Lanie M
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Joined 08-23-02, id: 257544
Author has written 21 stories for Slam Dunk, Angel Sanctuary, and Harry Potter.

Lanie M writes shounen-ai angst. Her fanfiction is confined primarily to the Slam Dunk fandom, her favoured pairing being Rukawa/Hanamichi, though she has written the occasional Angel Sanctuary, Kira/Katou, as well asHarry Potter, Harry/Draco, fic.

If she is not wholly consumed by writer's block, Lanie M aspires to expand on other pairings, such as Youhei/Hanamichi (Slam Dunk), Rosiel/Katan (Angel Sanctuary), and Cain/Riff (Count Cain). Lanie M does not write R-rated, sexually explicit fics, or smut,but is open to fic requests for other categories, as long as they are within the aforementioned fandoms and a brief storyline can be specified. In fact, fic requests would be welcome, as Lanie M often has trouble conjuring fic plots when she is desperate to write.

Lanie M feels that her style has evolved drastically since she first began writing fanfiction, and she believes this is due to changes in her state of mind and perspective of the world. Though she loves fanfiction, she is uncertain whether she will be able to continue with her contributions. She profoundly hopes she will.

Lanie M was born Melanie Man on May 28 1988 , to a Chinese father and Malaysian mother. Born and raised in Hong Kong as the youngest child of two, Lanie M was often described as a happy, extroverted, and carefree child. With the passing of time, however, Lanie M grew increasingly affected by the frequent bouts of mockery and taunting owing to the nature of her appearance. At the age of 9, in primary five, Lanie M underwent her first eating disorder, eventually placed under the supervision of teachers and family members. She would continue to struggle with weight and eating issues throughout her adolescence, never maintaining a stable weight, and, at the age of 15, developing a case akin to anorexia wherein she suffered from most relevant physical and emotional deteriorations. At the current age of 17, she still grapples with haunting fears and compulsive eating habits.

From the age of 5, Lanie M has had an ardent passion for literature, viewing writing as a tool with which to move people on the deepest level of humanity. Until her aforementioned crisis at 15, Lanie M's dream and ambition was always to become an author, to publish a book which would change the world, inspire the masses, help someone – just one person – and that would make all the difference. Lanie M's desire to evoke emotions from deep within, which can be seen in her preoccupation with literary angst and introspection, can perhaps be traced back to Lanie M's reading of Vladimir Nabokov's 'Lolita', a masterpiece with one of the first excerpts to make Lanie M cry.

"…and I looked and looked at her, and knew as clearly as I know I am to die, that I loved her more than anything I had ever seen or imagined on earth, or hoped for anywhere else. … You may jeer at me, and threaten to clear the court, but until I am gagged and half-throttled, I will shout my poor truth. I insist the world know how much I loved my Lolita, this Lolita, pale and polluted, and big with another’s child, but still gray-eyed, still sooty-lashed, still auburn and almond, still Carmencita, still mine … No matter, even if those eyes of hers would fade to myopic fish, and her nipples swell and crack, and her lovely young velvety delicate delta be tainted and torn – even then I would go mad with tenderness at the mere sight of your dear wan face, at the mere sound of your raucous young voice, my Lolita.”

After a seemingly eternal period of indifference and loss of identity, a period in which Lanie M lost all passion for life, writing, and fanfiction, as a result of endless promptings on behalf of her school to consider her Higher Education, Lanie M realized that the reason behind her love of literature was its ability to pave the way for the revelation of philosophical ideas on the meaning of life, a subject which has fascinated her since the onset of adolescence. Michael Cunningham's‘The Hours' is the most notable example which comes to Lanie M's mind.

“We live our lives, do whatever we do, and then we sleep - it's as simple and ordinary as that. A few jump out of windows or drown themselves or take pills; more die by accident; and most of us, the vast majority, are slowly devoured by some disease or, if we're very fortunate, by time itself. There's just this for consolation: an hour here or there when our lives seem, against all odds and expectations, to burst open and give us everything we've ever imagined, though everyone but children (and perhaps even they) knows these hours will inevitably be followed by others, far darker and more difficult. Still, we cherish the city, the morning; we hope, more than anything, for more.
Heaven only knows why we love it so.
Here, then, is the party, still laid; here are the flowers, still fresh; everything ready for the guests, who have turned out to be only four. Forgive us, Richard. It is, in fact, a party, after all. It is a party for the not-yet-dead; for the relatively undamaged; for those who for mysterious reasons have the fortune to be alive.
It is, in fact, great good fortune.”

