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I'm a versatile writer but I have volatile interests. As can be seen from my profile, I can be so interested in a story and pairing that I'd flood my profile with it but then lose interest altogether. I lose interest easily, hence my many incomplete long stories.
However, it's possible for me to gain interest back. For instance, I became interested in Durarara!! again once I did my group project on it, and I was thus able to continue my Shizaya story again. Reviews of course helped a lot and I wouldn't have been able to do it without them.
The reason why I'm writing this is for those who read my stories and wonder why they're always abruptly stopped. So...this is the reason. It may not be a satisfying one, but it's the reason all the same.
That said, reviews do still motivate me, even when I've stopped the story, I'd feel a little motivation again to see what the hell I wrote since I read reviews from my email. Of course that's a far stretch from continuing it, but yeah.
So I'd like to take the time to apologize to those readers of my incomplete stories. I know it's irresponsible of me, but I'm just not very confident and an apology is all I can give right now. So I'm sorry. But thank you for your interest in my story, it means a lot to me. If you really want the story to be continued feel free to send me a message and we can talk. I'm quite bored nowadays.
For request of brokenstars123 whom I had the good fortune to come to know -
Izaya is INTJ. Introvert, IntuitioN, Thinking, Judging. INTJ is also known as The Scientist or the Mastermind. They have very intelligent minds and are one of the rarest types. They are excellent strategists, perfectionists, the "Man behind the Curtain". Like how Izaya says in the novel:
"Ahhh…I'll just stay out of the mosquito curtain."
And then later decides,
"It's about time I let them hear some annoying wing noises from outside of the mosquito curtain."
Ahhh, I don't know why, I adore that part, it's so, Izaya.
INTJ are natural leaders, but prefer to control things from the background. Planning and manipulating is their forte. Because INTJs know everything, they get bored easily. INTJ is the most common type for a villain because they see themselves above and more intelligent than everyone else. And so they see fit to control everyone else, to always be in control of the situation. For example Moriarty from Sherlock Holmes is an INTJ. INTJ have trouble dealing with emotions, and their weakness is romantic relationships. That's why Izaya sees himself as asexual. Izaya is a strange INTJ, 11% Introvert yet 100% Thinking (he's my favourite next to Shizuo so I took the test for him to be sure). Which means he barely Feels, or doesn't feel at all. He is as INTJ as an INTJ can be. Introvert (11%), INtuitive (88%), Thinking (100%) Judging (44%).
Shizuo may seem like ISTP – Introvert, Sensing, Thinking, Perceiving, because he is 'unpredictable' like an ISTP. But he is actually INTP – Introvert, IntuitioN, Thinking, Perceiving. He's not only a Thinker. He is the Thinker. The same type as Einstein. Now this may sound very contrary to the Shizu-chan we know. But this is the reason why Shizuo is so sharp and able to see through Izaya's plans. INTP have the most logically precise mind of all types, even more than INTJ. For those who read the novel, you'll know Shizuo is unusually, surprisingly smart, like when he ran away from the Awakusu-kai and how he easily figured out Izaya had framed him.
He even recognized Vorona out of her helmet despite never having seen her face and asked if he had met her somewhere before, which Vorona was alarmed by. But he brushed it off with his logic: "Never mind, it's probably just my brain making stuff up...you looked like you were hitting it off with Akane, and after all Simon introduced you so there's no way you can be a bad person." The way he said, 'just my brain making stuff up' makes it seem like his brain often makes stuff up he doesn't know comes from where but is curious about all the same. It's like he's used to random but ironically accurate ideas flooding into his mind from his brain. Which means he's smarter than he himself knows.
So he does have logic, Narita wrote something like 'his common sense very different from a normal human' or something like that at that scene where he was thinking how he couldn't kill Izaya on top of Sunshine 60 (after he climbed to the skydeck to escape from the Awakusu-kai) because it would trouble people.
Shizuo is also self-deprecating like an INTP, through little things like truly not knowing he's handsome (when Tom discussed with him about him lacking a girlfriend), and not believing he's worth people's trouble as seen by the incident where he stood on the rooftop of Sunshine 60. And bigger things like hating himself, not wanting anyone to love a monster like him. He wants to be loved, he's the one who wants to be loved the most – as can be seen from an interview of Shizuo's VA Daisuke Ono-
- Does that mean he actually wants to be loved more than anyone else?
-But he won't let anyone love him, or let himself love anyone because he's afraid of hurting them – (OnoD: He really wanted to constrain his power, but eventually it turned out that he couldn't. As a result, he becomes trapped in the conviction that nobody would ever love him.)he cares about them more than he does for himself. I would say this is because he doesn't understand himself, and INTP seek to understand themselves more than anything else. Shizuo even says to Celty -
“Really...why on earth did I turn out like this, then?"
Shizuo smiled in a self-torturous way. Looking into the imaginary abyss before his eyes, he raised the question in a lonesome voice.
"Why did I turn out like this? At least it wasn't my family. There was no childhood trauma I can think of. I never watched any violent anime or read violent manga. Didn't watch movies either. So that leaves only myself, doesn't it? It's gotta be me, right?"
"I wanna grow strong..."
He said this in a tone that evoked sympathy, but was nevertheless powerful.
"If I'm the reason, I would never forgive myself of all people. I don't care how good I might be at fighting. I just want to be able to control my own power."
-Taken from Durarara! Novel Vol 2, Shizuo's past and conversation with Celty (portrayed in Episode 5)
"I guess it's okay to recognize my own existence now."
-Shizuo before his fight with Saika's children at South Ikebukuro Park (Episode 16)
To put it simply, Shizuo is a logical person who hates himself because his existence is illogical. Because of that, to me, he's a more complicated character than Izaya. Whether it was intentional or not, Narita created a character with the most logical personality type (INTP) and gave him an illogical existence. That's why Shizuo is a contradicting person himself – down to his name Heiwajima Shizuo (Quiet Man on a Peaceful Island) in contrast to his violent nature.
