Author has written 54 stories for Twilight.
'I always seem to have a vague feeling that he is a Satan among musicians, a fallen angel in the darkness who is perpetually seeking to fight his way back to happiness.' - Havelock Ellis
'She was beginning to understand that evil is not absolute, and that good is often an occasion more than a condition.' - Gilbert Parker
'Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest of potential, and fight for your dreams.' - Ashley Smith
'The important thing is this: To be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.' - Charles Du Bos
Hi Lovelies. After a long hiatus, I am trying to ease back into FanFiction life. Please bare with me as I edit stories and update. Reading over my old stories I cringe at the mistakes in them, so I am trying my hardest to fix them BEFORE continuing the stories.
As it's been a long time, I will slowly update when I can. Nothing will be left unfinished. Even if it takes me a thousand years. Lol.
It kind of feels like there are not many original She-Wolf fans left out there, but I will not give up on Leah. Ever.
FIC SHOUT OUTS:
Masking the void ( M )
Summary: They were two broken souls, each attempting to fill what was missing. But would it be enough...and what if it became too much? Jacob and Leah, post Book 2 of Breaking Dawn. Mature content within.
Me: I'm not crying! You are!
End me. My life's is over. Author brings the angst so you need to bring the damn tissues. I actually bawl my eyes out every time I read this story. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.
This fic sets the bar. I wish it were complete but alas, we don't always get what we wish for.
Scream Ferocity ( M ) Complete
Author: Hope Shalott
Summary: Those who hate most fervently must have once loved deeply. Those who want to deny the world must have once embraced what they have now set on fire. Leah finally snaps.
Me: There is nothing this girl can't do. I have one word. Ah-may-zing.
The thing that really got me about this fic is that HS doesn't give us a crying Leah, a love story and a happily ever after. Hope Shalott manages to give us an in depth look into the mind of a broken girl, through real emotions, real actions, and most of all real consequences. Even though the supernatural world is still present in the fic, HS shows us that no matter how strong Leah is, every girl breaks, everyone breaks and that a helping hand is worth its weight in gold.
There is no sugar coating and no fucking fairy dust to make the readers fall in love with the main character, Leah. It's merely what it is. This fic is pure angst, covered in some kick ass leather boots and a whip. The power of friendship rings true in this fic and has made my eyes water many-a-time. A fantastic read and one of my favourite fics of all time. Ever.
UPDATE* Hope Shalott is currently re-writing this fic. Get on board and leave her some love. Jacob's POV features more strongly this time round.
Broken ( T ) Complete
Author: Kei Kat Jones
Summary: He didn't see the harm in letting Nessie take his son for a walk in the woods. But Jacob learns that sometimes a leopard never changes her spots. One-shot.
Me: Words cannot express how distraught I was after reading this one shot. But as always KKJ has an amazing ability to throw us straight into the mix of emotions. This fic won't be for everyone. I mean really truly mean that. Beware.
Kei has this thing about her. This crazy thing that I can't even describe. She knows. She just does. She knows my weakness, knows that I like singing in the shower and looking at baby clothes in the isles of shopping centres. And she uses it, time and time again to stun, break, and smash my heart into the ground with her fics.
Sharing my ideals over 'imprinting' Kei writes it the way it is. Take it or leave it. KKJ shows that while SM gave us a lovey dovey happily ever after story regarding the 'supposed' phenomena, that things aren't always as they seem. That sometimes, one single mistake, can re-shape the entire future.
Tip: Bring the tissues.
Sam x Leah
This is one of the biggest dilemma’s I’ve had with Twilight. The greatest question of all time: Leah and Sam.
Do they really belong together? Were they destined for a ‘happily ever after’ if Bella Swan hadn’t enticed a certain vampire to stay in Forks? What about Emily, if she had never existed? What if Sam had never turned wolf?
Such a question causes my brain to hurt. Truly it does. It spins and cycles, turning question over question inside my little washing machine head.
Therefore there can only be one answer.
It’s up to us, as fan fiction writers, to make our happily ever after’s for both (or one. Personally I like my fics with a whole lotta angst and a choice amount of swear words) characters.
I see many sides to these two characters, which given the person, could love or loathe.
For me, even if Leah burnt down a church and stole the collection plate I’d still love her. Why? Because I want to. Because something inside of me relates to this chick.
I tread very tentatively around Leah and Sam fics. I don’t know why. It feels like fear. Or maybe nerves. Whatever. Problem is, Sam and Leah for ME are so much better broken. Being broken gives a character depth. Being different, being angry, being unloved, being a bitch, being an asshole that ripped your imprints face off… These people, these are characters.
There is a depth to these characters that you can’t deny. And to be strictly honest, SM does not use the depths of her characters to their best potential. My warped brain has learned (and loved) so much more about Jacob, Sam, Leah and the whole wolf pack family from fan fiction than SM original provided.
If fan fiction writers can write a good story, with strong characters, characters people don’t forget, portraying real emotions and real hardships then maybe I wouldn’t have to tread so lightly. With all Sam and Leah fics, it feels as though a giant piano is dangling off the edge of a building, swinging dangerously. Throughout the whole fic I sit. Hold my breath. Wait. And then when nothing happens, no Emily, no imprinting, I feel like a can breathe again and then ask myself WTF? Because I was waiting for it. The end. The inevitable.
While I have nothing against Sam, I feel like a lot of people write the two characters with other people because – one. New characters equal new story lines. Sam x Leah x Emily is SO dramatically canon, it’s like you can taste Emily slinking around the corner of the bar with her mega stilettos on, waiting for Sam to fall into her trap.
Two. I don’t believe the potential for each character can be reached by having the two of them achieve a happily ever after. I mean – what would happen? Sam and Leah go away to school. Come back to the Rez because they are both teachers and now they want to devote all of their time back to the kids. They get married. They have beautiful little russet children who run around the house with muddy feet. They grow old. They die.
Argh@@@ I’m doing it again.
Look. Sam and Leah for ME. And I push this. For ME can only be achieved by originality and heartache. I want Sam crying. I want Leah pushing him and slapping him. I want Emily to be some kind of a harpy bitch. I want to see what would happen without the imprint!!!
I want someone to prove me wrong!! I want someone to slap a Sam and Leah fic in my face and say HUH! This is it! This is the one that will change your small mind!
There is only one to date. ONE. That I would read over and over again in a heartbeat. It has now been taken down because I believe the author passed away but it was the single most beautiful, most meaningful, most REAL relationship I have ever seen from Sam and Leah.
But that’s just me. And I mean no offence to anyone liking this pairing. I know many people who loathe Leah’s character and calls it a waste of space. I know people who believe Seth and Renesmee should have ended up together (Aww Hell no *puts gloves on* He’s mine spawnet!!).
We like what we like. And no one should ever make you like something you don’t. My only advice, don’t block your options off. Try. And try again. Someone, somewhere, might one day surprise you. ;)
Nominations and Junk
Nominated - The Fandom Choice Awards - Wolf Pack Fanfiction Nominee 2014 - All Time Favorite Author
Nominated - 2010 GEM Awards - Best Lemon in 'No Longer Losing' - Jacob/Leah
Nominated - 2010 GEM Awards - Best Use of a Minor Character in ' No Bonds' - Leah/Brady/Colin