This realization has shaped the direction of Lanie M's life and has led her to her decision to study Philosophy and Theology in university. Lanie M is firm in her view that all her experiences, her sufferings, and her undying feeling of isolation and loneliness have all happened to serve of the purpose of bringing her close to God. At the age of 11, a bitter and disillusioned atheist, Lanie M underwent an intense religious experience which alerted her to the reality of God’s existence. She felt no drive to commit to religion, however, until the age of 16, when she had a profound conversion experience which dramatically altered her lifestyle. Now, Lanie M has embraced Christianity and is a devout Lutheran, with God as the ultimate priority and purpose of her life. Lanie M's vision is to become a pastor, to touch people and open their eyes to God's blessings and unconditional love, thus offering others in need a place of refuge and peace, just as Jesus has frequently offered her the gift of His salvation, despite her repeated faltering in trials and difficulties of life.

Lanie M's faith and beliefs have been significantly shaped and influenced by the philosophy of Soren Kierkegaard, who claimed that belief in God is a non-rational ‘leap of faith’. In a modernized society where religious belief is on the decline and atheism is prevalent, Lanie M’s mission is to contribute to human progress by prompting the knowledge that faith in God is not simply a matter of rational proofs generated from limited and confined human reason, but instead, arises from God-given religious experience. When reading Kierkegaard's ‘Journals and Papers’, Lanie M feels an incredible and inexplicable sense of resonance, as if someone has verbalized full insight into everything about her own life, and somehow, this makes her feel less alone.

"There is after all an equilibrium in the world. To one God gave the joys, to the other the tears and permission every once in a while to rest in his embrace; and yet the divine reflects itself far more beautifully in the tear-dimmed eye, just as the rainbow is more beautiful than the clear blue sky."

Lanie M has done many things of which she is not proud. She has hurt people, hurt herself, taken life for granted, given up, been ungrateful, been blinded from the things which truly matter. But 17 year old Lanie M knows that despite sporadic times of depression, contemplations of death, and unbearable loneliness, despite her somewhat dysfunctional relationship with her mother and conflicts with family members, that life is a gift, that faith, hope, and love are the three things which she cannot give up on, the only three things really worth fighting for.

Lanie M still has a long way to gobefore she will achievefreedom and peace. But she knows that there is always hope because every step she takes is a step closer to Heaven.

“And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes;
and there shall be no more death,
neither sorrow, nor crying,
neither shall there be any more pain:
for the former things are passed away."
(Revelations 21:4)

