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"I write because I am alone and move through the world alone. No one will know what will pass through me, and even more amazing, I don't know. . . . I write because I am crazy, schizophrenic, and I know it and accept it and I have to do something with it other than go to the looney bin. I write because there are stories that people have forgotten to tell, because I am a woman trying to stand up for my life. . . . I write out of total incomprehension that even love isn't enough and that finally writing might be all I have and that even that isn't enough."
~Natalie Goldberg; Writing Down the Bones
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Please note that I am currently in the process transfering all the fics under this pen name Hanakai (mainly HP fics) to my original profile / penname, Vain (user ID #: 91738). As I reload a fic under "Vain," it will be DELETED under "Hanakai" untill all the fics are loaded and this profile is eventually deleted. Please change any links and bookmarks you have to cooresepond to this.
This change will eventually be reflected at all the other places I archive and my Livejournal. =3 Please be patient during the transition as it will most likely take a while for me to transfer everything. Thank you.

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Catechism by Dreamfall reviews
AU The Dursleys taught Harry to fear and hate magic and all things magical including himself. Now how long will it take the wizarding world see the damage done? And can they ever hope to fix it? Disturbing. WIP
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 15 - Words: 106,473 - Reviews: 1953 - Favs: 2,358 - Follows: 2,842 - Updated: 9/2/2014 - Published: 8/11/2004 - Harry P., Severus S.
The Proud Man's Contumely by Slytherkins reviews
They say the road to Hell is paved with good intentions. No matter how Harry tries to deal with the responsibilities he bears, things always seem to go wrong. Eventual Snarry with STRONG Harry/Remus themes.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 20 - Words: 68,770 - Reviews: 345 - Favs: 231 - Follows: 219 - Updated: 6/11/2013 - Published: 8/28/2003 - Harry P., Severus S.
You could by WittchWay reviews
HPSS An old wizard tradition, class cloaks similar to class rings, calls for the bonding of HarrySnape. Only Harry refuses to complete the bond at the price of his friends lives.
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 18 - Words: 50,152 - Reviews: 549 - Favs: 312 - Follows: 205 - Updated: 12/29/2011 - Published: 12/25/2003 - Harry P., Severus S.
To Have and Hold by Lady Shadow reviews
There used to be a tradition at Hogwarts in which the Sorting Hat didn't just choose houses...
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 32 - Words: 85,228 - Reviews: 1321 - Favs: 861 - Follows: 257 - Updated: 8/9/2008 - Published: 2/4/2004 - Harry P., Severus S.
Unknown by ecinis reviews
HPSS Mentor/Guardian Fic. Slytherin!Harry Younger!Snape Snape gathers a critical and sarcastic Harry from the Dursley's and introduces him to the magical world. HIATUS See Profile
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Family - Chapters: 13 - Words: 32,255 - Reviews: 423 - Favs: 426 - Follows: 641 - Updated: 4/6/2008 - Published: 1/23/2005 - Harry P., Severus S.
Speak to Me by Lady Lynn reviews
HPSS Slash, OotP Spoilers- Hogwarts is has closed for a year, and Harry is thrown in the attic, locked from the outside world, forbidden to speak. What happens when he forgets he has a voice? When school starts up again, who's going to teach him to speak
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 7 - Words: 23,986 - Reviews: 536 - Favs: 442 - Follows: 501 - Updated: 1/16/2008 - Published: 12/8/2003 - Harry P., Severus S.
Painful Lessons by Chii the Chobit reviews
In Kyoto, Hisoka finds himself the witness to another of Muraki's murders. What if Tsuzuki didn't make it time to save him? (A "What if" from the Kyoto Arc)
Yami no Matsuei - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 6 - Words: 17,002 - Reviews: 78 - Favs: 59 - Follows: 40 - Updated: 1/13/2008 - Published: 1/10/2005
Delicate by IrishLeFay reviews
Dee loves Ryo with his whole heart, but will Ryo's inability to cope with his sexuality tear the unconventional family apart? Read the sequel ORDINARY HEROES :
FAKE - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 19 - Words: 88,289 - Reviews: 386 - Favs: 141 - Follows: 75 - Updated: 11/16/2007 - Published: 11/12/2003 - Complete
At the end of all things by milgarion reviews
when Harry's life is turned upside down by a life threatening illness, he goes to the only place he has ever called home.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 17 - Words: 68,006 - Reviews: 667 - Favs: 809 - Follows: 116 - Updated: 5/10/2007 - Published: 8/15/2004 - Severus S., Harry P.
