Author has written 12 stories for Bleach, Beyblade, Devil May Cry, and Durarara!!/デュラララ!!.
News update: Uni is eating up my life. I don't have time to read anything not uni-related, and I definitely don't have time to write anything. Unfortunately that means that the most I currently have to offer you guys is the re-uploads of my old, completed fics. I'll try to get the rest of TPATW up here during the summer, and some of my one- and two-shots as well. I'll try to cram out a chapter or two of Be Mine as well, but I can make zero promises at the moment.
You shouldn't get your hopes up for any brand new material for a long while here, because I'm over-worked, stressed out, and in the midst of Bipolar chaos right now, and I don't know how long any of it will last. I'm really sorry about this!
I write a lot of angst in my fics, and my main characters tend to suffer like they've wronged the gods themselves. This is partly because I try to write as much as I can about subjects which are considered taboo, like addiction, mental illness etc. Partly it is also because I've pledged my allegiance to the "write what you know"-gospel, and while I don't know jack-shite about fluff and lovey-dovey happy plots, I do know way more than I'm comfortable with about the aforementioned darker subjects.
I often get reviews expressing my readers' delight at how dark my plots are and how bad the characters are feeling. This bothers me like hell! I try to write mental illnesses and traumas as realistically as I can, and therefore borrow a lot of it from my own life and experiences, and to hear people "love" seeing how I "torture" my characters and how they want more of it is often like a sucker punch to my stomach. Kai's PTSD in TPATW is taken from my own experiences. His nightmares are modeled on my own. His insomnia is my insomnia, and his raging anxiety is my anxiety. Izaya's self-destructive behaviour in Be Mine is taken more or less straight out of my teenage years. I've lived these things, ok?
It makes me happy to know people want to read about these darker subjects, because they need to be addressed, and addressed realistically. I just want people to stop and think before they post that review saying "Omg! [character] is really suffering! I love it, gimme more! lol". Because if you think I write these things because of some sadistic streak of mine, then you've missed the plot by a mile. There are people out there facing these thoughts and feelings every day. Don't they deserve more respect than that?
Name: Loke. Nicknames: Chibi, L, Dory, Khordie. (Yes, Dory as in the blue fish in "Finding Nemo"...)
Gender: Trans*masculine. (Pronouns: He/him/his)
Occupation: Full time confused student. Dedicated writer.
Additional facts: I am diagnosed with Bipolar I, and that can cause updates to be delayed for weeks, sometimes months because I'm struggling with depression or a manic episode. I do, however still write, but very slow and only a few lines at a time. I hope you will be understanding of this fact.
About the Mary-Sue's: I hate them! I hate them with an intensity that will make hell look like an arctic place.
About OC's: I won't be writing about them as main characters, or pairing them with my main characters. I'm sticking with the actual persons from the series as my main characters. (Should I break that rule and actually involve an OC in my fic, it won't under any circumstances be as a lover to one of the real characters. I wouldn't be caught dead writing that!)
About fluff: I do my very best to avoid writing it. Too much of it makes me want to puke. Also, I seem quite incapable of doing it for longer than a few lines. Maybe I should give it a more serious try. If nothing else, to see my friends keel over. I'm 'the king of angst', and no one really expects me to write fluff...
About yaoi: I am a shounen-ai/yaoi writer. Heterosexual pairings aren't my thing at all. I can read it, if it's Hitsu/Matsu or Kai/Yuzuru, but other than that...no thank you. I write explicit lemons - and I believe I'm good at it.
About cursing and bad language in general: I curse like all flying hell, and if I can make it work with the characters - which I generally do - they will curse like all flying hell as well. Deal with it.
About updates on stories: I'm a university student. I cannot under the present circumstances promise swift or regular updates. But I can promise to maintain the same quality.
About cliffhangers: I love them. And I'm well known for them.
About angst: It's what I do. I know angst like my own shadow and I try to describe it the way it is, no more, no less.
About fem and mpreg: I just don't like it. So I won't read it. And, sorry, but I'd prefer not to beta it either. It's just...no.
Please read the following:
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.
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I hope my works are to your liking. While I do not always respond to reviews, I read them all, and I'm happy for each and every single one!