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Many years ago, a young woman read a book, then watched a movie, and then read many other books. She fell in love with vampires and the idea of family and friends. You see, this young woman didn’t have much in the form of a social life. After reading this book, she found others who loved it as much as she did. She read and read and read these people ideas of the future of the book. She fell in love again. This time it was the community with the book.

For years she found a home because of this book. She connected with people and found others who loved the books as much as she did. For a while, everything was perfect. She shared her ideas for these characters with others and then slowly began to put them in scenarios the books didn’t fit. She took away the vampires and made them people, and with those she’d connected with, found these people to be just as intriguing as the book that helped form them.

So, she continued to read.

And her relationships with the other people who enjoyed these books and characters grew. They became apart of her real life, which was sheltered and safe because she needed it to be that way. They became so real that she met them and talked to them. It was wonderful and amazing, and suddenly this young woman realized that these books gave her a gift. They gave her friends and they showed her a talent she hadn’t know about.

As she read she wrote, and then she fell in love again.

With herself.

Because of these books and these people, she found herself. She understood that she’s not normal, and that’s okay. Because no one is normal. Nothing is normal.

Normal is what you make it.

So this young woman who fell in love with a book, found friends, and found herself eventually came to a crossroads. She could keep half of herself in the fantasy world she’d created or she could truly realize who she is. She thought she could do both because of the community she’d found. And she did for some time.

But then the young woman’s life changed once again. The talent she’d found because of the book she loved led her to meeting her favorite young man. He was not in this community, but held a spot in another. As her life combined the two, she thought she could have it all.

But then, she realized she’d fallen out of touch with the friends and community she’d found because of the book she loved.

She wanted to badly to have it all. To keep the fantasy, live the reality, and morph them together. For some it works, but for others, like this young woman, it became a choice. Where does her time go? To the talent she’d found, to the young man she loved, or to the community she’d joined?

The choice was difficult, so she put it in the hands of the community. If they chose her, she’d chose them. But they didn’t. She’d already lost her place as she struggled with her choice. She was devastated, but she knew it only meant one thing. Her choice was made.

She chose the man.

And she chose to leave the fantasy behind.

But she’ll never forget how she came to be, and for that, she’ll always be thankful.