Thy Father's Sins by osmalic reviews
alt univ Shinigami Tsuzuki Asato is sent to investigate the Kurosaki family in Kamakura only to find himself drawn to the young head of the house and his mysteries despite trying to maintain a distance.
Yami no Matsuei - Rated: T - English - Drama/Supernatural - Chapters: 5 - Words: 20,603 - Reviews: 46 - Favs: 27 - Follows: 27 - Updated: 5/6/2007 - Published: 8/15/2004
A Technicality in His Sins by Gold-Snitcher reviews
SSHP. vampirefic 4 Privet Dr. is destroyed, and Harry's world is turned upside down. Unable to attend Hogwarts formally, and unable to alter what he has become, Harry is forced to come to terms with his new status but he does not have to do it alone.
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 7 - Words: 34,043 - Reviews: 209 - Favs: 197 - Follows: 274 - Updated: 9/6/2006 - Published: 11/1/2004 - Harry P., Severus S.
As You Wish by Darth Stitch reviews
A Snarry Fairy tale. This is a spoof of the Princess Bride. HPSS slash. UPDATED again!
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Fantasy - Chapters: 19 - Words: 31,775 - Reviews: 345 - Favs: 292 - Follows: 248 - Updated: 9/4/2006 - Published: 11/3/2003 - Severus S., Harry P.
In Blood Only by E.M. Snape reviews
Snape is Harry's father. No one is happy to hear it. [R due to colorful language, dark themes, and nongraphic violence.]
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Drama - Chapters: 45 - Words: 185,251 - Reviews: 3719 - Favs: 2,773 - Follows: 801 - Updated: 8/15/2006 - Published: 8/24/2004 - Harry P., Severus S. - Complete
Colt by Claggart reviews
Nothing about Harry is normal. Even for a centaur, his visions are scarily powerful. His attraction to the lone centaur Severus is also highly unusual. His journey to find answers is just beginning. REVISED AND REPOSTED.
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 15 - Words: 32,427 - Reviews: 430 - Favs: 315 - Follows: 351 - Updated: 8/11/2006 - Published: 3/6/2005 - Harry P., Severus S.
Side Effects by catsncritters reviews
HPSS SLASH A potion's accidental side effects were passed down an ancient bloodline for centuries, before they reached the one that needed them.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 11 - Words: 34,822 - Reviews: 257 - Favs: 239 - Follows: 351 - Updated: 8/7/2006 - Published: 8/7/2004 - Harry P., Severus S.
The Dark Ages by PSan reviews
The story of the Uesugi clan and Tohma Seguchi after the incidents of New York. A journey through the life experiences and bonds created that shaped the characters we came to know and love at the beginning of Gravitation. Chapter 4 up
Gravitation - Rated: T - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 4 - Words: 29,819 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 2/3/2006 - Published: 10/13/2004
Harry Potter and the Blood Prophecies by lethelynn reviews
After the disastrous events of The Order of the Phoenix, Harry resolves to take control of the course of his life. Some things are easier said than done, however. A succession of events will lead Harry down paths that he never imagined, and he will discov
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 8 - Words: 27,858 - Reviews: 220 - Favs: 168 - Follows: 203 - Updated: 1/9/2006 - Published: 10/12/2003 - Harry P., Severus S.
All I Crave is a Normal Life by cazgirl reviews
R for later chapters. (HarSev) Harry has defeated Voldemort at great personal loss and has fled the wizarding world. Circumstances force him to return and he must face all that he left behind, including his greatest enemy - and his greatest fear.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 18 - Words: 216,632 - Reviews: 1314 - Favs: 1,145 - Follows: 810 - Updated: 12/21/2005 - Published: 1/30/2004 - Harry P., Severus S.
