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Author has written 9 stories for Big Time Rush.

(.• (.•pass the ribbon around if you know someone that has survived, DIED, or is living with cancer. (This is for my little cousin who has been cancer free for over a year, my neighbor who has beaten his, and my uncle who is still in the battle.)

"Be yourself. Above all, let who you are, what you are, what you believe, shine through every sentence that you write, every piece that you finish." -- John Jake


I love animals, reading, sports (yes, even though I'm a girl, I love sports), and WRITING!!! I've been writing since I could pick up a pencil, but I usually keep my writing to myself. But I still write even though no one ever sees it. Writing is my passion, my way out of this world. I write for myself, I write to get out. Still, some of my best work is never read by anyone except me. So, this is kinda the first time I've put my writing out there for the world to see... WISH ME LUCK!!!

My style of writing? I would say that it's mostly angst with some hurt/comfort and friendship thrown into the mix. Writing's my passion, my way of life, and every piece I put out, I put myself into it. I don't throw out updates just because I haven't gotten one out in a while. I work hard to give my readers the best possible writing and I hope that it shows. Writing isn't a hobby, it's a part of me. It's a way to get out of this life, all of the pressures and stresses, and just... create.

Right now, basketball is life for me. I train everyday for two hours (sometimes more) and it's a passon of mine. There is no off season for me. I have scars, bruises, and scrapes, but that's all part of the game. It can be a lot sometimes, but when you get onto the court and make that one jumpshot, lay up, or fast break, and you hear the crowd cheering... it makes it all worth it. All the running, all the training, all the pain... It's all worth it when you get out there, become the best you can possibly be, and just... play.

I'm super friendly, so if you ever need advice about anything, a shoulder to cry on, anything really, I'm here for you! Just PM me, and I PROMISE I will respond! I may not be able to help in every situation, but I will try my absolute best! I promise!

I am completely obsessed with James angst! Don't ask me why, I just am! I love it SO MUCH!!! That's what I mainly read here on FanFiction! Obviously, I am a sick, sick person because I actually enjoy it when bad things happen to James.

Ok, so there are some authors that you just HAVE to check out!

asdfghjklblah- Seriously? This girl is AMAZING! She's funny, and nice, and real, and just... Caitee. We are BEST FRIENDS on FanFiction AND she's a fellow lover of James angst! What more can I ask for? Her reviews inspire me to write, and her stories keep me wanting more! Her writing style is completely AMAZING and totally HER OWN! I love her stories to death! GO CHECK HER OUT RIGHT NOW! She's my sister. And sisters are for life. Love ya, Caitee!

Ireland Maslow- Wow. I don't know where to begin! She is one of the first people to EVER review on one of my stories and she is one of the nicest people EVER! She has been supporting me from DAY ONE and I am completely grateful to her! Her stories are some of the best out there- both online and in real life. GO CHECK HER OUT! Love ya, Ireland!

Twisted Illusions- My goodness! This girl! She is the best! She's funny and sweet and so... Courtney. I love her to death! She is SUCH a talented writer and her stories will keep you on edge for hours! Someday, she'll be an actress for Nick, so Nick? You better watch out! Go check her out right now! Love ya, Courtney!

emmyloser- emmyloser is, like, one of the greatest authors AND reviewers out there! She has some AMAZING friendship fics and AWESOME angst stories going on! I'm sure a lot of you have, but if you haven't... GO CHECK HER OUT!

FreakierThanFreaks- This girl is totally and completely AMESOME! She has this story out, Pressure, that is ADDICTING! She is incredibly nice and is an amazing author! She is kind and funny and has great values and is just so great! Her writing style is so great because it's so unique and original and is just AMAZING! GO CHECK HER OUT! Love ya, Koda!

One Man Writing Games- I honestly have absolutely NO idea where to begin. This girl is like... one of the ABSOLUTE best authors I have ever seen in my entire life, both on here and in the real world! Each of her stories are completely and totally amazing and she is one of the few authors whose stories can make me cry (and let me tell you, it takes a lot to make ME cry). I love each and every one of her stories and I've probably read each one like... fifteen times. Every sentence, every word is just perfect and I will be a supporter of hers to the very end.

I listen to pretty much all types of music, except for rap or hip hop. Music is another way out when I feel sufficated. When everything is just so overwhelming and I'm super stressed out, I just turn on my music and everything just melts away...

My favorites types of fanfics are angst, familly, hurt/comfort, and other kinds like that. I love the suspence that keeps you on the computer for hours until you finish that one story. Then you find a new one and it starts all over again!!!

And that's me.