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Before the Dawn by BookwormBaby2580 reviews
After her mother's wedding in Mexico, Bella encounters a vampire with less altruistic motives than the those held by the vampires she might have met in Forks under drastically different circumstances. One bad decision, she discovers, can change her entire life. AU E/B
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Horror/Romance - Chapters: 33 - Words: 245,554 - Reviews: 1947 - Favs: 1,242 - Follows: 1,714 - Updated: 1/3 - Published: 3/12/2012 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Normality by xXHiddenSecretXx reviews
"I'm not normal." I don't even realise I've said the words out loud at first. Those words that often worm their way through my mind, that have been instilled into me from birth by Mother. His words shock me. "And what defines normal for you?"
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 22 - Words: 72,888 - Reviews: 617 - Favs: 546 - Follows: 865 - Updated: 7/25/2016 - Published: 7/22/2012 - Bella, Edward
Thicker Than Blood by JD909626 reviews
Dr. Cullen waits 30 years to find the woman of his dreams and is immediately besotted. Will his instant attraction mean anything if he meets said woman as his patient at an inner city abortion clinic? Can he help his girl and still protect his heart?
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 27 - Words: 171,823 - Reviews: 2502 - Favs: 2,365 - Follows: 2,638 - Updated: 4/23/2016 - Published: 10/13/2010 - Edward, Bella
Wisp by Cris reviews
Edward wins more than he bargained for at what was supposed to be a friendly poker game. AH. Ysar made me my banner!
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Drama - Chapters: 68 - Words: 325,802 - Reviews: 14214 - Favs: 5,899 - Follows: 6,644 - Updated: 12/9/2015 - Published: 4/22/2012 - Bella, Edward - Complete
The Missing by myonlyheroin reviews
I've made mistakes. I have regrets, so many regrets. The biggest one being leaving her, losing her. But I will find her, even if I have to climb through Hell to do so. ExB Vamp NM AU Epov
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 29 - Words: 48,623 - Reviews: 1102 - Favs: 374 - Follows: 365 - Updated: 7/12/2015 - Published: 11/9/2013 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Perfect Love by kr2009 reviews
All human story of Carlisle and Esme finding each other again after being separated for eight years. Contains their romance and the building of their family. Heaps of sweet fluff, no angst.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 82 - Words: 539,592 - Reviews: 1258 - Favs: 277 - Follows: 269 - Updated: 6/27/2015 - Published: 6/11/2010 - Carlisle, Esme
Theories of Bellativity by kikki7 reviews
Bella Swan is a physician assistant student trying to survive a grueling clinical year. Add Dr. Edward Cullen, a cocky, irresistible ob/gyn resident. Throw in some chocolate, sprinkle with a few of Bella's quirky theories about life, and see what happens.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 31 - Words: 120,217 - Reviews: 5018 - Favs: 5,374 - Follows: 6,647 - Updated: 2/15/2015 - Published: 4/23/2011 - Bella, Edward
Where We Belong by MelissaMargaret reviews
As her sister's wedding approaches, Esme is forced to face things she never thought she would, while learning that old habits die hard, and some secrets can never be kept.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Family/Drama - Chapters: 12 - Words: 50,036 - Reviews: 150 - Favs: 63 - Follows: 84 - Updated: 10/30/2014 - Published: 12/11/2011 - Carlisle, Esme
Life's Big Surprises by miairii reviews
Bella always knew exactly what she wanted, but an unexpected discovery throws her entire life off track. She thought she had nothing to lose by spending the night with a beautiful stranger – she just didn't realize how much she had to gain.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 15 - Words: 26,855 - Reviews: 175 - Favs: 314 - Follows: 524 - Updated: 2/1/2014 - Published: 9/15/2013 - Bella, Edward
Roses in Winter by WhisperingWolf reviews
Everyone has a secret that they try to hide, some are just better at it than others. For Angela, that secret was being alone. As FF does not leave much room a proper summary, the first piece of this story is the full summary with warnings.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Family - Chapters: 78 - Words: 654,263 - Reviews: 829 - Favs: 258 - Follows: 269 - Updated: 1/12/2014 - Published: 5/24/2012 - Angela, Carlisle, Esme, Emmett
The Cost of Keeping The Secret by Clarity's Illusions reviews
When a simple robbery goes bad, Bella and Carlisle are caught up in a dangerous hostage situation. As the minutes tick by, the gunman's temper grows volatile. A bullet won't physically harm Carlisle – but it would mean exposure for the Cullens. Bella won't let that happen, no matter what it takes to prevent it. Even if it means losing Edward all over again. COMPLETE! SEQUEL COMING!