Sorry I just adore Shizuo, it's like I can take him apart, randomly mix up the scattered pieces and put them back together in the most random way and he'd still be as complex as he was before I dissected him – I don't know how to explain it and there'd still be parts of his character I still don't know even though I would have examined the scattered pieces. Ok now I sound like Shinra. But the thought behind his character is just genius. I'm guessing Narita has N in his personality (not just his name, ok lame joke I know). He has to have intuition in order to create such complex characters because it requires imagination. Probably an introvert too. He could be an INFJ….or maybe he's an INTP like Shizuo. Or perhaps INTJ like Izaya.
Anyway Shizuo is a more complicated character than he seems. He's completely honest yet people still can't figure him out. I find it harder to understand Shizuo than Izaya – Izaya lies all the time so it's kind of obvious when he isn't lying. Shizuo is honest, but it's like you have to understand how his brain works before you can understand him – and then understand how his brain works relates to the thoughts produced in his mind. And if you understand his brain wrongly your understanding of his mind will be wrong too.
Hm Shizuo is kind of like the 'perfect guy' isn't he? Shizu-chan's strong and tall and manly and handsome – the ideal guy. And then he's also honest, kind at heart, loyal, protective over those he cares about, and then now he's smart. Apparently. Perfect Guy indeed. Like in shojo manga where the guy is perfect and the girl is either ordinary or second to the guy and doesn't really match up to him or 'deserve' him. Does this mean Izaya is Shizuo's Heroine? Lol.
Oh but Izaya is complicated too of course. The way his mind works and just the way he talks, really. He's not that much of an introvert (11%) despite gaining energy from introversion yet his intuition (88%) is almost as high as his Thinking (100%) Which is why Shizuo and Izaya together is so interesting, isn't it? They're both complicated individuals. And their personalities don't match well at all.
Yet despite being INTJ and INTP, they are the key to each other's understanding of themselves. Because they defy each other's logic: For Shizuo, Izaya is not afraid of him like everyone else even though he never held back on him and he doesn't understand why and for Izaya, Shizuo is the only person he can't control and make use of and can't predict. But because they are an exception to each other, they can try to understand themselves through each other. Shizuo can try to understand himself when he sees Izaya isn't afraid of him and think about his own reactions and Izaya can for once look at himself and be honest about why he's so annoyed by being unable to control Shizuo – bias and 'monster' aside, perhaps he has indeed finally found an intellectual equal?
The basis of Shizaya is as it says - 'Shi'zuo; I find Shizaya consists more of a relationship and development than Izuo (which is mostly sex and rather dark) since it's Shizuo who truly wants a relationship, to love and be loved. It's Shizuo who pays Izaya the attention he wants, until Izaya lets go and shows his true emotions. And that's when we see Izaya.
And this is why I greatly support them together. In fact, I could go as far as to say it's a waste if they don't get together, even if it's just as cordial acquaintances or friends. They're a more unique pair than they seem. Despite being of conflicting personalities, they can help each other discover about themselves what they wouldn't have discovered with any other person or alone otherwise – and isn't that the crux of any good, lasting relationship?
Of course this can't be done if Shizuo is considered as merely the brute he seems to be because he's deeper than that. A lot of people don't consider Shizuo to actually have intelligence, whether they're Shizaya writers or not (yes this included me in the past….) and so it's hard to find a realistic Shizaya. Ah well, I enjoy the cute ones anyway. Whether they're IC or OOC, there's something about Shizuo and Izaya that makes me smile. :)
Back to the point - INTP have one of the greatest intellectual potential (maybe even more than INTJ, sorry Izaya) but they're abnormal, and they have low confidence, unlike INTJ. But when there's something they're interested in, they will be able to create something life-changing. Einstein, Newton (lol I'm in a lecture and Physics lecturer just said Newton almost 'clobbered Robert Hooke to death' because he disagreed with his F = -kx theory) and Charles Darwin who created the Theory of Evolution are all INTP.
Shizuo is INTP, right down to the way he can tell when someone is lying but can't lie since INTP are honest and straightforward, and even his bartender suit, INTP don't care about clothing much. Shizuo is also temperamental, which is a trait of INTP – I guess it’s because INTP want to understand themselves but often times they get confused in their own complex mind? Personality Page says,
(They usually have complex characters, and may tend to be restless and temperamental. They are strongly ingenious, and have unconventional thought patterns which allows them to analyze ideas in new ways.)
Shizuo's personality is also why Izaya pisses him off so much – he doesn't understand Izaya, and so he's very rigid when he decides he hates him and nothing and no one can change his mind when he gets an idea (no matter how illogical it seems to other people because they don't understand his logic), except himself.
And Izaya knows this – that Shizuo is more intelligent than he seems – subconsciously. Subconsciously he knows Shizuo is intelligent but doesn't want to acknowledge since he is biased against the 'monster' –
"...Really...why so sharp, when you've got such a protozoic brain?"
It was a smile resting somewhere between unsettled and pleased.
"That - is why I hate you so much, Shizu-chan."
-Taken from Durarara! Volume 2 snippet (when Shizuo came to confront Izaya about the Slasher incident, episode 16)
That's possibly why Izaya said in the interview in both the anime and manga –
"I don't even wanna talk about him...for me, it's enough to just have to know about him."
"But please, let me do my job...?"
"The only reason I want to know his information is that he is a pain to deal with. But that is enough to piss the heck out of me..."
-From the snippet of Izaya's interview in the novel (Episode 15)
Why would Izaya need to have information on Shizuo if he wasn't a threat?
If Izaya's mind is a chessboard, Shizuo's brain is like a clockwork, constantly churning out new ideas. His mind is always working, even when he seems peaceful and calm. His mind is actually very logical.
