enervate
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Joined 10-14-02, id: 280687
Author has written 9 stories for Saiyuki, Yu Yu Hakusho, and Wild Adapter/Executive Committee.

Dear all,

I have ceased writing and publishing my fanfictions on this site for personal reasons. I am aware that I still do receive comments for my older fics, and I really, really appreciate that - it amazes me that I still do get reviews every now and then, and knowing that people like what I wrote years ago brightens my day.

I have stopped writing in the 'Araiso - Executive Committee/Wild Adapter' category primarily for very personal reasons - Tokitoh and Kubota were the reason why I stayed strong during the most turbulent of my times in my teenage years, and the stories I've wrote were nothing more than ways of me venting out my negative energies and frustrations in a positive manner. It may seem silly but it helped. It helped me in realizing that perhaps love is not only meant to be expressed in 'romantic' ways - you can love your best friend in ways beyond 'friendship' and yet keep it strictly on a 'soulmate' level, and yet never lovers (in the physical sense).

Looking back, this is 2007... and it has been three years since I wrote anything KuboToki. Will I ever write anything with them both again? I don't know. It could happen. It might. I would suspect that it would be in a very amazing situation when I'll actually do it again... but who knows.

Thank you for your support, and my apologies for vanishing for years. I won't return to the fandom, but thank you for your support. I have moved on, I have learned a lot in my life, and every day is a day of learning for me. And I hope your day is a day filled with discoveries and things to learn too.

With all the love in the universe that is mine to share,
enervate (Serena).
25 May 2007.

According to the Thesaurus available on this site :- Enervate Ener"vate, v. t. imp. & p. p. Enervated; p. pr. & vb. n. Enervating. L. enervatus, p. p. of enervare, fr. enervis nerveless, weak; e out + nervus nerve. See Nerve. To deprive of nerve, force, strength, or courage; to render feeble or impotent; to make effeminate; to impair the moral powers of.