Twilight - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Family - Chapters: 17 - Words: 17,955 - Reviews: 238 - Favs: 252 - Follows: 223 - Updated: 10/26/2013 - Published: 3/22/2013 - Carlisle, Bella - Complete
Dear Maggie by Jenny0719 reviews
A heart leads Bella back home to Forks... and to the brother of the woman who donated it.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 41 - Words: 228,176 - Reviews: 5473 - Favs: 4,123 - Follows: 3,080 - Updated: 10/14/2013 - Published: 7/14/2011 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Mistaken Trust by TheHiddenMemory reviews
When faced with a betrayal that could tear them apart, Edward and Bella must put their faith in the healing power of love. WARNING: this story deals with rape and its aftermath. Post-Eclipse, AU
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 29 - Words: 178,182 - Reviews: 1320 - Favs: 967 - Follows: 954 - Updated: 10/6/2013 - Published: 1/9/2010 - Bella, Edward
Talk Nerdy to Me by MelissaMargaret reviews
When brilliant but shy Carlisle Cullen notices his beautiful, unattainable classmate is failing he'll do anything to help her get back on track. What secrets will he learn about this mystery girl, and what will it mean for their future?
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 32 - Words: 54,269 - Reviews: 549 - Favs: 198 - Follows: 98 - Updated: 8/31/2013 - Published: 8/1/2011 - Carlisle, Esme - Complete
Prelude in C by AllTheOtherNamesAreUsed reviews
Carlisle Cullen had experienced a long existence of isolation & facade, but the final wish of a dying woman sets him on a path to end his solitude forever. Canon. Carlisle x Esme, Edward. Winner of 2012 "Sunflower Award" & 2011 Vampie "Bloody Brilliant".
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Family - Chapters: 37 - Words: 243,604 - Reviews: 1045 - Favs: 323 - Follows: 249 - Updated: 8/26/2013 - Published: 8/19/2010 - Carlisle - Complete
Marley's Mother by Pandora's Box Is Heavy reviews
Marley was a gift to me that not everyone gets. She was my life, my everything. But a letter changed things the day it came. And now it seems that Marley may not have been theirs to give, nor mine to receive..
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Family - Chapters: 26 - Words: 40,843 - Reviews: 4472 - Favs: 3,205 - Follows: 2,857 - Updated: 8/23/2013 - Published: 1/30/2013 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Accidentally in Love by Missus T reviews
A personal ad for a fake fiancée leads to something they never expected. Two lonely souls discover that faking it might be the best thing that ever happened to them. ExB AH
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 32 - Words: 134,493 - Reviews: 4700 - Favs: 4,902 - Follows: 4,137 - Updated: 5/31/2013 - Published: 1/27/2012 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Dark Paradise by darkNnerdy reviews
He's cruel, unfeeling, and a monster. She wants to know why, and all he wants is her. Written for PandorasFF.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Suspense/Crime - Chapters: 8 - Words: 13,786 - Reviews: 768 - Favs: 645 - Follows: 492 - Updated: 4/22/2013 - Published: 4/16/2013 - Bella, Edward - Complete
A Family for Alice by kr2009 reviews
Being parents wasn't the top item on Carlisle and Esme's to-do list. But when a little girl in Esme's kindergarten class needs a home, can the young couple be everything she needs? AH.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 32 - Words: 58,901 - Reviews: 539 - Favs: 350 - Follows: 169 - Updated: 4/1/2013 - Published: 4/1/2012 - Carlisle, Esme - Complete
Heart-Shaped Box by landdownunder reviews
Bella Swan has a tight bond with her sisters, a generous and loving father, and the beginnings of a great career. Grief and forced self discovery weren't supposed to be part of the package. A raw exploration of letting in love amongst loss. AH. Canon couples.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Family - Chapters: 47 - Words: 47,900 - Reviews: 1031 - Favs: 409 - Follows: 256 - Updated: 2/27/2013 - Published: 4/1/2010 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Original Sin by BookwormBaby2580 reviews
What makes a man irredeemable? USC student Bella Swan finds herself asking that question when she gets involved with the sexy, yet tight-lipped Dr. Carlisle Cullen, a man living in a self-imposed purgatory for the undisclosed sins of his past.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 29 - Words: 151,716 - Reviews: 1306 - Favs: 1,080 - Follows: 617 - Updated: 2/9/2013 - Published: 9/16/2011 - Bella, Carlisle - Complete
Nobody's Little Girl by HelloElla reviews
A billionaire couple searches for their long lost daughter. A lonely, troubled young man finds and gives refuge to a homeless girl with no name. Paths are crossed and hearts are given, but you can't keep what was never yours.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 30 - Words: 114,863 - Reviews: 5876 - Favs: 4,752 - Follows: 3,690 - Updated: 1/29/2013 - Published: 4/13/2012 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Hit By Destiny by ocdmess reviews
