Author has written 53 stories for Twilight.
'I always seem to have a vague feeling that he is a Satan among musicians, a fallen angel in the darkness who is perpetually seeking to fight his way back to happiness.' - Havelock Ellis
'She was beginning to understand that evil is not absolute, and that good is often an occasion more than a condition.' - Gilbert Parker
'Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest of potential, and fight for your dreams.' - Ashley Smith
'The important thing is this: To be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.' - Charles Du Bos
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Hellloooo my loves! It's been so long. Really sorry about the wait. On the upside, I got engaged to the most perfect guy ever :) Downside, I'll have even less time for Fanfiction. Between that, full-time work, studying, preparing to move across country... It's just impossible. Grrr... But I do hope to finish what I've started here. I'll be posting some of my saved stories on here, just so I don't lose them in the interim. Once again, the delay in posting will be dependent on time. I know... I suck.
Update - 12/01/2015
Hi all. Happy new year! Whoa... can't believe its already 2015. Time seriously flies.
I will probably not be back on Fanfiction. I had forgotten to save all my pre written chapters on my document manager and now they have all been wiped. I hadn't been back for 90 days and had completely forgotten. This is not good.
Maybe in the future I will once again be inspired to write. Until then... unfortunately I have nothing. :(
Wishing you all the best. Mwah xoxox
Update - 27/05/2014
Hi all... Just trying to push out some new stuff, that is really technically old stuff since it's been sitting in my doc manager for what feels like forever! I don't know how long I will be here or gone. I was actually thinking of packing up my whole profile, but, that seemed too drastic. Of course I am still in LOVE with Leah, Seth, Jacob and Edward, I just don't know how much time I will have to be able to put all my ideas down on paper. *sad sigh*. On the upside, RL is good but busy.
Hope to chat with you guys soon! (you know who you are!)
P.S - Working hard on finishing some of the incomplete stories. Sorry for the long wait.
The 'Blackwater A-Z' challenge
I've posted this information for all those interested in participating. This was contained in an email from Cucumber07 and Kei Kat Jones to me. All credits belong to those two lovely ladies for the wonderful prompts. Note: I went to make a community so all those participating could be listed but *gasp* to my surprise you can only be the manager of ONE community!
'In order from A-Z, we're writing a creative one-shot following the prompt provided for each letter. The chapter will need to be an original storyline, as AU as you want it, and must be Blackwater. Length doesnt matter, and no one letter should relate to any of the others. It'll be just a jumble of Blackwatery yumminess in the form of the alphabet.'
A is for Argument, B is for Ball, C is for Camp, D is for Dad, E is for Evil, F is for Fox, G is for Gods, H is for Human, I is for Iron, J is for Jet, K is for Keeper, L is for Lace, M is for Murder Mystery, N is for Ninja, O is for Office, P is for Pure, Q is for Quarter, R is for Radar, S is for Snake, T is for Toy, U is for Umbrella, V is for Vacancy, W is for Waiting, X is for X-Mas, Y is for Yearn, and lucky last Z is for Zombie
Good luck to all those participating and joining the Blackwater army!
I think there needs to be something like the 'She-Wolf' awards. Awards which base solely around Leah Clearwater and the fan fiction dedicated to her awesomeness. Everyone that knows me (online anyway) knows I am Team. Leah. Full stop. Which is kind of sad because then I don't get to enjoy other stories written for the other characters we love from Twilight. I've never been one for OC's but over time have allowed myself to open up to them. Mainly because some authors give you no choice but to love them.
Since no such awards exist, I'm just going to post recommendations here on my profile.
In no way do you have to agree with my choice of fics and in no way does it mean that those not on this list are not full of awesomeness and win. These are just fics that said something to me. Something more than just pointless random babble. More than just a love story or a story full of angst. They mean something to me and for that, the author deserves a shout out.
I will be continually adding to the list.
Scream Ferocity ( M ) Complete
Author: Hope Shalott
Summary: Those who hate most fervently must have once loved deeply. Those who want to deny the world must have once embraced what they have now set on fire. Leah finally snaps.
Me: There is nothing this girl can't do. I have one word. Ah-may-zing.