Shizuo's Thinking is 88%. He also doesn't deal with emotion well, he can't really recognize them. But unlike Izaya, he can be very passionate in romantic relationships, when he does find his one. He would be straightforward, but sincere. And he would be loyal.
INTJ and INTP either conflict greatly because they don't understand each other's logic, or fit together well because they have someone intelligent like them to discuss their theories with. Because of their intelligence and weird behaviour, they're both outcasts. I guess this is why Shizaya fascinates so many people so much – it's two of the smartest personalities together. They're smart in their own way. Even just seeing them interact is interesting. They're not each other's best match, but they challenge each other in not only physical, but mental. According to Narita -
"When I first designed this character, I was like "It would be kinda boring if he's just the know-it-all and unbeatable type. Why not I also make him a natural enemy of sorts" and that's how Shizuo came into being."
-Narita Ryohgo's Interview for Durarara! Vol 1
I think Simon hit the bullseye in the anime when he said –
"Simon, I told you I truly love people."
"Don't try to trick me with that logic. In reality, you just don't want to lose to Shizuo, right? You just have a Shizuo complex don't you?"
Izaya laughs with an almost defeated look in his eyes*
"You don't realize just how much those around you can tell what you're thinking."
"...Simon, you seem like a totally different person when you speak Russian."
-Durarara! Episode 24
As for the Shizaya fan – Karisawa Erika – she's an ENTP. Extrovert, IntuitioN, Thinking, Perceiving. ENTP may seem lackadaisical and blur and maybe even dumb, but they're actually very clever. They are the type that can see the connections between things the fastest, and their mind jumps from one idea to another so when they talk, most people can't grasp their ideas as quickly. Like INTJ, they get bored easily and have to find things to do. ENTP love to argue, whether they believe in what they're arguing or not, they see it as entertainment. They argue for the sake of arguing, not for the sake of emotional fulfilment. There's an ENTP saying, "It's not personal. You're just having a retarded emotional reaction."
That's why Erika's attitude can drastically change – she can be flamboyant and fun loving, but she can be very serious and merciless such as the scene where she tells Kida of the similarity between imagination and reality and that the incident with the Yellow Scarves and Blue Squares 'didn't happen'. It's an idea she truly believes in –
"For us, the world of fiction is a playground that is just as important as reality."
"Fiction and reality are equally valuable, so it's not like we hate reality."
While talking to Masaomi who snapped -
"You already are angry, aren't you? Besides, Yumacchi got angry before you did. So you're even. Just like how you're angry about what happened to your girlfriend, some people are angry that others say the Slasher is colluding with the Dollars. If you don't think we're all even based on that, then you shouldn't have brought up the topic."
Pause in which she drinks tea*
"It's true that we have some debts to pay. If you who ran away – unlike Dotachin, who saved Saki-chan, want to bring up the past again, we're going to dispel that past from this world by saying that it was a product of our imaginations."
-Durarara! Episode 20
Erika is being sarcastic and calm and serious and dismissive at the same time. As an ENTP, she has no emotional attachment to the argument she's making – she merely considers Masaomi's emotional reaction superfluous and unnecessary. Masaomi is also a Thinker, thus he understood and forced himself to calm down.
"Reality is such a pain. Those of us who were fed up with that kind of reality decided to remake it. We'd set up a wall, separate what's important to us from what was trash, put only the things we loved on our side, and got rid of the rest."
"It wasn't that bad once we started! We found that we could make a world completely of moe, tsundere and boys' love!"
Cue BL manga of two guys who look like Shizuo and Izaya, but with red and blue hair*
-Durarara! Episode 20
So, who knows? Shizaya – Shizuo and Izaya together or having romantic feelings towards each other might be real, according to ex-assassin (?) Karisawa Erika. She probably considers it her reality.
-Moving on. I should cut down on the words huh.
Erika's partner Yumasaki Walker is an INTJ – I think. Same as Izaya. He's definitely an introvert for while Karisawa can randomly go up to people like Anri and make friends with them, he was shown to be depressed without Karisawa. I'm not sure because I don't know him well. But the reason why I think he's an INTJ is 'cause of his mysterious air – and because when Kadota (the leader) was hospitalized, he finally took charge to get revenge. He's also always smiling, it's almost like a smiling mask, instead of a curtain (in the case of Izaya) he seems to hide behind a mask. And because he gets along well with Erika – INTJ and ENTP are good friends it seems. Maybe even the preferred pair in romance. Yes Izaya would match up well with the girl who ships him with Shizuo (who's only one letter away from him)….lol. The irony.
Kadota is ESTJ. Extrovert, Sensing, Thinking, Judging. He's a Thinker 'cause he can confront Kida on his running away from his past without sympathy, and he's harsh towards Izaya. He's quiet and is exasperated with the Otaku duo, but he's able to communicate well with people, I'm guessing he's an extrovert because he gets his energy from being around people. ESTJ are dedicated and responsible and are great leaders because they can see what is acceptable and what is not. They're also known as model citizens. Well, Kadota does seem fixed on keeping order and he disapproves of Izaya's actions greatly, even going so far as to call him out on it back in Raijin High and making Izaya describe him as the Light Boss. And he took on Chikage's challenge as if he was responsible for the Dollars.
Vorona is ISTJ. Introvert. Sensing. Thinking. Judging. She's a stickler to the rules and is cold and mostly emotionless. ISTJ are very direct – the truth is more important. They give harsh judgement – for example, Levi from Shingeki no Kyojin is an ISTJ. They can't really comprehend emotions, and can keep a cool head in heated situations. ISTJ think they're always right because of their confidence (for example Vorona's confidence in her information she's gathered since childhood, come to think of it she and Izaya are similar in that way no wonder they're both interested in Shizuo?). This is also probably why Vorona is unusually shocked by Shizuo’s strength, which makes no sense to her.