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Devastate by TheLovelyRusher reviews
Something's wrong with James after Big Time Rush arrives home from their world tour, something the guys thought they had prevented. Is his fate now in the hands of the unthinkable?
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 16 - Words: 26,089 - Reviews: 182 - Favs: 64 - Follows: 84 - Updated: 6/29/2014 - Published: 1/15/2013 - James
Behind The Mask by LBMac reviews
But if there was one thing James excelled at, it was pasting on a fake smile, tossing out some of his legendary charm, and hiding all of his pain behind the mask of the vain pretty boy. He'd played the part for so long that he almost believed it himself most days. Until he was alone again at least, with nothing but the dark thoughts to accompany him.
Big Time Rush - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 23 - Words: 83,403 - Reviews: 112 - Favs: 52 - Follows: 68 - Updated: 4/3/2014 - Published: 5/25/2013 - Kendall, James
Panic by StriderX reviews
It's no secret that James freezes when he's overwhelmed. Everybody knows it's not normal, but the guys know exactly how to handle it. The story of James' first panic attack and how he decided freezing was a better option. No slash, just lots of brotherly care. (Rated T for mild language and thematic elements)
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 5 - Words: 11,376 - Reviews: 22 - Favs: 37 - Follows: 22 - Updated: 8/24/2013 - Published: 8/16/2013 - Kendall, James
Slip by TheLovelyRusher reviews
"I never wanted to die. That was never my intention. But I was in so much pain, I wished death would just take me away right then and there, and that scared me." A momentary lapse in judgement and patience nearly costs James his life, and gives him the wake-up call he's been needing.
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Drama/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,214 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 7 - Published: 8/21/2013 - Complete
A Multitude of Casualties by Unpredictably Reckless reviews
Requested by PizzaTop21. When the boys have the apartment to themselves for a whole weekend they're ecstatic. However things don't go as planned when James gets sick and things soon get worse before they better. No Slash. Please Read and Review.
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Angst/Friendship - Chapters: 3 - Words: 4,723 - Reviews: 27 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 35 - Updated: 8/2/2013 - Published: 11/22/2011 - James
Poisoned by TheLovelyRusher reviews
Based on James' food poisoning fiasco featuring bad burgers, zombies, and coming through always for his fans and boys! Totally cute James whump requested by an anon on tumblr!
Big Time Rush - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,276 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 30 - Follows: 4 - Published: 9/16/2012 - James - Complete
Trapped by TheLovelyRusher reviews
Fear: An emotion excited by threatening evil or impending pain; apprehention; dread. James thought he was fearless. Until a gang of bullies take a Halloween prank too far. Will he ever be the same again?
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Suspense - Chapters: 16 - Words: 47,252 - Reviews: 238 - Favs: 71 - Follows: 69 - Updated: 9/4/2012 - Published: 10/29/2011 - James
Sick Night Cuddles by TheLovelyRusher reviews
In which James is cuddly and clingy, and Kendall is ok with this. Just bromance, but you know, where your goggles if you must.
Big Time Rush - Rated: K - English - Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,907 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 55 - Follows: 11 - Published: 7/11/2012 - James, Kendall - Complete
Wishful Thinking by quote intangible reviews
James' father has always hated him, but when his father takes things too far, will James have the courage to finally tell Kendall? Rated T for mentions of child abuse. Pre-series.
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 12 - Words: 39,631 - Reviews: 151 - Favs: 130 - Follows: 84 - Updated: 3/7/2012 - Published: 6/7/2010 - James, Kendall - Complete
How the World is Now by HeavenRose reviews
James discovers his world isn't always innocent. But when he has a pillow fort, Christmas light stars, and three best friends, it's pretty easy to pretend it is. *Written for oneshot day, Feb. 6th 2012.*
Big Time Rush - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,650 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 15 - Follows: 1 - Published: 2/6/2012 - Complete
Through The Smile by emmyloser reviews
Just because he's smiling doesn't mean he's happy. James struggles with a life he's hidden from his friends for years. But even the best actors have to break sometime. Soon enough the perfect lie he's been living will come crashing down around him.
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 7 - Words: 13,671 - Reviews: 83 - Favs: 54 - Follows: 58 - Updated: 1/4/2012 - Published: 6/28/2011 - James
Tears of an Angel by Twisted Illusions reviews
James is going through a tough time. While returning home to Minnesota for the Summer he has a few demons to deal with. One being a sudden illness that seems to be wreaking havoc on his body. Another being his bi-polar father. Who can help him?
Big Time Rush - Rated: M - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 13 - Words: 53,288 - Reviews: 147 - Favs: 47 - Follows: 49 - Updated: 1/2/2012 - Published: 7/15/2011 - James, Kendall
Big Time Virus by emmyloser reviews
James gets sick. Normally being a healthy person, James is extra miserable, especially when the illness starts to affect his complextion. Good thing he has his best friends to take care of him and cheer him up! No slash, just friendship.
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 11 - Words: 14,904 - Reviews: 111 - Favs: 89 - Follows: 49 - Updated: 8/9/2011 - Published: 5/6/2011 - James, Logan - Complete
