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Joined 10-13-00, id: 21993, Profile Updated: 12-09-08
Author has written 37 stories for Ninja Turtles, Digimon, Supernatural, Bleach, Sorceror Stabber Orphen, Ouran High School Host Club, Transformers, Yu-Gi-Oh, and Hetalia - Axis Powers.

Help! Interest Wanted!

I'm currently starting up an LJ community dedicated to spoken word fanfiction. At the moment, the list of available fanfics (and members...) is very small, but I'm working on building it up. This is where you guys come in. I need people to be involved! What I really need are suggestions of fics to convert, permission then to convert them, and people to join the community and partake in the magic of being read to. If you're very interested in becoming a narrator for me, I'll take that too.

So please, come by and tell me what you want to see! Help me make this community a bustling hub-bub of interaction, and help the spoken word get out there where it needs to be!



I'm aware that the latest chapter of 'Eyes of a Stranger is very late going up - sorry about that! Real life keeps getting in the way! bashes it Anyway, it should be business as usual from this Friday, so you can expect to see an update from me then!



I am currently converting many of my most recent stories to spoken word format. If you wish to get a copy of one of my fics in spoken word format please send me a PM and I'll arrange to get a copy to you :) So far, the following fics have been converted, but if there is one you particularly want to hear, let me know :)

'Fifteen Hundred Pages' - Ouran High School Host Club
'Pieces of Me' - TMNT
No Substitute' - TMNT

In progress
'Afterglow' - TMNT



Those of you who are exceptionally observant will notice that there are still a couple of fandoms I haven't reuploaded, most notably Yu-Gi-Oh! Please note that this is not because I don't plan to; it's just because I haven't got around to it yet :P ZOMG real life stuffs is crazy right now x_x



It occurs to me that all my Digimon uploads have Matt's Dad's name wrong. :puts on her old lady voice: Back in the day... ;) ...It wasn't so easy to find out his real name. I'kll have to come back and change all the 'Masaharu's to 'Hiroaki's. At some point. Ahem. In the meantime, could you just read them as 'Hiroaki' for me? Ta ;)


I have an apology to make...

To all of those people who have supported me and read my fics and commented and enjoyed them over the past eight years - I'm sorry. Let me explain. It's hard to lay all this out in the open, but here we go... I have to so I can start to heal.

Ever since my life on started eight year ago, I have suffered from low self esteem. I am getting treatment for this now, but it has blighted my life for as long as I can remember, and certainly all of my adult life. One of the problems I have is attached to a bullying incident in my youth, where (to cut a long story short) I learned to pull back all traces of my existence when I felt threatened. If the least little thing affected my feelings about my fics, I would withdraw them, putting them back inside me as though there were a safe box inside.

There have been lots of stories over the years, and as I understand it, some of them have been mourned for. I feel bad for this. It's a fantastic feeling to have provided some enjoyment to people, and it's that which I'm trying to focus on now. I want eventually to be a published author, so I must learn to accept the feelings of negativity as much as I must learn to accept the positive feelings.

In order to advance the healing process, I am now reposting my fics - all of them, right back from The Real Adventures of Jonny Quest in 1998 up to TMNT in 2007. With the exception of the TMNT fics, I may no longer have the original HTML uploads. This means that the raw will be uploaded - I have no plans to edit any of these stories, so please bear that in mind when reading.

Over the coming weeks, I will gradually be reposting every complete story I ever posted, beginning with the most recent fics and going in reverse.

Please help to heal me - it's a long, heavy duty job, and I hope you'll bear with me :)


