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Joined 02-22-11, id: 2761028, Profile Updated: 09-21-14
Author has written 19 stories for Doctor Who, Web Shows, Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人, Fate/stay night, and Yowamushi Pedal/弱虫ペダル.

Sue // 20plus // German // she/her/hers

Sometimes my muse and my fangirl feels come together and I write fanfiction.
If I think it's good enough, I'll publish it here.
And then I'll probably disappear again.

(Seriously though, my writing muse is unpredictable and I'm really, really sorry.)

- I'm currently recovering from a writer's block. -

Important: I am not a Beta Reader! Please don't ask me to help you with your story or give you feedback, I have enough stuff of my own to take care of.


Cover Art for An Unbearable Sight by Jess (JBadgr): http://jbadgr.tumblr.com/post/81107198763


Current Main Project(s):

  • An Unbearable Sight (Shingeki no Kyojin/Attack on Titan)
  • Current Side Project(s):

  • Dissonance by PrimaMalum (Shingeki no Kyojin/Attack on Titan) — Advisor
  • possible one-shot ideas which randomly pop into my head
  • occasional planning/writing of possible future projects or my original stories

  • Links:

  • Main Tumblr: ponderess.tumblr.com
  • Side Tumblr (Shingeki no Kyojin/Attack on Titan): leviplease.tumblr.com
    random updates on An Unbearable Sight: leviplease.tumblr.com/tagged/aus-writing
  • Archive of our Our Own: archiveofourown.org/users/Ponderess/profile
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    Phan Oneshots by parttimestoryteller reviews
    phan (dan/phil) a collection of oneshots and weird little drabble things mostly written at 3am. The cover art is my own, it's really not worth stealing
    Web Shows - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 5 - Words: 9,866 - Reviews: 41 - Favs: 32 - Follows: 12 - Updated: 10/14/2014 - Published: 2/17/2013 - [AmazingPhil, Danisnotonfire]
    Malevolence by Euregatto reviews
    The last 29 months have broken the once close bonds amongst Squad Levi's soldiers, and subsequently, Eren's sense with reality. But now, Annie's awakening has left obscured memories where the truth used to be. With the consequences set in motion and old enemies closing in, Eren is beginning to doubt who his real allies are, and what they aren't telling him… EreAni ReviMika [manga]
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Mystery/Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 14,693 - Reviews: 42 - Favs: 62 - Follows: 89 - Updated: 8/28/2014 - Published: 5/20/2014 - Eren Y., Mikasa A., Armin A., Annie L.
    Inside the Red Zone by Euregatto reviews
    Walking the road to falling in love is a wonderful experience – unless of course you're Annie Leonhardt, in which case it's a lot more disastrous than it should be, and everyone else gets caught in the crossfire. -Eren x Annie [rated M for ages 16 and up]
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 10 - Words: 37,652 - Reviews: 205 - Favs: 278 - Follows: 338 - Updated: 8/28/2014 - Published: 8/19/2013 - [Eren Y., Annie L.] Mikasa A., Reiner B. - Complete
    Shifting Lights by tofsla
    Autumn in a new city; a collection of puzzle-pieces that don't quite seem to fit together. Makishima tries to make it work. A fic about gender identity.
    Yowamushi Pedal/弱虫ペダル - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,198 - Favs: 1 - Published: 8/1/2014 - Yuusuke M. - Complete
    Office Shenanigans by Euregatto reviews
    [Sequel to Classroom Misconduct] Annie is renowned for her terrible decision-making skills and ruthless nature, so when she decides to get even with Eren, an unconventional location will not hinder her determination - even if said location is the office of the merciless Keith Shadis. -Eren x Annie, lime & slightly-crack
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,161 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 39 - Follows: 13 - Published: 6/19/2014 - [Annie L., Eren Y.] Jean K., Connie S. - Complete
    Utopia by impavid fool reviews
    His request is always the same, and her response is always delivered in silence. [Eren/Annie]
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,590 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 16 - Follows: 7 - Published: 5/31/2014 - [Annie L., Eren Y.] - Complete
    Shingeki no Kyojin: Dissonance by PrimaMalum reviews
    [Spoilers past chapter 29 of the Manga, "Hammer"] Eren is devoured before his sister's very eyes. She attempts to bring him back, but, despite her attempts to slay his captor, Mikasa is met with failure. All she can do is look on while her only family left is stripped away, leaving the Female Titan to ultimately decide his fate. -On Indefinite Hiatus-
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 10 - Words: 58,007 - Reviews: 159 - Favs: 252 - Follows: 342 - Updated: 5/16/2014 - Published: 7/19/2013 - [Eren Y., Annie L.]
    Classroom Misconduct by Euregatto reviews
    She's trying to pay attention to the lesson, she really is. But of course Eren Jaeger has other plans. - ErenxAnnie
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,517 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 56 - Follows: 22 - Published: 4/21/2014 - [Eren Y., Annie L.] - Complete
    Delirium by Euregatto reviews
    "As long as you're mine to break," she says, "I won't be sorry for anything." - Nine instances in which the fine line between Annie's hate and remorse is swept away by the doubt Eren brings to her mind, and ultimately, he pays the price. [Eren x Annie] vent fic