The thing that really got me about this fic is that HS doesn't give us a crying Leah, a love story and a happily ever after. Hope Shalott manages to give us an in depth look into the mind of a broken girl, through real emotions, real actions, and most of all real consequences. Even though the supernatural world is still present in the fic, HS shows us that no matter how strong Leah is, every girl breaks, everyone breaks and that a helping hand is worth its weight in gold.
There is no sugar coating and no fucking fairy dust to make the readers fall in love with the main character, Leah. It's merely what it is. This fic is pure angst, covered in some kick ass leather boots and a whip. The power of friendship rings true in this fic and has made my eyes water many-a-time. A fantastic read and one of my favourite fics of all time. Ever.
UPDATE* Hope Shalott is currently re-writing this fic. Get on board and leave her some love. Jacob's pov features more strongly this time round.
Broken ( T ) Complete
Author: Kei Kat Jones
Summary: He didn't see the harm in letting Nessie take his son for a walk in the woods. But Jacob learns that sometimes a leopard never changes her spots. One-shot.
Me: Words cannot express how distraught I was after reading this one shot. But as always KKJ has an amazing ability to throw us straight into the mix of emotions. This fic won't be for everyone. I mean really truly mean that. Beware.
Kei has this thing about her. This crazy thing that I can't even describe. She knows. She just does. She knows my weakness, knows that I like singing in the shower and looking at baby clothes in the isles of shopping centres. And she uses it, time and time again to stun, break, and smash my heart into the ground with her fics.
Sharing my ideals over 'imprinting' Kei writes it the way it is. Take it or leave it. KKJ shows that while SM gave us a lovey dovey happily ever after story regarding the 'supposed' phenomena, that things aren't always as they seem. That sometimes, one single mistake, can re-shape the entire future.
Tip: Bring the tissues.
HOLD THE PHONE...
Ladies, Ladies, Ladies. You'll never guess but thanks to the wonderful PMU for reading my babbling profile, we now have a Leah Clearwater exclusive awards blog. This means all the Leah lovers in the fan fiction world can finally celebrate the awesomeness that is our one and only she wolf of the Quileute Tribe. I'm currently bursting with pride as the ladies on the blog have put in a buck load of effort in a pledge to show their support to all the Leah centric authors, beta's and readers out there.
The main mission of these awards was to help spread the love of Leah and to show that she is more than the "harpy" most people think she is. We wanted to show the strength and resilience of one of the most misconstrued characters of the Twilight Series. We wanted to dig into the depths of each others fics and find hope for Leah, find understandings and friendships, find friends, family and even love for her.
I think Leah Clearwater is so much more than a fictional character. We each find in her an understanding that no other character can offer us. We find our lives, our own stories, our pasts and our presents. We find in her, a reflection of ourselves.
Big thank you to PMU, GoldenGirl2707 and DontcallmeLeeLee for making this happen.
Please see the BlogSpot for all the details on how to nominate and the rules on casting you nominations.
Nominations begin May 1 - 20
http : / / She wolf awards . blogspot . com / (no spaces)
Please spread the word, visit the site, nominate and vote.
Dark Side of the Moon
To all my wonderful readers,
As you can see my Leah and Jacob centric fic 'Dark Side of the Moon' which had been posted on FanFiction. net has now been removed. This is due to the admin persons on this site deeming the summary of my story unfit and therefore charging me with breaking the guideline rules of posting. To be frank, the word 's*t' was in my summary. Now, understandably it is a curse word and I should have been wiser in writing my summary. And yeah, I accept that I had broken the rules by doing so. No matter how much a want to burn stuff down and tear the keys off my keyboard, my bad.
So, in saying that here is the bad news. I, dumbly, had not even contemplated the idea of backing up the story. That means people, I have not a scrap of the story left. Nada. Nothing. Zip. This is because when the FanFiction admins charge you with such offense there is no warning. They simply remove your story and send you a nice vague email, as if they didn't just rip the carpet from beneath your feet and break your heart. I could whine all day. Seriously. All. day. long. I'm angry at myself mostly.
Not only have they taken this fic, but they have also taken down 'No other woman' which was my FIRST AND ONLY Leah and Embry fic, a lemony one at that. Oh *laughs bitterly* and it gets better. 'No One' my very FIRST Leah and Jacob lemon was also taken down. My Blackwater lemon. Hell no...
Point blank, I refuse to rewrite a story, especially one nine chapters deep. Which does seem really evil, but I refuse to continue after this. My anger usually gets the best of me and this has just topped my day. Once again, totally my fault, but seriously? One of the one shots had been posted for over two years! And now you realise? NOW???