Live and Let Die by DarkElements10 reviews
James Diamond: 'The Face' of Big Time Rush, good friend, caring person, and the one that's hiding his family life from his friends. Something just doesn't seem right here. NO SLASH!
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Angst/Friendship - Chapters: 30 - Words: 35,047 - Reviews: 190 - Favs: 68 - Follows: 55 - Updated: 8/3/2011 - Published: 3/31/2011 - James - Complete
Head On Collision by Miss Fenway reviews
"A man is not old until his regrets take the place of his dreams." - Proverb. James Diamond was only seventeen years old but his regrets had already taken the place of his dreams. NO SLASH!
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Angst/Friendship - Chapters: 52 - Words: 158,862 - Reviews: 971 - Favs: 164 - Follows: 90 - Updated: 7/30/2011 - Published: 11/26/2010 - Complete
Disabled by OMWG reviews
Impact. That's all it takes for something you had always taken for granted to be suddenly ripped away from you. NO slash! On indefinite hiatus.
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Tragedy - Chapters: 25 - Words: 73,672 - Reviews: 321 - Favs: 90 - Follows: 73 - Updated: 7/15/2011 - Published: 10/17/2010
Without You by fall into your sunlight reviews
"I can live without you but without you I'll be miserable at best" - Mayday Parade. WARNING: slash & character death.
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,265 - Reviews: 26 - Favs: 39 - Follows: 2 - Published: 1/28/2011 - James, Kendall - Complete
Monster by OMWG reviews
It had been a tiring day, and all the guys wanted to do was go to Five Guys and have the best burgers in the world. James getting kidnapped was not on their plans for the night. Rated M for violence and language. NO slash!
Big Time Rush - Rated: M - English - Friendship/Angst - Chapters: 24 - Words: 96,854 - Reviews: 354 - Favs: 153 - Follows: 70 - Updated: 11/29/2010 - Published: 3/18/2010 - James - Complete
Feel Alive by OMWG reviews
When violet eyes get brighter, and heavy wings grow lighter, I'll taste the sky and feel alive again. And I'll forget the world that I knew, but I swear I won't forget you. Jagan. Slash.
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 12,464 - Reviews: 50 - Favs: 79 - Follows: 5 - Published: 10/13/2010 - James, Logan - Complete
Wake Up by quote intangible reviews
During Big Time Blogger, one question brings up bad memories for the boys as Logan is forced to recall one of the worst moments of his life, a moment where a simple mistake almost cost him his life and the life of his friends.
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,994 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 76 - Follows: 4 - Published: 9/15/2010 - Logan, James - Complete
Why I'm Home by OMWG reviews
James didn't have the best parents in the world, and Kendall knew that. But it's hard to apologize when you're in two different states. NO slash!
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Angst/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 10,570 - Reviews: 32 - Favs: 66 - Follows: 6 - Published: 6/30/2010 - James, Kendall - Complete
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Behind the Mask reviews
After stresses are caused and mistakes are made, the boys are left to pick up the pieces of a broken friend.
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Angst/Friendship - Chapters: 21 - Words: 35,910 - Reviews: 223 - Favs: 52 - Follows: 78 - Updated: 7/16/2013 - Published: 1/21/2012 - James
All My Love reviews
He still loved her. He didn't care that her hand was no longer his to hold or that it had been months since their breakup—he still loved her. And that was one thing that would never change.
Big Time Rush - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,467 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 3 - Published: 6/8/2012 - Logan, Camille - Complete
Operation Lucky Comb reviews
How could such a simple plan cause so much trouble? Happy birthday, Caitee!
Big Time Rush - Rated: K - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,599 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 3 - Published: 2/8/2012 - Complete
Help Me, Save Me reviews
What do you do when your best friend's life is falling apart? James' world is shattering and his friends are the only ones who can pick up the pieces.
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Angst/Friendship - Chapters: 48 - Words: 72,720 - Reviews: 635 - Favs: 87 - Follows: 59 - Updated: 12/24/2011 - Published: 8/1/2011 - James - Complete
Through It All reviews
When Carlos is at his lowest point, it's his friends who help him back up.
Big Time Rush - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,714 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 12 - Follows: 2 - Published: 10/29/2011 - Carlos, Logan - Complete
Stand reviews
He was done with it all. He just couldn't take it anymore. He was leaving, and he was not looking back.
Big Time Rush - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,896 - Reviews: 8 - Favs: 8 - Published: 10/7/2011 - Logan - Complete
I Still Remember reviews
Kendall reflects back on the day that changed his life forever... September 11, 2001...
Big Time Rush - Rated: K+ - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,960 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 9 - Published: 9/11/2011 - Kendall - Complete
Hero reviews
The four boys of BTR just wanted to have some fun and go ride ATVs. What could possibly go wrong?
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,978 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 2 - Published: 8/21/2011 - Complete
Ordinary Day reviews
It was just an ordinary day at the park when Katie Knight was kidnapped. Now the odds are against her to survive, but she is NOT going down without a fight!
Big Time Rush - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 25 - Words: 33,730 - Reviews: 159 - Favs: 42 - Follows: 23 - Updated: 7/28/2011 - Published: 6/2/2011 - Katie K. - Complete