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In Warm Refuge by Monkeybarrel reviews
WA one-shot. Tokitoh realizes there are two things he can't run away from, the pain in his hand, and Kubota.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,321 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 32 - Follows: 3 - Published: 1/5/2004 - Complete
Stay Here With by Monkeybarrel reviews
(WIP, Chapter 8 up) Executive Committee: Going back to when Kubota and Tokitoh first meet and their lives suddenly become a little less than ordinary.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: T - English - Humor/Drama - Chapters: 8 - Words: 52,646 - Reviews: 89 - Favs: 60 - Follows: 22 - Updated: 10/18/2003 - Published: 1/12/2003
Crossing Lines by Monkeybarrel reviews
Wild Adapter one shot. Just two phones and two boys. And curry.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,033 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 3 - Published: 10/7/2003 - Complete
In Search Of by Monkeybarrel reviews
Wild Adapter one shot. For Tokitoh, just trying to keep up with Kubota’s love of new things can be a journey in itself.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,464 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 17 - Follows: 3 - Published: 9/13/2003 - Complete
Dejected by flatfoot reviews
In a state of melancholy depression, one may only wish to be accepted. [Hakkai & Sanzo].
Saiyuki - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 3,361 - Reviews: 30 - Favs: 8 - Updated: 8/15/2003 - Published: 7/17/2003
A Confucian Conversation by Monkeybarrel reviews
Wild Adapter one shot. An unexpected visitor stops by Kou’s shop one early evening.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,917 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 4 - Published: 8/13/2003 - Complete
Igarashi Sensei's Saturday Out by Monkeybarrel reviews
Executive Committee one shot- Tokitoh sees a whole new side to his school nurse and loses his clothes in the process.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,368 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 16 - Follows: 2 - Published: 8/6/2003 - Complete
Solace by Monkeybarrel reviews
Wild Adapter one shot. A short look into apartment #401 on one summer afternoon.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,461 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/26/2003 - Complete
Moments by flatfoot reviews
In the midst of all the travelling, two roommates spend a slight moment together. [Sanzo + Hakkai].
Saiyuki - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,122 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 3 - Published: 5/19/2003
Under a Glass Moon by blinkie reviews
CHAP 3 UP! ShienNataku. Nataku realizes he no longer has to be alone. The question is, will he admit his feelings or pine away in the anguish of unrequited love? In the game of love, the cautious ones often lose in the end. Mild shonenai.
Saiyuki - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 1,622 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 2 - Updated: 5/8/2003 - Published: 5/2/2003 - Nataku
If only by Star-chan reviews
*New version added* Gonou, after losing his job turns to his wife to release his temper. Will she be able to forgive him?
Saiyuki - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,652 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 1 - Updated: 5/6/2003 - Published: 5/3/2003
Sweet Surrender by flatfoot reviews
[Completed] AU. R for dark, slight lemon[yaoi] & language. Will Sanzo surrender to someone else after loving & losing another? [Gojyo x Sanzo]
Saiyuki - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 10,552 - Reviews: 25 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 4/5/2003 - Published: 3/2/2003 - Complete
Animality by Monkeybarrel reviews
Wild Adapter one shot. After finding another victim of WA, Tokitoh tries to come to terms with what he is and what his future will be with Kubota.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 9,746 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 5 - Published: 3/26/2003 - Complete
Of Perilous Attraction by Gokugurl reviews
=-=-CHAPTER SIX-=-= So what happens now when Goku is randomly selected as Juliet for the school play? Who will win and become Romeo; Sanzo, Kougaiji or Homura? [SanzoxGoku+Homura+Kougaiji, GojyoxHakkai]
Saiyuki - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 6 - Words: 15,458 - Reviews: 204 - Favs: 31 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 3/15/2003 - Published: 1/12/2003
Small Things by NoSciOn reviews
It is the small things that count in the months after Kubota picks up his stray.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,410 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 2 - Published: 2/16/2003
A Clean Cry by lituska-silvermoon reviews
Kubota and Tokitoh have always had an easygoing relationship... but why is Tokitoh looking so depressed and Kubota acting colder than usual? KubotaxTokitoh pairing... a two part PWP/songfic
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,206 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 1 - Published: 2/9/2003
The Bad Phase by flatfoot reviews
AU. Goku PoV. Goku having a bad day/week/life. Whatever you wanna call it. Minor shounen-ai [Sanzo x Goku both 3 years older].
Saiyuki - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,059 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 3 - Published: 2/4/2003
Secrets We Share by Monkeybarrel reviews
Wild Adapter one shot. Kubota and Tokitoh try to protect each other from those who would want to tear apart their little world. (Wow, could this summary be more angsty...)
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,991 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 2 - Published: 2/3/2003 - Complete
Koumyou Sanzou's Personal Organizer by incandescens reviews
Because even a high-ranking monk may need to keep a to-do list. Not remotely serious.
Saiyuki - Rated: T - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 487 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 3 - Published: 1/29/2003 - Komyou S. - Complete
Fatal Bonds by blinkie reviews
Originally a oneshot Shien Nataku fic but now will be a series of vignettes focusing on the theme 'fatal bond'. CHAP 2 UP Doku and Gojyo's fatal relationship as brotherenemies. lost love has never been so bitter as this. NOT yaoi.