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,280 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 4 - Published: 3/14/2014 - Eren Y., Annie L. - Complete
    Je t'adore by Euregatto reviews
    Despite her best attempt at avoiding him, an intoxicated Annie Leonhardt finds a night's worth of entertainment in Paris with Eren Jaeger. And unfortunately for her, they're rekindling some old flames she thinks should have been left out. -Eren x Annie smut / drinking / public theft
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,273 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 41 - Follows: 11 - Published: 3/11/2014 - [Annie L., Eren Y.] Bertolt H., Marco B. - Complete
    The Take Down by Euregatto reviews
    Annie's hot, but Eren decides she isn't hot enough. "If you were really worried about the heat you wouldn't be dating me." - Eren x Annie [smut] Two-part
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 5,114 - Reviews: 44 - Favs: 105 - Follows: 46 - Updated: 11/20/2013 - Published: 10/8/2013 - [Eren Y., Annie L.] - Complete
    Non Compos Mentis by Euregatto reviews
    It's a very, very sick way to live in an even sicker, sicker world. – Annie centric, Annie/Eren
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 970 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 8 - Published: 10/25/2013 - Eren Y., Annie L. - Complete
    Wildflowers by Euregatto reviews
    This feeling is like a plague. A drug. An illness. It is foreign to her, but it is not new. - Annie x Mina, Minnie [language] [manga spoilers]
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,072 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 22 - Follows: 4 - Published: 10/7/2013 - Reiner B., Annie L., Mina C. - Complete
    At Dawn We Burn by Euregatto reviews
    Trost is burning behind them, and she wants to watch. "Let me feel your fire, Eren, just one more time." - Annie x Eren, Trost centric [rated M for a reason]
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,111 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 89 - Follows: 28 - Published: 9/25/2013 - Eren Y., Annie L. - Complete
    The Best Teacher by Hitsugi Zirkus reviews
    The scars on his mind and heart were all that were left to teach Eren, and he just wanted proof of all that marked on his body, in the form of ink. "Let me ask you something - why of all things did you want to get the wings?" For Haunani
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,623 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 44 - Follows: 9 - Published: 8/1/2013 - Eren Y., Levi - Complete
    And So It Has Been Written by evilpiggyofawesome reviews
    READ THIS BEFORE THE STORY! SERIOUSLY PEOPLE READ THE DESCRIPTION! Dan and Phil have a Pokemon adventure. Phan. Disclaimer, I do not own either Dan or Phil and Phan is not real. This is based almost entirely on Dan's shipping video, "I Will Go Down With This Ship"
    Web Shows - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 503 - Reviews: 32 - Favs: 32 - Follows: 7 - Published: 2/17/2013 - AmazingPhil, Danisnotonfire - Complete
    Pretend This Isn't A Lie by BlackAndExpensive reviews
    -I still remember the day you left. I still remember the day you screamed you hated me and walked out. I remember the day when you decided I wasn't good enough. I remember the day when you told me that simple, lovely lie- One-Shot. Phil and Dan. Heartbreak, lies, and revenge. "I have forgotten about you completely."
    Web Shows - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,035 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 5 - Published: 1/18/2013 - AmazingPhil, Danisnotonfire - Complete
    The End Of Two Hearts by NicholeLovesPhan reviews
    A Phan oneshot. Rated T for depression and suicide. It's really for me more than anyone, but if you chose to read, thank you.
    Web Shows - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,716 - Reviews: 100 - Favs: 72 - Follows: 11 - Published: 12/29/2012 - AmazingPhil, Danisnotonfire - Complete
    Waiting by potatoes-are-not-for-sex reviews
    Phil's coming home, Dan knows he is, no matter what anyone else tries to tell him. He'll be there waiting when he arrives... amazingphil x danisnotonfire angsty fic, starring crabstickz and kickthepj. Warning: dark themes
    Web Shows - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 929 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 36 - Follows: 5 - Published: 11/20/2012 - AmazingPhil, Danisnotonfire - Complete
    Porcelain by bittasummer reviews
    Oneshot. [Stolen glances and lingered touches. That summed them up. She wanted him to take her and he wouldn't. Always staring at her through a glass wall; looking, but never reaching out to taste her porcelain skin.] Mature scenes. Eleven/Amy.
    Doctor Who - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 9,923 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 48 - Follows: 6 - Published: 10/3/2012 - Amelia P./Amy, 11th Doctor - Complete
    A Different Genealogy: Decisions & Dogmas by Natarii-loves-Chocolate-milk reviews
    No matter how much she stomped on it, caged it away, a tiny part of her was listening to him."You'll do what I say because you know that you can't pass up an opportunity to save him" he murmered. Naruto's made a deal with the devil. SasuFemNaru, ItaIno.
    Naruto - Rated: T - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 21 - Words: 168,202 - Reviews: 82 - Favs: 194 - Follows: 181 - Updated: 6/20/2011 - Published: 4/8/2010 - [Sasuke U., Naruko U.]