They don't have many people close to them, but for the ones who are, ISTJ will be extremely loyal and trustworthy. I'm guessing it's what Shizuo is to Vorona – there's a part in the wiki which describes how Izaya says their relationship is like between Kadota and Erika and Yumasaki; he saved them from darkness just like how Shizuo ‘saved’ Vorona. And how Vorona can't be 'excited' by anyone other than Shizuo – Shizuo is her only worthiest opponent, and maybe something else for her? Well I think it's mostly excitement from battling, referring to the kind of 'excitement' she felt when she thought she could kill The Black Motorbike. Interestingly, ISTJ is the worst match for INTJ; maybe that's why Izaya and Vorona conflicted and Izaya was exceptionally annoyed. Vorona has 100% Thinking, like Izaya. Assuming I knew her well enough…
Namie is also ISTJ. However, her Thinking is 88%. I'm guessing she doesn't care to understand Izaya because of his INTJ personality. He's like the ultimate rule breaker who causes chaos and Namie sticks to society's rules (excluding her love for Seiji) but more importantly, wants order (she was the chief of Yagiri Pharmaceuticals) and stability. Although Namie defies tradition and rules by loving her brother, she loves him deeply, showing her loyal side. She also thinks she's always right, "I'm not like other humans. My love is the greatest." – and won't let anyone tell her otherwise. Which is why she doesn't react really emotionally to Izaya's taunts. And why she says such blunt things to him and insults him all the time and doesn't really care about his feelings or reaction.
Tom is INFJ – Introvert, Intuition, Feeling, Judging. He's definitely a Feeler because he can sympathize with someone abnormal like Shizuo. He might seem like an extrovert with his easy communication, but he isn't bothered by being alone (when Shizuo leaves to chase Izaya at the time when Vorona wasn't there) and he isn't bothered by Shizuo's quiet nature either. INFJ are drawn to helping those in need, like Tom to Shizuo, and take care of others' feelings well. They have both idealism and decisiveness. INFJ have a kind of intuition of others’ feelings even they themselves can’t understand. That’s why Tom understands Shizuo’s feelings so well, thus Shizuo doesn’t get pissed off by him. However, INFJ can't handle conflict well, maybe that's why Tom always tries to calm Shizuo down. Despite this, they have strong opinions and will fight for something they truly believe in. As an INFJ, Tom is part of the rarest personality type (less than 1% of the population).
As for Celty and Shinra, they're INFP and ISFP. INFP see the good in everyone and sometimes feel dejected because of all the negative things happening. So they try to create something good. Like how Celty sees the good in Shizuo and appreciates him for who he is unlike others. Mikado is probably also an INFP, he sees good in a horrible person like Izaya and is always saying he isn't so bad.
As for Boss!Kado, because of the situation, Mikado is probably leaning towards his J side so he seems more INFJ – idealistic yet decisive and wanting to get rid of everything bad for he believes the world would be a better place without those bad people. Yes, I believe Tom has that side too – or he wouldn't be as judgmental towards Izaya when he's fair towards people like Shizuo. And he wouldn't be a debt collector. And he would have been more sympathetic to the Killer Monster and the Killing Machine whom Shizuo sent flying -
"You need to be more careful, bartender suits are more dangerous than red lights in this town...though that warning came too late for you anyway."
The male turned around after he had finished talking to the man who might or might not have been conscious.
"All right, he kind of overdid it. Guess I owe you an apology so I won't call the police. Don't hate me for this. Also, if you enjoy being alive, you'd better not hate that guy in the bartender suit either."
From the corner of his eye he looked back at the zombie-faced figure whose eyes only had their whites showing, and ended up saying these words while waving goodbye:
"Um, how should I put this...well...this is how this city's like. Enjoy yourselves the best you can."
"Welcome to Ikebukuro, my two grand-looking and utterly luckless guests."
-From Durarara! novel Volume 4 Prologue
Shinra is an ISFP. Surprisingly, he's not a Thinker like Shizuo and Izaya. He's a special kind of Feeler. ISFP live completely in the present, and are the ultimate free souls, they create their own rules because they see rules like those of society as self-limiting. This would also explain why Izaya is envious of Shinra – he can feel yet he's free. ISFP love to experiment and come up with new ideas. Yet as an ISFP, Shinra can connect well with others - even people like Shizuo (INTP) and Izaya (INTJ). He can sense a change in others' emotional state, like Celty when he can't even see her face.
But because Shinra is 'goal-driven, and shapes (his) internal principles and rules around those goals', he feels no guilt at all when he hides Celty's head to keep her with him. And that's why he becomes 'ego-centric' and 'conniving' – such bad traits don't matter to him as long as he reaches his goal.
Right I think that's mostly all. I'd talk about Kida and Anri but it'll be even longer than it is. Along with them, people like Shiki, Akabayashi, Saki, Simon, Akane, Aoba, Mika and Seiji and Chikage I'll leave the guesswork to you :)
Of course just because a character is one personality doesn’t mean that’s all there is to them. Shizuo may be an INTP but he’s not just an INTP – he’s still who he is, Heiwajima Shizuo – conflicting yet endearing. Izaya is like the model INTJ to the extent of being the man behind the curtain but he’s still Orihara Izaya. A unique character on his own.
Yet, knowing the personality type helps us understand more about the characters, don’t you think? Through understanding their minds and hearts.
But I think this is one of the reasons why Durarara! is such an interesting and unique show and novel. It's a story about introverts, and how they do more than extroverts. Majority of people in Durarara! are introverts. Narita always describes Ikebukuro in the novel as 'a peaceful city' even though it's not peaceful at all. My guess is he's trying to say it's peaceful as long as the introverts stay introverts and don't take action. Shizuo, Izaya, Mikado, Anri, Celty, Vorona, Namie, Shinra are all introverts. They get their energy from introversion. Haha. And there's no perfect pair, which usually consists of an Extrovert and Introvert, except maybe Erika and Yumasaki and Mika and Seiji.
