esmerod
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Joined 10-06-02, id: 277576, Profile Updated: 05-08-14
Author has written 2 stories for Supernatural, and Merlin.

After many years of absence from ff.net I decided to reanimate this account, I even returned to my old pen name "esmerod".
I've been writing fanfiction for more or less ten years now, exclusively in German though.
However, for some reason I can't really explain myself I recently decided that writing in English was worth a shot and I should try it.
You can see some of the results here;3

About me:

  • female
  • twenty-something
  • University student, MA in English and History
  • residing in German speaking Europe (you can guess which country)
  • enjoys cosplaying and vistits conventions
  • likes sophisticated stories with a well-developed plot, which still contain some romance
    (smut is perfectly alright too, as long as stays somewhat "believable")
  • NEW:
    Blog entry concerning the scene at the end of TWAYD 3, for those who are interested

    find me

    fanfiction:
    personal tumblr
    livejournal

    cosplay:
    cosplay tumblr
    deviantart

    Fandoms in which I read FFs: Merlin, The Hobbit, Thor/Avengers

    Fandoms in which I used to read FFs: Supernatural, Kuroshitsuji, D.Gray-man, Angel Sanctuary, Weiss Kreuz, X/1999, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Stargate SG-1.

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    A Monster By Any Other Name by Lavinia Lavender reviews
    The same old Sam/Dean love story, with a darkfic twist. Sam grows up in a concentration camp for monsters, and Dean is raised as an only child and a hunter. Together, they make each other human. / Written in collaboration with brosedshield on LJ; much thanks to whereupon, our beta.
    Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Romance/Horror - Chapters: 44 - Words: 442,550 - Reviews: 569 - Favs: 417 - Follows: 445 - Updated: 2/9 - Published: 1/1/2011 - Sam W., Dean W.
    His Butler, My Master by Sachelarot reviews
    Pins... like a butterfly on a corkboard... a soft touch... a redemption... an escape... and a pain that will never fade until I take it from you.
    Kuroshitsuji - Rated: M - English - Supernatural - Chapters: 36 - Words: 206,023 - Reviews: 754 - Favs: 455 - Follows: 403 - Updated: 11/20/2014 - Published: 7/30/2009 - Ciel P., Sebastian M.
    Devilish Impulses by Kitty Gets Loose reviews
    He impulsively broke the covenant, then remade it. But can the trust, once shattered, be recovered? Sebastian must work twice as hard to rebuild what he briefly discarded. Shotacon, yaoi. Divergence from anime plot.
    Kuroshitsuji - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 39 - Words: 215,559 - Reviews: 966 - Favs: 1,078 - Follows: 436 - Updated: 11/16/2011 - Published: 3/2/2011 - [Sebastian M., Ciel P.] - Complete
    Betrothed by Kairen-Cirrus reviews
    Ciel is now 18 years old, and it's time to consummate his engagement to Elizabeth. Although everyone, including himself, agrees it's an appropriate match, Ciel can't help but dread the upcoming ceremony. One particular butler isn't helping the issue...
    Kuroshitsuji - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 15 - Words: 49,869 - Reviews: 194 - Favs: 369 - Follows: 196 - Updated: 7/25/2011 - Published: 11/30/2010 - Ciel P., Sebastian M. - Complete
    Reset by paperstorm reviews
    Picks up where 'My Bloody Valentine' left off. The horseman Famine made Sam relapse into his demon blood habit, forcing Dean and Cas to lock him up in Bobby's panic room again. This is my take on the fallout. Wincest.
    Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 14 - Words: 59,133 - Reviews: 132 - Favs: 181 - Follows: 78 - Updated: 6/27/2011 - Published: 9/15/2010 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
    Named by R.C. McLachlan reviews
    Jesus Christ is dead. Somehow, that isn't the worst part of Dean's week. Dean/Castiel, 4x22 AU.
    Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 17 - Words: 100,006 - Reviews: 256 - Favs: 652 - Follows: 92 - Updated: 1/12/2011 - Published: 1/3/2011 - Dean W., Castiel - Complete
    Answer me by LittleMissAfflicted reviews
    "I remember when that look of yours was real, Sebastian. Hungry. Hungry for an innocent little boy who didn't know what he was getting himself into." Because until he sees the hatred, Ciel won't be satisfied. Spoilers. Sebastian/Ciel. Dark. Yaoi.
    Kuroshitsuji - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 4,804 - Reviews: 56 - Favs: 148 - Follows: 31 - Updated: 10/5/2010 - Published: 10/4/2010 - Sebastian M., Ciel P. - Complete