Bella wants to die, and almost gets her wish fulfilled when she gets hit by a shiny Volvo. She is left with serious injuries, and the only thing keeping her from dying is the person who hit her. All Human, Rated M for language, dark themes & violence.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 59 - Words: 463,685 - Reviews: 20307 - Favs: 12,374 - Follows: 7,072 - Updated: 11/29/2012 - Published: 10/24/2009 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Sweet Caroline by kr2009 reviews
The last patient of the day turns out to be more than pediatrician Edward Cullen bargained for. But how can he resist sweet Caroline and her beautiful mother? AH. Doctorward with a cute kid for anhanninen's birthday.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 12,810 - Reviews: 69 - Favs: 419 - Follows: 127 - Published: 9/12/2012 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Any Way the Wind Blows by Miss Baby reviews
When fate brings a jaded young doctor to the small town of Forks, he expects nothing out of his stay but a shot at redemption. Little does he know that a new patient and a mysterious young woman will turn his exile into the experience of a lifetime.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 31 - Words: 192,435 - Reviews: 1241 - Favs: 924 - Follows: 751 - Updated: 8/15/2012 - Published: 12/19/2011 - Edward, Bella - Complete
A Street With No End by ExquisiteEdward reviews
One night, Dr. Cullen's life becomes painfully entangled with a woman whose world he alters forever. What lengths will he go to in search of redemption? Or can the redemption he so desperately seeks be found within himself? AH.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 14,406 - Reviews: 301 - Favs: 289 - Follows: 489 - Updated: 8/15/2012 - Published: 5/19/2012 - Edward, Bella
Written in the Stars by Lissa Bryan reviews
Edward is king of a dying race, his planet torn by civil war. Bella is abducted to become his bride. From college student to Queen... Can she learn to love this strange man and help save his people? AU/OOC, Rated M
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Sci-Fi - Chapters: 33 - Words: 167,029 - Reviews: 8002 - Favs: 9,738 - Follows: 3,884 - Updated: 7/21/2012 - Published: 10/28/2011 - Edward, Bella - Complete
House Rules by Morgan Locklear reviews
Edward enjoys his life as a cat. It's simple, pleasant and orderly. But when Bella arrives he must teach her the way of things, and in the process discovers that he has a lot to learn.
Twilight - Rated: T - English - Humor/Adventure - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,926 - Reviews: 55 - Favs: 126 - Follows: 50 - Published: 6/24/2012 - Edward, Bella - Complete
For All Eternity by Zoya Zalan reviews
All of the Cullens are married to one another by virtue of coven tradition, a premise first introduced in the story First Night. This is an exploration of this unique coven dynamic, told from C's & B's POV. Carlisle/Bella included, but not exclusive.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 7 - Words: 25,198 - Reviews: 343 - Favs: 541 - Follows: 633 - Updated: 6/14/2012 - Published: 1/2/2011 - Carlisle, Bella
Love Comes Last by itsyblue1214 reviews
Edward showed an interest in science and medicine from a young age, Carlisle uses this to mold Edward into the man he wants him to be. Bella secretly loves Edward, what happens when Edward needs Bella to fulfill a life long dream.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 24 - Words: 139,523 - Reviews: 1486 - Favs: 1,981 - Follows: 1,191 - Updated: 4/26/2012 - Published: 7/13/2010 - Edward, Bella - Complete
Sparkles in the Pavement by Mackenzie L reviews
No one ever had to tell Renesmee that she was special. She just knew. — A sweet series of mundanely momentous events in the life of a child.
Twilight - Rated: K+ - English - Family - Chapters: 9 - Words: 27,847 - Reviews: 281 - Favs: 137 - Follows: 118 - Updated: 3/26/2012 - Published: 8/3/2010 - [Carlisle, Esme] Renesmee C./Nessie
Don't Think Twice by MelissaMargaret reviews
The day she signed her contract with him, he promised to always take care of her. It is the one thing at which he knows he will never fail. C/Es. AH. One-shot. Petplay. Kink is the phrase of the day.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Fantasy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,728 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 24 - Follows: 6 - Published: 2/14/2012 - Carlisle, Esme - Complete
Contextually Speaking by cosmogirl7481 reviews
Bella spends her days surrounded by books and her nights immersed in them. Reading but not living. Imagining but not experiencing. One night changes everything. A story about wrong numbers and a stranger with all the right words.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 21 - Words: 15,797 - Reviews: 3176 - Favs: 2,278 - Follows: 1,074 - Published: 2/8/2012 - Bella, Edward - Complete