But they're not the relationships which shine in the show. A natural relationship would be one between an Extrovert and Introvert, every Introvert has their perfect Extrovert partner to balance them out. But Durarara! is not about perfect, natural relationships and perfect love. And that's why Durarara! canon pairings are so interesting – we get to see how different types of introverts deal with each other in a romantic relationship. And because they're both introverts, it's sometimes hard for them to deal with each other despite how much they love each other.
And that's when the relationships become twisted. Narita wrote in the novel that Durarara! is a story about twisted relationships. I'm not sure if he was including Shizuo and Izaya – but it's interesting that he didn't say 'twisted love', so I would assume it to be so.
And Shizuo and Izaya, being the strongest, feared men of Ikebukuro yet also the smartest but loneliest introverts (INTP and INTJ) ; would be undeniably fitting in the context of Durarara! relationships – romantic or not. That's why they're so believable as a couple despite not being canon. They have the most twisted relationship in the entire Durarara! universe.
As of 17/7/12, all of my Digimon stories are on hiatus except my new fic, Another World and the Taichi's POV Taito fic, Unknown. Any plausible new fics is a different story. For more details, please check out my Author's Note in Desire; the latest chapter. Thank you everyone who has supported me and my stories, and do support Unknown and Another World as well :)
Alright...I'm not quite sure what to write here. I just felt I had to put something here other than all the links :/ Well i guess I shall start with my current interests.
I love writing, but that's obvious. But I also like to draw, though I'm not that good at it. I used to write poems in the past.
My interests differ and change, but currently I'm heavily interested in Full Metal Alchemist, the 2003 anime version. I didn't watch Brotherhood (except for the famous scenes and Episode 15). I also love X-Men First Class, You're Beautiful, which is the first and only Korean drama I've watched and loved. Others- I just find too cheesy and chock full of romance. I stayed clear away from Korean dramas, or dramas of any sort. Am still avoiding them like the plague. No offence to anyone who loves/likes them, you're entitled to your own opinion and I'm sure you have a good reason to genuinely enjoy them. But it's just not my cup of tea, give me anime anytime. Even though Secret Garden was amusing. Was really bored then.
Update: Right...man, I'm practically obsessed with Digimon now. Especially Taito. Full Metal Alchemist seems like a faraway dream like Gravitation was.
If you've been reading my stories, you'll notice they're all AU in some way, with one being a literal AU. That's 'cause I love tweaking situations and coming up with plots which will allow the characters to develop more :) Because when i read a story, what catches my attention first is always the characters. The people.
I love yaoi, but I don't like it when female characters/love interests are bashed in yaoi stories 'cause I feel they don't deserve such treatment...they're there in the show/manga for a reason. I believe good yaoi stories don't bash the female characters, unless they're supremely annoying without a good reason. Like being hurt, envious as a human, etc. Yes those are considered reasons to me...I used to hate anime girls who I felt were annoying when I was younger but now I can find reasons to genuinely like them. 'Cause they're people too. Of course if I said this in real life even my friends would give me weird looks so I'm sayin' it here.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to say here, so I guess I'll just skip all the boring talk and list down the customary pairings section...
Pairings I love:
Full Metal Alchemist: Edvy (Still love it after three/five? years), LingEnvy. (Linvy? I'm probably the only one who likes this pairing)
X-Men First Class: Cherik (They're So Canon), EmmettCharles. (Another pairing created by me...seems I'm not alone in the fandom though ;))
Gravitation: TatsuhaxRyuichi (I wrote a long, thoroughly planned out, genderbending fic for this pairing under another name. It wasn't very successful, hardly actually, but I really liked this pairing. Oh well.)
Katekyo Hitman Reborn: DinoHiba (Haven't written for this, yet)
You're Beautiful: Tae Kyung x Shin Woo (I wish I could finish To Choose a Path...maybe I will, one day.)
(Note: I know Digimon's kinda controversial with pairings and what's canon and what's not, so I'm just gonna say, I'm a Taito fan (obvious by my writings). If you're not a Taito fan you probably wouldn't even be here but just in case, it's better to not read the following if you're not a Taito fan. I'm addin' this 'cause this is my profile and it consists of my thoughts which consist of Taito and so I post it here ;))
Digimon Adventure: Taito (Taichi x Yamato) I've been converted by one fic. Yes, just one single, amazing fic. On the day I rediscovered Digimon. See my profile pic? :) I drew it out of my love for this awesome pairing. It took one week and a bit more of my time but it was so worth it. It's my first attempt at drawing a couple so I hope it turned out okay. Now there's a pic of Taichi and Yamato doing the somewhat cliched thing of forming a heart with their fingers, yay. :) With everyone watching (secretly) of course ;) (Update: Well, changed my profile pic quite some time ago, now it's Yamato with his guitar on stage looking at Taichi ;))
By the way, my story, To Form a Heart, is based on the pic. :)
And Taito is so canon, at least in Season 1. Besides all the Taito scenes, Taichi's image song 'Yuuki wo Tsubasa ni Shite' (I'll Turn my Courage into Wings) is obviously for Yamato. It's the only charcacter song which plays in Digimon. The song talks about being strong, being able to do anything, because of a person who's dear to you ("Because I have you") and it plays during the two major Taito scenes (when they were shot by 'arrows of love' (as Tentomon so adptly described in the dub and sub) by Angemon and Angewomon and when Yamato showed up and held Taichi in his arms in the fight with Piedmon. Taichi told him he believed in him (after the line from his song, "No matter when, I'll believe in you." played) and Yamato thanked him tearfully for believing in him, "Thank you...for believing in me." while crying even though he said to Gabumon in the dark cave he hated to let anyone see him cry...
