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Author has written 6 stories for Misc. Books, Fullmetal Alchemist, Secret Saturdays, Harry Potter, and Randy Cunningham: 9th Grade Ninja.
Being a writer has its ups and downs...the perk is that you're completely in charge...the draw back though, is that you love putting your characters through so much agony that it slowly turns you into a psychopath...
...equivalent exchange, I guess...
Dear Writer's Block:
Thanks for once again pouring orange juice on the imagination machine. I really appreciate it. (If you can't tell, this is sarcasm, you @$$-hat.)
I hope a piano falls on your head and crushes your fifteenth kidney. Go eat a shoe.
UpDaTe ScHeDuLe! :3
"The Feeling of a Mouse"
Chapter Three, 51% done.
I have a love hate relationship with writing. When I can do it, I enjoy myself, but for the longest time I had such a hard time doing it. I just always wanted it to be perfect, and when I couldn't meet my unrealistic expectations, I hated myself. I think I'm finally moving past that stage of my life, but sometimes I have to remind myself that I'm only human. Even now, I'm never completely satisfied...which I suppose isn't the worst thing in the world, because at least I enjoy writing again. I like improving, too. And now I think I'm pretty okay at receiving constructive criticism, considering I've been my own worst critic.
Although I'm doing much better now, I'm still working through some problems. I've been fighting against my depression for a little over a year now. Even though it hasn't been all that long, I'm still amazed at the differences between myself back then and who I'm growing up to be.
For those of you who may be spending your time unhappy, even if it doesn't seem like that much time, you may be struggling. Just because you aren't spending the majority of the day in bed, it doesn't mean you aren't depressed. Depression is different for everyone. For the longest time I was ashamed of the way I've been feeling because I thought that I was undeserving of these feelings. However, this is the way that you feel. You can't just change how you feel, and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. I know it may be hard to believe, but you're not a bad person for feeling like this. Don't try to figure out why you do feel this way, just accept that you are feeling this way and understand that you may need help. Everyone needs help at some point, and there's nothing wrong with that. I know for a fact that if I didn't find my therapist, I probably would have been dead by now.
If you feel like you want to end your life, I am begging you not to. You are a wonderful person, and I promise you that the pain you are feeling will go away. Ending your life will not take the pain away, because you will not be around to feel the pain go away.
For anyone feeling suicidal, I urge you to look to a suicide hotline. It is not a substitute for a therapist or a psychiatrist, but the person on the other end of the line or screen can help you. I know it helped me in my darker moments.
You can also message me, too. I might not reply immediately, especially if our time zones are different, but I do try to check my email frequently, so I will message you as soon as I see the message.
Ahhh. I'm really bad at answering my messages. If you message me, most likely I will be slow as heck in getting back to you.
Dylexa @ gmail . com
Here's my email if you wanna email me for some reason. Remove the spaces.