When I dream by Katia-chan reviews
Hisoka sees something in Tsuzuki's mind, he doesn't find it troubling, but the older shinigami finds it absolutely terrifying, and neitehr of them realize that it could be deadly. TxH
Yami no Matsuei - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 3 - Words: 2,766 - Reviews: 33 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 12/12/2005 - Published: 3/2/2005
SixFeet Cold by Enivrement reviews
After six years of self imposed exile in the Muggle World, Harry returns to Hogwarts under the request of Albus Dumbledore. AU book5 some angst, some slash, some action, some music. [COMPLETED]
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Angst/Adventure - Chapters: 25 - Words: 71,651 - Reviews: 1436 - Favs: 968 - Follows: 208 - Updated: 12/12/2005 - Published: 2/23/2003 - Harry P., Severus S. - Complete
Amnesia by Cassandra Pierson reviews
Voldemort is dead and Harry Potter vanished. When Severus Snape stumbles over someone who looks like Harry on a mission for the Order it raises an important question: Is the Muggle John Doe really The Boy Who Lived?
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 10 - Words: 30,070 - Reviews: 106 - Favs: 100 - Follows: 30 - Updated: 8/16/2005 - Published: 7/28/2004 - Harry P., Severus S. - Complete
No One Knows by Wellington reviews
Something weird is going on with Harry Potter and Severus Snape is going to figure what it is. This story contains child abuse, depression, and suicidal tendencies. Will eventually be slash.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 22 - Words: 52,604 - Reviews: 1064 - Favs: 723 - Follows: 733 - Updated: 8/8/2005 - Published: 1/8/2004 - Severus S., Harry P.
Hidden by eQuasarus reviews
[AU] Harry, once scared and abused, now lives in the Forbidden Forest where he has adapted to life. The wizards want him back, but Harry wants to be a wolf of the forest. [WiP] 'Addictive' - HermioneGreen [Reader]
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Adventure - Chapters: 22 - Words: 118,106 - Reviews: 746 - Favs: 743 - Follows: 556 - Updated: 8/7/2005 - Published: 11/20/2003 - Harry P.
You knew I was a wizard by Viscountess Babbles-On reviews
Harry comes back from the summer holiday in a decidedly different condition to which he left. WARNING: MPREG and slash
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 19 - Words: 65,165 - Reviews: 1090 - Favs: 799 - Follows: 688 - Updated: 7/16/2005 - Published: 2/3/2003 - Harry P., Severus S.
Gifts by J.J. Blue reviews
Alternate version of the 'Nagasaki Arc' Manga version. What if Muraki managed to break Hisoka and Enma planned Tsuzuki & Hisoka's partnership? [Complete] [Betaed]
Yami no Matsuei - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 11 - Words: 52,120 - Reviews: 90 - Favs: 80 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 4/11/2005 - Published: 9/11/2004 - A. Tsuzuki, Hisoka K. - Complete
Puppets by Rochelle B reviews
Being a vampire has down sides…blood debts being one. Snape is indebted to Dumbledore, and is little more than a puppet… The other downside is obsession… with Harry Potter, another one of Dumbledore's puppets. (Part Three: And in the end its all pol
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Supernatural - Chapters: 5 - Words: 17,247 - Reviews: 34 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 7 - Updated: 3/21/2005 - Published: 8/1/2004 - Severus S., Harry P.
In This Space Where I Can Breathe by corporealdreams reviews
COMPLETE - Harry can't breathe. HPSS slash. Warnings: mentions of rape, suicidal attempts of the extremely graphic nature.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 5 - Words: 22,821 - Reviews: 87 - Favs: 175 - Follows: 49 - Updated: 3/4/2005 - Published: 2/5/2005 - Harry P., Severus S. - Complete
In the Eye of the Wolf by Moonlit-Nightshade reviews
Harry returns to Hogwarts late with many secrets. He becomes withdrawn and depressed; will he allow anyone to break through the ice he has wrapped around his own heart? Will he find love and learn to shoulder his burden with a straight face? SLASH
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 12 - Words: 40,597 - Reviews: 346 - Favs: 444 - Follows: 367 - Updated: 2/27/2005 - Published: 9/5/2004 - Harry P., Severus S.
Infidel by real-circus reviews
AU. Lost inside, Hisoka finds love in all the wrong places. He is taken in by his master's old friend, whose murderous intent might just destroy him completely. (MurXHis, TsuXHis eventually)
Yami no Matsuei - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 3,249 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 3 - Updated: 2/15/2005 - Published: 8/13/2004
Weary At Heart by NemKess reviews
warnings: shonen ai (obviously), angst. Dee finally takes Ryo's rejection seriously.