The Departure by Malianani reviews
Carlisle feared it might happen again, and now it has. Edward must leave Forks, and Carlisle must find the strength to let him go. A gap filler for Midnight Sun. O/S Canon.
Twilight - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,628 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 31 - Follows: 10 - Published: 10/19/2011 - Carlisle, Edward - Complete
Le Mascherata by MelissaMargaret reviews
For months he watched her from afar, waiting for the night she would finally be his. Will she be able to see past the monster to the true man inside? A different kind of fairytale. AU. OOC. Darklisle. Bloodplay. 2nd place winner Summer Citrus Contest.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,167 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 37 - Follows: 12 - Published: 7/8/2011 - Carlisle, Esme - Complete
Take This Heart by BookwormBaby2580 reviews
Bella's life is a constant choice between bad and worse until she moves to Forks and meets the one man who can ease her burdens. But trust doesn't always come easily, especially when life has taught you that you're safer on your own. M for abuse and sex.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 111 - Words: 395,836 - Reviews: 4397 - Favs: 2,032 - Follows: 870 - Updated: 5/16/2011 - Published: 10/9/2010 - Carlisle, Bella - Complete
New Perfect by catharticone reviews
After a midnight mishap, Bella needs Carlisle's compassionate wisdom to heal fully from the events of the previous months.
Twilight - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Family - Chapters: 2 - Words: 5,636 - Reviews: 48 - Favs: 184 - Follows: 42 - Updated: 4/2/2011 - Published: 4/1/2011 - Bella, Carlisle - Complete
The Ransom of Little Deer by Blueroan reviews
Billy Black and his father were not the first Native Peoples Carlisle Cullen had come in contact with since coming to America. That noble honor belonged to Little Deer and he would never forget her or her courage. pre-Twilight, set in 1810, Carlisle's POV
Twilight - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Drama - Chapters: 50 - Words: 145,094 - Reviews: 188 - Favs: 51 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 2/28/2011 - Published: 10/1/2009 - Carlisle - Complete
You are, The Only Exception by Holly1980 reviews
What if Carlisle had never changed Edward or Esme, which would have resulted in never changing Rosalie or Emmett? What if when Bella came to Forks, it was him that she wanted? AU Bella/Carlisle M for lemons
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Supernatural - Chapters: 18 - Words: 81,113 - Reviews: 1203 - Favs: 1,464 - Follows: 609 - Updated: 12/29/2010 - Published: 11/1/2010 - Bella, Carlisle - Complete
Thorns by Marrabelle reviews
A temporary placement with the Cullen family proves to be Rosalie Hale's worst nightmare. They're too good to be true & she only LOOKS like an angel! Will this be a match made in Heaven or the summer from Hell? AH/AU CxEs & kids *Rated T/M:Abuse&Language
Twilight - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Family - Chapters: 35 - Words: 189,708 - Reviews: 862 - Favs: 240 - Follows: 133 - Updated: 11/1/2010 - Published: 2/15/2010 - Rosalie, Emmett - Complete
Da Capo by giselle-lx reviews
When Edward returns from his rebellious years, he finds everything has changed—including him. This is the story of Edward's "Da Capo:" 'return to the beginning.' Pre-Twilight canon, EPOV 3rd person.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Drama - Chapters: 4 - Words: 18,093 - Reviews: 179 - Favs: 154 - Follows: 47 - Updated: 3/18/2010 - Published: 2/25/2010 - Edward - Complete
Blackbird Fly by paramorebrighter reviews
AH/AU- Bella is a fractured girl with a life-threatening eating disorder. Her whole life changes when she meets Edward Masen. Warning- child abuse and dark themes. Reposted.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 30 - Words: 103,093 - Reviews: 210 - Favs: 418 - Follows: 148 - Updated: 1/28/2010 - Published: 1/15/2010 - Bella, Edward - Complete
Only Human by catharticone reviews
Esme and Carlisle ask to see Bella shortly after her return from Italy. Have they have changed their minds about welcoming her into their family?
Twilight - Rated: K+ - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 5 - Words: 6,109 - Reviews: 106 - Favs: 319 - Follows: 83 - Updated: 1/19/2010 - Published: 1/15/2010 - Bella, Carlisle - Complete
A Light in the Darkness by SweetT129 reviews
The battle with Victoria and the newborns takes a tragic turn and five lives are lost. This is the story of how Bella and the other survivors learn how to live and love again.
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 46 - Words: 145,757 - Reviews: 1459 - Favs: 1,436 - Follows: 374 - Updated: 1/17/2010 - Published: 5/11/2009 - Bella, Carlisle - Complete
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