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Author has written 6 stories for Naruto.
Before you guys are shocked at my sudden long profile, I shall ensure you that I'll make sure my latest story gets updated soon and finished as fast as possible. Nope, I'm not on hiatus, nope, I'm not leaving ff.net. I'm just being really lazy and irresponsible... probably.
In the past, I usually update my fics, let's say... once a week? And I'm really proud and amazed at how I even managed to do such a thing.
Last time, I was excited in getting my chapters published everyday. I thought about how to continue my story, how to link some scenes together and how I'm going to develop those SasoSaku moments. But now, whenever I looked back at my stories, I felt like I'm a failure despite everyone's encouragement and support. Sometimes I tried really hard not to cringe at my writing styles, vocabulary, the way I write my sentences and how I portray the characters. It's really disappointing when I compare it with other SasoSaku stories. I don't have to say what story I'm referring to because I think it's quite obvious which are the ones I'm talking about. When I read their stories and compared it with mine, I felt like I really, really, really sucks.
You guys may ask me not to compare with others but I just couldn't help it. Back in the past, I always read ff.net and enjoyed every single one I read, but now whenever I read a story, I often felt demoralized when I came across fantastic and excellent stories and their skills is something I can never achieve.
Not just that. I've heard from many authors, or people in tumblr, saying that they dislike reading AUs because the characters in the stories are often OOC. Basically, I'm just using Sasori's and Sakura's name to depict the story, that's all. And when I looked back at my stories, I think I really did. To me, Sasori and Sakura are often out of character, doing something that they probably wouldn't do in their life if they are in character. Actually, I don't think I ever grasped their personalities and behavior perfectly and hence, I'm just creating a story with two of my original character, just that I'm calling the male lead Sasori and the female lead Sakura. It's really painful for me to admit this but I really think it's true.
Nope, I'm not going to delete these stories so you have nothing to worry about.
So what's the point of me typing out all these? I don't know. Last night, I've been thinking about this a lot and decided to just share my feelings with you guys. I don't know if anyone even come to my profile anymore but well...
I still love SasoSaku! Naruto the second of third anime I started to watch and SasoSaku it's like my first few OTPs that I have. I can still remember how I excitedly read and find images of them and something just snapped within me, thinking that I should contribute some effort to the fandom and write a SasoSaku story. Although my tumblr might prove otherwise, I still treasure that feeling when I first started this account and become what I have become today.
No matter how long or short your reviews/PMs are, I always hold them close to my heart. Thank you for spending that amount of time to give my support, feedback and encouragement no matter how small of big it is. I promise I'll update soon because I'm already almost done with teh chapter! Probably before Christmas, I'll have the latest chapter up by then.
Silkdreams on DA drew a couple of pages formade by Maj-chan for May I
:'D I seriously love you guys!
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