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Vanilla reviews
Canada might be Mr Blandy-Bland, but that doesn't mean he isn't good at anything. In fact, there's something he's very good at. He just doesn't advertise it, because nobody would notice and even if they did they'd probably laugh. Cake, anybody?
Hetalia - Axis Powers - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,122 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 22 - Follows: 3 - Published: 11/4/2009 - Canada - Complete
The Last Bath reviews
There's little Kaiba can do for his baby brother now - save to send him to eternal sleep clean, with a promise of revenge and a reminder that he was loved.
Yu-Gi-Oh - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,033 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 1 - Published: 10/9/2009 - S. Kaiba, Mokuba K. - Complete
Coffee Run reviews
Sam is cramming as much as he can into his brain on one early morning in the hope of passing his exam the next day. When he discovers that Leo drank all of his coffee, he immediately heads out for more but finds more than he bargained for...
Transformers - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,364 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 96 - Follows: 3 - Published: 6/28/2009 - Sam W., Bumblebee - Complete
Eyes of a Stranger reviews
After being missing for two weeks,Sam is found in an asylum and rescued-but the Sam Dean finds is wildly changed from the Sam he knows and loves.What could possibly be causing his painfully apparent mental illness? What's causing Sam's violent tendencies?
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Drama/Supernatural - Chapters: 9 - Words: 54,556 - Reviews: 75 - Favs: 55 - Follows: 84 - Updated: 4/18/2009 - Published: 10/10/2008 - Dean W., Sam W.
The Star I See reviews
It is a year since the fifteen hundred pages and Kaoru has gone to the summerland. Hikaru is learning to live again and while he does, he seeks the watchful eye of his brother in the night sky. However, it's not just his brother who is watching over him.
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,702 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 27 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/13/2009 - Hikaru H., Tamaki S. - Complete
Fifteen Hundred Pages reviews
An agreement made between Hikaru and Kaoru must be kept before the Hitachiin twins run out of time. No pairing
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: T - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,929 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 60 - Follows: 4 - Published: 9/4/2008 - Hikaru H., Kaoru H. - Complete
We're Not Afraid of You, Potter reviews
Ouran Academy has 151 copies of ‘Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows’. 16 of these copies are in the fourth reading room, but only one has all thirty-six chapters. Why?
Ouran High School Host Club - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,011 - Reviews: 37 - Favs: 76 - Follows: 10 - Published: 8/21/2008 - Kaoru H., Hikaru H. - Complete
With the Fishes reviews
Majic manages to get himself poisoned by a nasty piece of wildlife, and leaves it too late to tell Orphen...
Sorceror Stabber Orphen - Rated: T - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 9,533 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 16 - Follows: 4 - Published: 7/6/2008 - Complete
The Boy Who Fell reviews
Ichigo is tricked into attacking and fatally injuring Hanatarou. Though Ichigo is appalled at his own crime, Hanatarou forgives him with his last breaths.
Bleach - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,604 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 22 - Follows: 4 - Published: 7/6/2008 - Hanatarō Y., Ichigo K. - Complete
Revelations reviews
Repost. Hanatarou misses his friends dreadfully when they return to the living world. When he falls ill, he is reminded that a friend is a friend, no matter where they are. If you need them, they will come.
Bleach - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,049 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 20 - Follows: 2 - Published: 7/6/2008 - Hanatarō Y.
Learning to Fly reviews
Repost. When the chips are down and there's no-one left to make a stand, Hanatarou has a choice to make - run away and spend his life in shame or make the ultimate sacrifice and die a hero...
Bleach - Rated: T - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 9,388 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 2 - Published: 7/6/2008 - Hanatarō Y., Rukia K. - Complete
Vigil reviews
Repost: Matt is wandering through Tokyo when he hears Tai's voice, His friend is upset, but Matt can't see him, or make him listen...
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,526 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 10 - Published: 6/24/2008 - Yamato I./Matt, Taichi Y./Tai K. - Complete
Two Minutes reviews
Repost: Matt is visited by his dead Grandmother with a challege - get Dad's attention in two minutes or die.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,760 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 18 - Published: 6/24/2008 - Yamato I./Matt, Hiroaki I./Mr. Ishida - Complete
The First Christmas reviews
Respot: A month after Matt's untimely death in a car accident, TK 'celebrates' the first Christmas without his brother.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,190 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 3 - Published: 6/24/2008 - Takeru T./TK, Natsuko T./Nancy T./Ms. Takaishi - Complete
Reverence reviews
Repost: TK submits an essay to his teacher that will stay with him for a long time.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,100 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/24/2008 - Takeru T./TK, Yamato I./Matt - Complete
Because I Love You reviews
Repost: When Matt is given the option to bring TK back from the clutches of death, he barely pauses for thought at the sacrifice he must make...
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,310 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 20 - Follows: 2 - Published: 6/24/2008 - Yamato I./Matt, Takeru T./TK - Complete
Autumnal: A Prelude to Winter reviews
Repost: AU. Matt reflects on his life as a gang member, and the spiralling number of cruel acts he had to commit and suffer for the sake of 'the family'. Prequel to 'One Good Cop'.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Crime - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,575 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Published: 6/22/2008 - Yamato I./Matt - Complete
One Good Cop reviews
Repost: AU. Matt and TK face off against one another - one as the cop, and one as the criminal. Can they reconcile before it's too late? Companion fic to 'Autumnal: A Prelude to Winter'.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,037 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 5 - Published: 6/22/2008 - Yamato I./Matt, Takeru T./TK - Complete
Three Unwise Monkeys reviews
Repost: Tai introduces Matt and Izzy to the wonders of tequila. It's a meeting none of them are likely to forget in a hurry...
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,396 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 35 - Published: 6/22/2008 - Complete