FAKE - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 8 - Words: 17,416 - Reviews: 299 - Favs: 112 - Follows: 63 - Updated: 2/13/2005 - Published: 2/9/2003
Loyalty by Macx reviews
sequel to The Truth and Other Lies. Critically injured by a mad man, Ross Barclay hangs between life and death. And for the first time Dee realizes that despite all efforts, he has come to care for the man... DeeRyo. Read Disclaimer! Complete!
FAKE - Rated: M - English - Adventure/Supernatural - Chapters: 8 - Words: 16,075 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 1/23/2005 - Published: 1/9/2005 - Complete
Hush, Sweet Harry by Gold-Snitcher reviews
SSHP Post-war. After an attack, Harry is badly hurt and is sent back to the Dursleys to recover. Protest comes from a surprising source, and a discovery restores hope. An unlikely pair forms out of unfortunate circumstances.
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 6 - Words: 20,533 - Reviews: 267 - Favs: 260 - Follows: 306 - Updated: 1/3/2005 - Published: 9/10/2004 - Severus S., Harry P.
History Repeats Itself by Asha Dreamweaver reviews
HP/BtVS. Harry Potter is called as the Vampire Slayer. His personality suffers radical changes as he copes with being an assasin of the undead. When a fight with a demon goes horribly wrong and he is hit by an unknown spell, he is sent back to the past -
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Supernatural - Chapters: 9 - Words: 93,615 - Reviews: 583 - Favs: 306 - Follows: 222 - Updated: 11/10/2004 - Published: 1/30/2003 - Harry P., Severus S.
Induction by Shivani reviews
Slash, HPSS- A perhaps disturbing look at what one bitter man's obsession could lead to, and the unexpected results ... but for whom?
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Drama - Chapters: 22 - Words: 98,924 - Reviews: 202 - Favs: 335 - Follows: 70 - Updated: 11/4/2004 - Published: 6/22/2004 - Harry P., Severus S. - Complete
The Pain of Freedom: Part 1 of the Empowered by SeraphJamion reviews
After Voldermort is defeated Harry temporarily leaves the wizarding world and his memories behind....along with his pain. HPSS. Rating is just in case.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 4 - Words: 4,791 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 12 - Updated: 10/20/2004 - Published: 8/26/2004 - Harry P., Severus S.
To Have and To Hold by KrystalRoze reviews
SLASH. Visions from the Dark Lord are incapacitating Harry. Snape decides to help, regardless of whether Harry wants his help. When a relationship develops, can they hold on to what they have? Features a possessive Snape and a sarcastic cynical Harry.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 4 - Words: 23,147 - Reviews: 173 - Favs: 310 - Follows: 320 - Updated: 10/9/2004 - Published: 10/1/2004 - Harry P., Severus S.
An Acceptable Weakness by DreadingNought reviews
Voldemort shows up and things get complicated, especially when Harry gets taken to safety by Snape. Story goes from Year Six to Post-Year Seven. HPSS
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 6 - Words: 29,589 - Reviews: 133 - Favs: 103 - Follows: 86 - Updated: 10/5/2004 - Published: 6/9/2004 - Severus S., Harry P.
Friendship and Beyond by Slrmn82 reviews
COMPLETE How far will Harry go to protect his friends? May contain sshp in later chapters, also hgrw
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Drama/Adventure - Chapters: 53 - Words: 71,248 - Reviews: 374 - Favs: 228 - Follows: 37 - Updated: 2/23/2004 - Published: 5/5/2003 - Harry P., Severus S. - Complete
Saviour Forgotten by Kalliopes Kiss reviews
((COMPLETED)) Harry Potter is charged for a crime that he didnt commit, betrayed and forgotten my those he holds dear. HPSS
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 28 - Words: 43,614 - Reviews: 282 - Favs: 339 - Follows: 58 - Updated: 1/22/2004 - Published: 10/16/2003 - Harry P., Severus S. - Complete
Godrics Hollow by WittchWay reviews
Slash HPSS RWDM Death Eaters show up at the Dursleys, Snape is among them. Harry has to spend the summer with Snape. Ron becomes a death eater willingly.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Adventure - Chapters: 13 - Words: 30,015 - Reviews: 99 - Favs: 38 - Follows: 45 - Updated: 1/21/2004 - Published: 2/18/2003 - Harry P., Severus S.