    A Different Genealogy: Diverse Inheritance by Natarii-loves-Chocolate-milk reviews
    Side Story/Prequel to A Different Genealogy; The start of everything - The story of Minato Namikaze and Mikoto Uchiha, and the origins of Naruto Uzumaki are all revealed here. MinatoMikoto, MkotoFugaku, KushinaMinato, KushinaInochi, KushinaFugaku.
    Naruto - Rated: T - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 4 - Words: 23,942 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 50 - Follows: 51 - Updated: 4/24/2010 - Published: 3/20/2010 - [Minato N., Mikoto U.]
    A Different Genealogy by Natarii-loves-Chocolate-milk reviews
    When Kakashi woke up that morning he hadn't really expected Sasuke to awaken his Sharingan, let alone Naruto! It was simply illogical! There was no way Naruto could be related to the Uchiha Clan… SasuNaru, FemNaru, Incest, ItaIno, Slight ShikaNaru.
    Naruto - Rated: T - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 13 - Words: 87,598 - Reviews: 169 - Favs: 636 - Follows: 357 - Updated: 4/8/2010 - Published: 11/7/2009 - [Sasuke U., Naruko U.] - Complete
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    Relationship Stuff reviews
    "Relationship stuff" — that's what Yasutomo kept calling it on the occasions we discussed how things were going between us. He never failed to say it dismissively, as if it was an annoying plague he was forced to put up with. But even when I told him that he could opt out of it at any time, he did not pull back. [quasiplatonic Shinara]
    Yowamushi Pedal/弱虫ペダル - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship/Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 36,375 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 3/24 - Published: 3/1 - [Hayato S., Yasutomo A.]
    Silly Ideas reviews
    Shinkai learns that Arakita can be quite needy when he's sick.
    Yowamushi Pedal/弱虫ペダル - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,434 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 3 - Published: 3/18 - [Yasutomo A., Hayato S.] - Complete
    Fire reviews
    She wants to burn for him. It's the only thing that would make sense to her. Because if she can't have him and if she can't have life there is no point in doing something ever again. She imagines herself in his arms, both of them encased by flames which cannot touch them. She could accept the fire licking at her insides if it was for him. — Annie-centred, Annie/Eren is implied
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: K - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 4,118 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 12/29/2014 - Published: 3/16/2014 - Complete
    An Unbearable Sight reviews
    When we love we tend to disregard ourselves in favour of caring for someone else. ― Neither Annie nor Eren had expected to take the fall that is loving a person, but in the damp walls of Annie's prison cell they find that there might be something worth more than anything they ever fought for.
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 30 - Words: 121,510 - Reviews: 362 - Favs: 461 - Follows: 540 - Updated: 9/21/2014 - Published: 8/9/2013 - [Annie L., Eren Y.]
    A Heart Away reviews
    She had already learned before to bottle up her grief over her father not returning to her. Quietly bearing with whatever was put onto her is just another step in taking on the role that was designated for her. [Ilya centered; post Fate/Zere; pre Fate/stay night]
    Fate/stay night - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,955 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 2 - Published: 9/21/2014 - Illyasviel von Einzbern - Complete
    A Sight Beyond - Fragments of An Unbearable Sight reviews
    A collection of one-shots that add to my story "An Unbearable Sight", but are not necessarily relevant for the main plot. Will contain changing POVs, different settings and various characters and will be updated only very randomly. Warning: Manga Spoilers - definitely for chapter 42, possibly also for others depending on later chapters.
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 12,187 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 4/17/2014 - Published: 10/31/2013 - Bertolt H., Reiner B., Annie L., Erwin Smith
    Schatten von Träumen - Shadows of Dreams reviews
    "Die Welt wie wir sie kennen hat aufgehört zu existieren. Und alles was ich denken konnte war, dass ich bei dir sein will." / "The world as we know it has ceased to exist. And all I could think was that I wanted to be with you." - AU in which Eren isn't a Titan Shifter, Eren/Annie, bilingual (Deutsch/English)
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: T - German - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 8 - Words: 16,768 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 23 - Updated: 2/8/2014 - Published: 10/5/2013 - [Eren Y., Annie L.] - Complete
    Red reviews
    I had a dream, Eren. You were bleeding out and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I know you probably think it's stupid, but I'm really, really scared of losing you. [Not necessarily romance, depends on your interpretation.]
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,233 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 5 - Published: 11/20/2013 - [Mikasa A., Eren Y.] - Complete
    Coming to Terms reviews
