Still here. somehow.

i'm tired. i'm depressed. i'm not gonna lie i'm kinda annoyed Lachesis hasnt told Atropos to cut my thread yet. whatever.

I cant promise updates on anything cause i dont know when my focus will clear up to write. not to say i dont have ideas, i got shittons. but the...spark. the urge. aint there. or rather, it is but its buried under more gunk than ever before.

i'm the unchased. the forgotten one. the left behind. just a stopgap. the temporary measure.

i'm tired of that. but aint shit i can do. so i'm here. like always.

get your shots. all of them. if you can. aint gonna shittalk the what 5% of people that exist that would legit die from getting a poke cause their bodies just rolled shittastic resistance numbers. 5% sounds small but that's still a good chunk of people. everyone else? your religion doesnt mean shit, your political affiliation doesnt mean shit, your personal belief doesnt mean shit: get your fucking shots or get off my fucking planet.

i want to be able to go back to a world where putting a mask on was a cultural or optional thing. over half the population wears glasses. masks SUCK, wearing glasses.

punch nazis, crush capitalism, shit on racism, slaughter gender divisions. we're all the same when we die anyway, stop making the world shitty while we have to share it.

adults arent anything more than older children. its been proven. you fucks arent special. i'm one of you, and as one of you, i say from experience: you dont mean jack shit. age aint nothing more than the amount of clocked years you got that says you could have gained important experience. could. not definitely. there's people younger than me that have done far more in their lives than i can imagine. there's people older than me that have never left their home fucking town, wheras i've left the country thrice over. even been to the literal bottom of the world.

when i was fifteen.

so get over yourselves. you're an embarrassment.

anyway on the off chance some putzes want anything further to do with the crap i'm involved in:

YT: NobodyImportant. Look for the one with the glyph that looks like my profile image. Xenmaru00's the google name i think. maybe.

P-Pal: VaultOfMea. i'm still fuckin broke and even with a job this shit aint giving me enough money to really live. barely even enough to survive. fucking capitalistic pigs draining all the funds. if you got shit to spare, and wanna try to push an update, throw it my way.

i got a cashapp too but i'm holding that back for DMs or some shit.

BluBird: @VoidWalkerZero surprised i was able to get that but eyyy. look its mostly anime titties, occasionally serious stuff, video game crap, and me...attempting to make a difference before Atropos goes snip-snip.

ultimately i like being the rock, the umbrella, the support, the shield, even the sword. ...i'm just tired of being thrown away after.

and like i said, i'll update...when i can. sadly pretty much everything i have active right now is about situations that are completely opposite to my recurring emotional state so...yeah. hard to write about connections and friendship and the power of bonds when you've got none.

also when i DO get around to finishing KH Re: Order, i came up with the idea for my ending YEARS before KH3 came out. where's my fucking paycheck Squeenix, you goddamn psychic leeches.