And, there is one particular verse in Taichi's song:
Evolving hearts- doesn't that ring a bell? The first time the song played in the Japanese version was when Yamato and Taichi got shot by arrows through their hearts from Angemon and Angewomon (from the analogy of Cupid) to evolve Gabumon and Agumon. And well, it worked ;)
They have too much evidence, really. There's even an official Taito pic and I heard that Taichi and Yamato were even a couple in Japan ;) And well, Yamato's character song, 'Walk on the Edge' is to Taichi:
We're not ready yet, just look
Well, if you want to I can't stop you
Try being a little cooler
It's like Yamato's sick of arguing with Taichi and is singing to him a tune from his harmonica (Yamato's song is based on the tune of his character background music, 'Run with the Wind', like Mimi's, Sora's, and Hikari's) to get it through to his thick, stubborn head =x And, I may be biased, but it may even be a reply to Taichi's:
If I'm with you
So just be cool
Such faith you have in Taichi, Yamato... So Taito fans, rejoice :) Taito is canon. I may add some more stuff in the future when I'm feeling less lazy and less tired and have more time. Hell, even Daisuke's song has a Taito hint, (from what Taichi said to him when he gave him his goggles) if you're perceptive enough...Have a lot more evidence, but no way is it all gonna fit here...
Pairings I like:
Full Metal Alchemist: Royai, AlWinry, GreedEnvy
X-Men First Class: MoiraCharles (one-sided), RavenHank, ShawCharles
1/2 Prince: PrinceGui, WickedPrince
Death Note: LightL
D. Gray Man: LaviKanda, KandaAlma, LenaleeAllen
Jyoumi (Jyou x Mimi); they were so cute in Adventure, and there were so many hints that Jyou liked her, even Gomamon knew :) It was damn sweet how Jyou stayed with Mimi when she couldn't take fighting anymore... I can also see them understanding each other, despite having so different personalities. Currently imagining a scene for them for my Valentines' Day fic ;)
Although they didn't get together in canon (which was sad) Mimi's character song is kind of wistful and nostalgic in both 01 and the memorial version for the girls, one about only being in the person's dream and the other about falling snow (perhaps signifying the first time the 7 of them and she and Jyou met) and the 'kindness in that smile of yours'. (Jyou was always kind to her, wasn't he?) In both songs, she sings about wanting to be together with that person forever...
So that I can become strong
And we all know Jyou was often nervous around Mimi :)
Takari (Takeru x Hikari) I don't know why, they just suit each other. I like this pairing quite a bit even though I don't know much about it x_X They're just sweet together, and Takeru's character song is about Hikari :) 'You always cried back then but now you're standing in the light'.
Sorato (Sora x Yamato) Yeah you read that right. After a conversation with my friend (Thanks, Mike), I've realized I actually like this pairing, because it shows me a new dimension to Sora's character I can appreciate, and in the end she's still the same, because she loves and cares for her friends more than she cares for herself. I'm a solid Taito fan, but I can understand and accept this pairing now, Sora liking/loving Yamato (See Sorato, not Yamora, even though there may be abit of Yamora). Just as long as Yamato ends up with Taichi :) And I believe he will (if you're not a Taito fan, feel free to believe otherwise and if you are, feel free to ask why), because she's Takenouchi Sora. The Warrior of the Sky who loves and protects her friends. This is her meaningful song:
(Taken from animelyrics)
Like my name was suddenly called out
I wonder, how many wishes have come true?
Surely from today, from where I am
If the head wind also changes direction
I can't see the thing I want the most
Surely from today, from where I am
More than the sun that sparkles far away in the sky,
-Takenouchi Sora (Home of the Sky Warrior)
Katekyo Hitman Reborn: YamaGoku, MukuHiba, TsunaChrome
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles: SyaoSaku, KuroFai
X/1999: All the pairings in the series, really. It was so touching. My favorite is SeishirouSubaru though.
You're Beautiful: Jeremy x Mi Nyu, Shin Woo x Mi Nyu (mostly one-sided)
I guess I'm weird in the fact that when I love a pairing, I love it. Even after a few years have passed without reading fics of it. I got back into the FMA fandom this year and I still love the 2003 anime and still love Edvy. And that's how my story, Future, was born.
There isn't a 'dislike/hate' section because I don't really dislike/hate any pairing. For example, I don't like EdWin romance but I don't dislike or hate it. I just prefer them as friends. I'm now a rather neutral person when it comes to pairings I disliked/hated before.
:) Besides pairings, there are certain friendships between characters which have caught my interest.
Friendships I like/love:
Full Metal Alchemist: RoyEd (I think they have the most unique friendship I've ever seen), WinryEnvy (so cute and funny :)), EdwardAlfonse (they care for each other as much as brothers), HughesRoy (so touching and sad), EdWin, HavocRoy, GreedLing (they're both too awesome for words)
X-Men First Class: MoiraCharles, RavenMoira, EmmettAzazeal, RiptideAzazeal
D. Gray Man: Yullen, LenaleeKanda
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles: SyaoranKurogane, FaiSakura, FaiSyaoran
So I guess this concludes the current end of my profile. Thanks if you've read through it. I'd like to apologize to the people reading Memory and/or Attraction. I know I haven't updated for months. I haven't abandoned those stories (I've a short excerpt written for Memory which includes Emmett) but I seem to have lost the drive to continue those stories. Though, this does not mean I'm abandoning them. I'm just focusing on my Full Metal Alchemist fics right now. Though it's ironic that the story I'm most interested in is the least popular :( Yet, I will probably continue them at a later time, so no worries :) Or, not so much worries...but, thank you for showing so much interest in Memory and Attraction. It means much to me.
