her to me. She's a clean slate. No one can judge me for what she says; even though we are more alike than different. Is it cruel to place such a burden on her shoulders? Am I a coward to let her take the blows? I also let her take the praise for my writing and crafting. Its a bitter relationship to be sure. There are times when I want to virtually yell, "Its not really her!" Moments like those remind me how trapped I am inside her. When my friends ask me about my online activities, I cannot give them full disclosure; or even half disclosure. So much of what I do online is through Selemi. I cannot reveal her to the real world. She exists purely as a collection of pixels. She can't exist, therefore, what she does cannot exist--at least, for my worldly friends. I can only hint at it. Its price to pay to not be judged that I am willing to make. Why am I telling you this? Its not in my best interest to deceive anyone. I don't want any confusion that Selemi is a real girl. She is like me in mind, but not in body. We are both sophomores in high school. We are both somewhat of a tree-hugger. We have a huge passion for sustainability. We both love Harry Potter. The line between her and me blurs on the web. For all it concerns you, I am Selemi. My blog: never-ending-inspiration (dot) blogspot (dot) com with out the spaces, of course. I made this forum for challenges. http://forum.fanfiction.net/forum/Fantastic_Challenges_and_Where_to_Find_Them/103815/ |