Angels in the Snow reviews
Repost: Matt and TK enjoy a spot of brotherly interaction in the snow - while Sora and Tai spy from behind a tree.
Digimon - Rated: K - English - Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,043 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 50 - Follows: 3 - Published: 6/22/2008 - Yamato I./Matt, Takeru T./TK - Complete
A Right Pair of 'Nanas reviews
Repost: Matt and Tai are experiencing Sex Ed class. They are given a banana and a condom, and asked to dress the banana appropriately. Pity they can't figure it out between them... Not Taito
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,547 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 49 - Follows: 3 - Published: 6/22/2008 - Yamato I./Matt, Taichi Y./Tai K. - Complete
Digiland reviews
Repost: After losing Matt, TK suffers a mental breakdown. He receives a distress call from Patamon, and struggles to get to the Digital World - only to find it massively changed. Can TK help the beleaguered Digimon and save their world?
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Horror - Chapters: 3 - Words: 25,330 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/18/2008 - Takeru T./TK, Patamon - Complete
Precious Things reviews
Repost: Tai knows Matt is acting strangely. When Matt gives him a letter to deliver to TK, Tai has to decide whether to keep his promise to Matt and deliver it the next day - or to break his word and deliver to to TK tonight, and discuss his concerns.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 16,764 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 35 - Follows: 6 - Published: 6/18/2008 - Yamato I./Matt, Takeru T./TK
A Day Without Rain reviews
Repost. Branches Story 05 - TK finally opens up enough to Matt to experience his love, even after death.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Supernatural - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,615 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/16/2008 - Yamato I./Matt, Takeru T./TK - Complete
You Never Miss the Water 'Til the Well Runs Dry reviews
Repost. Branches Story 04 - Matt's Dad remembers the call every parent dreads receiving and sitting by his son's deathbed, helplessly taking those photographs.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,502 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/16/2008 - Hiroaki I./Mr. Ishida, Takeru T./TK - Complete
Sometimes They Die reviews
Repost. Branches Story 03 - Tai remembers his reaction on hearing of Matt's death. He also remembers that Matt left behind a brother - a brother in agony of loss and pain, a brother who needs a friend now more than ever.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,703 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/16/2008 - Taichi Y./Tai K., Takeru T./TK - Complete
A Hand to the Heartsick Hope reviews
Repost. Branches Story 02 - Matt watches TK from afar; unable to touch or comfort him in his grief until TK opens his heart to Matt's presence.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,579 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 2 - Published: 6/16/2008 - Yamato I./Matt, Takeru T./TK - Complete
And I Forgot to Tell You That I Love You reviews
Repost. Branches Story 01 - TK is looking through photographs, some of which are pictures of Matt, who is lost to him. He regrets many things but perhaps most of all, he regrets not telling his big brother that he loved him.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,042 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 19 - Follows: 2 - Published: 6/16/2008 - Takeru T./TK, Yamato I./Matt - Complete
Into the Blue reviews
Repost. Sam fights his way to the lake's surface, his lungs burning and his mind a confused jumble. When he breaks the surface of the water, Dean is nowhere to be seen. What happened to their prey? Can Sam find Dean and figure out what's happening to him?
Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,868 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 10 - Published: 6/15/2008 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
Red and White reviews
Repost. When Matt suffers a terrible injustice at the hands of a vile teacher, he forgets how to communicate his pain and it's down to his friends and family to find out what went on. Rated for references to male rape, though there are no graphic scenes.
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 9 - Words: 79,250 - Reviews: 87 - Favs: 143 - Follows: 24 - Updated: 6/7/2008 - Published: 5/16/2008 - Yamato I./Matt, Takeru T./TK - Complete
Barbed reviews
April receives a visit in the night that will leave her grief-stricken, and the turtle brothers broken and missing one of their own.
Ninja Turtles - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,014 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 51 - Follows: 8 - Published: 5/4/2008 - Complete
Punishment reviews
Leo, Mikey and Raph take their integrity and smash it. Blind with rage and grief, they rain violent revenge on the Purple Dragons for the death of Don.
Ninja Turtles - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,421 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 37 - Follows: 11 - Published: 5/4/2008 - Complete
No Substitute reviews
Don sits beside Leo's body, broken by the loss of his brother. While there, he tells Leo some home truths - even if he can no longer hear them. - If anyone remembers the original summary, please let me know -
Ninja Turtles - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,324 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 34 - Follows: 2 - Published: 5/4/2008 - Donatello, Leonardo - Complete
Evergreen reviews
Leo goes to Donatello's grave to honour him a year after his passing. While he is there, he thinks of Don's life, his death, and everything in between.
Ninja Turtles - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 10,788 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 48 - Follows: 4 - Published: 5/4/2008 - Leonardo, Raphael - Complete
Vile Vial reviews
Mikey finds something of interest in the sewers and brings it home, only to unleash a potential armaggeddon on the Turtles. Leo and Raph find themselves embroiled in a race against time - can they help Mikey and Don before they're lost to them forever?
Ninja Turtles - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Drama - Chapters: 10 - Words: 61,628 - Reviews: 33 - Favs: 133 - Follows: 21 - Published: 5/3/2008 - Complete
Pieces of Me reviews
Leo is captured by a gentle imagining of his brother, and haunted still by an action he took more than three years ago - if anybody remembers the original summary, let me know -
Ninja Turtles - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,028 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 49 - Follows: 5 - Published: 5/3/2008 - Leonardo, Raphael - Complete
Afterglow reviews
Prequel to 'Pieces of Me'. Leonardo is left in an impossibly dark place after having to commit an unspeakable act in the name of love for a brother - anyone who can remember the original summary, let me know -
Ninja Turtles - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 2 - Words: 19,192 - Reviews: 30 - Favs: 56 - Follows: 5 - Published: 5/3/2008 - Leonardo - Complete