I would also like to thank the people who are reading/have read any of my stories, whether it be Memory, To Choose A Path, Attraction, Future or Snapshots, 'cause I know I have a habit of writing long stories/chapters and I can't help it even though it may be tedious for my readers. Sigh. And to those who have reviewed my stories, thank you. You guys are awesome. Seriously. So awesome that I'm thanking you again even though I've already done so in my review reply/replies. :)
For the people reading the beginning of Alternate Episode 15 of my You're Beautiful Fanfiction, To Choose A Path:
Jeremy's version of As Ever (Still) Chorus Cut
9th Street's Without Words Cut
I've tried to make the first song as realistic as possible, with echoes and all, so I hope you guys enjoy listening to it! Make sure to put the songs off repeat too. Lyrics are read with the paragraph below it, by the way. Which means that while you read a paragraph, the lyrics above it should be playing.
For You're Beautiful fanfiction, To Choose a Path; Alternate Episode 16 Part 2:
What should I do
You should start the song at this line :
[To his relief, Shin Woo's eyes snapped open.]
Yeah. I didn't manage to turn Tae Kyung's chorus into an acapella version, despite the 2 hours or so I spent on the song, so I apologize for that. For that part, lyrics are read with the paragraph below it, as usual. I included the lyrics for the first verse while the instrumental for it plays at the beginning, as a guide to help the reader keep track of the song. The short bout of silence is where Tae Kyung spends thinking, realizing the solution, breathing in then singing.
Nevertheless, I hope my attempt wasn't too bad or messy and you will be able to enjoy it all the same :)
For the people reading my X-Men First Class Fanfiction : Memory
Pre First Class
(For those contentedly satisfied with Charlene's and Emmett's current images, you can just ignore the links below :))
Characters of Full Metal Alchemist: Future
Warning: Possible Spoilers
Envy is a high school student who doesn’t remember his past. He has dreams of a blond boy in a bright place but is unaware of the identity of the blond boy or the place. He has friends, a annoying but reliable best friend, excels in school, a crush on his class monitor, a caring mother, and is content with his life.
However, his life changes when Roy Mustang, the new Physics teacher, enters it. Mustang triggers a memory of his past, demanding for him to face up to his sins. His once normal life is further spiraled when the blond boy in his dreams, Edward Elric, appears in his class the next day as a new student and when his crush, Ling Yao, reveals he is not all he seems to be. Envy learns of the existence of another world- the world Edward, Ling and Roy came from, discovering his true identity; and that he holds the key for them to return to their world…
The main character of the story. At first glance, Envy is a not so regular teen in high school with wild purple hair and purple eyes, with a lean build which has people mistaking him for a girl. Due to his appearance and personality, he has become very popular amongst his school mates, especially the girls- even to the extent of having his own unwanted fans. He is the Captain of their school’s Karate Club.
However, he is actually an immortal homunculus- an artificial human created through alchemy. He has come to this world in search of the person who abandoned him and whom he wants revenge on, but has mysteriously lost his memory in the process. He doesn’t remember who he was, or Ed. He is friends with Alfonse, and Russell, Ling (whom he has a crush on) and is best friends with Winry. He later befriends Ed, not recognizing the alchemist as his sworn enemy.
Despite the loss of his memory, Envy remains sarcastic, snarky and blunt. He blushes easily because of his pale skin and because he is not used to people showing care or concern towards him. However, he can be sweet at times and cares for his friends greatly. He loves music and is content with his normal life. He vaguely remembers being able to play the piano once. Being a homunculus whose mind works faster than normal humans, he is also very intelligent and excels in all his subjects, especially Physics.
Hair: Spiky Purple, up to the middle of his back (Originally green)
Likes: Music, peace and quiet, fighting, Physics.
Dislikes: People disturbing him, Winry hitting him with her wrench, people mistaking him for a girl.
Talents: Singing, sports, Physics, fighting, running.
Love interest: Ling, and later, Ed.
Current family: Mother (Teresa Evans)
Envy’s best friend and the alternate version of Winry Rockbell. Although she often teases him, she cares for him greatly and is protective towards him. She is known to hit Russell with her wrench because he always flirts with Envy. When Envy cried for the first time, she was the one to comfort him and tell him she would make whoever made him cry pay. She told Ling if he hurt Envy she would kick his ass, but allowed him to date her best friend.
Although her parents are doctors, Winry is heavily interested in mechanics. She is a cheerful girl who loves teasing her best friend but can be serious at times. She is one of the most popular and prettiest girls in school. She is inwardly insecure about Envy leaving her one day because of a bad past experience. She is also friends with Alfonse, whom she seems to be particularly close with, and also befriends Ed.
Hair: Long blonde hair in a ponytail
Likes: Mechanics, teasing Envy, sports
Dislikes: Russell hitting on Envy, people asking Envy out without her permission, Envy keeping things from her
Talents: Mechanics, teasing Envy, running, sports, dressing up.
Current family: Parents who are both doctors
Love interest: Unknown
Envy’s and Winry’s friend. He is a calm, cool individual who seems to always be smiling. He is tall, even for his age, and is usually the peacemaker of the group of friends. He is very accepting and mature- he accepted that Ed was not from his world, and that Ling was a prince from Xing. He even accepts Greed’s existence. He is also perceptive, figuring out Roy was not from his world. He takes things in stride, and is friendly and nice to everyone. He can also be protective towards his friends. He is also friends with Russell and in the Student Council with him.
His parents are in Germany, and he and Ed live together. They are as close as brothers and he cares for Ed greatly. He is also the alternate version of Alphonse Elric, the brother of Edward Elric.
Hair: Blond, short and spiky
Eyes: Sea green
Likes: Playing the piano, studying
Dislikes: Roy Mustang
Talents: Playing the piano
Current family: Parents who are in Germany
Love interest: Unknown
The Full Metal Alchemist who is missing from his world. Edward was found by Alfonse, the alternate version of his brother, when he arrived in this world, and has been living with him ever since. He has recently started to attend school by Alfonse’s suggestion. He is a genius who became the youngest person to become a state alchemist in Amestris, and has no problem coping with high school.