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Imagination by Laziness Incarnate reviews
Existential basketball musings, aka what makes our boys tick.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,070 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 15 - Published: 8/7/2005 - Complete
The Midas Touch by Fluky reviews
Draco likes things to be perfect. Ron is anything but. [DracoxRon]
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,511 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 4 - Published: 4/10/2005 - Draco M., Ron W. - Complete
Empty Boxes by nates reviews
Rukawa doesn't know how to respond to love. RuHana. Shounen-ai.
Slam Dunk - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 396 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 1 - Published: 3/28/2005
Moments by nates reviews
Vignettes. Moments of yesterday, today and tomorrow. Yaoi. Ruhana - sort of. It's all about introspection.
Slam Dunk - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 2,214 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 2/18/2005 - Published: 1/25/2005
Coming Home Tomorrow by Laziness Incarnate reviews
After coming home from the fight in the gym, Mitsui realizes that he's got to rebuild more than just his basketball skills. There's that whole trust thing too. [One-shot]
Slam Dunk - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 987 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 11 - Published: 6/9/2004 - Complete
Flying In Silence by Frack reviews
Harry/Draco. Draco has always known he would have to choose a side but being Draco, he chooses neither.
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 550 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 7 - Published: 8/13/2003 - Draco M., Harry P.
Slave by nothingtodo reviews
Sendoh gets himself a feisty slave and faces the consequences. AU. :) Sendoh x OC.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 9 - Words: 19,399 - Reviews: 196 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 1/13/2003 - Published: 11/6/2002
Poison the Empty Skies by SophieB reviews
Draco takes his relationship with Harry to a new level. It's a bittersweet effort, hopelessly romantic, and ultimately devastating. HP/DM (SLASH). A one shot deal.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,557 - Reviews: 28 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 4 - Published: 5/28/2002 - Harry P., Draco M. - Complete
Colours by Annie D reviews
RuHana. Shounen ai. Looking at the world differently. If you're looking for Happy, stay away.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,720 - Reviews: 42 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/11/2002
Pay Attention Please by Annie D reviews
Just another RuHana story. Completed. Yosh!
Slam Dunk - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 10 - Words: 20,293 - Reviews: 71 - Favs: 74 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 3/15/2002 - Published: 3/4/2002 - Complete
The Importance of Being Straight-Forward by Nagyra reviews
Kaede Rukawa finally decided to confess his true feelings to his "supposed" rival, Hanamichi Sakuragi. Mitsui and Miyagi, though, insists he do it with a little more style. It began with the flowers, and then it just got worse.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,639 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 44 - Follows: 5 - Published: 12/31/2001
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Touched With Fire reviews
Rukawa's first romance falls to shreds. [shounen ai]
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,024 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/16/2006 - Complete
Awake reviews
Koshino comes undone. [shounen ai]
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 448 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 1 - Published: 6/16/2006 - Complete
Greater Things reviews
Miyagi knows the truth behind his relationship with Ayako.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,315 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 2 - Published: 6/16/2006 - Complete
Revelation reviews
Youhei sees Rukawa standing alone in the rain.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 483 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 12 - Published: 9/19/2005
Flotsam reviews
28 year old Hanamichi leads a life of quiet desperation. Sequel or complement to 'Fall'. [shounen ai]
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,570 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 1 - Published: 9/3/2005
Scarlet Teardrops reviews
PostHBP Harry is on a mission, and finds something unexpected in the darkness. Draco bleeds.
Harry Potter - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,479 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 4 - Published: 8/26/2005 - Harry P., Draco M.
Fairy Story reviews
Alexiel tells Nanatsusaya a fairy story.
Angel Sanctuary - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 688 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 2 - Published: 7/29/2005
Shades of Grey reviews
An exchange of insults, a wouldbe murder attempt, a broken wand, and an unlikely discussion on love. An exploration of the HarryDraco relationship.
Harry Potter - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,410 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Published: 7/26/2005 - Draco M., Harry P.
Fall reviews
28 year old Rukawa reflects on his life. [shounen ai]
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,222 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 5 - Published: 7/17/2005
Alive reviews
Katou reflects under the influence of drugs.
Angel Sanctuary - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,834 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 1 - Published: 10/19/2003
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[shounen ai] Katou muses over his relationship with Kira.
Angel Sanctuary - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,890 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 9 - Published: 8/22/2003
A Minor Apocalypse reviews
[shounen ai, KoshSen] Koshino feels like it's the end of the world. Deep dark secrets revealed.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,804 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 4 - Published: 2/8/2003
Just To Make You Smile reviews
[Shounen ai] Sendoh laments on Christmas Day.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,766 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 1/5/2003 - Published: 12/20/2002
Neon Lights reviews
[Shounen ai] A certain SD boy compares his life to neon lights.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,168 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/25/2002
Silence reviews
[shounen ai, MitKo] Mitsui's thoughts and emotions as he watches Kogure leave.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,196 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 1 - Published: 12/21/2002
Heaven And This Moment reviews
[Shounen ai, RuHana] If I could choose between Heaven and you.. I would choose you. Confessions and regrets. RuHana day contribution.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,868 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 3 - Published: 11/9/2002
A Thousand Words reviews
[Shounen-ai, RuHana] The last day of someone's life. Death. Angst. Written in Chinese. [One-shot, completed]
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - Chinese - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,441 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 10/19/2002 - Complete
Escape reviews
[Shounen ai] Response to Suegarbaby's fic request for HanaRu day.
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,849 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 3 - Published: 10/8/2002
Till The End Of Time reviews
[Shounen ai, RuHana] A fic revolving around love bringing life after death. [Completed]
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 9,349 - Reviews: 25 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 10/3/2002 - Published: 9/26/2002 - Complete
Nothing Without You reviews
[Shounen ai, RuHana] Rukawa returns to Japan after 10 years and meets Sakuragi again. Will anything happen to the two of them? [Completed]
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 11 - Words: 30,905 - Reviews: 43 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 3 - Updated: 9/2/2002 - Published: 8/24/2002 - Complete
The Last Face I Want To See reviews
[Shounen ai, RuHana] Rukawa falls into a coma and Sakuragi's life falls into shreds. What will become of him? [Completed with total of 9 chapters]
Slam Dunk - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 20,523 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 3 - Published: 8/24/2002 - Complete
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