    "You're always looking after me and I don't feel like I deserve that at all." It almost sounds like a confession the way he mumbles it low beneath his breath. "Is that why you keep pulling away? Because you don't think you deserve that I care for you." [Post Chapter 51/Warning: Manga Spoilers!]
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,824 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 45 - Follows: 10 - Published: 11/20/2013 - [Eren Y., Mikasa A.] - Complete
    Understanding reviews
    She takes that ugly being of you and reflects it as something remarkably beautiful – because you understand, because she understands and understanding is the most dazzling thing in the world.
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,720 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 4 - Published: 11/19/2013 - [Annie L., Levi] - Complete
    Habitual Intermission reviews
    "Oi," he growled softly against her neck, "are you falling in love, Annie Leonhardt?" "Never," she panted harshly. "Thought not," he retorted, leaning close and inhaling her scent. "And you, Captain Levi," she asked between short breaths, "are you falling in love?" "Never," he returned her answer and pressed his lips to her collarbone.
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,149 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 3 - Published: 11/2/2013 - [Levi, Annie L.] - Complete
    Make a Wish
    'There's this old tradition,' Hange explains [...], 'where you blow out a candle on your birthday and make a wish.' She picks up a candle from the table Eren didn't notice before and turns towards him. The flame flickers from the movement as she presents it to him. 'Make a wish,' she smiles. [oneshot, hints of Eren/Levi]
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,372 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 2 - Published: 9/26/2013 - Eren Y., Levi, Hange Z. - Complete
    Almost reviews
    "The guilt is what stings the most. Once you've eradicated that from your mind the pain becomes less excruciating. Because going through 'what if'-scenarios in your head won't change anything. You can't turn back time and regret won't get you anywhere. Every long-term survivor knows that. Eren still has to learn it." [Post Chapter 31/Episode 21; Eren/Levi, but onesided]
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,069 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 4 - Published: 9/23/2013 - Eren Y., Levi - Complete
    The freest Being in the Universe reviews
    Sometimes he'd look into the distance and dream of a life beyond the walls, a life without titans. On a clear night when everyone else was already sleeping he'd sneak out of the sleeping barracks and off the training grounds. He'd climb a hill nearby and remember the ideas he and Armin had shared when they had still lived in Shiganshina and had never seen a titan before. [Oneshot]
    Crossover - Doctor Who & Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,423 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 45 - Follows: 23 - Published: 9/19/2013 - 11th Doctor, Eren Y. - Complete
    A L reviews
    Because ever since the thought of shipping Annie/Levi occurred to me I couldn't let it go. Because I literally found nothing on these two, so I needed to put something out there. Because I listened to that kind of music that got me in the mood. Take your pick. - A post-titan drabble about Annie and Levi. Slight manga spoilers for chapter 31-34.
    Shingeki no Kyojin/進撃の巨人 - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,003 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 3 - Published: 9/14/2013 - [Levi, Annie L.] - Complete
    Our Moments reviews
    A collection of fluffy and short Phanfics that are loosely tied together. (Not necessarily in chronological order.) - #6: Phil finds Dan at the end of another all night shift to get his new video done. (Try to summarise that without giving too much away... ) - /Irregularly updated (sorry), but no complicated plot or cliffhangers. Mostly cuddles and a bit of suggestive talking./
    Web Shows - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 6 - Words: 10,224 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 22 - Follows: 31 - Updated: 2/28/2013 - Published: 2/3/2013 - [Danisnotonfire, AmazingPhil] - Complete
    The Second Time reviews
    "If you see it from the linear perspective people usually experience time, it is his first visit to this grave. From his point of view however, it is his second time and will be his last." - The Doctor visits Rory's fresh grave and meets an aged Amelia. (My heart broke when I wrote this. You have been warned.) Update: I added a short epilogue.
    Doctor Who - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 2,294 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 10/20/2012 - Published: 10/17/2012 - [11th Doctor, Amelia P./Amy] - Complete
    Engaged reviews
    Amy has been travelling with the Doctor for two years now, checking in on her family and friends once in a while - until Rory proposes to her. [AU-ish]
    Doctor Who - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,110 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10/15/2012 - [Amelia P./Amy, Rory W.] 11th Doctor - Complete
    Sunday, in a Backyard reviews
    The 11th Doctor accidentally lands in Martha's backyard. / May contain some corny parts.
    Doctor Who - Rated: K - English - Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,633 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 5 - Published: 10/9/2012 - 11th Doctor, Martha J. - Complete
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