Edward is searching for a way to return to his world. He is unable to do alchemy in this world. He misses his world and the people he left behind and has become rather withdrawn and quiet, unlike his younger self. He is also cool and calm, and his experiences have allowed him to mature into a wise young adult at the age of seventeen. He has grown, becoming taller, but goes off on rants when people imply that he is short.
Ed has had enough of looking back at the past and has accepted that Envy has a new life now. However, he has not given up on returning to his world. He has also found himself attracted to Envy, and after reluctantly accepting it, holds a certain resentment against Ling.
Hair: Blond hair in a long ponytail with a brown rubber band
Likes: Alchemy, food
Dislikes: ‘Fuhrer Bastard’, people calling him short/small
Talents: Alchemy, being an overall genius
Current family: Alphonse Elric, Winry Rockbell, Pinako, (his bastard father doesn’t count)
Love interest: Envy
Envy’s and Al’s friend. He is the womanizer of the group, and the school, and likes to hit on Envy, resulting in him getting beaten up in the process. He is the first guy who was hospitalized on the first day of school because Envy broke his arm when he mistook him for a girl.
He has a strange friendship with Envy, but seems to be able to relate to Al. He is the President of the Student Council. He is proud and arrogant and a flirt, but he does care for his friends. He is also top in Physics- next to Envy, and seems to be rather capable in his studies. He is also suspected to be rich. He is the alternate version of Russell Tringham, the son of a famous alchemist and the boy who impersonated Ed in his world.
Hair: Fairly short blond hair with a long fringe covering his right eye
Eyes: Slate Blue
Likes: Envy, girls, music
Dislikes: Winry hitting him with her wrench
Talents: Physics, playing the violin
Current family: Unknown
Love interest: All pretty girls. Envy?
Ling is the class monitor and the missing prince of Xing. He ventured out into the desert separating Amestris and Xing without his bodyguards in his quest to attain immortality but by a twist of fate, went through the Gate into Envy’s world. Because of his absence, the Emperor has declared an invasion of Amestris, demanding for the return of the member of his royal family. Ling feels great guilt, and has apologized sincerely to Edward and Roy for the war their country is involved in.
Ling has a cheerful and optimistic personality and is often seen to be smiling or grinning. He loves food and seems to always be hungry. He is the vice captain of the Karate Club. He has long hair tied in a low pony tail and squinted eyes, leading to Edward giving him the nickname, “Squinty eyes/Squinty-eyed prince.” However, when he is serious or feeling intense emotion, his eyes are shown to be black. He houses Greed in his body in exchange for the immortality he has been searching for, and has seemed to come to an agreement with the homunculus.
He is also Envy’s crush and savior. He seems to hold a genuine liking towards Envy despite his intention to return to his world and become the Emperor of Xing and is seemingly dedicated to him. He is a mysterious person who keeps his thoughts hidden, but is loyal to his friends and the people he cares about, caring greatly for them. He claims to be Edward’s friend and enjoys teasing him, despite the alchemist’s displeasure, but is also aware that Ed is his love rival for Envy’s affections. He genuinely seems to believe Greed is his friend.
Hair: Black hair in a low ponytail tied with a white ribbon
Eyes: Black (when they're open)
Likes: Martial arts, food, teasing Ed, eating Ed’s food
Dislikes: Anyone who hurts his friends
Talents: Martial arts, sword fighting, Alkahestry (after going through the Gate), Chemistry
Current family: Emperor (Father) and 42 other sisters/brothers
Love interest: Envy
Greed is the homunculus residing in Ling’s body. Like his name implies, he is greedy and wants everything. He seems to have a past relationship with Envy and has his Ouroboros on the back of his left hand.
Greed was transmuted from Dante’s lover and he knows the details of Envy’s past. He died when Ed killed him, transmuting the carbon in his body to a soft carbon and using his remains against him- a homunculus’s weakness. He has been trapped as an existence in the Gate until Ling’s arrival. He took over Ling’s body when they met at the Gate, and Ling willingly gave it to him. He and Ling now share a body, with them being in conflict with each other until their agreement. He knows about Ling’s status and his goal to become Emperor and addresses him as “Idiot prince”, rarely by his name.
Greed is arrogant, cocky and greedy. He believes that homunculi are superior than humans and cannot understand Ling’s perception of humans, or how he can genuinely believe he is his friend after their pact. However, it is undeniable that he has changed, in a world where he doesn’t have to run for his survival from Dante. Greed wants everything, and perhaps that includes friends.
Hair: Black hair in a low ponytail tied with a white ribbon
Likes: Women, riches, fame, fortune, sex; everything
Dislikes: Ling and humans
Talents: Being the Ultimate Shield, Chemistry
Current family: None
Love interest: Plausibly Envy
Ed and Envy’s Physics teacher and the famous Flame Alchemist. He has become the Fuhrer back in his world but because of the war back in Amestris, has come to this world to seek out Envy as a weapon to use in the war.
Because of the event that caused him to come to Envy’s world, Roy is emotionally withdrawn. He internally blames himself for the death of his loved one, and the mistake he made in his desperation. He hates Envy, presumably because he killed Hughes, and is cold towards him. He has a unique, unexplainable mutual friendship with Edward, and still enjoys mocking him about his height, despite the fact that he has grown. However, he and Edward are still in disagreement in their view towards Envy.
Hair: Short black hair
Eye: Black, with a black eyepatch over the right eye he lost
Likes: Mocking Ed
Talents: Flame alchemy, teaching Physics
Current family: None
Love interest: Riza, possibly Elizabeth
For the people reading Another World:
You should start the song at this line:
[“Right!” Taichi grinned in relief. His hand was still held up, and the orange symbol of a sun on his hand was still glowing with power as he turned to the stunned Yamato, “Get on Yuuki’s back! He’ll take you out of here.”]
Make sure to put it off repeat :)
Favorite (Anime) Quote: "Tabris is a being who understands human beings better than they understand themselves." (Neon Genesis Evangelion) -DL
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