Saiyuki - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 2 - Words: 2,734 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 3 - Updated: 1/26/2003 - Published: 12/25/2002 - Nataku - Complete
Of Golden Eyes by Gokugurl reviews
Konzen falls for young Goku, but when the Gods are against the scandalous lovers, how will they cope? [KonzenxGoku+Homura, TenpouxKenren] Completed 12/01/2003.
Saiyuki - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 13 - Words: 52,489 - Reviews: 343 - Favs: 68 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 1/11/2003 - Published: 11/27/2002 - Complete
Broken Pieces by cutie-pie16 reviews
*Chapter 6 uploaded!* Goku i now totally controlled by Homura...it'll only be undone by a miracle...and Sanzo did it.....without knowing. Goku/Sanzo + Homura pairing. pls r/r
Saiyuki - Rated: K - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 6 - Words: 5,623 - Reviews: 56 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 1/2/2003 - Published: 12/24/2002
A Scandalous Birthday by flatfoot reviews
It's Sanzo's birthday and he gets what he wants... and perhaps more. Rated R for yaoi [my first attempt]. Hakkai x Sanzo. PWP?
Saiyuki - Rated: M - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,526 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 2 - Published: 1/1/2003
A Chipped Reunion Promise by rejected-pen reviews
Chihiro returned to the very same spot for six miserable years. One day, she was waiting for Haku as usual but this time,a school mate of hers followed her and tried to rape her if she doesn't do as told. -completed 7 chap.- *New Chap! 'After The End'*
Spirited Away - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 8 - Words: 12,628 - Reviews: 90 - Favs: 25 - Follows: 3 - Updated: 12/26/2002 - Published: 12/15/2002 - Complete
In Love, I Reach Out to You by blinkie reviews
ONESHOT Gojyo Hakkai shounenai: An insult by Hakkai sends a confused and hurt Gojyo storming out of the room. Rated PG13 for mild sexual images, both hetero and homo. Please review! thank you!
Saiyuki - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,515 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 11 - Published: 12/18/2002 - Gojyo S., Hakkai C. - Complete
I Loved Him Once Upon a Time by blinkie reviews
ONESHOT Gojyo is alive, yet he is dead to Dokugakuji.
Saiyuki - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 379 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 9 - Published: 11/21/2002 - Dokugakuji, Gojyo S. - Complete
Remembrances of Things Past by blinkie reviews
COMPLETED! CHAPTER 3 UP! Nataku's
Saiyuki - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 7,558 - Reviews: 32 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 1 - Updated: 10/16/2002 - Published: 10/10/2002 - Nataku - Complete
Calling Back by Monkeybarrel reviews
WA- Sometimes you have to get lost to find what you need.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,072 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 12 - Published: 10/2/2002
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Fraudulences Of Words reviews
Part 8 - Voyage uploaded. Tokitoh wanders in the heart of Tokyo as he leave Kubota behind after a quarrel between them. Will his voyage of turbulence continue forever, or will he return to Kubota? [Ongoing, yaoi]
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 9 - Words: 43,270 - Reviews: 87 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 10/4/2003 - Published: 11/27/2002
Return To Innocence, Again reviews
PART 4 UPLOADED! Sanzo tries to deny his own feelings for Goku, but when Goku got lost in a cave, he sets off in search for him. But poor Sanzo himself got drowned, and Goku saved him,... and what becomes of their love? R&R, onegai.
Saiyuki - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 4 - Words: 18,041 - Reviews: 44 - Favs: 19 - Follows: 6 - Updated: 12/22/2002 - Published: 10/14/2002
Four Seasons : Spring reviews
The season is spring, as the title suggest, when a day in the fairground turns into separation havoc between Kubota and Tokitoh. Wandering aimlessly with no where to meet, what will happen to those two? R&R, onegai.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,513 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 1 - Published: 12/17/2002
Back To The Rivers Of Belief reviews
Sanzo's reflection on his childhood as Koryu and the link to his life as Genjo Sanzo. Sort-of sequel to 'Paper Planes And Paper Cuts'. R&R, onegai!
Saiyuki - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,364 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 1 - Published: 12/14/2002
Friendship Forever, Or Are We Now Lovers? reviews
Kubota's thoughts on Tokitoh and the 'game' they so often played. Written from Kubota's POV. One-shot. R&R, onegai.
Wild Adapter/Executive Committee - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,491 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 11 - Published: 12/14/2002 - Complete
To Wish For Something Unattainable reviews
[HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANZO!] Goku asks Sanzo for a birthday present, but the monk sets much rules. So, Goku [with the aid of Gojyo and Hakkai], figured out something nasty. How will Sanzo react, and will Goku get his gift? -FINISHED!- R&R, please!
Saiyuki - Rated: K - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 9,887 - Reviews: 45 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 11/28/2002 - Published: 11/20/2002
Tombstone By The River reviews
Dark angst,... Kurama reminisce about something tragic, someone's death... just a dark crazy angst fic by me!
Yu Yu Hakusho - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,164 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 10/24/2002
Requiem For A Dream reviews
Just a simple friendship-based angst ficcy, on Sensui X Itsuki. Not shounen ai, but it all depends on how you decipher it. 1st POV.
Yu Yu Hakusho - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 712 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10/24/2002
Paper Planes And Paper Cuts reviews
A slight-yaoi reflection of Sanzo's past, from his own point-of-view as Koryu. Slight yaoi, more of a retelling than a whole new story. R&R, onegai!
Saiyuki - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,738 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 1 - Published: 10/22/2002