Guilty Consciences by miasnape reviews
ON SEMIPERMENANT HIATUS DO NOT EXPECT UPDATES SOON Preslash story HPSS. Sometimes there's more to someone than you first thought. Harry and Snape start to realise this after their guilty consciences get the better of them.
Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 5 - Words: 10,617 - Reviews: 91 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 13 - Updated: 1/20/2004 - Published: 7/8/2003 - Severus S., Harry P.
These Fine Things of Heaven and Earth by Vain reviews
It was a good plan, a simple plan . . . He only wanted to teach Ken a lesson . . . And then everything went wrong. Yoai, TAIKEN, and a long overdue talk coming your way. CH 13:15- Talking of Michelangelo up.
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 13 - Words: 53,181 - Reviews: 188 - Favs: 69 - Follows: 27 - Updated: 1/7/2004 - Published: 2/10/2002 - Ken I., Taichi Y./Tai K.
Atonement by Amber-and-Ash reviews
On HIATUS pending rewrite. Dumbledore orders Snape to look after Harry after he leaves school. Will eventually be HPSS SLASH.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 10 - Words: 14,844 - Reviews: 297 - Favs: 152 - Follows: 133 - Updated: 1/4/2004 - Published: 3/24/2003 - Harry P., Severus S.
Dragons of Twilight by LuceoNonUro reviews
Trying to find a way to bring Sirius back, the Trio returns to the Department of Mysteries. When Severus arrives there, all he finds are some badly burned Death Eaters and a small red dragon with emerald eyes and a familiar scar... Harry? !Slash HPSS!
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 9 - Words: 44,482 - Reviews: 434 - Favs: 437 - Follows: 344 - Updated: 1/2/2004 - Published: 10/22/2003 - Severus S., Harry P.
The Secret and the Man by Ramshackle Bolt reviews
Severus Snape has been spying on Harry for a very long time. When he notices something wrong happening at the Dursley residence, he takes action--by kidnapping Harry. Sixth Year. Harry and Snape slash.
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 5 - Words: 9,691 - Reviews: 107 - Favs: 50 - Follows: 66 - Updated: 11/16/2003 - Published: 10/25/2003 - Harry P., Severus S.
A Wing Short of Flying by kireira reviews
AU. Tsuzuki, in his suicidal years, was taken in by Muraki as an experiment subject. He gradually developed a bond with Hisoka, the doctor's devoted assistant, who also understood what it meant to have unearthly power.
Yami no Matsuei - Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 14 - Words: 33,088 - Reviews: 116 - Favs: 100 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 11/9/2003 - Published: 6/25/2003 - [A. Tsuzuki, K. Muraki, Hisoka K.] - Complete
A Walking Shadow by Yymeatha reviews
Post OotP. Slash SSHP. After the events of his fifth year, Harry tries to put the past behind him, but Snape seems intent on digging it up again. When illusions begin to shatter and hope fragments, how will they cope?
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 3 - Words: 9,547 - Reviews: 35 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 10/12/2003 - Published: 9/30/2003 - Harry P., Severus S.
Pledges by Amireal reviews
**COMPLETE** Screwed up spells, attacks on hogwarts, Potions Masters who dearly wish he had actual control over his life. SLASH HP/SS
Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 13 - Words: 87,007 - Reviews: 494 - Favs: 907 - Follows: 109 - Updated: 3/24/2003 - Published: 8/1/2002 - Severus S., Harry P. - Complete
Sins of the Living by sexylyon reviews
SeiferxSquall When all you can see is the blood on your hands, how will you ever get clean? WARNING: languageviolenceyaoi
Final Fantasy VIII - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 9 - Words: 54,909 - Reviews: 106 - Favs: 90 - Follows: 64 - Updated: 9/17/2002 - Published: 5/20/2002 - Squall L., Seifer A.
Erosion by rubie reviews
AU fic that takes place before Hisoka's death, set it Kamakura. Tsuzuki is sent to investigate what at first appears to be a simple case, but becomes entangled in the hate and anger within the Kurosaki family. *general repost 11.08.01 (=_=)
Yami no Matsuei - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 9,576 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 10 - Updated: 8/28/2001 - Published: 3/28/2001