    Leave Out All The Rest by Junjou-chan reviews
    There are reasons demons do not sleep; we see what humans don't want to see...we see the future. It will be hard on both my young master and I, but it is apparent he promises me this...he has to before the end of tonight. SebaCiel, YAOI! CHARACTER DEATH
    Kuroshitsuji - Rated: T - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 10,239 - Reviews: 81 - Favs: 165 - Follows: 26 - Published: 6/4/2010 - Sebastian M., Ciel P. - Complete
    For Nevermore by Light In The Void reviews
    Ciel's worst nightmares become reality when investigations into a spate of mysterious new killings lead himself and Sebastian into a twisted web of loss, suffering and betrayal. Can something once lost really never be regained?
    Kuroshitsuji - Rated: T - English - Supernatural/Angst - Chapters: 5 - Words: 54,103 - Reviews: 164 - Favs: 197 - Follows: 221 - Updated: 3/18/2010 - Published: 12/19/2008 - Ciel P., Sebastian M.
    How It Ends by Miss Alise reviews
    It has been a long six years since the day Ciel Phantomhive made a deal with the devil. During those years, Ciel was forced to learn that sometimes what you want isn't what you get, and doing what is right is very rarely painless. CielxSeb pre-slash.
    Kuroshitsuji - Rated: T - English - Drama/Suspense - Chapters: 8 - Words: 30,878 - Reviews: 59 - Favs: 83 - Follows: 39 - Updated: 3/13/2010 - Published: 1/22/2010 - Ciel P., Sebastian M. - Complete
    Songbird by Eden Lies reviews
    Sebastian has a pretty little songbird that he keeps locked in a gilded cage. The songbird peers between the bars, longing to see the world beyond his reach. SebastianxCiel.
    Kuroshitsuji - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 3 - Words: 3,661 - Reviews: 54 - Favs: 175 - Follows: 26 - Updated: 12/31/2009 - Published: 11/29/2009 - Ciel P., Sebastian M. - Complete
    House Dirt by Maiden of the Moon reviews
    It’s hard to keep a house clean when everyone in it is so dirty. One sided MaylenexSebastian, MaylenexNina, Servantrio OT3, SebaCiel, MaylenexRanmao.
    Kuroshitsuji - Rated: T - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,561 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 44 - Follows: 2 - Published: 12/7/2009 - Mey-Rin - Complete
    But a Humble Servant by Cat In My Fridge reviews
    Ciel had always thought of love and sexuality as human enslavement. He'd been right. Sebastian x Ciel. M for sexual content involving a minor. Updated.
    Kuroshitsuji - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 20,104 - Reviews: 223 - Favs: 461 - Follows: 380 - Updated: 11/26/2009 - Published: 2/20/2009 - Ciel P., Sebastian M.
    No Line on the Horizon by Shtuff reviews
    AU. One-shot. It’s the middle of May when Dean shows up at his door at six a.m. with a huge smile on his face, and Sam knows something is wrong.
    Supernatural - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 9,642 - Reviews: 449 - Favs: 1,037 - Follows: 95 - Published: 5/22/2009 - Dean W., Sam W. - Complete
    On the Subject of Cats by Naria Lacour de Fanel reviews
    Ciel Phantomhive liked to describe himself as a creature of the canine persuasion. To Sebastian, Ciel was certainly more of the feline persuasion.
    Kuroshitsuji - Rated: T - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,528 - Reviews: 56 - Favs: 276 - Follows: 22 - Published: 4/9/2009 - Sebastian M., Ciel P. - Complete
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    The Wolf At Your Door reviews
    Merlin succeeds at getting Arthur to Avalon and saving his king. But the price the Sidhe claim for Arthur's life might be higher than what Merlin bargained for. So without a proper grasp of what he got himself into this time, he and Arthur return to Camelot. And as if this wasn't enough, there's also the little fact that Arthur's still not entirely over the whole magic reveal thing
    Merlin - Rated: T - English - Mystery/Adventure - Chapters: 5 - Words: 39,387 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 25 - Follows: 50 - Updated: 5/8/2014 - Published: 3/27/2014 - Arthur, Merlin, Gwen/Guinevere, Gaius
    Homines sumus non Dei reviews
    Spin-off verse. Have you ever wondered what's going on with the rest of the Supernatural world? Good old Europe, for example, gets protected by quite a well-known organisation, the Swiss Guard, also known as the Pope's private army.
    Supernatural - Rated: M - English - Horror/Mystery - Chapters: 1 - Words: 10,079 - Reviews: 2 - Follows: 2 - Published: 2/15/2012