Anyways, thanks to all who nominated and voted for 'DSOTM' in the She Wolf awards (see above) anyways. And all the people that had reviewed, read, alerted and faved all three stories.
Oh and I'm also banned for the next couple of days too. Mutha...
Sam x Leah
This is one of the biggest dilemma’s I’ve had with Twilight. The greatest question of all time: Leah and Sam.
Do they really belong together? Were they destined for a ‘happily ever after’ if Bella Swan hadn’t enticed a certain vampire to stay in Forks? What about Emily, if she had never existed? What if Sam had never turned wolf?
Such a question causes my brain to hurt. Truly it does. It spins and cycles, turning question over question inside my little washing machine head.
Therefore there can only be one answer.
It’s up to us, as fan fiction writers, to make our happily ever after’s for both (or one. Personally I like my fics with a whole lotta angst and a choice amount of swear words) characters.
I see many sides to these two characters, which given the person, could love or loathe.
For me, even if Leah burnt down a church and stole the collection plate I’d still love her. Why? Because I want to. Because something inside of me relates to this chick.
I tread very tentatively around Leah and Sam fics. I don’t know why. It feels like fear. Or maybe nerves. Whatever. Problem is, Sam and Leah for ME are so much better broken. Being broken gives a character depth. Being different, being angry, being unloved, being a bitch, being an asshole that ripped your imprints face off… These people, these are characters.
There is a depth to these characters that you can’t deny. And to be strictly honest, SM does not use the depths of her characters to their best potential. My warped brain has learned (and loved) so much more about Jacob, Sam, Leah and the whole wolf pack family from fan fiction than SM original provided.
If fan fiction writers can write a good story, with strong characters, characters people don’t forget, portraying real emotions and real hardships then maybe I wouldn’t have to tread so lightly. With all Sam and Leah fics, it feels as though a giant piano is dangling off the edge of a building, swinging dangerously. Throughout the whole fic I sit. Hold my breath. Wait. And then when nothing happens, no Emily, no imprinting, I feel like a can breathe again and then ask myself WTF? Because I was waiting for it. The end. The inevitable.
While I have nothing against Sam, I feel like a lot of people write the two characters with other people because – one. New characters equal new story lines. Sam x Leah x Emily is SO dramatically canon, it’s like you can taste Emily slinking around the corner of the bar with her mega stilettos on, waiting for Sam to fall into her trap.
Two. I don’t believe the potential for each character can be reached by having the two of them achieve a happily ever after. I mean – what would happen? Sam and Leah go away to school. Come back to the Rez because they are both teachers and now they want to devote all of their time back to the kids. They get married. They have beautiful little russet children who run around the house with muddy feet. They grow old. They die.
Argh@@@ I’m doing it again.
Look. Sam and Leah for ME. And I push this. For ME can only be achieved by originality and heartache. I want Sam crying. I want Leah pushing him and slapping him. I want Emily to be some kind of a harpy bitch. I want to see what would happen without the imprint!!!
I want someone to prove me wrong!! I want someone to slap a Sam and Leah fic in my face and say HUH! This is it! This is the one that will change your small mind!
There is only one to date. ONE. That I would read over and over again in a heartbeat. It has now been taken down because I believe the author passed away but it was the single most beautiful, most meaningful, most REAL relationship I have ever seen from Sam and Leah.
But that’s just me. And I mean no offence to anyone liking this pairing. I know many people who loathe Leah’s character and calls it a waste of space. I know people who believe Seth and Renesmee should have ended up together (Aww Hell no *puts gloves on* He’s mine spawnet!!).
We like what we like. And no one should ever make you like something you don’t. My only advice, don’t block your options off. Try. And try again. Someone, somewhere, might one day surprise you. ;)
Nominations and Junk
Current - The Fandom Choice Awards - Wolf Pack Fanfiction Nominee 2014 - All Time Favorite Author - Vote Now (Closes 01/03/2014) Lots of great fics and authors to support and vote for. Check it out!
Nominated - 2010 GEM Awards - Best Lemon in 'No Longer Losing' - Jacob/Leah
Nominated - 2010 GEM Awards - Best Use of a Minor Character in ' No Bonds' - Leah/Brady/Colin